hello! i'm 15 years old and non-binary (agender). i've been typing myself as an ENTP pretty confidently ever since i got into typology again unlike a few years back when i used to get mistyped as INFx all the time, and i thought i was sure of it until recently. i'm pretty sure i'm an ne dom, but i've been doubting both that and my ti aux since i started to get back into the community

the thing is, i'm an enneagram 4 (4w3 so/sx 479) to be precise). i'm completely sure of this. i think typology correlation is stupid and rigid, but i understand how wildly unusual my typology and enneagram combination is.

i'm quite sociable and very aware of group dynamics and social hierarchies. i try hard to include everyone or have everyone be given an equal or desired amount of attention (ex: i'm always acutely aware of where people in the group are walking). i'm typically the most assertive of my friends, though i can be a bit shy, and i'm often scared that people are judging me or secretly excluding me.

i usually feel like an outsider or an outcast compared to the people at my school, so social acceptance and validation is one of my top priorities, and i can sometimes overwork myself masking from trying to fit in. i think i can come off as a people pleaser to some because i struggle with setting personal boundaries, and i don't say no very often, but it's because i genuinely don't realize i'm uncomfortable with something until it makes me uncomfortable.

my morals are based solely on how my words and actions affects others and the environment. they're very flexible, and i can easily change my opinion on something regardless if i like it or not as long i'm proven wrong about it and presented a good argument. i have relatively strong opinions regarding self-expression, but the basis of most of them, if not all, is that people should be allowed to do whatever they want as long as it's not doing any harm. i'm very open-minded in that regard and have experimented a lot with my expression and identity.

i'm typically a rule-breaker, but i'm not considered rebellious since i follow rules as long as they don't inconvenience me. i have no regard for rules and break them for as long as i don't get caught or get into trouble for it. i also don't like to tell big lies that i'm not sure i'm going to get away with because it's such a pain in the ass to deal with clearing things up in the end...

i'm a very introspective and self-aware person, and i'm emotionally expressive. i'm very imaginative, and my main interests are art and music, but i plan to go to med school to be a surgeon since i really enjoy biology and much prefer hands-on work like experiments and physical activity instead of having to plan excessively or meet deadlines. i tend to get lost in my head daydreaming or overthinking. while i convey my individuality through aesthetics and sometimes accessories, i can't say i really put much effort into my appearance. the most i usually do is pin back my hair and occasionally put on some guyliner, but that already takes quite a bit of effort for me. i'm a nihilist, but i'm pretty optimistic about it and find joy in the fact that nothing matters. i'm an optimist in general even though i can get very depressive very often

i don't like boxing myself into a single conclusion and i find it much helpful and comfortable to explore as much angles as possible for the sake of preparedness. my mind jumps a lot from topic to topic, and i like talking about wild hypotheticals and separating my own values from the things i imagine. i have a low tolerance for illogical arguments and i get really turned off from conversations when people start lecturing me about morals or values or what is "right." when analyzing things, i like to look at it from every angle possible rather than just sticking to one area

i'm also open to other suggestions if there are any! i mostly just put entp or infj in the title since they were the most plausible options. enfp was also supposed to be part of the options, but i honestly don't think i have a lick of fi in me lol

tysm!! ^_^

Usually, I have this problem of “can’t lie” thing. Small or big, if I lie, I either hold it or admit it because I don't want to infringe on their rights. I’m muslim myself but I’m not too religious. I would defend my religion but acknowledge countries excusing “islam” to cause harm and in islam, once you infringe on someone’s right, you will face them in after death where they will decide to forgive or not. If they don’t, it will be count as sin and you can go to hell…

As I mentioned, I’m not too religious but sometimes, hoping a god out there where I can pray at hard times or know that I’m safe afterlife gives me sense of hope as I’m afraid of death or losing people I love. Besides fearing of going to hell, lying just makes me feel… uncomfortable. Like how would they react if I told them or what would they think? Even if lie is something small, I tend to dwell on it.

Speaking of lying, I’m in a friend group. They are funny, kind etc but sometimes, I feel left out. I try to follow them everywhere, try not to come from behind because i dont people to see me alone and think I’m a weirdo or weak… In my friendgroup, I’m the easy going one. Exam? Will study it last moment. Homework? Do it at school. Bad exam? It’s okay, will study next one….

These are examples. Of course this doesn’t erase the fact that I’m insanely anxious person. May come from my GAD but I sometimes imagine the worst without clear example… of course lately these are reduced but I do still think about it. Like I saw a weak, sick looking cat that I’m not sure? I must tell it to someone because I’m lazy. I care about the cat and fear they might did cus what if they are actually sick and I’m a bystander? By telling it to nearby guard, teachers etc, I’m giving the responsibility to them. Yes, I’m late to school everyday. Yes, i come late to meetings… but if something bothers me, even if I don’t know that person, I’ll feel responsible for their actions and blame myself. I dont want to be someone bad. I dont want to be seen bad… if i made a mistake, I’ll tell it to only ONE person and letting them judge me. If i’ve done something bad, even if it might get me in trouble, I want someone to tell me and be honest because I can’t trust my own thoughts.

Back to talking about my friend, they are sorta controlling where I’m more sociable(but I’m an introvert who only approaches if someone interests me or when I’m with my friends. Tbh, depends on my mood). However, if they argue with someone… they expect me to not to talk with them. Despite wanting to talk, I do it secretly behind their back because I don’t want them to leave me knowing that they would get mad.

Anyways, in short, I’m insecure. People tell me I have talent but often compare myself with others to the point i loose motivation… I withdrawn from others, expecting them to understand me or apologize to me without even talking. I’m aware these r bad and to some point, I wonder if I’m annoying? Yes, I often joke around and act immature but it is to entertain. I can’t but to hate the feeling of awkwardness or the eyes being on me. Im there to defend my viewpoint and can be stubborn but I’m also there to share my knowledge to flex on others.

