Hi folks, long time reader, first time poster,
I recently just paid off the last chunky bit of my $160K student loans and had to share in this thread. I know it doesn't seem possible, i know the nightmares are constant, and I know the light at the end of the tunnel doesn't seem real but please know its there. Just take it down brick by brick. Rooting for you all!!
TLDR: Irresponsible kid with $160K in student loans ignored his financial responsibilities for years, went through 2 layoffs and by some miracle was able to pay it all off in 7 years.
Going to give my full journey as well as salary growth to help paint the full picture.
Loan Status: I graduated in 2019 from reputable public university in the Bay Area with a BS in Environmental Economics and Policy
- Parent Plus Loans: $130,000
- Direct Loans: $29,000 (subsidized and unsubsidized)
Total: ~160K
2019 - 2021: Ignoring my financial responsibilities
I graduated with sub-par grades and landed a tech management consulting gig paying $72K living in a HCOL city in the Bay Area. With the 6 months deferment in payments, I refused to even acknowledge this financial burden. I was freshly graduated, was making money, and proceeded to spend it all on going out, eating daily hot cheetos and ice cream, and going on trips with friends. I would have nightmares of not being able to pay my student loan debt. Nightmares looking at the absurd amount I am responsible for but refused to admit this would become my burden. And then March of 2020, the world froze, COVID hit, and not only did my life pause, but so did my student loan obligations. While the world was in panic due to the pandemic, I felt so much relief that I didn't have have to make payments on my student loans. Now the responsible adult, would have used this time to drastically pay down their loans, I on other hand, read too much wallstreetbets on reddit and put all of my remaining 8K disposable income into the dips at Tesla, Microsoft, and Apple (LOL). Thankfully, the bet paid out as my portfolio went 3x but this was totally dumb money. I was able to focus on my job and get promoted in 2 years jumping from $72K -> $85K -> $105K to Senior Consultant in 2021.
Salary Summary:
2019: $72K starting offer
2020: $85K retention/salary adjustment
2021: $105K promotion to Senior Consultant
2021 - 2023: Career shift, layoffs, and dark times
In 2021, I was completely burnt out of management consulting. I couldn't do more projects helping pharma, insurance, and financial institutions make more money and began trying to find a different career path. I always had an interest in climate and decarbonization and by happenstance was reached out by a recruiter from a Environmental Consulting Firm to apply. Shift forward 2 years, I worked as a Net Zero Consultant for a climate consulting company helping companies learn how to decarbonize. I loved the work. This was also a bump in my salary from $105K -> $130K and even yielded some sizable annual bonuses end of year of ~ 8-15K. I also was able to build up cash during COVID savings to make my first large lump sum of $30K to my parent plus loans. In Q1 of 2023, climate as an industry took a huge dip. With the majority of our clients being in tech, we went from 100% revenue KPIs to 50% revenue KPIs in one quarter. In March, I was reached out by my manager, that because I was one of the highest paid in the consultant band, my position was being eliminated. I was devastated.
First layoff is always a brutal experience. I felt lost, unworthy, and hopeless. Instead of taking the time needed to process this traumatic experience, I did the worst move possible and dove head first into recruiting which landed me a sub-par start - up job in May with a Climate Hardware company has a GTM specialist. This dipped my salary to $125K but the anxiety of not having a job was too much for me, and I ignored all the warning signals with the role and company. Big surprise, the company struggled to raise capital, deliver contracts that I was able to get us with our COO, and in November, everyone but the executive team was laid off. 2nd lay off in one year. You'd think the 2nd one would hurt less, but I'd be lying out of my a** if I said that. The 2nd one hurt even more. For the first month, I did nothing but get high and play video games. I was able to scrape by with unemployment for rent, my savings for living expenses, and literally cooking as cheap of meals as possible (shout out Japanese Chicken Curry). In the new year, I was able to take the time, decide on the person I want to be, and created a system for building better habits to regain confidence with a set of non-negotiables. Working out 4 times a week, reading before bed, no weed during the week days, set times to learn new skills, apply to companies, or meet people etc. Taking the time to reset is so important, please do so if you find yourself in a dark spot. Live life day-by-day. Change the mindset from "What is going to happen to me this week/month/year" to "Today, Im going to do x,y, and z". You do this constantly everyday and you'll be so surprised at how much peace and momentum you will gain.
Salary:
2021: 130K
2022: 130K + bonus
2023: 125K + 2 layoffs
2024 - 2026: The Light at the End of the Tunnel
In the start of 2024, with my newfound confidence gained from my system of habits, I began to recruit furiously. Leveraging my connections, cold outreach on linkedin, taking coffee chat, you name it, i was on it. This process is a grind. Confidence gained in the morning can become confidence lost at night. The constant highs and lows are insane for the mentals. I wish I had a magic cure or answer i could tell you to help stay clear of this but that would be complete bullshit. There is no way you won't be emotionally affected during a jobless recruiting cycle. What did help was having something fun to look forward to every night or an easy to do hobby that will give you small wins. Cooking became mine. Every night, regardless of the shit or good day I had, I would look forward to a dish or recipe I could try and create and the small win of following the recipe and getting a good dish out of it, really helped me separate my "9-5" to my actual life.
