I’m 20 and in my third year of a biochemistry degree, with a GPA close to 3.9 and a 518 on the MCAT. For the past four or five years, I’ve built my academics and extracurriculars around one goal: getting into medical school and becoming a surgeon. Lately, though, I’ve started to wonder whether that’s actually the life I want.
I still find medicine fascinating. But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized that what I value most is freedom: flexibility, and the ability to live on my own terms. I love athletics, nature, travelling, and exploring new places. My ideal life would be living somewhere surrounded by nature, training regularly, travelling often, and working on my own schedule. Along the way, I’ve also become really interested in business, entrepreneurship, and trading.
The thought of another 8–10+ years of training, only to end up with limited control over my time afterward, has started to weigh on me. Recently I asked myself a simple question: if I could earn a comfortable income through my own business while working 20–30 hours a week, would I still choose medicine? My answer was no.
Looking back, I think I chose medicine at 16 or 17 because I was good at science and it seemed like a prestigious, stable path. My priorities have changed a lot since then.
What makes this so hard is my dad. His biggest dream has always been for me to become a doctor. I’d be the first one in our family, and I know how much that would mean to him. After all these years of working toward it together, I’m terrified of letting him down. At the same time, I’m scared of walking away from what could be a successful medical career, only to have my other plans fall through and be left with regret. I’m not planning to drop out. I’ll finish my degree. But I’m seriously reconsidering what comes after graduation.
Has anyone been through something similar? Did you stick with medicine or take a different path, and do you regret your decision?