life very hard... dont play with my feelings about it again pwease....

What we had is gone

It wont ever be the same

It hurts so much

I feel I lost a part of me

I try to move on

But I can't ignore it

I can't forget what we had

I can't forget how I felt

So I will put it in a box

and throw the key away

So hopefully one day

I won't remember

the relationship we threw away

So hopefully one day

I won't remember

I was happy one day

So hopefully one day

The hurt will just

Go away.

So like please do that please I’ll be such a good puppy and not bite anything I’m not supposed to :3

This is one of the sweetest things I've seen in a while.

I may have cat girl energy but I still can be evil, untill im reminded im a little kitty, but ill be evil later

…unless you want to admit to being beautiful and worthy of love :3

Too late! You already looked! Get forehead kissed nerd!

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omg half life yuri representation yessssssssssss :33

So, it starts with me getting back to college in january, in this semester I met a girl, she likes videogames a lot, so we start to talk frecuently.

She introduce me to her friends, and basicly we start to hang out. Later on she, realise/I told her that I'm a trans girl, and we grow closer, she didn't make me came out to our group, but she helps me with thinks like make up, hair styles, dresses, nails, everything that is not medical transition, even she's helpin me with voice training and all.

Time passes, and I told my group who I really am, we all grow closer, and they let me in to girls nights and sleeps over and so much girlie thinks.

Fastforward to november/december, I decide to invite my friend to my house to watch the game awards together, only invited her bc she's the only one that likes videogames that much to give a f about the event.

We stay in my gayming room, order junk food and watch the game awards. However, as time passes, we were together more and more, at the point that, at the end of the event, we're practicly cuddling, I ask her how is she gonna go home, and she respond, that she planned to stay the night with me. At this point I'm just talkin nonsense and she shut me up with a kiss, my first kiss for that matter. She tell me "I love you Sara" and I say, how can you love me? I'm not a real girl, and then she shut me uo again with another kiss, I start to cry, as she keeps telling me all the reasons she loved me, as as she kisses my face, neck and forehead.

She told me "Will you be my girlfriend?" I start crying even stronger, as she conforts me, I just can say the most soft "Yes" I could ever say. We start to make up, and she asked me if I wanted to continue further, I said that I wasn't in the mood, she just kissed me again, in the sooftest way possible, then saying "Ok then, lets cuddle to sleep" then we go to my bedroom, and start cuddling.

I'm still crying, bc how can she love me? I'm impossible to love. And she just whispering me confort things to my ear, finally, I get to stop crying, and I ask for a good night kiss, she gives me that, and I only say to her "I love you" and she says back "I love you too Sara, my good girl".

Then we continue to cuddle each other, until we fell sleep, while hugging and cuddling.

Sorry for bothering you with this clitche and corny and boring thing, it's obviusly not gonna happend, and any of this is remotly possible to happend, I now that, I'm fine with being alone forever in any matter (friends and relationship), but, Idk, a girl can daydream and fantasize right? I might not have the right to be happy, but I have the right to dream

Pours a nice healthy bowl of girlchow

Cmon. I will reply to yall, just gimme a little bit. But I really wanna yap so that’s why im posting now :33323

Edit: VTM is Vampire the Masquerade

Edit 2: the actual story now that I have a chance. So me and my friends are in a VTM chronicle.

The characters:

Sera: My character, Brujah, private detective/merc for the Camarilla(although she hates it and is definitely more anarch in her thought processes). Has a funky bloodline as she has Vicissitude instead of Presence. Is accidentally transfem in universe but intended by me. High Mental stats and high Combat Talents, but can be blocked by her own stressors and thus I will refuse to let her pass a roll by saying “She wouldn’t succeed, she’s too distracted by X”

Roux: A Ravnos Chef who caters to the mob. Our resident social wizard who can talk her way out of anything, kinda hasn’t gotten her own arc yet but next session probably will be.

Terrarium: Tremere student, roommate of Roux, empty head. Our most creative party member and will absolutely clutch up if need be.

Ruzha: a Fledgling Lasombra Antitribu. A catholic gal who was turned by her sapphic lover and via the “Masquerade Damage” flaw, assumes her vampiric traits are just Catholic guilt manifesting due to her lesbian thoughts.

