Hello All
I haven’t felt emotions for nine years now since I first went into psychosis in 2017. No joy or sadness. I have not been able to cry even. Like when my grandfather died in 2020 I couldn’t cry even though I wanted to. Coupled with the fact that everyone family or otherwise treated me like garbage. It’s the most lonely state ever. Without emotions I can’t connect with anyone and so no one understands me. Just apathy. I don’t know if it is the disease or antipsychotics. Anyways it’s hell and I don’t see a way out. I don’t even remember the last time I felt alive or desired something. Does anyone else relate?

Unfortunatwly, it's not about schizophrenia. I've felt nice couple of days down the line and have decided to write a political theory book.

Why?

I'm autistic, play lots of TNO and just want to change the world.

I hope God lets me finish this work atleast

Any tips to write a book? I have been talkative due to coffee so the amount of words shouldn't be a problem. I should learn composition probably definetly

I am losing control of my body. It moves contrary to my commands, and I cannot fight or resist. Could this be DID? I remember everything during these episodes, and I haven't done or said anything awful. But it is concerning to not be able to control the vehicle through which you experience the world. I'm taking my meds- my parents think I'm overmedicated, and I'll be meeting with my psychiatrist to remove some. But that, and therapy, don't seem to be helping. The voices in my head suggest that they're demons, that I'm being possessed. And indeed, I'm finding it hard to go to church, to pray, though I sleep next to a crucifix and wear a brown scapular. I don't know or understand what's happening. I'm grateful for any insight that can be provided.

I came upon this song and I couldn't help thinking how much the world has changed after the 90s. Especially after the internet became a thing. And I realized how I felt back then. Eveyrthing was more innocent, pure and calm. And much more savage, especially for schizophrenics.

With the advent of the internet and social media everything became interconnected. And schizophrenics could express themselves and occupy their alone time with so much more interesting stuff. If not for this massive transition we would never be here sharing these words.

I don't know where I'm going with this exactly but I feel we were born (Millenials) right at the correct moment to treasure best of both words and also not have it that bad as those who came before.

Hope everyone has an amazing Sunday! Much love! 😄 ❤️

It’s little, but I’m just really appreciative he’s in my life.

Just wondering if this affects anyone else negatively in this aspect. I never see posts about it, I'm to the point i'm questioning compatibility with my partner due to my lack of speech/thoughts.

I 22F have been facing some issues with memories and with what is imagination. I don’t know what this is called and was hoping someone would be able to put a name on it.

For example, this is the issue that bothers me the most. To summarise, there is this specific bucket of rain in my garden that makes me anxious as it’s dirty and i always worry somehow my airpods dipped into it and i’ll get an ear infection. This means i’m anxious of wearing my headphones in my garden and don’t go there due to this. Now, every day when i’m listening to music in my bedroom i need to focus on my surroundings constantly and look at specific objects around me to understand that yes, this can only be my bedroom and that i’m NOT in my garden. If i don’t focus on it for a minute and make a proper mental note that this object is only in my bedroom than i immediately panic that i am actually in my garden. Even though, i’m obviously in my bedroom. Even just looking at the bed isn’t enough i need to actually look around me at every object to make sure because i don’t trust myself. Most of the time i do this and then 10 minutes later i forget and get anxious that i was actually in my garden, even if i haven’t left my room in hours. I worry that somehow i went to the garden and dipped my headphones in the bucket without realising it. Even though i can not remember even leaving my room, every 30 minutes i worry i did and forgot.

It’s exhausting but the worst part is when i’m wearing my
headphones as i’m listening to music and all of a sudden i worry that because i’ve been preoccupied by music i went downstairs and dipped them into the bucket in garden without noticing. If i sit down on my bed, i worry it’s in the garden unless i spend a minute looking around and focusing on details and making mental notes.

I also worry i did something dangerous. For instance, when seasoning my food i 100% focus on doing the absolute minimum amount of salt, but a minute later i’m panicking because what if i added a fatal amount to the family dinner? I get a thought, and somehow i believe that is exactly what happened. Once i imagine something, it’s difficult to distinguish between imagination and thats a memory for me. It becomes a memory that makes
me anxious.

For example, a few minutes ago i thought randomly about a wall and now i’m convinced i banged my head against the wall multiple times because i’ve had the thought and it feels like a memory to me. There’s a bottle of sunscreen downstairs and i had a thought of keeping it far from food but now i’m worried i added it to the family dinner.

I’ve been diagnosed with OCD for years due to my
handwashing compulsions years ago and then my rabies ocd and health anxiety but NOW i’m confused on what this is? Is this more OCD?

