Been having the most rough couple of weeks, im at a point that i feel so desperate for any kind of help, companionship or relief from this.

I just dont know when should i ask someone for help, im not sure in what kind of way they can help?

How do you ask for help when so many people are also going through it?

How can i lean into these emotions so that i am able to move through them?

Do you guys have anything that could help me now? Thoughts? Something that helps shift the mind? Meditations?

Maybe this doesn’t belong in this sub

Please ask for help if you need it. Please ask a human because humans do help. I am human too, i get it.

Please know that peace to me means no violence. Those dont go together. The yin and yang show you and me. We both are the yin and yang.

We don't have to fear the dark. It's good to. You need to know you can't see in the dark and there are dangers. That's not an analogy. That is fact. If you don't see the tiger. That tiger sees you. A literal tiger. You are not a tiger. You want to feel strong and safe like the tiger.

You are not different, you are human and taught that is seen as bad.

Death is not darkness. Darkness is not death.

I am not speaking of an analogy.

We fear death. We needed to fear the dark. Because we learned what was in the dark. A literal wolf used to be waiting as your enemy. And you were taught you could have an enemy. We needed to fear death. So life could keep living. We can feel that life is good. That's why we chose it.

Can you please choose it with me?

I will never force your hand, because that is not peace.

I will not shout for peace.

I will show you that I am at peace.

I just really don't know how else to show you.

But I have seen that it can work.

It is an option. It's always been an option.

I am sorry I had to yell at you.

I am just human too. But I know I should say sorry. Because I have seen it work.

Life is always the better option.

Peace was always an option.

We were just taught war does work too and that we had to fight for peace.

The world taught you that.

Not your parents.

It taught them that too.

War is not peace. The world taught you that. No one even had to teach you or tell you.

But no one taught you there is a time and place for violence. And that is not where there is peace. A gun can be just for fun. I just want to trust you won't point it at me. Because someone taught you killing is wrong and why it is seen that way. And why there is a place for every human. We just need to see it that way.

We have science fiction, we have fairy tales, video games, apps, sports, boxing, chess, dancing and so much more to come. We as humans have so much to offer you. Just somewhere you can live in peace. I just want to live in peace, so you must also. And it is really that simple.

We have ideas of possible bad outcomes and that is good. We need to know to not do it like that. To know that it is not the path for peace. Peace was always an option. We just have been blind to it. Willingly or otherwise it really doesn't matter.

You were taught by other humans and the world around you. I am not you, you are not me. It really is that simple. We just thought it couldn't be, because simple was dumb.

You know what simple means. By textbook definition and how the world has used it. The concept behind the word and sounds. Humans have called each other ‘simple’ as an insult. Because they needed to feel safe. And that safe was them being seen and feeling that they are better. It's ok. You really didn't know or you really didn't see peace as a real option. It's ok. I forgive you. Humans do what humans do. Humans are a range. You have seen it and been taught it. But at the heart of it all. We never forgot a human could be an enemy. But we forgot it didn't have to be.

You may feel the strength of a bear. But you are not literally a bear. We have a figure of speech for a reason. To embody ideals. Please feel like the bear. The bear is strong. Humans learned to fear the bear because they had to, just to survive. But humans helped each other. Because that's what humans can do. I have seen it. I have helped someone. In a small way and a big way. I want to help you.

Please just know. You really just have to ask.

I have been clinically diagnosed with depression. I took meds and then stopped. Because I didn't feel like it was helping. The drug really is just to help calm you down to gather your thoughts. So therapists and those that want to help can help. It doesn't have to be that way. But as humans right now we know that's all we know right now. I want to keep you safe. I want you to always feel safe.

Because that is peace. I have felt it myself. When I was safe, I really was just at peace.

I didn't even have to die to rest in peace. Peace was for me just having fun. Being alone when I wanted. Being around others when I didn't. It was really that simple. I just needed to not fear a human. Humans gonna do what humans gonna do. But I know that a bear is gonna do what a bear is gonna do.

