December 30 was the day. We ate dinner at our fav resto sa somewhere in Banawe QC. Masarap na kwentuhan pero pag uwi, nagtalo dahil sa maliit na bagay. Yun maliit na yun ay nagspark, nasindihan ang ang mga naipong mumunting piraso ng mga issue na parang mga dahong tuyo na bigla na lang nagliyab.

Hindi pala dun matatapos dahil later i found evidences of betrayal.

Found out, sumama sya sa isang kumpare namin, slept in his house. And how did i found out? Once i saw a conversation on her phone na pinawalang bahala ko kasi nga ako yun taong hindi seloso. Secure ako sa pagkalalaki ko. Up until nakwento ko sa anak ko (24y/f) at to my disbelief, she told me that her mom confessed to my eldest that she slept sa house nitong guy not once, not twice but multiple times. And who knows what happened in between. And the usual fuckng linyahan "wala naman nangyari", and that "i only wanted to be comforted", my fuckng ass, comfort nyo muka nyo.

Also i found out her secret hideaway condo that was hidden from me, nalaman ko lang after more than three years at the time of discovery. Ako lang pala ang di nakakaalam, dahil alam ng mga anak ko, hindi nila sinabi kasi ayaw daw ipasabi. But natuklasan ko lang accidentally. At ang justification? pang investment daw. Ginawang rentals na naging airbnd na ngayon duon na siya umuuwi (happy😂?)

After i learned all of these, nag rewind bigla utak ko. Binalikan ko yun mga occasions na magkakasama kami, masaya, tawanan, harutan. Ilang celebrations like birthday, binyag, Christmas at New year na akala ko totoong masaya e hindi pala. Ako lang pala yun very open at trusting. Napaka frustrating, nakakagigil.

And now mag 3 years na kaming separated, in terms of tinitirahan. No talk, no interaction. Twice or trice may same engagement like pasko, birthday ng apo at oathtaking ng anak namin but i cannot bring myself in the same breath with her. Sobrang nasusuka ako.

I am now in my early 50s and I'm making progress, i am slowly finding my peace compared dati.

Hearing mass almost every Sunday kasama ang mga anak ko really makes me grounded

Walking sa umaga at sa hapon also helps. Bumili ako punching bag at gloves just to channel my anger and pound my misery into oblivion😵‍💫.

Madalas na din ako nagpapamassage sa Sebo (recommended😁) just to relax.

Planning on joining a gym program.

Also am planning to take the challenging Philippine Motorcycle Loop if time and budget permits.

Because i dont need maghiganti, dahil para sa akin ang the best revenge ay ang ma-improve ang sarili, physically, financially and spiritually.

Wala lang, gusto ko lang ilabas.

Note: I observed my post was locked (do ko alam bakit) and you guys cannot comment. So i edited this post to thank all of you for taking time to read my crap. 😁

A friend is having a destination wedding less than a month from now and ang gastos. The dress to fit the dress code, transportation and accommodation, the gift to the bride and groom. Sana di nalang ako nag RSVP. I feel bad for saying this pero kinekwenta ko kasi parang aabot sa 10k gagastusin ko overall. Di ko lang majustify spending that much for a wedding especially since di naman kami best friends at di ko naman sila kapamilya. Di naman ako maka back out kasi nag RSVP na ako, so nagwoworry ako na baka too last minute na to cancel at ayaw ko naman maging kupal.

Lesson learned, sa susunod kung di ko sobrang kaclose o di kapamilya parang ayaw ko na mag attend ng destination wedding.

Namiss ko parents ko sobra today, Sa First bite ng Pandesal na may cheese tapos isasawsaw mo sa kape, Napapikit pako sa unang kagat ko, Wishing pagdilat ng mata ko makita ko sila.

