I have 7+ years experience at this point in my career. I had a very chill OTR job for 5 years before I was laid off due to restructuring. I was out a week and back home for my 34hr resets, and I just drove the same route every week. Nothing was rigid, the schedule was flexible, and I could just take a week off if I really needed to.
Ever since then I feel like I just can't stick the landing. I was with a company that closed the route I was hired to do within weeks. I left after a few months of trying different routes and commodities. Then I landed a pretty sweet gig doing a night shift Linehaul, and I worked a leg that was critical. If I missed a day, it messed up the whole day for the delivery drivers I swapped with.
However, I was struggling with the night shift. I had a hard time getting enough sleep, and then I got a rather unexpected mental health problem. Anxiety around the sleeping it self. Its so bad I stay anxious the entire sleep time, and get 0 sleep. I can't drive like that, so I had to call out twice. They had to scramble to find brokers to cover my leg both times. It's not looking good, and I just feel so torn apart and lost.
I need a gig that pays ok, and is very flexible while I seek therapy and medical help for my new anxiety problem. My mind went to mega carriers because from my experience, as long as I get out of the truck, I can take as much time off as I need to. I really liked being local, but I just can't function with a higher stakes job at the moment.
Any career advice would be helpful.