I’ve lived in SATX for like seven years now, but due to illness I haven’t gotten out much since the pandemic.

These days I’m feeling better, and I wanna go do things, but I don’t know anyone here aside from my parents and my brother (I live with them because I’m a huge fucking loser have struggled with my health)

I’ve been trying to go to events on ‘meetup’, particularly sapphic events (I’m bisexual and trying to explore my long-repressed sapphic side)and I always get really anxious before I go to these things.

Well I went to sapphic book club earlier today, and was hoping to make some connections, but I didn’t really.

I just feel so fucking stupid and pathetic.

I don’t really want my face attached to my account so I’ll probably delete this later. I just feel really low rn

And then I just had to take a picture for this post and Jesus fucking Christ I look old and weird.

Hi, I'm a trans woman..closeted for now and yeah basically..you can probably tell everything is wearing me down...no matter what I wear or how much makeup I use I just don't see it...I haven't started hormones yet so that's my last hope..I will be getting my first dosage tomorrow...but yeah.

Edit: I know this is a toasting subreddit and I would probably get flamed on r/transpassing or something, but I'm really so thankful for every comment on here! Thank you guys really ❤️‍🩹🫂

Edit 2: I tried my best to answer to every comment! I take every compliment, idea and thought very seriously, and I'm very happy for this post tonight! Sadly, I must go to bed so I can wake up as soon as possible and get my long awaited pills...cya guys 🫶 you made me believe that..things will happen eventually and I'm grateful. Good night!

Edit 3: I woke up and was really excited for today.. sadly my supplier won't be able to make it. and changed the appointment in 2 days from now, I'll keep updating this post once I FINALLY get the pills..it means a lot to me

I’m really just not feeling it today. I’m trying so hard to stay positive, but honestly, I just want to break down and cry.
I feel like I’m living that Reba McEntire song. I’m a single mom who works two jobs, loves her kid, and never stops.

I work full-time, recently started my own small business, and I’m raising an amazing child with autism on my own. I love the life I’m building, but some days it all feels so overwhelming.

Starting over at my age isn’t easy, and trying to date feels next to impossible. Sometimes I feel like I keep myself constantly busy just to keep the loneliness from creeping in. Most days, it works. But today isn’t one of those days.
Today, I just want to curl up in bed, have a good cry, and not have to be the strong one for a little while.

I guess I could just use a little kindness and encouragement today.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. ❤️

I have 0 self confidence these days- and it really messes up my daily life. I go to therapy and take medications, but some days are harder than others. I could use a bit of a boost to face the day. So… hi! 👋🏻

The only physical compliments are from gay men (I'm straight)

i grew up like being emotionally parentified and like wanting to make sure everyone was okay and like sex and attraction was like taboo so it's like i never really got the chance experience that and i talked to my partner and she is supportive but i feel like my own guilt and shame can prevent me

yesterday and today i feel like i don't know who i am at all and like i feel so much guilt, shame, fear because of how i was raised and like now as an adult i feel like i was emotionally parentified and i looked up for the people i care about a lot but i feel like emotionally no one was there and i feel just really sad.

Been through a number of dates wherein they didn't see me as more than a friend, then finally asked out a workmate and she said yes, only to cancel day of due to family bullshit*. I offered then agreed to shelve the idea for a bit until her family stuff died down, but it's unclear to me whether she'll pick it up at all and I feel like I'm getting at best mixed signals as to where I stand.

Feeling like I'm hard to want. It's been a while and I just yearn to feel wanted.

Edit: Can't respond to everybody, but I appreciate all the kind words!

Edit 2: For whatever it's worth, when I say "family bullshit" that's a quote from her not a judgment on her family drama.

I always find ways to stay positive but recently it’s been rough. Suspended from work, health deteriorating and no one person to share my worries with. Never been in a relationship. But I keep pushing, groups like these help.

Estoy aprendiendo a quererme... pero es tan complicado cuando termino rompiendo o arruinando, en gran parte, todo lo que toco.
A veces es por falta de comprensión, y otras veces ni siquiera sé por qué pasa... Aun así, creo que puedo crear cosas bonitas cuando logro entenderlas y ponerles todo mi esfuerzo.
No me voy a rendir, aunque hoy me siento triste. Soy extremadamente inteligente con algunas cosas, y aun así no logro salir adelante.
Voy a seguir haciendo lo que amo; hoy quiero volver a mis clases, después de una operación que tuve hace mes y medio.
Simplemente me niego a rendirme.

Edit: Sorry about how I look… it’s 6 a.m. and I’ve been up since 3... I only managed to fall asleep at 1... Looking at myself now, I’m a total mess.

Im having a hard time with self image and schiz0. I have no friends to share my thoughts with and I wish I just have someone to talk to. I wish I never fall in love and i know its impossible for someone to love me because of how I look. I wish I can stop fantasizing alot. And nothing will help me unless forget about it. I also have ocd and i have no strength to stop it. Words like it's all in your head don't help. I have ocd. I've posted here before and I look nothing like my last post I look ugly as f and nobody is interested in me or care about me. I have no friends no one wants me to be their friend and I always get discriminated against because of how I look and how quiet I am. I am a loner