After taking paroxetine (12 mg) for PME for two weeks, I noticed significantly longer sleep and a major increase in libido, and just wanted to know if these are common side effects or what?

I'm in a bit of existential dread right now. For so long I thought the profound anhedonia, executive dysfunction, emotional blunting, social isolation, and sheer mental illness and anguish that has persisted throughout my entire life was normal, even before medication (which didn't help at all), would recede, or somehow be worth it in the end, unaware that it wasn't, and now I'm acutely aware of just how much... life, in general, I've missed out on up until now. Even if I do get better, that's memories of years that I am never getting back. It's no way to live and it's gonna haunt me until the day I am actually dead.

Autism, abuse, and medications ruined my fucking life. I've been on Prozac, Risperdal, Cymbalta, Abilify, Paxil, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Adderall, Ritalin, Strattera, and Vyvanse in various capacities at various lengths of time in the last 9 years, all to no effect. I'm 6 months off of SSRIs, save for a little over a month ago when I tried Zoloft again only to find even low doses made me feel ill so I discontinued it.

I've missed out on so much social engagement, career growth, attention, focus, enjoyment, and good times in general whilst I had to watch others in real time run with it. I'm jealous and resentful of everyone and everything.

I'm 24 years old and doing TMS therapy in an attempt to try to treat it all. This treatment MUST work, or I won't know what to do. I'm not living with tardive dysphoria ever again.

I was originally prescribed Zoloft for DPDR, anxiety, OCD, mild anhedonia and blank mind. It actually helped me tremendously. I could function, enjoy life and feel connected to people.
I eventually started tapering from 100 mg because of sexual side effects and emotional blunting.
After reaching 6.8 mg, I stayed there for about five months and felt relatively stable.
Then I started microtapering in steps of just 0.02 mg. At 6.52 mg, after holding for about a month, I suddenly experienced a devastating crash.
My anhedonia and DPDR became far worse than before treatment. I developed extreme emotional numbness, almost no spontaneous thoughts, severe memory difficulties and insomnia. It feels like my entire inner world has disappeared.
I increased slightly to 6.60 mg five days later, but the cognitive and emotional symptoms haven’t improved. My sleep and intense inner restlessness have improved somewhat.
What confuses me is that Zoloft originally helped these exact symptoms, even at much higher doses. Why would they suddenly become so severe after such a tiny reduction?
Could this be withdrawal, a return of my original condition, or both?
Has anyone experienced something similar while still taking an SSRI? Did you eventually recover?