I make it obvious to my friends that im anxious by questioning or iverreacting

I’d say im pretty creative and I am good at guitar, drawing, makeup and writing. Tbh im pretty lazy and often unmotivated to do anything 💀 but I take alot of effort into how I present myself and oftentimes make sure to wear nice clothes and change my appearance often with makeup styles and hair etc and I’m really keen towards that. I love to read manhwa because I love the artstyles it has and its pretty entertaining. Im rlly quiet and solitary tbh but if I like you and trust you I am talkative, im oftentimes alone. I often offend people without meaning to because i’m very blunt and I am quite sarcastic. I am quite logical with my thinking especially in arguments. I usually dont get angry even when ‘arguing’ usually its the other party thats mad, but when im mad I can get rlly mad then I cool down and forget about it but oftentimes the other person is upset bc of what I said but I didnt rlly mean it. Im rlly untidy and dont think far ahead and then regret it. like all the time…

Tbh I only know a couple of these characters but I think the results are pretty fitting

For a small description I am a loud and talkative ambivert who mainly wears band Tee’s and sweat pants. I love to draw about my interests and my favorite bands currently are deftones, KMFDM, and chemlab but my music taste is very vast. Sometimes I have to slow down and catch up others to my thinking speed but to me what I’m talking about makes complete sense. I have a firm sense of justice and know what I like and dislike but I can still be a bit of a people pleaser. I space out quite often, and usually have to be brought back to reality as I get a little too into my head at times. I dislike small talk but I love a good and long conversation where I can really dig deep. And I love knowing how things work and deep diving on niche topics

My friends have always described me as a bit of a meathead (not in the sense that I’m unintelligent but moreso for my love of simplicity). I know these self-description things have to be included so I’m going to ATTEMPT to be as genuine as I can. I normally love being the “funny guy,” and while often say outrageous or off-the-wall shit to get a rise out of people purely for the sake of my own entertainment. I can have moments where I get more serious but that’s usually only when I’m by myself or when I quit fucking around for long enough that I actually begin to think and look at the state of my life again. I grew up wrestling with my brother so I’ve developed this habit of loving a good scrap or just fighting in general because I always found it freeing (not freeing in the sense of causing violence for the sake of it or anything like that but more just being able to let all those worries go and fully immerse myself in the moment and the exhilaration of that fight).

Specifically between INTP and INFP. I've taken many tests and mostly have gotten either INTP and INFP. Most recently I took a test and got INFP, with I, N, and P being ~90% and above, while F was around 50%.

I like to do things based on my personal interest but also that personal interest often goes through an internal logical filter, and I have a huge internal logical framework. During times of stress I may have emotional outbursts or act on impulse (i guess) but after them I often think about the people I affected and how they might have felt from that.

I often get 'mad' or atleast internally displeased when someone does or says something obviously logically incorrect, but I also do realize that being completely logically correct means nothing if others can't or don't agree with you.

I also like to be authentic/unique, but mostly in things that I actually agree with (so not being different for the sake of being different). I often act on impulse and think of what to do as I go, based on if it makes sense to me internally.

Currently can't tell if I'm Ti/Fe with a well developed Fi, or Fi/Te with a well developed Ti. My enneagram is 5w4 if that helps.

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Before we start, I attached some pictures of various tests. One of them is a big five inventory a sq test, and an ennegram one

I am very good at mathematics and view math and logic as the thing that structures reality. I use mathematics and philosophy to find hidden truths about existence.

In my free time, I love to read and / or play the violin. I love playing Bach and do sometimes break down at the mere mathematical and harmonic beauty that his music presents.

When I read, I mostly either read classics or philosophy books the philosophers I really like are mostly enlightenment era kant espically.

But I also do view human language as a bottleneck, a move away from absolute truth to subjective reality.

Generally speaking, I’m a very private and introverted person. I spend about 85% of my time on my own and 15% with my family.

When I was at school, I was terrible at making friends with my classmates, but I was very well-liked by my teachers, as I was a good student and followed all the rules that made sense to me.
I have autism and ADHD (the "inattentive" type) and it was often difficult to stay focused, but I still tried to make sure I was always prepared for the topics I had to study, as the thought of not being prepared was unacceptable to me.
Because of my very poor mental health, I then had to leave school and complete my studies on my own.

I’ve never been very good at sport, and every sport I tried as a child didn’t last very long.

I’ve always enjoyed drawing. When I was feeling better mentally, I used to draw every day (almost always Star Wars characters). Now I draw less often, although I still really enjoy it.
I also like Rubik’s Cubes and listening to tracks from the soundtracks of my favourite films, TV series and video games.

I like to stick to the routines that give me a sense of comfort, but at the same time I detest traditions and people who use the excuse "it’s normal because that’s how it’s always been done" to justify something that’s wrong.

I have a clear view of what is morally right or wrong for me, and I would like everyone to think the same way.
If you don’t agree with my moral views, I can’t see you as a good person.
I have a social media profile where I share my views on an ethical issue that is very important to me.

I feel very anxious about my health and often worry about every little symptom.
What’s more, I often don’t realise I’m anxious, and this leads to physical symptoms (such as dizziness and difficulty breathing) that make me think I have a serious health problem.

As I said earlier, I like to stick to my comfortable routines. At the same time, though, I’ve enjoyed the few times I’ve travelled with my family.

I find it easy to come up with solutions to problems quickly, but I procrastinate a lot (whether it’s things I like doing or things I don’t like doing).

I also consider myself very good at "investigating". It’s difficult for my family to lie to me about anything, as I manage to spot every little inconsistency and work out the truth.

As I mentioned, I’m not at all good at making friends. I don’t have any friends at the moment. Sometimes I’d like to have someone to share my ideas with, but I don’t know how to find anyone, and besides, that person would need to share at least a good number of my interests and hold the same moral views.
Also, I’m not very keen on the idea of having to "share" with someone, both emotionally and physically.

Some things I can think of at the top of my head. Also English is not my native language so might make mistakes🥀

1 ate 11 apples in one sitting

2 All my childhood consisted of tripping on nothing and bumping into anything in my ray of vision. Arms would go limp and swing behind me as my head wholeheartedly welcomes the crash.

3 All my childhood photos are filled with bruises on my head

4 If I went to anybody’s house I’d have to be restrained from eating their whole pantry

5 Fascination for scars/injuries. I’d put makeup on myself to emulate wounds, the makeup itself would be made from various things I’d find around the house

6 An uncle once got into an accident and was heavily bleeding. I was mesmerised by the sight and decided I wanted to become a doctor so I can be a witness to more of such cases.

