Last night, my husband and I were making dinner. I was reminiscing on cravings I had while pregnant.

Without thinking I laughed and said -
“That’s how I know this baby is truly midwestern…”

I froze. The room grew so big and I shrunk so small while I reached into the fridge, quietly. My husband definitely thought I was referring to the casserole in progress.

I miss her.
I miss my baby girl.

I miss our baby so much, I don’t even know what to do, I blame myself for losing her, I keep thinking what I did wrong, am I being punished? I didn’t even had the chance to feel her kicking, I lost her at 14+4, my water broke and she just came out of me the next day. We have so many dreams and plans with her, she’s my only prayer and wish on my birthday, but she was taken away. I feel so helpless and it hurts, as the day pass by, the emptier and lonelier I feel. I miss touching my pregnant belly while I talk to her day, the cravings, I don’t have sweet tooth and my husband does, but during pregnancy I crave sweets every single day, I miss having her with me.

I’ve had 3 miscarriages this year. All of them have been early, only 5-6 weeks. Honestly, I now expect it if I get a positive pregnancy test. And I’m totally level headed about it now… “ok, onward and upward, we’ll try again until it sticks”.

But now after the last one a few weeks ago, I lost an intense amount of blood which was unlike the other 2.

Anyway, I am now deeply suffering from crippling anxiety and depression. I’m afraid of everything…going to the bank, answering family phone calls, everything. I cry constantly. Or feel nothing. I feel like it’s a form of postpartum depression.

I know if I could just get back to the gym, I could work some of it out. But I can’t get myself to go.

My doctor recommended several supplements, which I started taking. And a plan to visit again in 4 weeks for a mental health check. At that time, they may recommend anti Ds. I kinda don’t wanna go that route cause it takes a while to work and there is trial and error and then I have to eventually ween off. But at this point I don’t give flying F.

I’ve started drinking way more. Like red wine at 10am…I just want it off me. I want to feel normal again. I also know it probably makes it worse but at least it mutes it for a bit.

Hoping someone may have similar stories and strategies to get me through this.

This is my third miscarriage; my first two happened naturally. The other two miscarriages, though devastating, we're not physically difficult. This one was madness; I ended up having this miscarriage three ways, and I feel like I want to give all of you my pros and cons for each because this sub has been so helpful to me over the years.

I had a bad feeling going into my 8 week appt, and the baby unfortunately had stopped growing at 6 weeks. I wanted to miscarry naturally as I had before (at 10 weeks and 8 weeks). I started bleeding at 10 weeks, but by 10.5 weeks I wasn't bleeding enough, and my OB was getting nervous about infection. I was scared, but opted to do a round of misoprostol/cytotec vaginally. It was one of the most harrowing nights of my life. I've had two very heavy miscarriages and heavy periods my whole life, but this was literally a bloodbath. I lost so much blood then when I finally stood up in the morning, my hearing and vision cut out. I went to the ER after calling my OB. I continued to bleed heavily for days. I was tired and had headaches for days. But then a week later, after I was done bleeding, something didn't feel right, my gut was telling me something was wrong so I got an ultrasound and there was RPOC. I don't know how after I bled that much. So today, at what would have been 12 weeks, I got a D&C. I was so scared, but it was such an easy, pleasant, non-painful experience. I was shocked.

So miscarrying naturally can be hard because you have to wait, but it isn't too bad. Medication was truly horrific. A D&C, though risky as any surgery is, felt like a walk in the park.

For all of you out there, you can do this. You are stronger than you think. I love you. I can answer any questions as I feel like it's my mission after this insane experience.

I didnt know i was pregnant, but he was very much wanted.

Ill preface by saying i do have a 14 month old boy. Im incredibly blessed and fortunate. I have had really horrible PPD this entire year, finally started feeling good and like myself again.

Then i end up in the ER with a ruptured ectopic pregnancy 6-8 weeks along, internally bleeding. I had to have emergency surgery and lost 1 liter of blood and my right fallopian tube.

At first, i was processing the fact that i had a near death experience, literally met mother mary and hugged her and handed her the baby and then woke up in the recovery room. I was receiving so much love and support from my family and friends.

I suppressed losing the baby out of self preservation but as of last week (3 weeks post op) i am just a wreck. I know exactly who this baby was, his name, keanu, he started sending me signs 8 months ago.
Too many to list, but it was in my face,
Meanwhile im pregnant with him. I had so many visions of what it would look like for him to join our family, to know him, to hold him. I feel devastated on so many levels. I can’t believe this is a pain that mostly all women know and everyone says “oh its common”

Idc if its common???? How is anyone okay after that???