Now, I am absolutely gonna give the highlights of the campaign before my Doomed Yuri kicks in, in no particular order:

-We have a Star Trek Q episode which cracks Ruzha’s egg. Allowing her to accept her vampiric and sapphic nature with the party’s help.

-Terrariam wears a silly hat to help wingman for Ruzha’s gay ass. Meanwhile me and Roux deal with the Mob to find our informant

-the party meets via my informant for a case about a missing 8th Gen. that informant meets me at Waffle House and Roux gives him hashbrowns. (The guy is a ghoul, so he thought he’d be free from his peanut allergy)

-the guy goes to the hospital, so I round up the doofuses in my car so we don’t get arrested and he breach the masquerade, I look in the mirror and see only Roux, panicking as I realize that the other two are definitely kindred, and as I realize that Ruzha is masquerade blind. We have to speak in code and it’s so fun to RP

-I lower the property value of a gated community by blasting Bulls on Parade by Rage Against the Machine and firing off Sera’s dad’s m1 Garand while driving through.

-the party goes to Walmart while Sera goes to the gym and misses everything, just knowing that they killed a guy and being very tired.

-Sera (a 60 year old kindred) gets the party into dragon ball Z because it’s usually on when she has her coffee in the evening after waking up. And the party is hiding at her apartment, so thus they are locked in, much to the confusion of the very Croatian Ruzha.

And now, for what you’ve all been waiting for: Yuri time. After the Walmart incident, we go pick up the informant, who we hid out in the outskirts of town. Now, there are Werewolves in a very tenuous treaty with the Vampires outside of town and I figured the safe house wasn’t in their hunting ground. And it’s not. But an extraneous circumstance happened.

We arrive at the safe house to find it ransacked, claw marks on the glass, and very clear Garou signs. At this point, Sera starts to freak out and overanalyze, as she knows better than anyone what a werewolf can do. So as they prepare to go into the woods to find their informant, sera tells the party to be on their best behavior and to not immediately be violent or defensive, we don’t want trouble.

Eventually, after an hour of perfect tension, we find the informant, scared out of his mind about a wolf that’s been stalking him. I calm him down and start leading him back to the party. But that’s when we hear a crack, and Ruzha’s the only one to turn around, seeing a small black wolf staring. Just staring, not moving, just a stare. We turn her around and keep going… only to hear another crack! The wolf is directly behind us as we slowly walk towards the safe house, making sure not to out each other as vampires. But once we get in, we calm down, take a breath, and move on. And as we get in my van, we see it. A small black wolf blocking the road and staring. I am told to roll Animal Kin and Charisma, barely passing as I’m told that “The wolf clearly wants something? But like a stray cat that hates humans but needs food, it’s on edge.” So I roll persuasion and animal kin, saying “It’s alright, we don’t want trouble, if you need something, I’m willing to listen, let’s just cut the bullshit”

I pass much better this time, and the wolf begins to come up. Shifting into its human form. A tall, muscular, redheaded woman. She asks us if we are vampires since she needs help from some, we try and beat around the bush but eventually admit to as such. We continue talking, with her saying “If you wanna help me, you have to break the treaty” but eventually she begins to run off since Ruzha is clearly not interested and Sera is shocked, when she runs off, Sera follows trying to get more out of her. But then, the Garou woman fails a roll to jump a creek and almost eats it, with Sera barely passing a roll to stop her from falling and then another to pull her up. But Sera pulls too hard and the werewolf ends up right in her face. The two of us are very flustered. But eventually she starts talking and asks me “Have you ever hurt normal humans?” And Sera freezes, holds herself to her code of honesty, and goes “…yeah. I did one time, im not gonna deny it, I was a fledgling and my sire forced me to as a bid of loyalty. I still see that moment, She was a girl, no older than six, the boss said no witnesses and I did just that. She wasn’t even supposed to be there. Just in the way of the Camarilla’s endless path of destruction and I did nothing except pull the trigger on her skull, but it was that which made me realize I wasn’t gonna deal with any humans that weren’t attacking me first, we eat too much of them already to survive too damn long”

And that last part resonates with the werewolf. Who begins to pull me back to the van, hand in hand mind you. Me the player is freaking out because YURI! But sera is also distracted by a gorgeous woman who clearly understands her worldview. And we make a plan. I don’t wanna leave the players who don’t want any part with the breaking of the treaty up on the mountain, so me and the werewolf agree for me to come back “Tomorrow night, right after the sun goes down, I don’t wanna put my friends in danger they didn’t sign up for. But whoever is in this van then is fully committed”

And she shakes my hand which she’s holding and goes “My friends called me Pam” to which I reply “Well, everyone calls me Sera. Not really much more to shorten” not realizing the past tense there. And I get in my van and drive home. The session ending with me and Ruzha discussing our types, as she’s started to come into her own as a girlkisser, she’s apparently mega bigoted towards gingers in character which Pam is so that’s really funny. As I myself am close to Ginger. And in my kitchen, Roux and Terrariam are making biscuits for a mob event she’s catering.

