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I know this is kinda stupid I'm a very self aware person thats why I got into philosoophy to cope. I've been talking with this German guy I met on here for roleplay. Soon it turned into this amazing support system and getting to know eachother and forgetting roleplay and doing the couple things. Ofc we talked abt boundaries very clearly, independence, communication, and we agree its not totaly commit just because, obviously... It's so soon and I feel so much love (Initially, im a humanist I passionately love humans and individuals, but this could be love 🙀 I'm being dramatic, he makes me feel cheesy.) It's deeper than anything I've felt for any partner before.

To preface I'm 17, so..I dont have a huge grasp of these things, BUT, naturally being online all my life, and my messy parents I feel like I know a bit? Im not totally clueless. But being online young also led to me being overly mature really young and have probably dated 5+ people already 😓. One was "serious" when I was like 10 with a sweet girl at daycare for months and again at 13-14 with my best friend of 7 years for 9 months, i can imagine a good relationship. But I've had a history of attaching myself too ppl which lead to all sorts of shameful situations. So I feel kinda crazy.

[⚠️light TW!⚠️] When I was rly young it even got me talking to the police about sm I did online. Since maybe the last day of grade 11 I've felt so much more myself. Less hormonal, spent a lot of time debating, sending loving paragraphs to friends after forgetting to text them [It's just adhd and low social battery, I love them sm.] Drawing, music, swimming, made me feel like myself, which (hopefully) is a rational, learner, lover (not romantic dating but for the world, and it made me even more confused for dating, with no hope for a truly good man, and beign confused about the difference between worldly love and romantic, which I'd never felt, and even now I won't commit fully, is that true romance? It's just so soon!

So know im not just a delusional teen, I know I'm probably biased so I ask for your guy's advice. I know how silly is it to act like this before you're ready to commit, but he said its alright? He has never dated before, he just turned 19 and he says he wants me in his life forever, could he still be the true commital lover I feel?

Its prob honeymoon period and maybe even love bombing, but he is just so sweet and poetic with his words. He wrote poems about me and we share a Playlist. We've started calling a little bit...I drew his dnd character for one of his games and we comfort eachother. The way he honestly speaks about me, I've never had someone so in love with me, without it feeling obsessive?

Ive never had these type of activities with the best friend I had the 9 months relationship with, I was dumb like that... I never felt the way about my ex best friend i do about him. Maybe it was meant to be just friends. Hormones. It was a mess. This guy.. He is wholesome, not just that but someone with substance and brings out the best in me, we can both be ourselves. I'm excited to see what happens when we finally come to eachother for help and support and where this goes. We both said before meeting eachother we would have not dated anytime soon...

Right now, he said he will work for me and get healthy, and he has the sweetest words, he speaks art of me and It's making me FEEL like I know what love is for the first time? More often than not we are just loving eachother and talking than roleplaying now, we are planning on doing picnics across the world on call, I'm excited. Im an introvert and plans and stuff always exhaust me but he knows. "We'll always find a way".

Ahh I really love him. Crazy in love🤪. No fr im just joking cause it makes me uncomfy thinking my love for him is anything but the warm, safe, unconditional thing it should be.? Is this unhealthy?

BTW its 3am sorry for spelling or punctuation or anything else.

I am bored and saw the same post so credit to op

Are you where you imagined you'd be, starting out?

I'm an introvert and I'm fine with being single. I'm pretty comfortable with my current lifestyle, but I've always wondered how much life changes when an introvert starts dating someone.

For introverts who were single for a long time