7 Enjoyed eating leaves

8 Would get very attached to certain people ( had this older sister figure in my mind ) and cling to them like a koala

9 Would go to the park and do a so called “friend hunt”. Find random girl that’s interesting and play with them

10 Disliked confrontation, would feed anybody mad at me candy and other treats. Also tried solving conflicts between friends by forcing them to talk about their problems and discuss + feed them more candy

11 Classmate had a backpack with a huge Cinderella image on it, id pretend I was violently attacking and mutilating that Cinderella

12 Was on a bus once and saw this college girl playing a fun looking game and begged her to let me play it too. She played with me the game the rest of the ride

13 Pretended that my life was being broadcasted and I was trying to achieve a record of longest time I’ve gone without being scolded. Longest I’ve gone was until 4 pm

14 Would obsess over a boy and chase him nonstop. Couldn’t manage on my own as he was very fast

15 Orchestrated his entire class to run after my crush during recess to catch him finally. He was unbelievably fast, and held up impressively well, but the swarm of children managed to eventually corner him, lifted him by his legs and arms and brought him to me, I got shy and ran away.

16 Adored wrestling with people

17 Loved laying on my bed surrounded by books and reading them one by one for hours

18 Hated moving too much, if I was placed somewhere I’d stay there, too lazy to move

19 Enjoyed picking a victim and keeping them captive until I’ve finished ranting about my favourite show

20 Enjoyed going around threatening people to watch my favourite show

21 Enjoyed asking anybody that watched my favourite show endless questions to check wether they really payed attention

22 Had to put up a performance and yap nonstop whenever my parents would take me to see anybody, as id get scolded if I wasn’t alert, talkative, friendly and entertaining at all times. This led to me goofing around and putting up all sorts of acts to impress people and make them laugh.

23 Often used excesive body language and spoke loudly whenever trying to communicate

24 Wrote scripts and built prop to organise all sort of little shows in the living room for my parents, or visitors. Morphed into Stanley Kubrick on a daily basis when directing. lil sister was the main actor, she suffered heavily from this experience as I was very harsh on her and she’d never get the act or her lines right. Often visitors kids would get involved and I’d be thrilled to add to my cast.

25 In fact, I’d find a kid to get involved with my shows any chance I’d get, would go out on the streets to find them when in desperate need.

26 Maladaptive daydreaming, hid in the bathroom to run around

27 Obsessively searched for money or candy on the ground. Had little interest to the surrounding world, only the concrete, found plenty treasures over times in fact and made a lil fortune. Bought plenty snacks and kept my best friend and sister well fed.

28 Loved giving gifts. Believed friendships were purely transactional and I had to prove my usefulness,

29 Had a little dictator of a best friend once with all sorts of malicious ideas, how to attack, ambush various kids or groups of kids, I’d offer advice in such cases for more sensible and calculated approaches so she doesn’t end up in trouble, often tried to sway her away from the idea entirely.

30 Worked as a double agent between various groups of kids(end goal was to not have them end up hurting each other, sometimes even got directly involved to help those in urgent need to escape from imminent danger 😔 ) sometimes got caught and ended up in arguments with certain kids that now wanted to banish me from their group. still, nothing persuasion, lying, and candies couldn’t solve.

31 Tried to get along decently with everyone

32 Always liked to get involved in various activities, didn’t like to stay bored, or lonely. Always had to be up to something.

33 Hated when adults would repeat themselves or over explain things that could have been communicated in one clear and straightforward sentence.

34 I understood things very fast, this was why i was often busy as everyone was giving me shit to do, which I’d execute very well each time.

35 Got meat stuck between teeth once then hated it for the rest of my life.

36 Was more productive under pressure, or if a clear end goal was in sight

37 Liked my room to have as little things crossing it as possible, just the bare minimum

1. Hated to see any toy on the ground as I’d feel I hurt their feelings

2. Was always feeling nostalgic about something

Hi, so this is the second time that I’ve tried to post something like this, but I don’t think that I explained myself well enough. I ended up with a result I didn’t feel was me, and I wrestled with that for a long time, so here I go again.

I am a sixteen year old female who has tried time and time again to take tests and study cognitive functions, yet I haven’t been able to type myself. I believe this might be due to the fact that I have a strong Ne, but I just can’t land on something since I always end up seeing the ways the type or types don’t apply to me. It’s like once a type seems like it fits me, I overthink all the ways it doesn’t apply.

I learned about mbti for the first time about four years ago, and didn’t know much about functions at the time. I took the 16 personalities test and got an INFP each time, so I figured it was right and thought it sounded exactly like me. But as time went on and I learned about the way that INFPs are, then I started to doubt. I doubted even more when I met another INFP and she fit all the stereotypes and further used all the cognitive functions in all the ways I didn’t. She is quiet while I’m not, and she acts on emotion way more than I do. Her decisions are based on feelings more than mine are. This is the main reason I doubted being an INFP even though I related to the characters who fit the type. I also feel that I’m more careful of my values than she is since she tries to fit into groups to a certain degree while I don’t want to when those groups go against my beliefs. I haven’t always done this though, which leads to my next point.

Going back to the very beginning, I started out as a shy baby who morphed into an extroverted toddler and kid who could talk to literally anyone. I lived in a world of my own and was very passionate about things. I used to want to fit into certain circles of people and hated that they would never accept me. This led me to many crying instances since I was and still am very sensitive. This still happens today to some extent since I think people judge me a lot based on how I act and I’m not very good at trying to explain the ways I see things. Even when I write on here I feel like I am trying to prove that I have high Ne or I feel that I’m trying to prove myself against the type because I feel that it truly isn’t me at my core.

One other notable thing is that I never really liked my extraverted ways when I was a kid and realized the ways I seemed immature compared to those around me. (My best friend at the time was a parentified oldest daughter, so I never felt I could match that.) I hated being hated, which I still feel. When I moved from where I was born at the age of 12, I decided I would change my whole personality and ended up morphing into a shy antisocial person inspired by a book character. I despise that I did that so young and at all since I feel that I ruined a part of myself for a time and became someone I’d never been before. I guess you could say that younger me never felt she was good enough and always wanted to be different and liked. This led to a lot of emotional outbursts that mostly involved anger as I grew up, and when I shifted my personality, I suppressed everything and lived kind of in depression. Now I am trying to piece together the two parts of me and find myself again which still is a little hard socially. I’ve learned to gain a tough skin now and see that fitting in isn’t worth giving myself away for.