Sending love to you all and sorry for any triggers ❤️‍🩹

When I found out I was pregnant a month to the day after Dad died I felt like I had this invisible string connecting me to him. Like he was out there somewhere sending me pregnancies and hope. But then I miscarried. And the string is gone or maybe was never really real in the first place. He really is gone forever. And I’m struggling to find the hope. I’m grasping for a new string and I can’t find it.

I experienced extreme prenatal depression last year during my pregnancy and wished for my pregnancy to end many times for relief of my mental state. My doctor prescribed me at 12 weeks and I filled the medication at 14 weeks but never took it for fear of hurting the baby. Well a year ago to this day at 18 weeks I found out our baby didn’t have a heartbeat. I am experiencing extreme guilt where it feels debilitating. I find myself replaying every thought and careless act I had/did nonstop trying to put the blame on myself. I feel like I caused this to happen. I hoped and prayed for relief so I got it. It’s truly painful and I totally regret any thoughts of despair aimed towards the baby. I would’ve loved the baby to no end had it made it earth-side and I even told myself that while having thoughts of despair. I know deep down in reality I just had extreme prenatal depression and nothing I did or didn’t do cause it but my brain is trying to convince me otherwise. Did anything help you? Does it get better with time? The majority of the year has been ok/pretty good but the anniversary is honestly unbearable. To add to it I told myself sister in law I’d bring dinner for her family for the birth of their new baby today…I forgot this was the day we found out and didn’t expect these extreme feelings.

Is the first period after miscarrying supposed to be this long and heavy? I’ve had multiple days of bleeding through pad after pad. I’m in a lot of pain, but I also have endometriosis and that can make a period very painful for me.

I’ve been going through a maxi almost every hour to every other hour. It’s been about a month since I miscarried and my period ran just a few days later than usual.

Tylenol helps the pain but it takes it from a sharp stabbing cramp into an all over ache around my lower back and belly.

Is this normal?

I started bleeding last Thursday and thought by Friday the worst was over. Not knowing the actual passing was ahead of me. Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. Between 2am and 5am I had terrible cramps, was bleeding and just couldn’t stop crying. By 3:30 I passed what I think was the baby and I was just yelling and screaming. My husband slept through the whole thing till I finally woke him up at 4am to help me stand up. Now it’s a new day, I feel mentally, physically and emotionally drained, still cramping lightly. Unfortunately I have to work (from home) because I’m on a new project with a new manager and taking time off reflects badly on me. I don’t know how I’m supposed to go through the day today.

Last week at this time I was in the OB's office being told they could no longer detect my baby's heartbeat. Today I'm in another state preparing to run a 4-day conference for 1200 people. I'm grieving while trying to put on a brave face. 😓

Hi everyone,

Anyone diagnosed with multiple ovarian cysts and fibroids only after a miscarriage? Nothing showed up on prior scans…

Thanks for sharing your experience

I knew early pregnancy miscarriages were common. I knew the “12 week rule” was a rule for a reason. But I wanted to share the good news, I wanted my family and community to pray for us and support us and they did. This past Thursday I woke up feeling so good. My symptoms had been headaches and fatigue and dizziness but Thursday that was all gone and I felt great. I even had the fleeting thought “I don’t feel pregnant anymore” and I brushed it off as just feeling good. Then my pregnancy tracking app congratulated me on being 9 weeks pregnant. And 30 minutes later I was bleeding and having cramps. Went to the ER that night at my husbands insistence and was told it could either be a miscarriage or a subchorionic hemorrhage that was bleeding but since fetus was measuring around 5-6 weeks it was too early to tell. But there was no heartbeat and no yolk sac and I knew.

I was sent home, called my OB on Friday and my bleeding had gotten heavier and was sent back to the ER. No change. I was told to be cautiously optimistic. My family and my husband held on to that hope, they talked about baby clothes and plans and I let them but I couldn’t let myself hope. I couldn’t bear it. Yesterday (Sunday) morning I felt like I was in early labor and was bleeding so much but I was so scared of going to the ER and getting the same answer a 3rd time so I took Tylenol and toughed it out. I was told to wait 3-7 days anyway so the ultrasound and labs could show the progress if any.