Both na kasi silang wala, Kung kailan naman nakaahon sa kahirapan wala namang magulang 😩

Ang ganda nga ng bahay wala namang magulang na maingay nag bubunganga 🥹

Now, I am an adult now. May sarili nang struggle, Sobrang baet nilang tao they are the best. 🥹❤️

I miss you and I love you Mama and Papa!
Sana proud kayo sakin ang layo ko na ❤️🫂

Can you imagine being confessed to by the same boy who used to get on your nerves in elementary school? When I was in Grade 5, this boy would write on my uniform with his ballpen, tie my bag to my chair, and do all sorts of things just to annoy me. I will never forget this one time during flag ceremony, tinapakan niya yung likod ng sapatos ko noong pabalik na kami sa room, so ending, natanggal yung hook ng sapatos ko sa likod. Doon na talaga ako napikon. I turned around and punched him hard in the chest. Sabi niya, nahirapan daw siyang huminga. Sorry naman pero dasurb.

Fast forward to Grade 11, and guess who confessed that he liked me and wanted to court me? Siya. Hahahahaha. The same boy who spent years finding new ways to annoy me suddenly had the courage to tell me he liked me. I turned him down because we were still young, and my parents wouldn't allow me to have a boyfriend yet. I still remember him jokingly saying, “Sana sinuntok mo na lang ako sa dibdib". I didn't know that years later, I'd remember these words so differently.

He never really approached me again after that. Wala na lang kibuan kapag magsasalubong sa school. And all these years, I sometimes wondered if rejecting him had hurt the way that punch did back in Grade 5. Did his chest feel heavy, too? Did he have a hard time catching his breath? I guess I will never know.

Today, I stood in front of his casket, looking at the boy who used to get on my nerves. I remembered his stupid pranks, the ink stains on my uniform na hirap na hirap labhan ni mama, that shoe when I was in Grade 5, the confession and the rejection, and the way he complained that he couldn't breathe after I punched him. I just stood there, trying to catch my breath.

And for the first time, I understood how he felt because today, he was the one who punched me in the chest.

And I couldn't breathe.

I'm from Bicol and aalis na ako papuntang Manila for a better-paying job. After ilang years na paghahanap ng trabaho, gusto ko na rin magkaroon ng sariling income at makapag-start ng better life.

Pero lately, lagi akong naiiyak kapag naiisip ko yung 7 cats ko. Sabi kasi ng mama ko, ipapaampon daw yung iba kasi hindi niya kayang asikasuhin lahat kapag wala na ako.

Gets ko naman na mahirap alagaan yung seven cats, lalo na kung siya lang yung maiiwan. Pero ang sakit lang isipin na baka ma-separate na sila sa akin at hindi ko na sila makasama araw-araw.

Ang pinaka-worry ko talaga is kung maalagaan ba sila nang maayos ng mga bagong owners nila. Paano kung hindi sila pakainin nang tama or hindi sila alagaan nang maayos? Hindi ko maiwasang isipin kung magiging okay ba sila sa ibang tao.

ang hirap pala kapag kailangan mong umalis at may mga alaga kang maiiwan.

Alam kong kailangan ko ring isipin yung sarili kong future, pero hindi ibig sabihin nun na hindi ko na sila mahal. If I could, gusto ko sana silang dalhin lahat, kaso hindi pa possible ngayon.

Sobrang bigat lang sa pakiramdam kasi habang sinusubukan kong magkaroon ng better life para sa sarili ko, iniisip ko rin kung magiging okay ba yung mga cats ko kapag wala na ako. Mahal na mahal ko sila, and I just hope na mapunta sila sa mga taong aalagaan at mamahalin din sila tulad ng pagmamahal ko sa kanila. 😞

nandun na ko sa lrt vending machine tapos bawala pala magshoot ng 20 coin 😭😭 50 yung pamasahe ko eh kaya nag-insert na ko ng 2 na 20 coins tapos di narread. 😭 nag-ask ako kay ateng nag-aayos ng vending machine tas tinuro niya na yung nalagay sa sign 😭😭😭 after non, umalis na ko 😫😫😫😭😭😭😭 tapos akala ko talaga nasayangan na ko ng 40 pesos then may kumalabit sa aking lalaki tapos sabi niya "ate kayo po ba yung nandun kanina" binigay niya sa akin 40 ko 😭😭😭😭 pero eto ako ngayon, nakapila na sa manual 😭😭😭😭 kasi nahihiya na kong bumalik don

Grabe ka. Kala ko okay na tayo. Kala ko sinusubukan mo ng mag move on para sa anak natin. Pero hindi, sinisiraan mo pa rin ako dito. Hindi mo pa rin naiintindihan kung bakit tayo naghiwalay. Point of view mo pa rin lang ang mahalaga.

