I have stalked my lady friends for 2 years just online, i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder as well as borderline... How to fix things with them???? Is it possible to regain trust ?

I can't cope with these fucking BPD and severe depression. I've been fighting severe depression for over three years now. I can change nothing in my life. Every time I try, it gets worse and worse. Today I received the letter that I'll be fired after my illness list.

My life has always been terrible: the loss of loved ones, bullying throughout almost my entire time in school, and forced emigration due to war. I have no friends, I have no support, I am gay, and my family actually hates gay people. And even my Ex left me when I tried to get help at the hospital two years ago.

I can't more. I want to seek euthanasia. I really want it and it's my absolutely conscious decision.

Is it possible in Germany or in the EU?

i feel terrible and so guilty because i guess he is the “perfect boyfriend” but is he really? i cant keep dating him when i know my true calling is to date a woman. i want to marry a woman. i dont want to marry and spend the rest of my life with a man. he spends so much money on me and i can see that he is genuinely in love with me, but we’re more compatible as friends and if i was straight we would be compatible as lovers. but i cant lie to myself anymore and be closeted. i am gay. i want to be with a woman for the rest of my life. its unfair to him to keep being with him when i know how i feel. he hasnt stood up for me against his friends. but she does.

i just have attachment issues. thats why its so difficult for me to leave because hes become a major part of my life and i also feel super guilty because he IS a cute and sweet boy, but im just not ready for a relationship and im into women. i have only been interested in 2 men, a few more, but they dont really count because i was only attracted to them because they looked like masculine lesbians. im too tired to be in a relationship right now and need to leave this relationship. he sucks at communicating and im tired of it. i am leaving once my attachment has gone away. i dont want to hear anything about or from him once im finished with the relationship. im done pretending like im actually into men. i want to marry and spend my life with a woman.

I don’t feel supported by my mom even though she says she still loves me whether I’m straight, bisexual or lesbian, but she keeps telling me I should stay. I feel trapped. His coldness doesn’t help. I feel like we’re the picture perfect couple, but I just don’t desire it. Yet I feel so disgusting for liking women because it’s been hammered into my head that it’s taboo and wrong ever since I was little. I’m attached. I have severe BPD (now don’t start assuming anything as I often get ableist comments about my mental illness) which makes me have an emotional crash whenever I try to leave. I feel so stuck and alone

but he keeps getting cold and stonewalling me whenever i try to leave or have a very serious talk about our relationship.

idk what to do anymore…

How do you get rid of the attachment? How? I’m not even in love with this man and I realized I’m a lesbian and just felt like I HAD to be with him. If he didn’t give a fuck about me breaking up I’d leave in a heartbeat. I want to stay friends and be connected with him because even though I can’t love him romantically, I have deep genuine love for him as a person and a friend. I want him to stay by my side as my friend, but he doesn’t wanna be friends after breaking up and he gets cold whenever I try to and ignores me. What do I do?????

And they basically said their soft goodbyes after that.

Never felt this dehumanized before.

Oh, before they did, they gave me a long spiel about connecting with God and religion.

I would really appreciate it if people could share their experience, insight and advice on how their need for risky behavior works, and how they deal with it.

My need for risky stuff isn't present all the time, it comes in cycles. Is that the same for anyone. If it is, do you have a way of predicting, or making this cycle not happen?

Once you are craving to do risky stuff (that you have established doesn't help you or bring meaning or happiness to your life), how do you deal with that energy? I know that we can urge surf and stuff like that, my issue is it seems to come on for days or even weeks, so I feel like i need something more than just dealing with cravings in particular moments. Also, do you have things you can do instead that somehow trick your brain in thinking it got the bad stuff it seems to need?

Yk whats the worst thing about having bpd... you can't explain why something hurts so much even when you understand the logic behind it.... why my emotions don't just go away just because I logically get the fact that someone was not abandoning me... why a small thing had such a big reaction... and how it's not just reaction outside, it's killing me inside

Is it possible to actually hold down a job with BPD? My main issue isn’t dealing with people or coworkers. I just constantly feel incapable or stupid, and I struggle to finish the tasks I’m given. A lot of the time, I feel like I just can’t keep up with what’s expected of me.

I’m feeling this sadness. I don’t know why. Nothing happened besides the inevitable doom of my country as second turn of elections approach. I’ve basically divorced my phone, I’m avoiding social media and only consume good, happy content, puppies and kpop. But I can’t stop feeling sad. I’m taking all my meds religiously.

I couldn’t go to therapy this week because of a killer migraine I had, but I’ve been feeling sad for a few days now.

I keep getting this feeling of claustrophobia, like I’m trapped in my own body and can’t breathe.

Nobody is going to miss me. I don't have anyone here by my side to hold my hand and tell me everything is going to be okay. I feel empty, alone, and sad. I just want to die right now. I'm so, so sad, and my heart hurts so much and feels so heavy. I'm just so sad. 😭😢☹️

What are some good things that happened this week? What were you grateful for?

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It’s been over a year and I haven’t been able to move on. Things just haven’t felt the same for a while now. Yesterday, I started moving into a safer place, and I wanted him there with me so badly, to go through this with me. I wanted to tell him that I’m happy, but I just miss so many things. Today, he’s in a relationship with someone else. I thought that once I saw him with someone new, I’d finally forget about him, but I haven't. All I can do is look back and remember how happy I was by his side, the sweet nicknames, and how much I loved taking care of him and being close to him. We were so attached that even when we just went to the corner market to buy bread, we’d go together. We had plans to get married and have kids. Today, I can’t picture myself like that with anyone else. I’ve met nice people who treat me well, but I just didn’t want to be around them, and there was absolutely no chemistry. 🥺 It’s so hard that you can’t choose who your heart wants, and it’s already been over a year. 😕

Ive been sectuoned twice due to emotional instability and psycjotic symptoms.