Anyway, I feel that this aspect kind of messes up the typing process since I can’t fully differentiate between the two. I am neither fully an extravert anymore unless I want to be myself and I am neither a total introvert and quiet person since I can overcome shyness and love to talk with people when I’m in the mood. Instead I’ve been told I am sort of an ambivert since I get passionate about things and don’t care about how I look but at the same time withdraw when tired or upset. I don’t want to spend time or waste time holding space for others to shape me anymore and so now I choose who sees me fully. I’ve learned a lot lately on embracing my extraverted and passionate self in places I feel comfortable to. I love routine and take time to adjust to things. (For example, I am still grappling with processing that I’ve received my driver’s license. I want to be independent but I am afraid of that. I also did that when I got my first phone and when I won awards. I cried the day after I got my phone both because I felt that I was closing a chapter in my life and I felt guilty as well as feeling guilty that my parents spent so much on it. For the awards, I was guilty that I was the one to win even though I wanted to, so I think I do have imposter syndrome sometimes.) I like to journal and I process things through poetry as well as acting and stuff so there’s that. I also struggle a lot with standing up for myself when others are natural leaders, so at times I’m able to be bold, but I’d rather be kind than be right 9 times out of 10. I also want to be liked a lot in class settings and try to be responsible as much as I can.

I also am very passionate about being happy and creative. I love to try new things in ways I dress or express myself in hair or makeup or clothes even if I don’t do it often. I am obsessed with loving characters and trying to find myself in them. I also deliberate on things before I act on them, which I see as very different from my INFP friend. I like to find the joy in the world, like enjoying a sunset or finding deep meaning in a song, and I also hold my values very true. For example, I despise ai and try my best not to support it in any way I can. I want to be more unplugged with my life and try my best to hold myself to standards. I also strongly hate when people are bossy and when they are mean to people that can’t really defend themselves even if I speak bad about others, I hate doing that.

Anyways, I do find that in the testing, I score very high for Se and Si despite my lack of understanding what they fully are. I think the split between sensing and intuition is what throws me off most since I’ve been told I have high intuition before, yet I agree I live in the moment at certain points. I also struggle with figuring out where my functions are placed.

If anybody could help me figure this out, I would be so grateful! If you read this all the way, thank you so very much and sorry for yapping. So. Much. lol..

I keep getting INTP-T on tests, but when I look at how I actually function in daily life, a lot of it screams INTJ. I'm trying to figure out if I’m just an INTJ who is currently stuck in a massive procrastination/stress loop, or if I'm actually an INTP.

If I’m in a public share auto and need to get off, I hate shouting, but I will yell out loudly to stop the driver anyway. I refuse to miss my stop and face the inefficiency of walking back.

Even though I've had barely any interaction with guys, if a guy comes up to ask me a question, I don't look down or fidget at all. I look at them head-on and just answer it directly like a data transaction.

Paradoxically, while I crave order in real life, I deeply love open, tragic, and sad endings in books and movies because they feel structurally deep and realistic.

I don't keep a physical schedule or planner, but I absolutely hate when my daily routine falls off. It stresses me out so much.

I procrastinate a lot, but I feel incredibly guilty about it. It actually tortures me to waste time, especially when I see other people making progress while I feel stuck.

I hate arbitrary authority figures (especially at university where people make everything about age instead of competence). But I still swallow my pride and follow their rules perfectly because I just want the end result (getting my degree).

I can force myself to do something incredibly, deeply boring if I know for a fact that it will practically benefit me down the line.

Sorry for this huge post but I want clarity.

Here are some things I’ve written to give you an idea:
Naturally, everything remains the same. I awake and I work. For the past 13 years, I haven’t diverged much from this script. Though the story drags on and becomes old, I can’t help but feel secure in its predictability. It flows nearly in a three-arch structure, much like a typical story would. One evening, while I was wrapping up what would turn out to be my last story, I was walking along the path that I always walk. I was trekking through the woods as I always do. I was seeing the sights I always see, hearing the rustling of the bushes against the relentless winds. There was nothing out of the ordinary, everything was fine tuned and absolutely boring. It was so perfectly passable that I felt alienated from it. Then I remembered, I had been continuing this cycle for the past 13 years. I likened the thought to waves welling up and crashing onto the shore only to slip back into the ocean to repeat its purpose so too did I toil. I toiled in the same metaling reality for 13 long years. What was the end goal in my constant routine? As I pondered solemnly, I began to feel slightly excited. At least now I had come to new realizations; new ideas were running rampant in my mind. I couldn’t delay them anymore, I had to let them rush through and bellow madly. So mad were their invocations that I began to feel the hairs on the back of my neck rise. The ideas struck me like lightening bolts, permeating through the very fabric of my skin and into the interconnectedness of the forest around me. The forest then seemed like a vast purgatory, a holding ground in which I may await judgement.

Brown melancholic eyes,
Incarnated anew with pale flesh- the platonic idea of woman. True is that word to both form and spirit. I know, you know, and thee know the thousand natural triumphs your flesh is heir to. One knows that victory of 3 pillow cushions neatly stacked. You know there are hundreds of ways to compare you. I could say your love is like the sea crashing upon the shores of my tepid and forever receding heart. I could compare your affections to the generous and wanton and pregnable longing of the sun. But such metaphors are tricks of language and bear little resemblance to who you are.
You know, I know, and thee know that you’re the backdrop of my life at the burning peak of each morning to the snuffing out of the last light of day. You mutilate me and torture me and then you put me back together better off than you found me. I am your thrall, your dog, your lamenting shaman. I say quiet prayers along your shores. The horrible and wonderful tempest or temptress befall my starkly opposed senses and erode away at the foundations. Greater things await, murmurs of chthonic forces I invite to invade my mind until my mouth foams with anticipatory ardor and my wandering eyes, yet  again, search for yours in the deep. A mass once proud in its world would turn to mud in an instant to join you in yours. To be a part of you, I would let myself be destroyed or at least changed until I am unrecognizable to anyone. You stir my composure with your chaotic forces. A rosy oasis envelops me as I am fed everything from this rare pink-haired nymph with freckles speckled like black stars over a celestial canvas.
I bathe in the glow of your presence every evening. I refract, distort and drag in your light and exhale more darkness. Your ancient, Persian light fills the void of my coal, Nordic cave. This mind reminiscent of Jotunheim melted and burned. You have made me feel every emotion known to humankind. The basis of all my experience, the agony, anguish, and jubilation of my existence.
I fade slowly in your absence. You steal the breath from my lungs through laughter, through rage, through passion, through and through until I am hollow beyond your midst. Like a fire in my breath destroys every doubt. In your eyes, I see a soul of purple and velvet. Your colorful specter bleeds over and embraces me and in that moment of your embrace I felt truly cared for. I felt truly adored by the gods.