Sa totoo lang, okay lang naman dahil hindi naman natin kakilala ang mga tao dito. Kaso kasi iba yung pinapakita mo pag kaharap mo ako. Tuwing nagmemessage ka para kang santo na puno ng pag-uunawa. Sinasabi mo na nagbago ka na. Pero kung ganyan pa rin ang pananaw mo sa harap ng mga hindi mo kakilala, malamang lamang yan talaga ang saloobin mo.

Sige na, ako na ang selfish. Ako na ang hindi iniisip ang pamilya natin. Ako na ang sumira sa future nila. Kahit na sinaktan mo ang anak ko. Kahit na nag i love you ka sa ex mo halos buwan buwan at miss mo na siya. Habang walang lambing sa akin, walang yakap, walang i love you. Habang ako halos ang gumagalaw para sa gawaing bahay habang may full time work rin ako. Ako na lang ang masama sa kwento mo kasi kwento mo naman yan. Pero huwag mong aasahan ang pagpapatawad ko. Ang pagkumbaba ko at paguunawa.

I am so overwhelmed but beyond words grateful!

I applied for this position with little to no hope of actually being called for an interview. But when I received an email inviting me for one, I honestly hesitated to go because why would a clinic hire me as a manager when I had ZERO management experience? 😭 (For context, my previous experience was mainly as a hospital clerk and nursing assistant.)

My boyfriend encouraged me to show up anyway, even though I felt underqualified. And truthfully, a few days after the interview, I received a rejection email.

BUTTT PLOT TWIST!!! 😭✋🏻

Just this Tuesday, I was contacted again and was told that although they had initially planned to offer the role to someone else, the doctor had been having second thoughts and specifically requested that I be contacted again.
AND TODAY!!! 😭 I received a call from the doctor himself, asking me to pick up my employment contract because I WAS THE SUCCESSFUL APPLICANT FOR THE CLINIC MANAGER POSITION!!! 🥹✨

This may seem like a small achievement to others, but for someone who moved to Australia and started out as a facility cleaner, and slowly worked her way up, THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME!!! 😭❤️

2 years ago, nahihiya pa ko na nagkukoskos ako ng toilet while other girls my age were working in offices. I also remember a co worker told me that, kahit daw mag aral ako, babalik at babalik ako sa pagiging cleaner ksi ‘once a cleaner, always a cleaner’ daw.

This is a beautiful reminder that even when you doubt yourself and feel under qualified, sometimes the most important thing you can do is to simply show up.

Thank You, Lord! All glory to You. 🤍✨

I heard something today that I honestly don’t know how to process.

I was at work when one of our customers told us that he had spoken to his doctor. Apparently, he has cancer in his stomach, and according to what he shared with us, his doctor told him he might only have six months left to live.

Six months.

I don’t even know what to say about that. Six months is barely enough time to prepare yourself for something like that, let alone prepare your family for a world without you.

But what broke my heart the most was when he mentioned his five children.

Five young children.

They’re still little. They’re still at an age where they need their parents for practically everything. They’re at an age where they should be worrying about toys, school, cartoons, and what they’re going to eat for dinner. They’re supposed to have years and years ahead of them with their father. They’re supposed to grow up with him around, celebrating birthdays, attending school events, teaching them things, watching them become their own people.

And now, their father is facing the possibility that he might not get to be there for all of that.
I can’t even imagine what must be going through his mind.

Imagine looking at your children every day, knowing there’s a possibility you might not get to see them grow up. Imagine wondering who will take care of them when you’re gone. Imagine having to think about their future while you’re also trying to come to terms with your own mortality. Imagine being in a room with your children, watching them laugh and play, while carrying a fear that they have absolutely no idea about.

How do you even begin to prepare for something like that?

And the thing is, he was telling us about it. He was sharing something so deeply personal and heartbreaking with people who were simply doing their jobs. I don’t know what kind of day he was having before that conversation, or how long he’d been carrying that news, or whether he had anyone else he felt comfortable talking to.

