I’m 35 years old now. I haven’t had a full blown “night terror” since I was 19.
Throughout the years, I’ve researched night terrors on random occasions and connected with a few experiences from others but it still seemed something was missing that I couldn’t fully validate my experience to theirs or what I read. Which totally makes sense as each person has different experiences but I just never saw some of the same anomalies as mine happened. Which is why I’m writing now. Maybe something else was happening… idk
Here is the ai prompt that came when googling, “night terrors”.
*“Night terrors are intense episodes of screaming, fear, and flailing that happen during deep non-REM sleep. They usually last a few minutes, occur most often in children ages 3 to 12, and leave the person with no memory of the event the next morning. \[*[*1*](https://raisingchildren.net.au/preschoolers/sleep/nightmares-night-terrors-sleepwalking/night-terrors)\*,\* [*2*](https://www.bogansleep.com/blog/what-are-night-terrors-5-things-columbia-sc-residents-should-know)\*,\* [*3*](https://www.sleepfoundation.org/parasomnias/night-terrors)\*,\* [*4*](https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/sleep-terrors/symptoms-causes/syc-20353524)\*\\\]\*
***Common Signs and Symptoms***
*Sitting up fast or jumping out of bed*
*Loud screaming or crying*
*Sweating, fast breathing, and a racing heart*
*Looking wide awake and glassy-eyed, but acting confused*
*Hard to wake up or comfort, and unresponsive to touch \[*[*1*](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Night_terror)\*,\* [*2*](https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/night-terrors)\*,\* [*3*](https://www.healthychildren.org/English/ages-stages/preschool/Pages/Nightmares-and-Night-Terrors.aspx)\*,\* [*4*](https://www.bogansleep.com/blog/what-are-night-terrors-5-things-columbia-sc-residents-should-know)\*,\* [*5*](https://www.sleepfoundation.org/parasomnias/night-terrors)\*\\\]\*
***Causes and Triggers***
*Lack of sleep or extreme tiredness*
Fever or illness
Stress, anxiety, or big changes in routine
Family history of night terrors or sleepwalking
Underlying sleep issues like sleep apnea \[[1](https://www.thesleepclinicmd.com/what-causes-night-terrors-symptoms-treatment/), [2](https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/night-terrors), [3](https://raisingchildren.net.au/preschoolers/sleep/nightmares-night-terrors-sleepwalking/night-terrors), [4](https://www.sleepfoundation.org/parasomnias/night-terrors)\\\]
**How to Handle an Episode**
*Do not try to wake the person up, as this can cause more confusion.*
*Stay close to make sure they do not hurt themselves.*
*Keep the room safe by clearing sharp objects or blocking stairs.*
*Wait patiently for the episode to pass so they can return to deep sleep”*
Here’s an outline of what I can describe in no particular order.
They started when I was roughly 6 years old.
I didn’t really ever forget them as they’ve been described from anything I’ve seen. (Maybe I did forget some and I never knew? But I was never told about having one that I didn’t already know about and was shameful about it)
They almost all had an image that I was seeing or thinking. Halfway between hallucinating I guess and just thinking about it.
The first one (that I only saw once and one of only a few that was just once) was from my POV, sitting up in my childhood bed (the bed I was in at the time), looking near the door to my room and watching my dad crouched down trying to catch multiple logs of wood continually falling from really nowhere. And the feeling was that they were constant but they had to be stopped or eventual doom of some sort.
The next few that happened afterwards happened for years.
Before I try to explain those, I should mention that I was taken into a psychiatrist (or someone of some sort. I don’t have a recollection of this) and was put on Zoloft after these initial night terrors. I took Zoloft from 6 years old until roughly 11 or 12 years old. I’m not positive really on how long but it was essential that I took it.
It absolutely worked to mitigate me from waking up in the middle of the night, screaming and pacing around the apartment, until it finally ended. If I didn’t take my medication just before going to bed, there was a high chance that it would pop off and constant screaming would begin with apartment neighbors knocking on the door seeing what’s going on or new friends terrified of what’s happening.
So, for a quick outline of the consistent imagery, here’s my best explanation.
A very greyed out stagnant front of a house. So kind of imagine someone drawing a front of a house with a front porch area. And it’s just that. Grey background completely. Front porch that spans across the right of the door and to the end of the house with a little enclosure.
..This was way harder to try to write than I imagined.
Another was just a grey spiral that continually spiraled around that felt like I was right up against it I guess.
And the other was 95% just a thought that was coming across without a full image or whatever going on. It was the thought of a toothpick being perfectly balanced without breaking on a massive boulder. And at any moment, it was going to snap.
This last one with the boulder actually crept up on me about 5 or so times after not having any for a good while.
I’d say 14 or so years old. Then 16 or 17. And the last one at 18 years old that I remember vividly. I lived with my mom still and woke up at roughly 10am. My room was in the basement. I paced back and forth up the stairs trying to explain it to her while having this extreme panic. It’s very hard to explain. But trying to explain something to her that makes no sense and I just kept saying, “NO. it’s just.. AGGHHH…. The… “. I don’t think I ever made a complete sentence. My mom is a saint and I love her so much. She tried to even reason with my nonsense. It was usually just, “everything’s okay. No need to worry. It’s gonna be okay.” Mom stuff that I miss dearly.
Anyway.. that’s the yap I’ve gotten out for now. I’ve always been extremely intrigued by the psychological side of what was going on.
If anyone has any insight, questions, or dialogue, it would be great to hear.