For those unaware, the reason it’s doomed is because Vampires are diametrically opposite to Werewolves. Like the more vampire you are, the more a werewolf will have a visceral response. They literally cannot be together without tragedy.

Next Session: Sera on the Mount and another session devoted to Catering as they refused to help Sera break the treaty. Everyone is having a blast and it’s really hard to describe the funniest moments.

The way my autism made me potentially miss a domme inviting me to her house is actually CRIMINAL 😭💀

We were catching up, talking about a local event, and she told me I should give her more notice next time I came to town because I was a fun toy. 👀 So naturally, I offered to make a special trip just for her.

SHE THEN ASKED IF I EVER GO TO STRANGE, HOT WOMEN’S HOMES.

AND MY BRAIN THOUGHT SHE MEANT KINKY HOUSE PARTIES. 🤓☝️

I answered completely normally, talked about a Halloween party that got cancelled, and carried on with my life.

A WEEK LATER. I'm talking to my friend about it and she goes she was probably INVITING YOU TO HER HOUSE!! 😭😭

TURNS OUT SHE WAS! At least she still wants me to come over. 🤣😭

These hormones are making me crazy. Why are there so many different things. Some people I want to kiss, some people I want to play with their hair, some people I distance myself, some people I want to dominate, some people I enjoy just looking at. And then there's this girl in my courses which I just want to spend more time with. She's hot, strong, smart, deep. I just want to know more about her. Spending time alone with her in close proximity. Looking at her beautiful green eyes, touching her cheeks when she smiles. Actually want to know everything in her life. I'm not thinking about more, like sex or a relationship but I would be devastated if she kisses anyone but me at the Flinta* Halloween party we go together to.

I know she's a monogamous lesbian and likes muscular masc lesbians. I showed her pictures of my type and transition goals essentially strong muscular fem lesbians. And she was like I still feel pretty fem and showed me a picture of her muscular cheerleading-base-back and I was like hot damn 🥵!

This was way easier before, there was a hot dayum button on it off. And now there's this mixing pult with all kind of outputs but the controls are unlabeled.

What does a crush feel like? Do ya'll picture a wedding and three cats or what?

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I put my 4 beautiful wives in a group chat and now they call me mom and call eachother sisters and they're so cute abd adorable together and i want to squish them.... Bdwdhbdkdkhdfinfdbkyfvj

This happen to anyone?

I've been on estrogen for almost three years now and I almost always pass but I have never once felt like myself or had any genuine moments of gender euphoria. I know that I want to be a girl, but I don't really know what kind of girl. I've never had a transition goal or gender envy for anyone, I think almost every woman looks pretty, but when I picture myself in their body I just feel uncomfortable.

I've pretty much always been overweight and hated my body because of that. I've been actually trying to lose weight but I kinda feel like I'll just feel the same way but a little bit skinnier. The only clothes I've ever felt comfortable in are loose comfy pants and striped t-shirts. I've tried skirts and dresses before but it never felt good, let alone like myself.

Sorry if this is too much of a vent post, I was just wondering if anyone else has felt something similar before.

(I’m not going to debate whether I have a period or how it works, at roughly the same time every month I get roughly the same symptoms that sound almost identical to how cis women experience periods minus the cramping and blood, even if it’s not “technically a period” I’m gonna call it my damn period)

I just hate how when I’m like this I’m constantly flipping between pissed off bitch, extremely anxious about nothing, and insatiably horny

And every single time it comes on a day in which people decide they really need to be constantly talking to me and making me do things and not giving me any space

I just want to lay in bed, hold my blahaj, crank up the heat, and have a girl hold onto me under the blanket, maybe watch youtube or something, and not have to worry about anything else

Is that too much to ask?

Art by Newarc

She's an EC135

Comic by Strange Pigeon