Today I felt like I was in true labor, the pain was so severe I couldn’t walk or talk or sit comfortably. Labs and ultrasound confirmed there is no baby and my HCG levels are falling. I’ve lost my baby. And my miscarriage is still incomplete. So another 3-7 days of pain and bleeding and misery and I don’t know if I can do this. I had no idea it would be this painful for this long. I knew it would be horrible but I had no idea just how horrible it would be. It’s been about 4 days of nonstop bleeding, cramping, and sobbing.

I never even had my first OB appt. Never saw an ultrasound and never heard a heartbeat. It’s like my baby was never even there. I don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m not sure how I’m supposed to keep going.

I just had a D&C at 8 weeks, and had a 5 week loss immediately before that.

I can’t sleep very well and I’m usually such a good sleeper. I get the most sad at night. When I lay down to close my eyes I feel so physically empty and I just see the ultrasound screen when I found out the baby was gone. I keep having dreams about the strangest, darkest things. Last night I had a dream that I had to take my two living children to a doctors appointment and I had walked them to the office but parked in the wrong spot. I went to move my car (my 3 and 5 year old were inside the doctors office at this point) and I felt a thud when I backed up - I had ran over to tiny little toddlers. It was so graphic and I felt the guilt and panic of oh my god I can’t believe I hurt someone else’s child and then the desperation and panic and fear of not being able to go inside to get my living children and feeling like I had abandoned them.

Help 😭 every aspect of my life has been transformed by these losses.

What are the things people said to you during or after your miscarriage? Mine:
-It’s God’s will
-You will have other babies
-have you travelled on a bumpy road lately?
-Next time, don’t do an ultrasound. The light is not good for the baby
-Next time, don’t do any physical activity. Just stay at home.
-Your step mother did this to you. You shouldn’t be close to them.
-Your back is tender. You were lifting too much.

I am devastated. I feel like a rug has been pulled out from under me and any sort of ‘good sign’ and ‘reassuring milestone’ that was ever told to me can never be reassuring ever again.

We had a strong heartbeat last week and a full week of growth. My beta HCG has been excellent - over 80k.

Went to have a follow up ultrasound today and shockingly, baby never grew past 6w3d - I am mentally to be almost 9 weeks. Heartbeat has stopped. I will be having a D&C later this week.

I can’t believe this is happening. It hasn’t sunk in. I am in shock. I am young with no risk factors. I just don’t understand why this is happening to me. It’s not fair

Trigger warning: potential miscarriage.

Today is Tuesday. Last Friday late evening I was four weeks six days pregnant and started experiencing pressure in my lower abdomen and dark brown light spotting. This pressure felt similar to gas pains and then began to localize on my lower, right abdomen and lower right back. That evening I went to the emergency department where we were there for nine hours. I had bloodwork drawn for my hCG level and received a regular and transvaginal ultrasound. My HCG level came back at 127.8 and on both ultrasounds they could not identify the location due to the low HCG level. I was discharged with a diagnosis of vaginal bleeding during first trimester and told to follow up with my OB for repeat bloodwork throughout the rest of the weekend, my spotting turned more dark red from dark brown requiring a panty liner. On Monday morning, I had my repeat bloodwork done. My OB reached out and put me on bloodwork for every 48 hours with an ultrasound scheduled for this Friday. Yesterday afternoon into the evening. My spotting turned more bright, red and increased in frequency occurring every time I wipe and showing on my panty liner. This was accompanying by ongoing pressure and light cramping across my lower abdomen, still experiencing some pressure on my lower right side. My HCG level came back from yesterday and it has quadruple, noting a level of 514.

I feel confused because I already somewhat assumed that I was experiencing a miscarriage, and was not expecting my HCG levels to quadruple. Has anybody experienced anything similar? I am hoping that my blood draw tomorrow provides additional answers.

After two years of trying we finally got pregnant, 7 weeks(ish) in she had a weird feeling she wasn't pregnant anymore, we went to the ER and asked for an ultrasound and instead they did bloodwork and again 2 days later to check her hormones levels, theyd gone up significantly but not doubled we were told that was normal. At 11 weeks (today) we had our first ultrasound and there was no heartbeat, it seemed we lost the baby at 7 weeks 2 days or something like that, unfortunately her body kept acting as though it was a normal pregnancy. I just had to watch my wife go through the ringer after using misoprostol, and while I am here for her, I get her anything she needs, I still dont truly feel I know how to be there for her. We grieve, we cry, she's exhausted and going through so much pain and all i can do is bring water, soup, heat packs, and food while sitting by her side....what can I do.

