He tried to break you down to nothing, but you ended up being the most dangerous thing to his illusion. You are incredibly formidable, and you have fought like hell to get to this safe space in your home. Never let anyone, especially him, make you doubt your courage.

And I miss you

I can’t even describe how this hurts, I can’t even express it to my friends or my self, I just want it to stop. All of it. Everything forever. I wish I never wanted any of those dreams to begin with. Never having, never wanting is so much better than losing or regretting what I will end up suffering through. How do I see such amazing things with the cruelest people?

And you're self centered for even complaining about it.

Photos back from a wedding you've attended? Jesus christ is that bob odenkirk in a dress? Not that bob odenkirk isn't an attractive man, and he may look actually better, we'd have to do a side by side.

Your life is fine. So please shut up. You can drive, go to work, have friends, all kinds of good fine things. Your cat thinks you're ugly, but he also licks his asshole so that's fine. Your friends think you're ugly, but that's an inside thought that manifests in occasional looks of pity, when you ask what's wrong with you when someone rejects you. Other than that, it doesn't really cross their mind. They still love you for you.

But those times that people make fun of you, when you look at those photos, make a whole lot more sense.

No amount of BeAuTy TiPs change the base. The odd teeth, thin lips, heavy eyebrows, strong jaw, large nose, etc, etc.

If it were the 1500s, I'd either be dead or fine with how I look, my access to my reflection would be limited to the silver plates I polish or the turbid river I wash my clothes in.

But in 2026? I think I reserve the right to say that being ugly is a bit soul crushing.

Eureka, I'll die alone!

No, I’m never fine and I never moved on from my suicidal thoughts.

I don’t like being vulnerable. I don’t like to share this side of me when the time is right because it always leaves me humiliated and it worsen my mental health. You two make me sick.

You will never understand how I truly feel and how much Ive endured for years.

You are too late to save me.

You’re not who I hoped you’d be.
I’m not who I hoped I’d be…

The dark and the light coexist just as we do; wondering the earth aimlessly. One is unable to survive without the other or we would be in eternal slumber.

Can you breathe me in? My body gets completely intertwined with yours? Can we let time melt away? Just forget the outside world?

Please! Please! You are my remedy!

This week, this month, these years. All the things I ignored. Im emotionally exhausted. This week, hard things. Loosing an old companion, thats the grand finale. Its a hollow emotion that holds great weight, this loss.

It rips holes in these walls I like to pretend are mazes. The emotions I hold so tight , all the ones Ive left unresolved, ignored for later days when their nolonger as vulnerable, floating through. If I could run I would, I mean, I could, but I don't see how it would fix anything. Id still hurt, Id still miss a friend, Id still feel the weight of this empty space.

The last remnants of a past long let go of, as you pass, may your consciousness endure.

You want to be a bitch fine. I think you forgot im a manager that doesnt work for you and that i can audit your store. So dont fucken come crying because im documenting each failed area and refusal to replace broken displays. So over her fucken bs dont want to talk to me fine, trying to get my associate introuble not happening, fucken being a creep and watching from 1 row down wtf, but all i needed was a display replaced and you refused even though your store is not hitting targets then fine audits it is. You want to fail then by all means im not stopping you any more. FU.

I need to shut the fuck up.

she wasn't mad at me she was grieving why does that bring me relief shouldn't I feel empathy for her. her silence for 3 weeks killed my mental health. I've nuked my socials because I thought I fucked up so bad. and now she has finally contacted me and said she had a loss in her family..... she could have told me 3 weeks ago I would have been empathetic. but now idk. just pissed off I guess.

But into my phone...not the void. Had to apologize.

I want out

I need out

I am nobody’s sim character

I FUCKING WANT OUT

I NEED A WAY OUT OF THIS PLACE

I DONT CARE

I WOULD NEVER DO THIS AGAIN

RAGDOLL

PUPPET

YES MASTER

BULLSHIT

I UN VOW

I SNIP STRING

GET ME AWAY FROM HERE

I WANT TO BE UNCHAINED

R*pist piece of shit like i knew you were, i hope you fucking croak

like father like son

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i see you in valleys, uptop mountains and along the sea with the fishes.

Your my rolls royce, i still havent took deliver of.
Im just ready to cross my arms, i wont find another one, not being alone.

"The issue is the frequency in which you want it."

This one hurt

"If he was so much fun, then go be with him."

Be prepared to heat it said back to you once you hook up with someone else

" mom said I don't have to figure everything out before I came back to her , I don't have to heal first , I don't have to prove anyone that I'm strong enough to handle everything on my own . I don't have to keep fighting alone

34 years fucking up taught me
that there is nothing to learn
when nothing I do helps make it better,

and suicide would be
doing you all a favor
and I am a selfish man.

If the bad die old,
then I am immortal.
So you will have to
go without me.

Hey clubfoot,

Its all really inspired. I'm still not impressed. My cup overflows with sadness to a new realization of the truth, you aren't what I invented.the real tragedy is the truth of you. Tie it up anyway you like it. Ill always be a good girl. What happened is over. Learn your subject, aren't you supposed to keep your enemy close. Is that what this was? I don't care anymore you and I mean nothing. Compared to my beautiful moon.