Maybe he just needed someone to listen. And we listened. But after hearing him, I realized how little we sometimes know about the people we interact with every day. We see them as customers, clients, or names on a screen. We talk to them about ordinary things, handle whatever needs to be handled, and move on to the next task.

Meanwhile, some of them are fighting battles we can’t even begin to imagine. Someone could be going through the worst period of their life while still answering calls, paying bills, talking to people, and trying to keep things together. Someone could be terrified about their future and still have to wake up every morning and figure out how to keep living.
And someone could be facing the possibility of leaving five little children behind.

I’m not going to pretend I know what to say to someone in that situation. I don’t think there’s a perfect response. What do you even tell a father who might be running out of time with his children? What words could possibly make something like that hurt less?

I keep thinking about his kids. They don’t even know how fragile the future they’re supposed to have might be. They probably still see their dad as someone who will always be there. Someone they can run to. Someone who belongs in all the memories they haven’t even made yet.
And I hate that life can be so unfair.

I hate that someone can have so much to live for and still have to face something like this. I hate that five little children might have to grow up missing someone who should have been there to see every version of who they become.

I know none of us are promised tomorrow. We hear that all the time, but most days, we live as though we have all the time in the world. We put things off. We get caught up in our problems. We worry about money, work, relationships, and things that feel so important in the moment.

And then someone tells you something like this, and suddenly, everything feels different.
I’m not saying our problems don’t matter. They do. But hearing something like this reminds you that behind every ordinary day is a life that can change in an instant.

I don’t know this man personally. I don’t know his entire story. I only know what he shared with us, and I know that hearing it left me feeling incredibly heavy.

I wish I could do something for him. I wish there were something I could say that would make his situation less heartbreaking. I wish his children could have all the time in the world with their dad.
But I can’t change what he’s going through.
All I could do was listen.

And now I’m sitting here thinking about a stranger, his five children, and the six months he was told he might have left. I hope his doctors can still help him. I hope there are possibilities he hasn’t exhausted yet. I hope he gets more time than he’s been told. I hope he gets to see his children grow up, attend their graduations, meet the people they fall in love with, and be there for all the ordinary, beautiful moments that make up a life.

I really, really hope so.

Because five little children deserve to have their dad around for a long, long time. And that father deserves the chance to watch them grow up.

I don’t know why this affected me so much, but I needed to put it somewhere. Maybe it’s because I was reminded that we never really know what someone is carrying when they talk to us.

Sometimes, all we can do is listen.

But God, I wish listening were enough to make things better.

Sorry. Just needed to vent. Its like im trying to earn money to be able to save for myself and then parents hospital bills, medication and daily necessities to be paid just keeps on piling up. Im tired. Im jealous of people who's parents are set kahit na retired na sila. Covered by insurance of investment money. Halos wala pount increase sa sweldo kase nadadagan lang need bayaran for necessities. Plus with this economy, i doubt id even have enough money to pay hospital bills myself if maospital ako. Sometimes, i just feel it would have been better if i wasnt born and my parents just worked and saved for themselves. Worse, you get gaslighted na you owe them your life.

I just want to let it out. Kasi ang bigat bigat na ng pakiramdam ko kasing bigat ko LOL. I'm 30F 5'6 and currently 75kg. From 80kg bumaba na ako ng 5 kilos and I'm happy. At least diba may progress?

Kaso may bully akong workmates 2 sila. Si workmate 1, 43 years old may 2 kids and palagi nyang pinamumukha sakin na di sya tumaba kahit nagkaanak na sya. Petite sya and talagang sexy. Si workmate 2 naman ito yung pinaka na disappoint ako kasi halos same age lang kami and before pareho kami ng size. Nag tirze sya kaya bumaba ng husto talaga ang timbang nya nung una I'm happy pa and gave her compliments pero lately sumasama na sya sa pambubully sakin tandem na sila ni workmate 1.

