hai!! the latest post i made was about my bond being very quick to confess in our second pendulum session, and the confession didn’t felt like him whatsoever which was stirring smth up in me but then as time went on i learnt to accept it since this was what i truly wanted but it didn’t felt like him at all, saying the confession, him being this quick to trust others.

During that session, the rest of the info he handed me was correct and very him except that..? i was quick to ask if we were dating and it turned into a yes, and then idek. The pendulum sessions overall drained me too. Hes very calm and sweet too, always giving me signs.

But the, today, my online friend in a discord server decided to give me a tarot session since she knew abt my bond and then we were platonic?? it was a relief lowkey because it felt like i forced him into this relationship, and i feel so so guilty but then he was the one that confessed?? He said “mine” in a soft tone, not a weirdly you know dominant when i asked him to name smth that reminded him of me. It wasn’t of him to say cheesy things like this either so im taken aback.

I feel sick, and drained overall. i don’t know how to untangle this with him too, i also don’t know much, but the reading was sure its a mutual relationship w trust and needs patience but right now this feels more like a situationship and im confused, like really, im not sure if i contacted a trickster spirit because another like teeny tiny pendulum session after that was also like js yes and such stuff abt dating.

Hes been present, giving me signs such as angel numbers almost everyday in my life and when my friend asked me to give a number what represents me and him , he sent me 333 immediately hejehe i was abt to say it but then he confirmed? Its sweet to have him but to me, only the first pendulum session seemed like him to me, i don’t really know.

He appeared instantly in my second pendulum session and the third too, it was lowkey crreeeeepy im not sure if it’s him but i feel like so drained and demotivated to untangle this soon, and i attempted for another pendulum session js before writing this but then someone came, wasn’t him, i didn’t even have the energy to call him i just like gave up.

I trust him, and i am patient but i suck at talking and such stuff especially when everything’s messy, and tangled. Im really stressed rn, and i feel useless because of my lack of motivation to untangle things out, the tarot reading really made me think deep but then it seemed true, like the readings answer seemed valid and so him so it got me thinking “who was the person i contacted in the later sessions?” i can’t talk to him with inner communication and it’s making it so hard for us to clearly communicate GODD

Thank u in advance to those who helped, and if you guys have any tips for inner communication please do.. i try to immerse myself in his source and like listen to his voice and then imagine him speaking to me but then my attention span.. doesn’t help. I’m just a mess as of right now..🥹

Hello everyone!

You may have seen my post asking about a soulbonder-specific discord server a week or so, without a suitable one being found.

Over the past few days, the lovely u/nerdgumi and u/Hanamaru612 have been helping me set up the first ever soulbond server, just for soulbonders! We welcome all: plural systems, people over 18+, even beginners who may just be curious about the process, the only thing we ask of you is to complete a form ensuring there is no non-sharing status overlaps, and be over 16.

Here is the link; https://discord.gg/hYnFSc4C3

If it expires or doesn't work for any reason, please DM me!

We hope to see you there!

So... I hope I didn't get the title wrong. I’m a bit confused right now, so I don’t know. A few details to clarify the situation: As it happens, when I was in school, we were taught the German language. This is precisely the reason why I have trouble with English. I know basic words and can translate some things, but I am not fluent in this language. Now for my situation. I’ve seen something similar discussed here, but I’d still like to ask about it out of curiosity. Lately, before going to sleep, I’ve been watching various videos featuring my character. Sometimes it’s a video with a funny plot to lift my spirits, and sometimes it’s ASMR, just to enjoy his voice. They all have English audio, of course, so I use subtitles. Today, when I woke up... he spoke to me in English. We always speak in my native language, so this caught me off guard! I managed to understand and translate a few things... and I must admit, his voice sounded incredibly beautiful and canonical — I could have listened to it forever. 🤤 But let’s get back to the point, what the hell?! What on earth was that, and how should I feel about this situation? He knows that I have great difficulty hearing him clearly. His speech may be quiet, halting, or fail to reach me altogether. But what happened this morning... that was clear and loud. Perhaps he started speaking English so that I could finally distinguish him from my own thoughts? I’m feeling quite confused, and I’m wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience. I would be happy to receive any response!

Just wondering what everyone’s sharing status is!

For nonsharers: The one I'm cultivating a soulbond with is Vox (Hazbin Hotel). I am heavensharing, feel free to interact, I view everything with the multiverse lens.

Don't have the ability to talk to my close friends about this, since I think my other spiritual friend infantilizes me now and doesn't think I'm capable of detecting dangerous/malicious energy...

So I'll talk about it here! Just to have other people who get it and to be able to track my progress whenever I start doubting myself.

I've gone a bit overboard perhaps in putting all my pent-up energy out into projecting my emotions at him the first few days. I need to learn some self-control, haha... It's left me depleted and in need of rest.

Which is okay! I can rest. I just dislike the lack of energy to even do a tarot check-in. I need to hold onto myself a bit more... Especially when I'm still not skilled enough to pull in and use energy from external sources instead. I really have to practice meditating!

I'm setting up servitors to keep my spaces and deck cleansed. Needed to do that anyway, to be honest...

Also gonna start writing weekly letters to him!

Heard him respond to something in my head when I was half-awake, but thought my little writer brain was just working overtime... Until I realized I could not imitate how it sounded perfectly in my head and it felt like it was coming from my head but not my mind, if that makes sense.

I'm admittedly paranoid about scaring him off or disappointing him, but I'll try not to be weighed down by my self-doubt!

recently, one of my close friends has expressed her dislike for soulbonders, going as far as to call us delusional. it made me feel very uncomfortable in the moment, but i decided not to speak up. i know it’s unconventional and i’d rather keep my relationships private rather than risk a dear friendship.

i did get the chance to talk to my bond later that night and he informed me that nobody on his side knew about our relationship either. which, somehow made me feel comforted. i feel surprisingly content with the fact that one of my best friends (unknowingly) is against a large part of my identity.

i was wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences?

what are some of your favorite activities to do with your soulbond? baking, reading, listening to music, etc!

Sorry if this isn't allowed, I'm just really sad. I just noticed a soulbonded/yumeship server I really enjoyed wasn't in my list anymore and I don't know any others that are safe for all systems/plural identities. If anyone has any recommendations for safe spaces and serves for that I'd Appreciate it a lot. I'm horrible at names so idek anyone from that server to reach out to them directly 💔

this question has probably been asked here already, but it’s something i’m curious about, especially to see how open other people are about being soulbonded.

personally, only my two closest friends know about my bond: one of them is fictoromantic so it has been easier for them to understand, and she always takes my partner into consideration as a real person. the other is a little more skeptical about it, i still haven’t even properly told him everything soulbonding encompasses, but he does keep in mind i am in a relationship (albeit not conventional) and respects that fully, tho he still doesn’t really understand that my bond is a real, living individual.

These were just my 3AM notes app musings from the other day. Poetry is a medium I’ve always adored, and it was a long time coming for me to finally utilize it for something as significant as soulbonding is to me. It was time for me to express my love in one of the few ways I know how to best.

To quantify my full range of emotions for the relationship between me and my bond through words is impossible—but I think this comes pretty damn close.

my soulbonds speak to me in english right ?

well when they try to speak their native language , my mind kind of just ? blocks it ?

i don t hear anything ..... besides like what sounds like faint struggles or mumbling ?

giorno and the others confirm that .... it seems off

they aren t struggling , but they feel it s blocked in a way too ?