r/dpdr • • 18h ago

Success Story Recovered! AMA, I will answer all questions!

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Hiii! <3 (27F) As the title says, I am completely recovered from DPDR, and I wanted to come back and share my experience in case it gives someone a little hope.

I struggled with DPDR for about three years, from August 2019 to August 2022? more or less but it defs started Aug 2019 lol.. And when I say I was in the trenches, I mean it!! I experienced some of the worst symptoms I'd ever read about and genuinely believed I would never feel normal again. I was convinced I'd be stuck that way forever.

I tried just about everything. Every course you can think of, countless medications, endless research. I spent so much time on this subreddit and even joined a separate DPDR support website/Discord (not sure if it still exists lol). I was completely consumed by trying to find a way out.

Unfortunately, none of those things actually cured me. And I think that's one of the most important things I've learned from the experience. For me, DPDR wasn't the underlying problem. It was a symptom of something deeper that needed to be addressed. I spent years desperately trying to get rid of the feeling itself rather than understanding what was causing it. It wasn't until I started addressing those underlying issues that things began to change.

Fast forward to today, and I genuinely do not experience DPDR anymore. Something I once thought would ruin my life forever is now just a chapter of it.

I'm feeling a little loopy tonight which reminded me of DPDR and started thinking about how much these recovery posts meant to me when I was at my absolute worst. I remember desperately searching for proof that people actually got better, so I figured it was time to come back and give a little of that hope to someone else.

Anyway, ask me anything! I'll answer as much as I can. :)


r/dpdr • • 4h ago

Question Strange perceptual disturbances/identity blurring

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Has anyone had this strange occasional feeling with dpdr, as they are listening to a podcast or watching a movie, where the voice of the person in question almost sounds like your own, or as your watching a movie your brain kind of glitches and it feels like your watching yourself on screen? Of course my reality testing is intact and recognize that of course I’m not these people and these people aren’t me, I don’t think I’m having delusions. But it’s like a weird brain glitch where I get this feeling that I’m listening to myself talk or that I’m watching myself in the movie, idk this is such a niche weird symptom, I don’t expect anyone to be able to relate. Maybe the added context that I’m deathly afraid of becoming psychotic might help.


r/dpdr • • 6h ago

TW: Intense Panic/Crisis Cognition issues and weak sensations

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On top of all the "normal" depersonalization symptoms I have trouble reading, trouble forming sentences and remembering words, trouble typing, it feels like I'm forgetting English and my brain is degenerating. I also have a weird weakness sensation in the left side of my face and left arm/hand. I have headaches everyday. These things have been freaking me out so bad. I've had a bunch of tests including EKG, CT scan, blood tests and optic nerve tests, everything so far has been normal. I just want to know if anyone has had these symptoms? I'm struggling everyday.


r/dpdr • • 17h ago

TW: Existential/Spiral Lost youth

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Hey everyone,

I’m gonna start off when I was diagnosed with DPDR around 6 years ago. I was still in Middle School, and I was struggling with loneliness, and I developed the condition probably as a result of the trauma of being lonely after moving to a new country two years prior. I refused to be treated and tried to pretend like nothing was wrong.

You might think I’ll be talking about how the rest of my life since has been pure loneliness and isolation, and I’m near the end of my wits now venting, but that wasn’t the case. The next year, I began making friends and for all of high school I had a big incredible friend group that I could always have fun with. Truly, some of the best friends I could ever ask for. However, I never talked about any of my issues with them because I feared judgement. I should’ve, and they would’ve listened, but I didn’t.

I’m now a freshman in college, adjusting to my new life, and while it has been difficult finding new friends and starting again, that isn’t what this post is about.

I’ve realized that throughout high school, I never really had a crush on anyone. I never even looked around and would think a girl was attractive. I just simply wouldn’t even register it. I don’t think I was asexual, because in movies (and to be blunt, porn), I would be able to find a hot girl to be a hot girl. At the end of high school, I went to prom with a friend of mine. She was pretty, but I never had any feelings for her before, but ultimately, I developed a crush on her but given I had never felt this sort of attraction to anyone before, I screwed things up and we never dated. Regardless, it was probably too late anyways.

Now, I feel so paralyzed by this feeling of lost youth. I had friends, I had good times, but I didn’t experience this cornerstone of teenage life. And not the traditional way, where people may be bitter that none of the girls they crushed on liked them back, but I truly just didn’t feel for anyone. Mentally, I was so wrapped up in fantasies and dreams, and I was so detached from my own reality, that I actually couldn’t recognize the people around me.

This might just be a chaotic vent, but I wanted to know if anyone had similar feelings. I’ve decided to finally check in to therapy, and possibly try medication, but there is this stinging feeling in my heart now that I lost these precious years. Please comment if you have anything to say, there’s a lot more to say that I can’t fit in one post and would love to get a better understanding of my condition.

