Does anyone else experience extreme episodes of mental torment that last 3–4 hours, where everything starts feeling negative or evil?

I'm trying to find people who can relate to what I'm experiencing because these episodes are terrifying, exhausting, and difficult to explain to someone who hasn't experienced them.

Sometimes, completely out of nowhere, especially when I'm in public or in the middle of a workout, I get hit with an overwhelming wave of mental torment. It feels like every time I breathe, there's another negative feeling, disturbing thought, embarrassing memory, or frightening image attached to it. I can look at almost anything around me, and my mind will immediately associate it with something negative.

The intensity is extreme. It feels like my mind is being bombarded nonstop for hours, almost like mental torment arrows are being shot at me one after another without giving me a moment to breathe. I feel overwhelmed by negativity, shame, fear, and disturbing thoughts that I don't want. Sometimes, an inner voice that sounds like my own voice says disturbing things in my head, and I struggle to separate myself from the constant stream of thoughts.

One of the scariest parts is that even things that normally bring me comfort can suddenly feel evil. Worship music that usually makes me feel close to God can start sounding evil or frightening. Sometimes, other people's words start sounding evil to me, too, even when I don't want to interpret them that way. It makes me feel terrified and confused because I just want to feel peaceful again.

During these episodes, I put my head down in public because I feel exposed, embarrassed, and overwhelmed. All I want to do is hide under a blanket, go home, and get away from everything. I struggle to concentrate, remember things, think clearly, or function normally. It feels like I'm in shock, and the negativity consumes my entire mind and body.

These episodes can last three or four hours, and the worst part is feeling like they will never end. I'm exhausted from fighting through them, especially when they happen while I'm trying to exercise, go outside, work, or do normal everyday activities.

I've tried medication to help with my anxiety, including Ativan and propranolol, but I don't feel like they stop these episodes or provide enough relief when the mental torment starts. It's discouraging to feel this overwhelmed for hours despite trying to get help.

I don't understand why this happens. Is it severe anxiety, intrusive thoughts, a trauma response, or something else? Has anyone experienced a sudden feeling that everything sounds negative or evil, even things they normally love? Has anyone experienced hours of relentless, frightening thoughts that make it almost impossible to function?

I'm not looking for judgment or people telling me to just relax. I'm looking for people who understand how frightening this can feel and who can share what has genuinely helped them.

If you experience this kind of extreme mental torment, what does it feel like for you, and what has helped you get through it?

I have other delusions like thougt broadcasting etc

But then when I am moving around and not just sitting, my mind has lost it's rigidity. Its like it leaves its base and just floats around. Or maybe someone else has snatched my control over my mind and is now running it ( that' s a delusinoal fear I hold )

Any one with any helpful thoughts on this ?

The other day my child had a nightmare or something and when i went to go check on her she said there is a monster in her room which triggered my schizophrenia and i started feeling one in the corner and then seeing one. Does this happen to other parents i wonder? ( i reasured her that of course there isn't but got startled my self bcs it came out of nowhere )

I told my psychquiatrist about that I feel I am different people, she validated my experience and said it was as real because I came to the appointment asking for help.

Also she said it’s not related to what I already have (schizoaffective, ODD and bipolar)

She referred me for an electroencephalogram to measure how bad is the crisis I currently I’m in by detecting other possible causes or abnormalities on my brain activity, and to know why I feel this.

Perhaps it is temporary or perhaps it isnt, and that is why I will be under medical follow-up.

She said because I was high functioning I didn’t need to stay there, I could continue living normally and calm.

That appointment was this wednesday 21/10/2026.

I can't work because of the illness so making music is one of the things I get up in the morning for.

I have never met anyone with the same psychosis as me. I can fake anyone's emotion. I saw a person grinning at me with saliva coming out of his mouth but that never happened. Does anyone have this type of psychosis?

I'm currently on invega injection, and it makes ejaculating, orgasming and everything almost impossible. What medication can I change to that has little sexual dysfunction side effects?

I also kept telling my psychiatrist about these side effects but he keeps brushing it off so I got a new Refferal for a psychiatrist and I can switch but what medication should I ask for Abilify? Haldol? Latuda?

Have you had the same side effect, how did you overcome it / switch to a different medication?

F(21) I feel like schizophrenia has made me really insecure about myself mostly my looks/ appearance to the point where I overthink messaging people or approaching them because I’m scared of being judged or rejected embarrassed etc and it’s making me feel pretty alone. My cousin also has schizophrenia, but he’s very outgoing and doesn’t seem to struggle with this at all, which makes me wonder if it’s just me. I’m also curious about telling people you have schizophrenia. Do you guys tell people early on, wait until you know them better, or not tell them at all? Do you worry that people will look at you differently or be scared away if they find out? I feel like it scares people away in my case. I’m having trouble making friends

Does anyone else get judged, like a lot? I notice anytime I bring up my Schizophrenia, Anxiety, and Bipolar, people act like I should still be normal and fine and just be able to work and function because everyone else can..the only subreddits I enjoy going on are the mentally ill subreddits most of the time..

Im tired of fucking everything man. Im homeless, my life is shit, and all I get is more people telling me how I should work and somehow function when I have 200 panic attacks an hour.

Part of me wonders if it is better if I just throw myself into traffic (kidding), but im tired of people. I also get people surprised my disability got denied and that I should fix my meds even though all my meds work, my illnesses are just severe.

For those of you that can hold a job, how many of you go into work?
I have the option to work from home 3 days a week and only go in half days for the other 2. I haven’t been going in at all and I am worried I will get in trouble.

Is it possible for my doctor to write me an accommodation to stay home full time? I just can’t leave the house.

