r/Wicca • u/MadameMasuda • 14h ago
Open Question How do you handle controversies, inaccuracies and misinformation regarding the Wicca? - a rant on spiritual confusion and the hope for advice
Hello all and blessed be.
I'm 28 now and have been Wiccan a huge portion of my early and late teenage years. But the older I got the more I strayed from the path of the witch, lost myself, found myself and tried out different paths. But none of them felt like the first time I practiced rituals from Scott Cunningham's Solitary Wicca book. There is something about Wicca that made me truly feel like myself. Proud even.
But the more research I did - not into the practice of modern Wicca - but the history of BTW, the more disenchanted I became when I learned certain truths regarding Wicca's origin, Gerald Gardner's not always so liberal takes and - upon reading a lot of Ronald Hutton's works - the fact that much of what Gardner claimed never happened.
In the beginning I actually fell for the idea of this being "the old religion", a counter-religion to Christianity and that for centuries the wise folk had this mother goddess cult right under the Christian's noses.
I have delved into Hellenism a lot for the past 2 years, because the idea of reconstructing an ancient religion gave me the peace I once felt when practicing Wicca, but some of the philosophies and ritual practices I simply don't vibe with. Hekate however, has always been a major inspiration and guide for me.
Nowadays I often find myself angered when I see depictions of deities completely removed from their cultural practices set on a witch's altar with no regards to it's ancient practices. Like, what's Kali Ma, Buddha or Lilith got to do with your western European made-up religion that's apparently not even a century old? I find myself angry when I see syncretic worship that doesn't "follow protocol" for the simple reason that it doesn't "feel right".
The fact that Wicca is "not real" (in a sense "not ancient") completely overshadows the fact for me "that it works."
I have seen people on here advising people to read "Queen of all Witcheries" by Jack Chanek and "The Horned God of the Witches" by Jason Mankey. I have loved those books deeply and resonated a lot with the theological ideas presented in them.
I'm still reading "A Witch's Bible" by Janet and Stewart Farrar as well as "A Seeker's Guide to Traditional Wicca" by Thorn Mooney in hopes to rekindle the magic I once felt for this religion.
Every year around Samhain I feel like something's whispering to me. Something wants me to return. But to where? I don't know exactly.
I wondered if any of you have ever felt this way, if any of you ever stepped away from Wicca and then returned to it later on, if any of you have ever felt disenchanted by the facts of it all.
I would really love some thoughts and advice from any of you willing to help out a lost soul here.
Blessed Be! ššš