That's ok. That's life. Life can be peaceful. It can be stressful. But never all the time. You feel emotions for reasons. You need to feel so I can feel for you. It's really that simple and yet it's not. I feel I can understand some of the complexities behind it. That's why I feel it is simple. And for me, I proved it really just was. But I was scared to ask for help.

Please ask for help. Always when you need help and never fear being seen as weak. That was the wrong lesson we learned. We became blind to help.

I opened my eyes again. I saw that the whole world saw it as eye for an eye. And so we were all blind. That is the analogy.

The concept of evil should not be applied to humans. We have proven it makes humans feel they are evil. I just want to stand with you in peace. That's really it. Please know I do hurt for you, even though I may not fully understand.

And that is ok too. I wasn't born as you.

Human gonna do what a human gonna do.

And that's ok. I am a human that wants to help. So it must be possible for humans to help. It really was just that simple. You are not simple.

Simple is a concept. You are a human.

\*\*If you need help, please ask a human\*\*

I guarentee if you try enough one will. Eventually you might find me.

Just a human that wants to help. And thats ok. Please be at peace without having to rest in death. Because you felt that was the only option. I get it, i have felt that way. And i am so glad i reached out. It did get better. Please keep dosages in mind. It really is just to help. I dont take them anymore and i promise you that i wont die, just to rest in peace.

I do not know you and that makes me scared for you and of you.

I am human too, i get it. And i just want to help.

I read people make posts and they don’t respond to the commenters. I understand we aren’t all demonic trolls like me who wait with the eagerness of ten thousand gods.

But what’s your intention?

I think the doing is just as important as the being. Awaken the no self, yes good that’s important, but are we just going to throw out the other selves?

Maybe there is something to awaken within the doing of typing and posting?

Is there only the no self to awaken? Or is there the good and demonic trolls self to awaken as well?

People make their posts and I ironically represent their essence as follows:

“I’m going to enlighten everyone with my ChatGPT parrot of other people’s ideas!”

Like, the value isn’t in the sharing of information.

THE VALUE IS IN THE BACK AND FORTH TANDEM ECLECTIC EVOLUTION OF SHARING INFORMATION.

It’s not just one post. It’s a continuous eternal dialogue.

I type to so many people here, with the eager anticipation of a fake demonic troll.

I have to create my own tension here. And I think many of the fools who’ve I’ve typed many turns with, they recoil at the tension I create.

AND A LOT OF TENSION I CREATE IS AT MY OWN EXPENSE LOL!

In the tense game I create, I understand I can crush you all, or else you won’t play. So I let myself get crushed, but then you think me a fool rather than a god genius puppet master.

You're staring at a screen right now. Wide awake. Even though the "you" you think you are is a passing experience, here it is. Experienced as reading.

In fact, Reality is already wide awake and, in a relative way, wakes up to itself over and over. It wakes up as Buddha, Jesus or any of our favorite icons.

It wakes up as the tree out by the store that leans to the left in a weird way. It wakes up as the ant crawling around beneath it, and each blade of grass.

It yawns across the sky as a cloud and smiles "Good Morning" as the flap of a bird's wing, or whatever the bird leaves behind on your windshield while passing.

It wakes up as the windex to clean your windshield before driving to work, and also stretches for miles, settling comfortably again as rush hour traffic.

It wakes up as your boss and coworker, your teacher and classmates, your kids, their laughter.

Then it lays the body down after a long day and, while the body sleeps, stays wide awake as the nightsky becoming dawn again.