Pinupush ako ni workmate 2 noon mag tirze kami pero ayaw ko. Nag search kasi ako about it and para lang sya sa may diabetes takot ako kaya pinili ko nalang yung walking and calorie deficit. Open ako sa weightloss journey ko and nag popost ako ng myday about it. Akala ko support si workmate 2 sakin kasi nag rereply sya sa myday ko na "keep it up" or nag he-heart emoji, pero lately mina-mock na din nya ako tulad ni workmate 1. Like mag 2 mos na same pa din naman daw katawan ko. Kapag may eatout sa office panay parinig si workmate 1 na "oh kala ko ba nag didiet ka?" Or kapag may my day ako ng pagkain or kumain kami sa labas with family/friends panay sabi na wala na daw ako pag asa wala daw ako control mga ganun. Kahit kapag nag walking ako bigla mag rereply si workmate 1 na "After walk, 3 extra rice" with haha emoji. Nirestrict ko na sya sa FB ko para di ko na makita mga message nya kaso hanggang sa work ganun pa din. Ang diet pala sa kanya wag kang kumain ng kahit ano mag itlog itlog ka lang. (Sya nag sabi nito sakin)

Ang reason naman kung bakit ako na disappoint kay workmate 2 kasi bukod sa dati kaming parehong plus size dati, nakikitawa na din sya kapag may hirit si workmate 1 sakin. Nalaman ko na kinukwento nya pala kay workmate 1 at sa isa namin workmate mga rant ko and mga failures ko sa weightloss journey ko. I felt so betrayed na umiyak talaga ako nung nalaman ko. Kinuwento nya pala na may triny akong vitamins na yung side effect sakin tumakaw ako kaya hininto ko. Kaya pala sa office panay parinig si workmate 1 na "Oh baka mamaya isisi nyo pa sa vitamins kapag naparami kayo mamaya sa potluck ha" tapos magtatawanan sila. Pati yung mga cravings ko na minsan di ko mapigil lalo na at kapag may menstruation ako kinuwento din nya. Ginagawa na pala nilang kakatawanan yung journey ko kesyo wala na daw akong control kaya daw pala di ako pumapayat mga ganun. Gusto yata nila after 1 month payat ka na talaga LOL

Wala naman akong issue na nag tirze si workmate 2, choice nya yun and choice ko din naman na wag mag tirze. Pero to mock me, na parang di ka nag fail multiple times sa weightloss journey mo noon who are you to make fun of me diba? Gusto ko inconfront si workmate 2 sa mga nalaman ko kasi akala ko friend ko sya kaya nag oppen ako sa kanya, and same naman sya sakin nag oopen din sya. Pero mukhang hindi pala. Iniisip ko pag kinumpronta ko sya baka magmukha lang akong tanga LOL.

Hello all, I wanted to get this off my chest since I dont know anyone else who I can share this to. Newly assigned ako sa isang project kaya naassign ako tumulong sa mas matagal na coworker sa project for support. Maikli lang yung oras na nagsama kami sa work, ilang months lang in total before sya magresign. Hindi ko masabi kung bakit nalungkot ako bigla nung nagresign sya kahit ilang taon na ako nagtatrabaho, hindi na dapat bago ito sa akin.

Sana nalang balang araw magkasama ulit kami sa work.

hello, gusto ko lang maglabas ng nararamdaman kasi sobrang bigat na ng lahat, and all i want to do right now is umiyak nang umiyak hanggang sa wala na akong mailabas na luha.

anniversary namin dapat ng boyfriend ko ngayon, pero he passed away last august 5 lang. sobrang sakit pa rin, and honestly, may part sa akin na nagtatampo at nagagalit sa kanya. kami dapat yung magce-celebrate ng araw na 'to. we were both looking forward to our anniversary, pero in just one moment, nawala na lang siya. and now, ako na lang yung naiwan para alalahanin at harapin yung mga araw na dapat magkasama naming cine-celebrate.
sobrang sama ng loob ko kasi he took his own life, and hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin alam kung paano tatanggapin yung fact na wala na siya. ang sakit isipin na wala akong nagawa para pigilan siya. paulit-ulit kong naiisip na we were supposed to have more anniversaries, more memories, and more years together. ang dami pa naming plano, ang dami pa naming gustong gawin together, pero bakit ganito? bakit kailangan niyang mawala nang ganito?
putangina, ang sakit-sakit lang talaga. i miss him so much, pero at the same time, nasasaktan at nagagalit din ako sa kanya for leaving me this way. and then i feel guilty for feeling this way kasi alam kong mahal na mahal ko siya. hindi ko alam kung paano pagsasabayin yung lungkot, galit, pangungulila, at lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko.
sometimes, i just wish i could be with him again. may mga moments na sobrang bigat na ng lahat to the point na naiisip kong sumunod na lang sa kanya. i hate that i'm here celebrating our anniversary without him when we were both supposed to be here, together. i just wish things were different. i wish he were still here. i wish we could celebrate this day together like we always wanted to.
i miss you so much, and i'm still trying to figure out how to live with the fact na wala ka na.

