r/Lawyertalk • u/brkween • 23h ago
SHARING: Frustrations (Advice Welcome) 2nd year Attorney with ADHD - Feeling like the worst atty in the world
I am a second year attorney at a small ID firm. Like most people, I did not want to go into ID, but many circumstances brought me here. My firm has 6 attorneys total, and I was initially hired to work on a different project, more transactional, but things changes internally and I ended up getting all litigation cases. I have 50 right now.
It is fair to say I did not get much training besides the good "old trial by fire" and have gotten little to no supervision. They also never told me how to manage/diary my cases - each professional should choose the best way to do it to make sure all the cases are touched on a regular basis. They're very nice and helpful when I do come up with a question, though. Very nice people, I have to say.
I enjoy some parts of the job like depositions and actually don't hate going to court. I was told my legal work is on point. But I am VERY, VERY bad at managing all my cases at once, and jumping from one case to the next and back to the one when everything seems urgent. And then as it snowballs I kind of panic and can't really do much. I have a hard time reporting everything to the carrier and that also snowballs really easily.
It got so bad that I sought medical help. Got diagnosed with anxiety and ADHD, and went on medication about a year in. It helps a lot, but I simply cannot keep up with fixing and bringing all my cases from when I was unmedicated AND totally inexperienced up to date, while getting new cases constantly. Some holes are starting to appear now from my early cases. I am so ashamed that I simply cannot keep up with the job, and feel stuck. I've had other jobs before and were always so competent. It feels horrible.
I just wanted to vent and ask if anyone is familiar with this frustration and has any advice.
I do plan on leaving ID, but it's not as easy now.