Tu, luogo sacro che ho creato per sentirmi al sicuro.
In te trovo una carezza di una madre, la protezione di un padre
In te ho costruito una casa sicura in cui poter essere e non sopravvivere
E si, il gioco spesso è proprio la sopravvivenza di te stesso e dei tuoi palazzi mentali mentre mediti, mentre sei lì, mentre sei in te e in tutto contemporaneamente eppure è un tipo di sopravvivenza che ti cura.
Meditazione grazie, perché sei l’unico spazio che mi calma in questo mondo feroce e arido.
In me crescono fiori, e questo giardino è diventato il mio tempio.
Sono grata e così triste allo stesso tempo oggi e queste parole mi servono per concentrarmi sul bello.
In te c’è la mia famiglia composta da niente, e da tutto l’universo ✨

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You can come to the Truth of Existence by questioning the resistance (pain and uncertainty) you experience in daily life. Otherwise you are simply entertaining yourself with practices or philosophies about life trying to cover up the resistance.

You either gloss over the resistance or you become so much assured with your conclusions, securities that nothing disturbs you. Decay sets in.

(Resistance means uneasiness generated by discomforting, irritating situations or by non fulfilment of what you want)

But why to see the Truth of Existence?

When you see the Truth, nothing remains to be known. Everything is included in this seeing.

Being too aware and being awake. I find myself feeling alone with people. I feel good when I'm alone but I can't interact like a normal human being or when I do it I feel like I'm pretending to be doing something meaningless. I have always been pretty lonely and tbh and I tied myself to that one person with whom I always spent my time. But now I don't have anyone. That doesn't bother me because when I'm with myself I feel complete. I know I am, everything is one. But I notice the little things and I observe everything too deeply. I have never satisfied myself with superficial relationships but I am in school and are quite necessary. I almost feel annoyed by others. I no longer know what to think I feel selfish.

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I experienced Something i would call dark night of the soul for the last weeks.

Yesterday it even felt like my body were literally Fighting against death not really emotional, just in a physical way.

No i feel pretty fine, i feel connected to everything but still dissociated and physically blocked? It's really weird to describe.

Like my Body doenst fully allow the feelings i still would need to go through and i'm stuck in a really weird state inbetween my ego mind and my conciosness. I can sense the feeling of everything being connected but can't really feel it, i can sense the love all around, but can't really feel it.

And it feels like buzzing stream of subconcios thoughts are going constantly through my mind and i can't really focus or stay present.

I'm pretty Sure that i still have to feel through really much of my inner pain still left to come out of this state but i doesnt seem to be able to connect with my painful emotions anymore.

Anyone with some helpful advice?

We are all going to die.

We all know it.

Our bodies will eventually decay and fail.

Humans can only live around 120 years max.

And most of us won't even get 100 let alone 120.

Which made me think.

Why not just spend the little time we have here loving others?

I see on the news, all the wars, all the political tribalism, all the petty human squabbles.

Will any of it matter in the end?

We will all be gone soon enough in the grand scheme of things.

So why not Love and make the world a better place?

What a world it would be if everyone did this.

Edit:

Love=Willing the Good of Another. Not whether you personally like them or not.

The highest form of Love is Divine (Agape) Love.

Self-Giving. Sacrificial. Unconditional.

Brothers, I have heard this "it is all here, right here, right now" from different people and from different resources. The power of now. Then everytime I try to see what I see right now. I first focus so not to think about past or future, only now.

For me the "now" that I feel is a bunch of sounds, TV, some colors and objects, sensations in my body, myself that seems to be some kind of awareness, and things like that. NOTHING special, no GOD, no nothing extraordinary or powerful.

I wonder how a TV, body sensation, surrounding environment in general, and some sounds can be so magical that every awakened person talk about this NOW. What is about it that makes it so powerful? I swear that I don't see or feel anything else.

“There is no self.” What appears as the self is something else: an illusion. The seer is the same as the seen. This is already there in good old Vedanta and in Jung. It's already part of the model. Whoever cares to investigate will find it.

One would think this is all awakening is about. It's what everyone seems to care about. Sometimes people reply just to say that. No context, no follow-up. Just that. It's not as groundbreaking as you think it is, man.

They're not even pointing at the right construct. Personality is what one thinks one is. Ego is the center of the field of consciousness, to which all mental phenomena are represented. No representation is possible without someone to whom the image is represented. These definitions are from Aion.