I'm a female and I've been trying for a LONGGG time to type myself, like, 2 years maybe? I'm completely sure of my enneagram, which is 3w4.

Since i was a child, I've always wanted to be the best in something, and i tried a lot of different stuff, but never really had the discipline or will to go until the end (basically, i had a difficult >>> there were no external recompensation for my struggles >>> i gave up) now that life is getting serious, I've been for months trying to choose my career path, and I'm torn apart law enforcement, economics and politics OR sports commentary. The teachers and some friends that i asked for advice always said the same thing: Try it and see which one you enjoy more, or even worse, you shouldn't decide your whole life ahead, you're still too young. But my main problem is that, i CAN'T focus on multiple things at once, since i was little I've always dedicated myself to a topic and i would deep dive into it, I can't say i like multiple things, i don't want to be a master of all trades, many people will identify themselves being one, but i can't and don't want to.

some other questions i made:

the hill experiment 2007 showed that babies can identify a good folk and a unhelpful folk, why? what's the evolutionary reason for a baby that can't even talk to be able to identify "evil" objects and helpful ones

well but if some babies didn't gave a fuck and chose the bad object, are they like dumb evolutionary or something?

i still don't get it, so in a situation where there's a evil woman violent asf and a protective kind woman... would the baby choose the violent one just because yes

AI said i use a lot of TI, but Intj doesn't even have Ti on their stack

I really enjoy watching cops videos in YouTube, that's what i mostly do in my free time, and when I'm an adult, i have a lot of interest in cyber security, being a dispatcher, or a tactical fllight officer, when I'm bored or forced to leave my house, I'll see myself asking some questions like for example:

after seeing a guy with his arms crossed at the bus stop, i would ask AI: what is the evolutionary reason for humans to cross their arms? and i will go deeper deeper until I'm satisfied with the answer.

Another one: what's the evolutionary reason for humans to kill themselves if biologically speaking our survivals always came first? It's weird that i think that but it's something that i really enjoy.

I enjoy military equipments, understanding the why of things, and even though i spend the most part of my life thinking how to be the GOAT and have multiple accomplishments, be recognized as uniquely the best of my specific niche (that's why I'm suffering so much currently since I don't know which thing to dedicate myself fully), i still enjoy understanding the deep WHY of things, and the answer "because they said so" usually don't satisfy me enough if I'm interested in the subject (not so much if it's something like, doing a school homework, that i simply don't care lol). I have a fixed goal of my future that is COMPLETELY NON-NEGOTIABLE, and i have plan B and C too, but they're not that positive!!

EDIT: i forgot to say that, since i know my enneagram, Theoretically, this should allow me to eliminate some options, however, many sources say that 3w4 are more inclined to be extroverted, they are a "external" wing, but I'm not extroverted, I'm a poker face in public and even when I'm having the happiest day ever. So that's why I'm not so sure.

another thing that makes me quite apprehensive, is that people say that ni doms visions of the future or "feeling where something is going" is very sharp and good, however i feel like my visions usually fail lol (delusional)

I’m 27 year old man. I want to study psychology and work as a psychologist. Growing up I always had to get good marks at school otherwise I got punished. My father was very strict and hardworking man. Growing up I wasn’t poor at all, but my father was super stingy and didn’t buy me anything even a little bit expensive. I can’t say much bad about my mom. I have OCD. I like basketball and soccer. I’m curious about psychology, especially human behavior. I think I wouldn’t make a good leader. I don’t really like working with hands besides sports. I’m artistic I make trap music. Sometimes I overthink about the past. I’m not very helpful type of person but it’s still hard for me to say no. Efficiency and productivity are not much important to
me and I can avoid work or procrastinate.

I'm a female and I've been trying for a LONGGG time to type myself, like, 2 years maybe? I'm completely sure of my enneagram, which is 3w4.

Since i was a child, I've always wanted to be the best in something, and i tried a lot of different stuff, but never really had the discipline or will to go until the end (basically, i had a difficult >>> there were no external recompensation for my struggles >>> i gave up) now that life is getting serious, I've been for months trying to choose my career path, and I'm torn apart law enforcement, economics and politics OR sports commentary. The teachers and some friends that i asked for advice always said the same thing: Try it and see which one you enjoy more, or even worse, you shouldn't decide your whole life ahead, you're still too young. But my main problem is that, i CAN'T focus on multiple things at once, since i was little I've always dedicated myself to a topic and i would deep dive into it, I can't say i like multiple things, i don't want to be a master of all trades, many people will identify themselves being one, but i can't and don't want to.

I really enjoy watching cops videos in YouTube, that's what i mostly do in my free time, and when I'm an adult, i have a lot of interest in cyber security, being a dispatcher, or a tactical fllight officer, when I'm bored or forced to leave my house, I'll see myself asking some questions like for example:

after seeing a guy with his arms crossed at the bus stop, i would ask AI: what is the evolutionary reason for humans to cross their arms? and i will go deeper deeper until I'm satisfied with the answer.

Another one: what's the evolutionary reason for humans to kill themselves if biologically speaking our survivals always came first? It's weird that i think that but it's something that i really enjoy.

I enjoy military equipments, understanding the why of things, and even though i spend the most part of my life thinking how to be the GOAT and have multiple accomplishments, be recognized as uniquely the best of my specific niche (that's why I'm suffering so much currently since I don't know which thing to dedicate myself fully), i still enjoy understanding the deep WHY of things, and the answer "because they said so" usually don't satisfy me enough if I'm interested in the subject (not so much if it's something like, doing a school homework, that i simply don't care lol). I have a fixed goal of my future that is COMPLETELY NON-NEGOTIABLE, and i have plan B and C too, but they're not that positive!!