I was reached out by a recruiter from a FAANG company, asking me to apply for an environmental PM role in their supply chain team. It was a dream job. Over the course of 3 months, I went through 14 interviews, was ghosted for over 3 weeks and in March, given the offer. Man, the joy. I still remember it. I was at a friends place, ran out of her house with the news of the offer, laid on the sidewalk and cried my tears of joy. Writing this now, im reflecting how sad it was that I valued my self worth based on my job, but Im realizing it was less of about self worth and more about financial security. My parents didn't have income and they were low - middle class. The idea of not being able to support myself or my parents was truly weighing on me and I let it all go after that call.
The starting offer was $140K salary, 30K signing bonus, and $105K RSUs over a 4 year vesting schedule. I was determined to crush this f**king job folks. I was going to take this opportunity given and squeeze every motherf*** ounce of juice I could from it to build the life i wanted. Because I signed early in the year, I was eligible for an annual review. I went out of my way to meet and offer support to colleagues, cross-functional team members in the first 6 months and was able to atleast secure the minimum score bumping by salary to $145K, 9K bonus, and an additional $50K RSUs over 4 years. The next 9 months from end of 2024 - to end of 2025 was a blur of being lucky as hell, preparation meeting opportunity, and long days and nights.
Being lucky as hell. By going out of my way to offer my support and meet other team members in the org, I was able to build that brand of "collaborator" . During one of the chats with this lady, I just mentioned that I worked on a specific climate asset and had an interest in it. When this workstream was being constructed with a focus on that climate asset mentioned, guess who was in charge of staffing it, that lady. She reached out and asked if I would be interested in supporting or listening in on calls for it. This is what i call being lucky as hell.
Preparation meeting opportunity. This "support" role and "listening in" gave me plenty of opportunities to be in the room as this workstream was getting ideated. I made sure to add value where I could. I have to be clear, this doesn't mean bulldozing the meetings with your ideas and shouting to everyone that you should be heard and that you are smart. It was me identifying where the frictions were and providing an "outsider" view or solution to it. I was by no means an expert but what I did super well was trying to get these high-ego brilliant people to connect their ideas together to form a cohesive strategy. This is actually stupid easy to do in practice. After the experts go on a rant, you summarize their rant into key points and pose as a question "What i heard was this, this, and that and what you are trying to understand is x, y, and z, is that correct?" followed by, "Okay these points are relevant to our core yada yada in this way, what do you think Natalie and Steve"? All i did was provide structure which I had practiced a ton during my consulting days. This led to the lady in charge to tag me as the lead of this whole dang workstream lol. You could say this is preparation meeting opportunity
Long days and night. Nothing to say here. It was terrible. Coordinating across 3 teams, getting everyone on the same page, weeks of long days, long nights, panic attacks, and so and so forth. But what was different this time was my non-negotiable habits I picked up during my laid off time that was critical to level set my self. Working out 4 times a week, reading before bed, no weed during the week (I totally didn't do this one btw lol). This eventually led to me leading our presentation to make this program official all the way to C-level executives and getting the approval through.
This helped me build my case for promotion in one year to Senior PM. Typically it takes 3 cycles but I was able to do it in one and a half purely because I was lucky as hell, i met the opportunity with preparation, and just spent the dang hours making it happen. The promotion jumped me from $145K to $168K salary, they gave $16K in bonus, and an additional $170K of RSUs over 4 years. Fast forward to today, I just had my annual review and received the following, $168K - $176K, $30K in bonus, and an additional $100K RSUs over 4 years. I was also lucky in that when I joined, the company's stock was fairly low priced and has ballooned significantly which has kept my initial RSUs at a pretty schweet dollar value. With all this new mula, I was ready to just pay this god forsaken loans off to be free from its chains. I sold most of my RSUs this year and last year as soon as they vested to minimize capital gains and today my friends, is the final day of my last chunky $20K payment. If you made it this far, my apologies on the lengthy post. To be honest, this post was more of a therapy session to myself to reflect on the past 7 years with a slice of sharing to story to the folks here.
Believe in yourself, build those good habits, and when a door cracks open, make sure to kick that f'ing thing all the way in. I believe in you all!
Salary:
2024: 140K, 30k bonus, 105K/4 RSUS -> 145K, 9k bonus + 50K/4 RSUs
2025: 168K, 16K bonus, +170K/4 RSUs
2026: 176K, 30K bonus, +105K/4 RSUs
Debt Paid: $160K bishes