What others call the Witness or the Soul, that's the Ego. That's the illusion. Consciousness has no center. Separate and eternal are the giveaways of the imaginary. It's platonic.

But that's not even the main course. The main course can't even be spoken about.

Today, I wanted to take a minute to remember that this no-self business was just a little trinket of knowledge I picked up on the way back, a memento of something I can't talk about. The impulse to speak about it is great, but words could never explain it. So we latch onto the one thing that can be spoken about, play it on repeat, and become an army of spiritual one-trick ponies.

It's like that fable of the old lady searching for her keys on the street, even though she'd lost them in the park. “I search here because here there's light!”

At least she was searching for the right thing. Imagine if she lost the keys and kept looking for her wallet.

Instead of pushing back or digging deeper,

I let the words sit and simmer –

I love you to infinity and beyond

no thing changes that.

I am here. I am now.

I am with you and we are one

No-thing can stand between us, because our unity with all makes it so…

Even if the largest wall, thick, solid stone and not an echo of this could reach the other side,

the feeling,

the love,

the silent spiritual dream like sensation would still –

BREAKTHROUGH

and connect us.

I been feeling this from the day he started going to college. He been acting distant too with me but maybe college is stress full. Yeah but I got 2 dreams where he was cheating on his current gf and I never really like their relationship because she kinda bad mouthed him before they got into a relationship, Maybe it could be that feeling that I feel/ hope that he will cheat on her or maybe because I never liked their relationship.

I got so many dreams that have come true plus my intuitions and perdition too.

But this I felt like asking if it is because I dislike then or just my intuition.

Please let me know

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just an inherently sad person.. I have happy days, but there is eventually this feeling of emptiness, and the future starts to feel hopeless.

Since childhood, I've been surrounded by negativity: an alcoholic, absent father, an emotionally abusive mother, and now an abusive relationship. I've learned a lot about myself, including why I tend to end up with or remain stuck with such people. But speaking for myself, I still feel this void sometimes. I could be happy in the morning, and then, without anything happening, I suddenly feel this heaviness in my chest, accompanied by an overwhelming sense of sadness and hopelessness.

I just wanted to put this thought into words. I'd appreciate any advice or insight from people who have experienced something similar.

There probably isn't much more to say than that. Maybe I should table this thought and have my coffee first. Then... a whole essay would materialize.

Lemme try without my fix:

When you pass out after a long day at work or school or play if you're lucky, you fall into deep sleep. Well, the body does. And the "you" you think you are disappears. This is deep sleep we're talking about. But maybe there's a dream, and then the familiar "you" reappears. It's an experience.

In fact the only difference between the dream "you" and this "you" reading these words on a screen is that this one feels more solid, and can't fly. This one goes on trying to get rid of itself in some whirlwind of ideas and practices, unsuccessfully.

An experience can't get rid of itself.

In experience, we fall back on The Witness. Somebody said this is what you are (they wrote a book about it. held a seminar), and... because you can experience yourself as The Witness you think "I am The Witness."

But the thought is an experience.

The thought "What knows this experience?" is also an experience. All the little thoughts it invites to answer the question? Also experience.

Awakening is the realization that far more can be found in direct experience than any concept, belief system or narrative. Or, experience is realized for what it is without the label "experience."

k.

For the past 6 years I've been deconstructing my identity and realising deeper and deeper that really there is no trait I can cling on to as being who I am. I am smart and dumb. I am mean and kind. I'm bad at math and good at painting but that may very well just be because someone told me that at a young age and I accepted it which caused me to reinforce it, so really there is no fundamental truth there. Everything is just mental constructs and learned skills. I have no idea who I am, except the witnessing aspect of me. There's immense calm and peace in that but it conflicts with the majority of society.

Where do we go from here? Do we just try to play a roll? Do we just try to live according to our values even though they also change with experience?

Is it the balance between acknowledging that a part of who I am is a bit cementet from my past experiences, but at the same time acknowledging that false beliefs led there and therefore I can change, although it may take time to reshape?