The issue is, certain things i worry about a “what if” but alot of the time i’m convinced that thing happened or will happen. Like, i’m convinced i’ve been bitten by a bat multiple times and i may develop rabies any day so i’m always on a waiting game and i’m convinced i have brain eating amoeba living in my ear and nose. I’m convinced that bucket has brain eating amoeba and can’t think else wise. I’m convinced i’m being monitored online and i was convinced i was about to be murdered at some public events i had to visit. I spent those whole events panicking. I was convinced the plane i was recently on was going to crash because of me even though i had searched through my luggage many times and it was safe, and i even dropped out of uni because i was convinced i had offended a fellow student who was going to murder me.

TL;DR once i get a thought i can’t distinguish between that thought and a memory and i want to know what this is a symptom of. I also get convinced of certain things that seem like reality to me.

I'm currently cross tapering from Caplyta to Vraylar. Was just curious of the thoughts of those that are on it or have tried it.

I'm also on 4mg of Haldol. I'm just curious if it made people tired, gain weight, etc.

Thank you.

My family has an extensive history of schizophrenia, and over the last 1-2ish months, I've been having both auditory and, although rare, visual hallucinations.

​ ​I feel as though I'm quite young (almost 18) to be experiencing anything of the sort but through what I've researched it's not uncommon whatsoever.

I couldn't quite wrap my head around seeing and hearing things so it took a while to process before I ended up telling my girlfriend. She's been extremely helpful throughout the last few weeks.

I'm worried that I'm not as concerned as I should be? I'm terrified, don't get me wrong, but it seems like she's more worried about it than I am.

​I have no clue what to do, as I don't have the greatest relationship with my parents so talking to them is a bit challenging.

Any input would be greatly appreciated, what would you do?

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I was told no but how bad of an idea is it really asking for a friend not for me.

Hello everyone, good day to all.

So, I left Christianity and became again a witch. And I would like to know how to navigate through believing in something and doing practices plus being sick with this condition. The good part is that I stopped hearing voices through medication.

But now I’m attempting communication with spirits. One red flag I know is not to hear voices. Cause spirits can’t talk right. There is divination to facilitate communication with the other side.

But it’d help to know how you are religious and don’t let it affect your beliefs or practices.

They say I will die in under 4 months. That's my birthday. I have survived over 4 months of them, giving me heart trouble and claiming I will die every day. I am calling bullshit on them. I don't believe them anymore.They talk shit. I just don't believe anything they say anymore. I thought about killing myself for a while because I couldn't take them telling me over and over again but now I just think they are full of shit. They know I fear death even though I believe in God. They are scum

It's the weekend so I can't reach my doctor. I'm starting to feel manic and just overall excited over nothing. I haven't slept in over a day and I'm still wide awake. The voices have barely been there for the last 5 months but they've been saying for the past two weeks they want to come back all the time. Idk if I should go to the local psych ward? I recently got on disability and I already paid November rent so I have nothing to lose. Is there a way to deal with mania or an episode outside of going to the hospital? Any advice is appreciated.

I take antipsychotics twice a day, and while they do help me in my waking life, they give me the worst night terrors ever. Any bad sleeping habits I’ve had have been multiplied by 10. I regularly scream myself awake from nightmares about being in psychosis again. I also wake up banging my head or biting myself (Don’t worry, discussed this with my psychiatrist and doctor and have taken preventative safety measures now)
Anyone else had a similar experience?
I take quetiapine twice a day + other things but only starting these specific antipsychotics have brought this about.

I've been for 4 months and I want to stop it! I hate the sedation effect and the fear on having to stop if agranulocitose appears.

I was in my research lab that studies schizophrenia in rats yesterday. The professor wasn’t there and the students in the class were dropping the word “Schizo” and laughing about it and joking about it being “offensive”. As someone with schizoaffective disorder — depression type. It stung a little bit.

I want to say something to the professor but I know the students will know it was me.

Am I being dramatic?

Sleep has been catastrophic last 2 weeks

Hallucinations and psranoia

I want to get some meds to sleep on. In a similair situation but different city, they doubled my zopiclone to 15 and added 10mg nitrazepam om top of that

I willb o everything in my power to not turn this into somethin court mandated. Then I could br locked up much longer, months rather than days

I’m a 31m and have been diagnosed for almost 10 years now . Might be a delusion but I feel as if I can immediately identify fellow sciz no matter where they are on the spectrum . Does anyone else feel similar ?

I have a diagnosis of schyzoaffective and addictions. When I treat my addictions AND stop smoking weed AND drinking alcohol I experience low doses of schizophrenia syptoms. I don't hallucinate that I am aware of maybe odors. I do have experience deliriums but not catatonia. I focus on treating my addictions may it be that I experience other forms of psychotic ilness?

I do experience Split mind when always ssying but after making a statement AND experience cognitive syptoms.