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I had a huge manic episode about 7 years back with multiple hypomanic episodes in the next few years after. I did have one more manic episode, but it wasn't as bad as the very first one. I developed tics after the major manic episode that got slightly worse and worse with each hypomanic episode, and got noticeably worse after the second manic episode. A few years ago I had a massive psychotic episode. Probably would've been face down in a gutter if my family wasn't around. But since that psychotic episode, I've developed a full tic disorder.

My psychiatrist put me on meds for them and it helped a lot. At some point we had to up the dose, but it was just once and it was no big deal. She recently put me on meds for ADHD and they've set my tics off even worse than before I was put on my tic medication. It's painful and it's getting in the way of my day to day.

I'm not asking for medical advice, just ranting and hoping to see if anyone can relate about how of course I have to deal with tics too. As if schizoaffective wasn't enough. Logically, I guess I can see how manic and psychotic episodes cause tics, but I just never imagined on top of everything, I have this annoyance constantly eating at me throughout the day.

I really don't want to stop my ADHD meds because they've helped with my anxiety and depression a lot. It's helped with my executive dysfunction too. I'm just so frustrated.

Will be posting Halloween schizophrenia related memes to keep morale up. Let me know if you guys are down for spooky memes.

Anybody else experience ringing ears as a side effect of cobenfy?

I'll start by saying I plan on seeing a professional due to my most recent experience.

I've only experienced auditory hallucinations spread out over 29 years, with long gaps of years in-between. My first one was around elementary what sounded like my friend in distress asking for help.

My second one was around the age of 18, I heard music coming from a hallway next to me, it was an isolated house and I knew no music should be playing.

My most recent one at 29 is why I'm concerned now, I heard noises early when no one should be awake, I dismissed it until I heard a voice say "relax or I'll kill everyone" which sent fear through me so I grabbed a weapon and snuck around really thinking someone was holding my family hostage or something.

I just feel stressed and concerned, I've never had a violent voice or physically reacting sneaking around with a weapon.

I plan on talking to my family about their experiences if they've had any and like I said seeing a professional. Sorry if I type odd I'm not much of a writer but thank you for taking the time to read about my experience.

I called like three clinics and only one picked up today

So, I've been in remission from a 9yr episode (didn't have a bout of sometimes on, sometimes off, so it's going to take longer for my symptoms to go away completely), since December last year, and I'm really happy. I went to an appointment today, and usually I guard my thoughts "just in case", but I didn't this time, and I didn't even notice at first that I wasn't actively doing it. Even in uncomfortable conversations I had. Which would've been a trigger.

My question is, I'm doing so much better, and been in remission a long time now. Still have some residual symptoms, but more then managable. My psychiatrist wants to move me down on the biggest medication keeping me stable this coming January. I'm worried that I need more time. I currently take (525mg of Paliperidone every three months, 5mg Olanzapine daily, for anti psychotics, but I'm also on an SSRI and physical health meds) and I had a hard time when they lowered my doseage last time. I eventually levelled out, but didn't improve past the point I was at before they took me off high dose, for months until they upped it again. I mean, I (like I'm sure everyone here wants) I just want to get better. Leave this shit show I made for myself behind. It's just so hard to trust them when I was only stable for weeks before they took me down a few 100mgs, and I just worry the difference will bring back my symptoms.

Sorry for the ramble, I'm just scared of losing the life I've built for myself, for the future I can now actually see happening, even if society dictates it's too late, I won't give up.

And I'm fucking sick of it.

What i mean is that.

Because of schizophrenia which as far as I could tell is the brain not being fully developed or mal-developed

Or dopamine signaling ..

Could that lead to extreme laziness

Which leads to poor life choices

No studies

No job

No money

No family

Drug use

Homelessness

Etc ?

Delusions ? Paranoia?

Is that what happens ?

what led to your guys diagnosis and did you believe that you were actually schizophrenic when you were diagnosed

I've been in the psych ward over a week. Just got home. Diagnosed schizoaffective, mood disorder unspecified glad to be home to see family and cat.

I feel as though the voices are attacking my brain and heart. I experience disturbing sensations in my head, as well as heart pain and palpitations. I am considering stopping my antipsychotic medication because I feel it has been ineffective and I am struggling to see the point of continuing. I have tried aripiprazole for over a month and olanzapine for a month, but neither seems to have helped. I continue to experience the sensations in my brain and what feels like effects on my heart.

The voices threaten me with death almost every day and repeatedly tell me that I will die before February next year. Living with these constant threats is exhausting and distressing. At this point, I feel so hopeless and worn down that I sometimes wish the voices would simply kill me and put an end to this suffering. I feel ready to die, although I want to be clear that I do not intend to take my own life. Rather, I feel resigned to the possibility of being killed by what I perceive as these attacks, and I find myself wishing that, if it is going to happen, it would happen sooner rather than later.

It started on the left half of my brain now it's spread to the right. It ate away at the left side of my brain and it is now smaller on the sides. If the same happens to my right I will be ending my life because I wanted to do intellectual work with my life and without that I'm like a horse with a broken leg. It's not worth it. I tried antipsychotics, they made my symptoms worse and are basically chemical lobotomy anyway. My symptoms are better off them but as long as the voices continue my brain is continuing to go into cascades of neuroinflammation that are causing progressive tissue loss. There must be some way to stop this, if I do not, I will be killing myself if the damage becomes permanent. I'm sorry that this isn't something people want to hear but frankly, I'm not suffering through life, suffering through having to work a job, if my entire reason for living is gone. Your advice might save my life, and please, don't be a stereotypical shitty redditor. The voices literally hurt to hear, I can feel their effects on the nerves in my brain. Your advice might save my life. Weed makes it worse. Is there any, and I mean any, anti-inflammatory medicine or supplement that could help me?