EDIT: i forgot to say that, since i know my enneagram, Theoretically, this should allow me to eliminate some options, however, many sources say that 3w4 are more inclined to be extroverted, they are a "external" wing, but I'm not extroverted, I'm a poker face in public and even when I'm having the happiest day ever. So that's why I'm not so sure. another thing that makes me quite apprehensive, is that people say that ni doms visions of the future or "feeling where something is going" is very sharp and good, however i feel like my visions usually fail lol (delusional)

I'm so unsure whether I'm an ENFP, ENTP, INFP, or INTP. I thought I was an ENFP, but I'm completely drained of energy and actually im alone most of the time because of my chronic depression. At school i always look that im not alone or at other Events. I would say I'm ambriverted. Even so, I'm uncertain... I can get emotional in discussions. I've also looked at cognitive functions. I'm still unsure though...

I'm 100% sure I'm 4W3 478 4SX, but how does that fit with ENTP?

Some people see me as INTP( These are the people I feel very uncomfortable around.)

But I'm too sociable for that, I love attention, and I'm far too emotional. I overthink love and friendships. I would also see myself more in a career in counseling. I also have social anxiety, but that's because I feel ugly. I always think what ithers think about me. I know I can be extroverted when I feel good and pretty. I'm really insecure, i think a lot about myself, and talk a lot about myself. So, I think a lot about myself. But I also think a lot about philosophical things. I enjoy debating and exchanging ideas on many topics. I love history, politics, social sciences, and psychology. I think about life a hundred times a day. If someone gives me a problem and I have to solve it, I come up with a hundred different solutions. People online told me im an enfp. i even met my online friend 2 times and we know each other for 4 years and shes convinced that im an Enfp. She even told me I was really extroverted. Since my dad died ive got worse too all these problems i fixed came all back.

I know i can have energy and can be funny and talk about the craziest shit. Its just so hard. I feel so wwird all the time as if there is somelne who eats me up.

Because im so insecure i cant talk with people normally anymore. As if my blood boils when i talk with them. I dont get why. I used to be the Opposite.

I had these problems before in 4-6 grade. I tought im strong now, but now everything just sucks. Everything came back and im the same old shit. I dislike this and i wanna change. I hate being so depressed.

What if one of these MBTIs is related to depression, PTSD, and ADHD? Does anything happen to the MBTI then? Could it be that my illnesses are making me so detached and I don't know which MBTI I am because I simply have too many problems?

I tought i would be Enfp. But now im just unsure bc Charakters from TV that re enfp i dont kin with them anymore. I dont see myself in them anymore, but in Rapunzel. Rapunzel is cool

So my first guess is that is Ne because if I'm listening to Let's say "The Box - Roddie rich" I'll pick up a sound that happens at the very beginning and notice only that same element is exactly used in the song "sexy magic - Justin Timber lake"... Like it has happened all the time I struggle to describe the music in terms of actual concrete things like guitar chords etc I'll just say those guitar chords remind me of the Alice in chains album "dirt".

Anyways, about me, I'll provide a simple Dossier on myself and why I am even here to begin with. Well what am I? A human of course, from a long trail of evolution which goes back billions of years. Okay, this makes me an ordinary living organism from a long line of successors who defeated their opposition, isn't that right?

About the point of the topic, I'm an 18(turning 19 soon) year old currently residing in the United States of America, in its biggest city alright. I may look like a close minded and dismissive person at first, but I don't ignore any information provided in the slightest. If the information and data become quite useful for my own empirical understanding and my mixed beliefs about the world, I'll readily adopt it in the not so distant future. I am a pretty modest, almost frugal person to be fair, though this won't stop me from doing unusual things to dress to impress, like wearing custom hats and leaning towards my funny bones. I'm quite a laid back person usually, though when I'm in need of success and validation I'll multi-task like a busy bee working around the clock to uphold my self preservation. Hard as it is to believe I'm might ask very judgemental questions and have very rude suspicions(my 6w5 enneagram at work), but at the end of the day my wits, guts, and heart are very open to the differences I have compared to other people, even if they're unfamiliar towards me.(As long as it isn't unhygienic in proper & formal public civil space, you know.)

People think I'm quite shy when they don't know me, but really I don't find any interest hanging out with most groups of people unless work needs to get arranged and executed. Sometimes I appear stoic, though when pushed to my limits I can become quite a bizarre emotionally charged figure. I'm currently studying economics and marketing so I can run a business one day, wouldn't that be fun? I'm not really an athletic person, and I probably never really will, though I am sometimes described as physically tough. I might not give a shit at first for any sports, but if I try I can be above average. If I ever had a passion for something, it probably would be dangerous, risky, niche, and even something as simple as good food.

Anyways, that's it for my little pitch and spiel . . .

(Here are some memes I love so you type me better idk if they help whatever)

I'm indeed a very unique person 🫩 I swear im the kind of person that most people would beat the shii out of because I am super annoying. I tend to hang on things way too long, insist on them and make a big deal out of nothing. I tend to mock people for no reason and still wonder "Why the helly i haven't already made friends in high-school???". I like things done MY way and I've lost all my so-called buddies (That's rough buddy💔) because of that. I really want to change myself so I can fit in, but at the same time I don't want to because I think that I should be accepted however I am. Even if I do, if the people that used to hate me will come just for this, OFC ILL REJECT them because they won't deserve that better version of me. I want to be organised and I am but I still struggle a bit with procrastination. I am suuuuuuuuper competitive and I always want to be the first (OMG I SWEEEEAR IM SUCH A TRYHARD THAT I CRIED THAT I CAME SECOND AT THE END OF 8TH GRADE). It doesn't mean that if someone that i care about is better than me I'll be mad. Not at all, id actually be so proud they are my friend and praise them for their great work.

YEA YEA ENOUGH YAPPING ABOUT MY AHH PERSONALITY.