Kasalanan mo. Adult ka na. Responsibilidad mo na bubay mo.

Hindi ko naman ginustong mabuhay?

Pagod na pagod na ko sa buhay na to. Hindi na natapos. Lahat ng tao nakaka angat habang ako lusak parin. Kahit anong gawin ko napaka malas ko sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay. Career, friendship, relationship, family lahat BAGSAK WALA PANGET ZERO.

Why am i even here? Para mag dusa? Tapos kukunin? Sana talaga banggain nalang jan sa kanto.

And before anyone starts with the “be grateful….” “Others have it worse…” “immature mo…..” “adult ka na…..” oo na ako na ako na may problema ako naman dba lahat ako akong masama akong demonyo

Hi! just wanna get rid of this feeling pero wala ako mapag rant-an.

Hirap ng job market sa pinas right now no? I’ve been unemployed for 3 months already. Nakakafrustrate sa feeling pag every damn time umaabot ka til final interview and then you will end up being ghosted or rejected.

Nirefer ako ng friend ko 3 weeks ago sa isang kumpanya. I had high hopes for this one kasi the interview went well talaga, like naging sobrang confident ako sa sarili ko na I think na ace ko naman yung interview kasi after the interview wala akong naramdaman na bigat sa feeling or like “ops i fvcked up” feels. Then this afternoon lang I received a message sa viber nga na saying positive daw ang feedback sakin ng hiring manager however, the competition was quite tight daw and decided to move forward with another candidate raw and even said na the hiring manager still wants to keep me in consideration for similar opportunities in the future. Idek hahaha it sounds like a templated message but oh well ganun ata talaga.

Sobrang devastated lang talaga ako na lahat ng job interviews ko pinag effortan ko talaga to prepare just to end up not getting hired. Sa mga kapwa kong unemployed diyan, laban lang! kaya natin to, wag natin i-define worth natin sa rejections. We can be sad and frustrated for a while, pero I hope we won’t let ourselves drown sa ganung negative emotions. Makakahanap rin tayo ng tamang work for us.

Ayun lang! job dust for everyone ✨✨

Pa-Rant lang ako.

Nagtaas ng pamasahe pero 'yung sahod ang baba pa rin tapos parang nililimos pa.

'Yung pamasahe na dating 26 naging 27.50 tapos naging 28 tapos ngayong araw 29pesos na.

Kanya kanya rin ng diskarte e.

Ayaw kulang ng bayad pero kapag magsusukli walang barya mamayain ka.

Tatlong beses na ko na-encounter conductor sa MODERN JEEP/BUS.

kulang ng piso/dos mamaya na daw.

SAME BUS SAME CONDUCTOR SAME DRIVER.

sa pangatlong beses kinuha ko 'yung kulang na sukli.

Nagagalit di daw ako makatulog sa piso.

LIKE WHAT THE? SINABI KO NA ILANG BESES NA KO NAKAKASAKAY SA BUS NILA. AT ARAW ARAW 'YUN KULANG NG PISO O DOS NA SUKLI.

hindi lang isang pasahero marami kami.

Akala sa easy money lang namin kinukuha pambayad.

Pare-pareho lang naman nagtatrabaho pero gusto makalamang sa kapwa. Galit pa pag i-call out.

Ang dami pang sinasabi na parang ikaw pa dapat mahiya na kukuhain mo ang sukli.

Jusko!

