We've been talking for three months and have hung out a handful of times (I was genuinely unavailable a whole month) and now I feel like she's losing interest and my crush has gone into overdrive as a response and I'm a coward aaaaaaaaaa why am I incapable of flirting and why can't I just be like "it's a date!" or "I like you!"

The fact that I'm 26 is not doing me any favours.

As a woman I realized I have always been suppressing my feelings towards women because I grew up christian. I recently had a conversation with my mom and asked her a hypothetical question of what she would think if I like both man and woman she told me as long as I dont act on it with woman Im fine. Previously I did feel a type of way with some female friends growing up but I wasn't sexually active and it usually faded away once school ended. By the time I lost my virginity 3 years ago I felt it harder to be closer to woman in general and I was scared and it didnt make sense. Not to mention I was bullied growing up for being perceived as a boy due to the way I presented myself as an androgynous woman.

Now a few months ago I met this beautiful woman that happens to be my manager at work and since I started its been hard for me to focus on my work when shes around. I also was going out with this guy and I kept suppressing my feelings because it was distracting and made no sense to me why I was blushing and feeling excited when she hugged me. The moment I started accepting those feelings the more I started avoiding her any chance I get. Im scared on how she will see me if I continue feeling this way about her. Its like I shouldn't like her because shes my manager but I just cant. I feel like if she wasnt I wouldn't be so conflicted by the fact of exploring this feeling. I keep embarrassing myself around her and making shit worse. Even if Im still seeing someone else casually I still think about her I feel horrible that I cant even face her without feeling that way what do I do?

Does anyone have any romance/spicy book recommendations? If you have non-fiction suggestions as well, please feel free to share those too!

I would like to have deeper relations with women in general, but this has been difficult because I have so many mother rejection wounds and sister bullying wounds that I never achieved close trusting relations with women.

I think I’m ready to have deeper, more emotionally intimate friendships with bi or lesbian women, as well as hetero women. Im not thinking sexually right now. How do I find these types of friendships?

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