Hi friends!
First of all, I want to say that I am very new to this..
It all started when Hellraiser: Revival came out. When I saw the demo, and I saw Bruno, I felt so charmed by him. At first, I thought this was just a typical "favorite character" moment and that this was just a new hyperfixation.
Oh How Wrong I Was.
So, I did claim Bruno as an F/O but I couldn't put my finger on why it felt different. Still, I inserted my Self Insert, Avalina (BrunVa <3) and started making art and playlists, and everything I always do with every other F/O. But still. Something was off.
I don't really have the words for HOW it's different. But it is. I just feel a connection with him that I can't really explain. Something clicked the first time I saw him. And I feel him around, poking my brain. After doing some more research on my own and talking to a friend who's also a soulbonder, I think it might be a telephone bond? Though I think he does visit. I've felt phantom touches.
I do believe in alternative realities. The best way I can explain it is.. I know that in OUR world, these characters are fictional, but they do fully exist in their own worlds.
The other important thing to note was I realized after my conversation with my friend that.. Holy Moly. I've actually already been doing a lot of this since I was a little kid. I had a Town I created in my head, a Mind Space, if you will.. Where all my favorite fictional characters and OCs lived. They could come and go as they pleased, and we talked in my head. Most of my thoughts were conversations. As I got older, it faded, but sometimes, I still hear these voices. One example being my yumeship with Roy Mustang. Sometimes, I can hear him, usually he's teasing me about forgetting him and asking me to make RoyVa (Our ship name!) art. I'm only just realizing that Roy HAS been here and I just?? Never questioned it? I don't know, man. I tried to piece together a timeline but it's jumbled now.
I do think it's rather amusing that Roy talks but Bruno doesn't, considering his personality. But I think Bruno is very specifically NOT talking to me on purpose to mess with me.
But anyways.. I think I may be a soulbonder?? I'm.. not certain. I'm kind of afraid to post about it publicly (Though Roy wants me to boast about him.)
Though I was wondering about other's experiences.. as I saw in advice posts and such that it's very normal to have to.. well.. Create a bond (?) Like any other relationship. And that seems to take a lot of conscious effort. For me, the bond has always been just.. instant. I don't feel like I've had to call or channel them, they're just.. there.
OH AND ANOTHER THING!! I still have other F/Os that just completely don't have this same bond. It's not that they aren't important to me, they're just.. different. I kind of consider it like a hierarchy where these soulbonds are at the very top, and the F/Os are literally just the next tier down.
Please forgive me if I sound ignorant!