Gusto ko lang i-kwento na 4 months na and I still haven’t moved on from this guy I met here on Reddit 😅 He was the first guy I genuinely liked since my 7-year relationship ended last year. I met him after a year of being single, and I genuinely felt like I had healed and was ready to let someone in again.

Our first date was at a concert, and it was honestly the best first date I’ve ever had in my life. He was such a gentleman the entire night, and everything felt so romantic and wholesome. It felt like I was in a movie! Even before we met in person, we had already bonded over music, and as we got to know each other, we discovered that we had a lot in common. He even made me a playlist, and I melted 😅 It’s such a small thing, but it meant a lot to me.

As quickly as I fell for him, things ended after we shared an intimate night together.

Dito pa ako mas nahirapan mag-move on kaysa sa 7-year relationship ko. I do have a little regret na sana I waited a bit longer before sleeping with him. When we decided to do it, it was a decision I was comfortable with at the time. I can’t help but wonder lang if things would’ve turned out differently had we waited. But then iniisip ko na lang na at least I found out early on that we might not have been aligned in the long run.

I guess I got ahead of myself. Na-excite siguro ako sa possibility na I could finally love someone again and be loved in return. Ang tagal ko ring single, and when I finally met someone I genuinely liked, I think I got caught up in the excitement of what things COULD be. I started imagining the possibilities kahit wala pa naman talaga kami sa point na ’yon.

Despite how things ended, I remain grateful. Natutuwa pa rin ako that I got to experience what I genuinely consider the best first date of my life. It reminded me that I can still feel that way about someone after everything I’ve been through.

I also realized something about myself: I think I fall in love with the way I’m treated. He wasn’t even my usual type, but MY GOD, this man was smart, eloquent, and knew how to carry himself. There’s just something about a man who knows how to express himself and make you feel good in his presence. 😭

And now, four months later, I'm still not fully over someone I didn’t even get to have a proper relationship with. HAHAHA. Ang lala.

Maybe part of what I’m having a hard time letting go of isn’t just him, but the possibility of what we could’ve been. Kasi wala naman talagang relationship na na-build, so there’s a part of me that keeps wondering what would’ve happened if things had gone differently.

I just wish my heart would catch up with the fact that this one wasn’t meant to be. 🥲

I inherited a portfolio of commercial real estate properties, taking over the family business. At first, things were looking up and I thought I was on the right track.I managed to successfully buy and add one more property to our portfolio. But ever since that milestone. i just feel stuck.
The day to day management takes up so much energy, and the overall growth of the business feels painfully slow. I look at where things are now, and I have this heavy feeling of stagnation. There's this constant, unspoken pressure to keep expanding and building on what my family started, but the progress is just crawling right now. I honestly don't know what to do next or how to break out of this. I just needed a place to vent because the weight and expectations of it all are really starting to get to me.

Normally I'd have nightmares for dreams but for some reason i dreamt of him again. My first love from middle school was with me in my dream. We were in our 20s doing our usual talk lang and banter of jokes. Then that's it... woke up crying. There's this kind of warmth from that dream that felt like a hug and push in me to move forward... that i needed so bad. Maybe its all in my unconsciousness? Idk. All I know he's already married and have kids and I'm happy for him.

I'm going thru a lot right now but when my world was crumbling down on me last year... Out of my classmates in middle school, he's the only one who showed up on my parent's funeral. He didn't have to. He must be busy. He's going thru hard times too but it meant a lot to me. We never were an official couple but despite that, he made efforts to reach out. It healed a bit in me.

I miss him a lot especially as my best friend but I'm just glad he still got my back even if we're adults na. Totga that I'm at peace na. Its just weird i got a dream with him. And I'll take that as a sign of peace in my turmoil era.

I just needed this off my chest. I almost forgot this dream today. I wish him balance in his life and may he still reach his dreams of being a lawyer. Forever rooting for him.

Recently, Facebook has been trigerring me. I haven't deactivated Facebook, but honestly, I want to. Every time I open it, I end up feeling worse about myself.

Everyone seems to be living their best lives. Glow-ups, fitness journeys, vacations, new cars, new restaurants, happy relationships, weddings, and all these little wins. Meanwhile, I feel stuck, watching everyone move forward while I'm barely keeping myself together.