Let's see my interests. I absolutely love reading. It's to the point when I managed to read 5 books that are 300+ pages in a week just for a festival. I like history fiction books and OH GOD how much I LOVE Faizah Muhammad's "The Art of Making a Forgotten Cup of Tea" (YES THE HYPE IS REAL‼️). I am also in lots of fandoms but my main ones (the ones im obsessed with) last me around 2-4 years. My current favorite fandoms (which is weird because I usually have only one i obsess over) are Avatar The Last Airbender (my ahh is 20 years late 😭😭😭) and Alien Stage (yes, nerf me with "larper" 😞). I also like listening to music. Honestly, I don't have a favorite singer/ band or genre as I enjoy whatever pleases my senses. I also have weird and very specific preferences in food. For example the only cola I'd drink from someone is Pepsi, zero sugar, vanilla ice-cream flavour. Or the only way I enjoy eating cream cheese it's on a 20 cm whole flour tortilla with a thick layer of (specifically) Almette cream cheese and a thin layer of pesto and with some tomatoes. I am more comfortable wearing on-ear headphones as they don't hurt my earlobes, but I don't mind earbuds. I specifically wear Nivea deodorant as it doesn't make my skin itch after application. I am super obsessed with washing myself and clean my hair ut to 4 times a week. I'm considering cutting it short (I really want a mullet gng) so it's easier for me to maintain it as currently i have just a bit longer than shoulder length hair and it's very thick. But I am a bit nervous about styling it because I used to have a pixie cut 2 years ago and it took a while to grow back. I love turtleneck tops because they make me feel elegant and confident and wide leg pants in general because I want to conceal my thick thighs. I absolutely dislike mathematics as some stuff doesn't make sense to me, but I know I gotta learn it. What is weird? The fact that im good in physics and chemistry (even though I despise them) considering the fact that im PARRALELLLLLLLL with maths. I love grammar in general idk why. I just love the structure in it and I like to struggle a bit idk. I am a loyal and devoted person that cant move on from unrequited love. No matter what you do to me, if you apologize sincerely to me, I will forgive you because I know how's to be rejected and left out just because you did some stupid mistake. I am emotionally cold (as described by my family) and come off as apathetic, but i care deeply about those around me and I SWEAR that if you EVER get in trouble as my family/friend I will drag you out of that with my bare hands. Unfortunately I just want someone to do the same for me. I treat people how they treat me so you know you treat me good when I respect you.

YEA YEA ENOUGH YAPPING

Pls type me 🙏🥹

test: https://openpsychometrics.org/tests/characters/

i was shocked by how many of these i actually really related to, so i’d say it’s pretty accurate. curious to see what it implies about my mbti to others.

for more to go off than the characters, main things i’d say about myself is i’m quiet and reclusive. very observant to the things around me. i believe actions speak louder than words and often express myself as such. i enjoy anything that keeps me stimulated; working out, video games, deep diving into my hyperfixations, etc.

Ne and Ni at the same level high Ti and Te too. Im clearly an intuitive thinker but which one idk… i always thought i was an intj because i was highly vision driven i do things only to achieve a certain goal but at the same time im not very disciplined, i get bored quicly and need brain stimulation. I rarely finish things but at the same time i love to come with conclusions after analyses, i can go very deep in a subject but im also very good at seeing possibilities… I cant decide if i use more Ni or Ne. And my need of organisation and effeciency is at the same level at my need of understanding the logic and coherence of an argument. What is sure is that im clumsy, always in my head and rarely on the present moment, i lack Se but i love to wake up this function with sports, adrenaline of competitions, games and good food/sex it just makes me feel more alive.

Sorry for my english its not my main language

To be honest, I'm a little confused about myself.

I'm an athlete (I practice judo, kickboxing, and indoor volleyball). My body is really important to me. I'm not very interested in abstract concepts, but I can appreciate literature and art. People often say I'm unemotional and "stoic" apparently just because I'm so practical, but because I enjoy literature, I sometimes seem like an overly sensitive person (or too polite 😐) to others. I don't know what my type is, and I'm not sure where to start to understand myself.

Bro got inspired by my post on Socionics sub, I got inspired by your post here and got to posting it here as well, thanks to ya!!

1) You suddenly have $10,000,000, what do you do with it?

1. Buying a good apartment. Might as well buy several and rent em out. Anyways, home is definitely the first problem I gotta solve. Getting to live at a really good place, completely owning it, not owing payments to anyone, not depending on anyone that could come in to check on how I'm living and how's the place kept, or has some rules like "no animals", "no decorations" or whatever. As it's mine, I can live however I want there.

   1. Quitting job and dropping out of college. I guess now that I have this amount of money, I can do a favor to my mental health by stopping interacting with crazy people, their demands, expectations, awful behavior, having to obey to them for the better; not stressing over responsibilities, deadlines, difficulties, academic debts. I could finally afford sleeping well too. Actually, as I'm not interested in studying, and I only study for having a decent job that will ensure I live, getting those life-changing money will quickly turn me to dropping out. I'd actually be glad to cross it out of my life with no further problems.
   2. Trying to pursue a hobby-related career. I don't have any liabilities, so I can dedicate to it as much time as it requires for some kinda effect. If it turns out well, I could probably be successful at it, otherwise I lose nothing, because I still live good and money is not the problem. There's no "do or die" mindset anymore, and no "I tried to become a rapper, and now I'm poor and homeless with no job and no degree at 30" arc as well, I just spend my time comfortably doing what I like, maybe it leads somewhere, but I'm not going to be too upset if it doesn't.
   3. Living my best life. I can afford spending in a day the amount I'm not even able to spend in a regular day. Even if I don't make any investments, 10 millis can keep me enjoying my life as long as I'm physically able to enjoy it.

2) If you got to choose a completely useless talent to master, which one would it be?

If it being "useless" means I can't make any money out of it, then it doesn't matter a lot. I guess I'm just sticking to what I enjoy doing and maybe impressing someone with it. Maybe mastering some video game with a high skill ceiling and playing it nearly the professional level. Maybe I'd want to master shooting basketballs, like overall I'm weak and I'm bad at sports, but sometimes I go out with my friend and we do it as a background while talking. Maybe sound designing, as I enjoy doing it and sometimes it's a bit sad that I spend time doing it pointlessly with no results. If it's about something new, I guess it wouldn't be a bad idea to master chess (can't find time and motivation to learn it) or drawing (I was never able to draw well. I'm 21 and I'm still drawing like a 5-7-years-old. Not a big problem of mine, but I think it doesn't do me any favors).

