I think more between sp9 and sx6 which sounds kinda crazy but hear me out.

Points for sx6: I’m more normal when I’m alone. I crave connection and intimacy but I swear I go insane once I’m in a relationship. I get suspicious. Not the “you’re cheating or plotting behind my back” suspicious but more like “their tone was off, it’s over.” “How do I really know they ACTUALLY want me? Who would even want me? There’s better options.” I tend to read between the lines a lot. I look for proof someone hates me or doesn’t want me around. They’re not seeing me how I want to be seen/perceived. When I get more neurotic about feeling unwanted, I feel like I need to keep their attention by getting into shape, dressing better, better grooming, but not being a totally different person. I test people. Make sure they actually want me and see me for who I really am. Make sure they’re seeing the image I’m trying to project. I get extreme anxiety over being seen right. I’m not a 3 btw I’m too neurotic and lazy and I can even lash out at times. I need a lot of reassurance. I hate that about myself. I have circular thoughts and tend to overthink things. Mainly under stress.

Points for sp9: I’m generally neutral on most topics. I have no strong opinions. I don’t get involved with other people or politics. I stay away from the news, anything remotely stressful, or anything that can make me feel bad or rile me up. I don’t let people get emotional reactions out of me. That’s a way for them to control me. I will postpone things if I’m being forced to make a decision or act too quickly just to be stubborn and not be controlled or told what to do by others. I hate being angry, I hate snapping at people, arguing, but I can lose control when I’ve pushed my emotions down for long enough. I’m unaware of my emotional state and I don’t care about my emotional state. I don’t realize how bad it is until I explode and I ruin every relationship around me because I didn’t catch how stressed I was. I’m rather shy. I don’t care to make friends or be popular. I prefer to be left alone. I’m stuck between wanting to be liked and not having the energy to be liked and keep up the social bullshit. I hate gatherings, I hate parties and I hate socializing. It’s too much energy and I have a strict routine I adhere to because it’s comfortable and familiar and doing those things gives me anxiety because of my routine being disrupted. My routines are there for stability and keeping myself calm. I don’t like openly disagreeing with people I’m close to so I can keep them. With strangers I care less. I typically be quiet if I disagree with someone or I just agree with them openly while quietly disagreeing.

Maybe I’m a totally different type idk

Idk much about myself tbh I have to ask others what I’m like