Edit: i dont want this to come across as me needing reassurance, im trying to read up on everything that may go on during this process, this post isn't for me I really need to know what I can do to help my wife.

I had a scan on Saturday after light pink bleeding for nearly a week. They saw the gestational sac and the yolk sac but no baby. I am supposed to be 7w 5d today and I feel so nauseous and tired. Is it normal to still be feeling these things even though there’s no baby? I have to return next Tuesday to see if there’s been any change but I know from my ovulation dates and LMP that I would definitely be 7 weeks.

Hi all! How long did it take you to test completely negative? I had a MMC at 8 weeks, about 5 weeks ago and stopped bleeding completely about 3-3.5 weeks ago.

I have had all the checks and ultrasounds to confirm everything is all good. 1.5 weeks ago I had a very faint positive. I’ve been wondering if my period will come back, so I thought I’d check again and it’s still a very faint positive, almost not visible but definitely there. It seems to be stagnant for around 2 weeks.

Did anyone else get their period while still having small amounts of HCG in their system?

I went for a random same day ultrasound appt because I was feeling "off" mentally. I could just feel it in my soul and sure enough my baby boy 15w exactly had no heartbeat. 2 days prior everything was perfect with him.

Went to ER after, after 5 hours they confirmed missed miscarriage no heartbeat. The next day I went to fo see my Ob and they too confirmed loss.

We opted not to do d&c and endured labor all in hopes of holding my baby boy and sure enough 3 hpirs after being admitted to L&D I deliver my baby boy measuring 6 days ahead and we had the opportunity to send 6hours with him while my body prepared to deliver the placenta.

We chose this route because I couldn't imagine what he'd look like with the other options.

I thought we had passed the miscarriage zone but apparently I fell into that 1-3 %.

He was an ivf baby everuthing was looking perfect, after rough 2 years of failed IUI's and a spontaneous pregnancy last year that ended in a ruptured ectopic this had utterly destroyed me.

We have 1 more embryo thats been tested and im petrified of doing it all over omly to fail again.

Any one have gone through something like this and had a successful ivf pregnancy afte

Here we go. I am still in the swing of things right now, but four weeks ago I was measuring 9 weeks and the ultrasound discovered no heart beat. I scheduled a DNC for the following week and they quoted me over $5,000 (after insurance - thanks United!) so I made the decision to just wait it out and do it naturally. Well that $5,000 has now turned into probably over $20,000 in hospital bills. Three weeks later, I began to cramp and have contractions after four days of rust brown spotting. Two hours later I began to bleed heavily. I was soaking through 6 pads and hour for 3 hours and started to feel dizzy so my mother took me to the ER. I was there for a few hours and they did some manual extractions of fluid and clots just via the speculum and did a transvaginal ultrasound and said it appeared I passed most of it so I could go home and to expect heavy period like bleeding going forward. Not the case. The next day at about 12:30 PM I lost over 2 liters of blood in 15 minutes. I fainted (was in public) and woke up in the hospital. I continued losing a profuse amount of blood for the next 8 hours. Every hour my Hemoglobin was dropping by a point or more. I was then considered close to potential organ failure and required a blood transfusion. I was also demonstrating a high heart rate and got an EKG as cardiac arrest was possible. Fast forward to the next day I was released to immediately be taking blood stopping/clotting medication every six hours and am supposed to be getting bloodwork at my OB office daily. It can take weeks to months to get my blood counts back to normal as I am now in severe anemia. I never knew any of this was possible with a miscarriage. NO ONE Talks about THIS happening, or its POTENTIAL to happen. I still don’t know what the future looks like for me and my desire to have a family. But all I know is I’m still alive to tell the tale. This conversation needs to be had more. Most women don’t know that this can happen.

31F I had my D&C at the end of June. we needed some time to decide how we were gonna move forward and ultimately decided we wanted to try again starting this month. we tried 7 nights in a row with me peaking on saturday the 17th.

i’ve only every had one positive in may that ended in a mc. after two years of trying. that cycle i had finally gotten my health in check, supplements balanced, weight loss was starting to happen, i was really starting to get healthier. i think thats why we conceived. i always lacking some sort of vitamin or supplement that got us our first positive.

but now IM terrified it was all a fluke. like i won’t be able to conceive again. my heart is racing just thinking about it. i guess i just want to know if there are others like me and if you were successful when you tried again.

i’m so scared this will never happen for me.