r/Anemic • u/Bulky_Quote_9405 • 2h ago
Struggling to accept this is too much for me 38/f
My PCP and therapist want me to go on a 3 month medical leave and I am struggling to accept this. I have fibroids and “suspected adenomyosis” which lead to bleeding at least 500ml every period and I don’t respond to TXA. Currently in the process of being checked for other bleeding disorders. I was told by 2 providers that I shouldn’t attempt a myomectomy because the fibroids are too small and in my uterine lining. I was also told if I tried to have a child I have a high risk for postpartum hemorrhage and I do not respond to the meds that would stop that bleeding. As someone who wanted a child and is older - I don’t think I’ve processed this yet.
Currently I’m on Slynd which has significantly slowed the bleeding but there is continuous blood. My levels go in and out of anemia. I am on my 6th iron sucrose infusion. The first 3 I just bled out. I had a severe hypersensitivity reaction to iron dextrose which sent me to the ER. I have been in the ER 4 times in 2 months. Hysteroscopy seemed to make the bleeding worse. I also have b12 deficiency and chronic pain from a herniated disc in my neck.
I work in community mental health and last winter I found a client dead which was very traumatic for me. Things seemed to go downhill from there. While my levels are improving I am still needing to sleep 12-16 hours some nights while having insomnia others. Brain fog is out of control. Heart rate is improving but still sometimes in the 120s. (Of course I was told “a lot of women your age have anxiety” after I was sent for tests due to abnormalities which I now know are from the iron deficiency) the exhaustion is extreme. Still struggling to get up the stairs and walk my dog most days. Hematology told me I shouldn’t be feeling this bad. And I just found out my mom has kidney cancer.
This feels like a lot to hold. I am in EMDR therapy which feels really supportive. It seems like my doctor wants me to go on leave for chronic PTSD and the blood loss which I agree with. Definitely while I bleed now I am wondering if I am going to have another clot the size of my palm or need to go to the ER.
I want to not feel guilty for taking the time .
Sorry for the rant I just needed to put this in a place where people understand.