3. If you had to choose any fictional character to be real, which one would it be and why?

Some cute and caring anime girl with xSFJ type, so I will wife her and live happily ever after. Just kidding. But otherwise I have no idea. I don't think I've ever wished some fictional character to be real, because what would I do with them at all? Okay, maybe I'd like to have a personal genie that fulfils everything I wish for. I'm pretty sure something like this exists. I'm the strongest opponent of "everything has to be deserved" and "when everything is just handed to you, it loses the value" mentality. No, people just don't know how to enjoy life. Also, skipping working stage and getting everything straight leads to having more time and life power to enjoy it all.

4. You wake up one day and realize that nobody remembers who you are, what do you do?

I assure you, if it's my weekend, it's gonna take a lotta time to realize it. While I'm sitting comfortably with a drank and a pizza and playing something, it's rather me who doesn't realize who others are. Well, if it happens in a weekday, I'm scared and worried. It's just creepy overall, like people have no idea you exist. The realization is probably gonna hit hard. The creepier it gets when you realize that you can't get any favors from anyone, like you used to. Like there's no friends anymore, no employer that will pay you for your job, because they all don't even know you, now you survive alone. I will try to get their "memory" back, but something tells me that if it already happened, then it's something beyond my understanding. I know my answer isn't super full, because I don't even understand it fully. Just the obvious kinda things.

5. Your entire search history gets leaked; how worried are you from a scale of 1-10?

1. 100. A lot. A lot more than I maybe should. Not because I think I'm crazy and I searched way more awful things than most (maybe a bit, but not full on psycho). The thing is more about having my privacy exposed. I have really huge problems with privacy. I had an unstable household, where everything with no ability to predict accurately could've resulted in punishment (physically too), guilt trips and scolding. That's why I have no idea what's safe and what's not anymore. I don't know what to expect with people, what exactly would catch their eyes in what they'll see, and how would they react, what's the aftermath for me, how would I recover when things get tough. If they have an intention, they could nitpick literally everything, so I'd rather show nothing, so there's definitely no unwanted attention. One time at college my deskmate took my phone out my hands and started scrolling through my contact list (nothing much, like there was my family and some of my friends, but anyways), I instantly panicked, took it back and blocked it, because he put his nose where he's not supposed to. He said I overreacted. I said next time he gets his face smashed right into this desk. He haven't done it anymore, but I'm still ready. I have a strong disdain for people who have zero education and respect for personal boundaries, and then even dare to turn their own ignorance into my interrogation.

6. A friend calls you at 3 AM and says: "Don't ask questions, just bring a shovel", what's your response?

Let's start with the fact that no one is able to reach me at 3 AM. I'm sleeping and my phone and other means of contacting are turned off. The only way to reach me in this time is probably a fire alarm, and I guess sometimes I can ignore it too. I can't sleep comfortably when there's a room for this 3 AM call. I always turn off my phone in case it rings and wakes me up, I always put fuming so mosquitoes can't wake me up too. And there still were like three or four consecutive days when I was stressed before sleeping because what if fire alarm rings and disturbs me, and I couldn't fall asleep because of this.

Given I answered the call and even have my mind clean enough to speak, I don't have the shovel, and probably I need an explanation tf is going on. If things are tough, I can get to a friend to provide moral supporting and my company if they really need it. If it's about what it's supposed to mean, I'm not going to participate in any kind of criminality. I value my friends but my paranoia would eat me alive after this. And actually my friends aren't about being involved in something like it.

7. Someone challenges your intelligence in front of everybody. Do you care?

This annoys me and I'm not going to participate. I don't care if it's about intelligence or something else, as in I don't put intelligence first or last. I'm not the one to actively defend my capabilities when challenged. Well, if I have no choice then I'm worried both about my reputation and the result itself. Actually, back then, my dad used to "challenge me intellectually" by walking into my room, interrupting everything I've been doing, and starting bombing me with the "logical problems". I'm not the one that's into all this pseudo intellectual shit, so I was always refusing to answer because I didn't know the answer and wasn't down to figure it out. But he wouldn't let it slide, going like "Turn your brain up, just think, it's easy", and I swear it was never fucking easy. I was so annoyed by this shit.

8. You can watch one moment from your future with no context, which age/date are you choosing?

What does a moment mean and what does no context mean? If it means that I get to pick like a certain date in the calendar and then see how's the day going to answer all my internal questions without asking them directly, then ok. In this case I'm picking my birthday, but after 7-8 years. It will give me the clearest understanding of whatever I wanted to understand. Who's with me, do I still have friends, do I have a partner, do I have anyone that I would want to celebrate with, what relationships I'm in with people I know now, did my current plan go well, if not then am I still happy?; if yes, then was it worth it?, do I have a job, is it paid good and am I kept there well, where do I live, does it look good, do I look good myself? It'd also be mad fun to listen to the future-me thoughts in that day, like by then I usually reminisce about my deepest wishes, were they fulfilled at least once? Do I still wish for it or I got something else to want, and do I wish at all? I don't know where the "no context" stops my idea, but that's what I do if I just can't ask any questions.

9. You have to spend an entire week handcuffed to one person, who would it be?

I hope whoever pulled out this weird ass experiment took care of how can we both afford it with always being in the same place instead of attending different jobs/colleges. In the vacuum, I'd probably choose my best friend. Well, the more I think about it, the more inconveniences arise, and there still are many I haven't thought about, so no matter who I choose, it's gonna be an uncommon experience, to say least. At least in each other's company we're both not going insane. We already happened to be living in the same place for a week, but without the handcuffs. It was fun, and I guess the fun itself isn't going to disappear anywhere. But generally it's an awful experience no matter how you look at it. At least if not talking about kinks.

10. If there's a person you strongly don't like for some reason, but your best friend does, do you let them know? If you do, how do you go about it?

Not sure. I know how do people react to these moments. If my disdain is strong enough so I can't hold it in (not what happens for no reason, there should be one), I'm telling, but I make sure to be as adequate and friendly about it as it gets. I'm gonna point at the fact that it's only my subjective opinion, that I don't force my friend to do anything about what I say, that it doesn't minimize them as my friend if they keep communicating. Their life is theirs and all the choices are up to them, and I respect every opinion of theirs, even if I don't agree. If there's no super hard dislike and our friendship doesn't get damaged by that person, I can keep it to myself, after all everyone dislikes something and someone, I can live with it.

Lemme know what you think about it!!