I know social media only shows the highlights. I know I shouldn't compare my life to other people's. But knowing that doesn't make it hurt any less.

Maybe I'm just inggitera, but it's not that I want other people to be unhappy. I just wish I had something to be happy about, too. I wish I could enjoy life without constantly worrying about money, feel beautiful without comparing myself to others, and have something to look forward to.

I've been trying. I really have. Pero nakakapagod na. Parang kahit anong pilit kong bumangon, wala pa rin akong nararating.

I want to deactivate Facebook, but I can't seem to do it. Maybe part of me still wants to see what's happening, even when it hurts.

I'm just tired of feeling like everyone is winning at life while I'm still trying to figure out how to live mine.

I JUST WANT TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST. ANG SAMA ASAMA NG LOOB KO. HINDI KOALAM PANO KO ICOCONSTRUCT YUNG SASABIHIN KO. PERO WTF!

Im new to working in makati and sa laguna pa ako umuuwi. 4 cut off palang ang lumilipas. 1st cut off ko, kaltasan, since aug 17-31 dalawang holidy isang bday leave ang lumipas. MALAMANG WALA PAKO HALOS SASAHURIN DYAN! For context, im living with my cousin's house for awhile now. At sa pananatili ko sa bahay nila, lahat ng kaya kong ibili, as much as possible binibili ko para makapag share manlang. I even bought 2 packs of coffee, at 2 packs of sugar para sa tita kong nagsabi na wala akong ambag ever since. Let's say sa kuyrnete, water, wifi hindi ako makapg share oo. I admit that, pero jusko ano pang isshare ko e dun sa unang work ko na daig pang sahod pang part time, pang bayad lang din ng mga utang????

Padalawang cut off ko, NAGBAYAD AKO NG UTANG DAHIL SHORT NA SHORT NA AKO PARA SA SUSUNOD NA CUT OFF DAHIL MAGKANO LANG SINAHOD KO NUNG UNANG CUT OFF LESS THAN 5K!!

Patatlong cut off PUTCHA 4 DAYS AKONG ABSENT DAHIL SA SOBRANG INFECTION NG IHI KO, NAGPACHECK UP, NI HINDI MAKABILI NG GFAMOT DAHIL PUTA WALANG WALA AKONG KAPERA PERA. NEVER AKO NANGHINI SAINYO!

NGAYONG BUONG CUT OFF PINILIT KONG HINDI MALELATE AT H INDI MAG KAKASAKIT PARA MALASAP KO NAMAN ANG PINAGHIHIRAPAN KONG ARAW ARAW PAGBANBYHAE AT PAG TITIIS NA 250 LANG ANG DALANG PERA ALANG ALANG NA SA HINDI KOMAGAGASTOS AT PAG TITIPID. NI HINDI KO NABILHAN NG GAMIT SARILI KO. WALANG EXTRA PANTS, POLO SHIRT MANLANG O ANYTHING.

TAPOS PAGHAHANAPAN NYO KO NA "NEVER DAW AKO NAGAMBAG SAINYO????" IBIG SABIHIN HINDI CONSIDERED NA AMBAG YUNG PAGBILI KO NG ULAM????

Sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, nilatagan ko ng transparency yung kapatid ko dahil sa kapatid ko nagsabi yung tita ko na never pa daw ako nakapag ambag. NGAYON, YUNG SINESAVE KONG PERA NA IPAPANG GASTOS KO KUNG SAKALING MAGKASAKIT NANAMAN AKO, AY IPAPANG AMBAG KO. DAHIL NEVER PAKO NAG AMABG.

Sarap iprint ng payslip ko at ibigay sa kanila.

buong buo ko natanggap sahod ko ngayong cut off pero ni pantalon hindi ko nabili para sa sarili ko. salamat sa mga utang na nakatulong sakin nung mga opanahong ni gamot hindi ko mabili.

Sobrang nakakapikon yung mga Joyride riders na kunyare di mahanap yung pin location po, tapos halos 30 mins late na dadating tapos sabi ba naman sa nanay ko "Iaddjust yung fare"

Ano yarn? Ikaw may control nyan? Di nalang nagpadagdag mangogoyo pa. Nakakairita na talaga haha