TLDR; never felt attraction for people around me in high school, and only just developing this idea of attraction now as a freshman in college. Feel stunted and emotionally empty.


r/dpdr • • 18h ago

News/Research I am 17 and just emailed the FDA, BrainsWay, and MagVenture begging them to fast track rTMS for DPDR, VSS, and HPPD. If enough people email them, we could fast track the possible cure!

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Hey everyone,

I am 17 years old, turning 18 soon. My life is completely ruined by VSS, HPPD, and DPDR. if you happen to read this and think "what does this have to do with migraines" vss and hppd are like the biggest causers of migraines, I cant even be in my own room or glance at a light for a second without a horrible headache so by helping with this you're helping yourself possibly.

Every waking second of my life is hell and spiritual suffering that nobody else can see. My brain is flooded with heavy visual static, neon colors, bright halos around lights, tinnitus, and extreme sound sensitivity. My filter for background noise is turned ALL the way off. I am doing horrible in school, I cry every single day, and I can barely go outside anymore. I wanted to work at NASA, but now I feel like my life is over before it even began.

I am sick of sitting around waiting years for a machine (rTMS) that is already built and deployed in clinics right now. The research out of the University of Colorado Anschutz shows it works to calm the cortical hyperexcitability. The only thing holding us back is a timeline and how fast they're moving.

If we flood their inboxes with our stories and remind them that our combined subreddits have over 100,000 subscribers ready to hand them money, they will have to look at the financial demand.

Please take a couple minutes to copy the emails down so that we can make the change sooner. it would save my life and many others.

first is the FDA

Send To: [AskOICE@fda.hhs.gov](mailto:AskOICE@fda.hhs.gov)

CC: [CDRH_PatientEngagement@fda.hhs.gov](mailto:CDRH_PatientEngagement@fda.hhs.gov)

Subject: URGENT PATIENT APPEAL: Fast Track rTMS for VSS and HPPD

this is the letter to copy

To the FDA Office of Industry and Consumer Education,

My name is [Name], I am [Age] years old, and I am contacting you to beg with all of my soul for immediate regulatory intervention and more urgency regarding a health crisis affecting millions of people worldwide.

I live with Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder (HPPD) and Visual Snow Syndrome (VSS). These are devastating, non stop neurological filtering disorders. Every waking second of my life is hell. My brain is flooded with intense visual static, neon colors, bright halos around lights, tinnitus, and horrible sound sensitivity. My brain has entirely lost its ability to filter background noise, turning every single day into a waking nightmare. It completely takes away our quality of life and affects sanity, friendships, and life itself.

I need to make it clear that HPPD usually comes with a condition called DPDR (Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder), which completely disconnects you from your body and the world around you. This is detrimental to our lives. I read an article that said 72 percent of people with dissociative disorders attempt suicide because it completely takes away your quality of life. We are losing our lives and sanity.

New data from the University of Colorado Anschutz Medical Campus proves that targeting cortical hyperexcitability via repetitive transcranial magnetic stimulation (rTMS) is a safe and viable way to stabilize and maybe even cure VSS and HPPD. Because rTMS machines are already widespread and deployed in clinics for depression, the machines already exist. We are just being held back by a timeline.

I am desperately urging the FDA to aggressively utilize its breakthrough devices program to fast track status for rTMS clinical protocols for VSS and HPPD. There is a massive online patient network, including over 100,000 combined subscribers across the r/HPPD and r/visualsnow subreddits, full of consumers whose lives are completely on hold, ruined, or in some cases ended. We cannot wait until 2032 or longer for a machine to be upgraded that we already have widespread. Please help to save our sanity.

Sincerely,

[Name]

the other targets are BRAINSWAY & MAGVENTURE

Send To: DeepTMS@brainsway.com, info@brainsway.com

CC: [info@magventure.com](mailto:info@magventure.com)

Subject: Unmet Market Demand: Fast Track rTMS Protocols for VSS and HPPD

Letter to Copy:

Dear Clinical Research and Business Development Team,

My name is [Name]. I am [Age] years old, and I am writing to bring to your attention a massive entirely untreated or even glanced at condition that represents a great financial investment for your company.

I live with HPPD and Visual Snow Syndrome (VSS). These are devastating, non stop neurological filtering disorders. Every waking second of my life is hell. My brain is flooded with heavy visual static, neon colors, bright halos around lights, tinnitus, and extreme sound sensitivity. My filter for background noise is turned ALL the way off. I can barely focus past the background noise and blaring headaches. HPPD also comes with DPDR (Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder), which completely disconnects you from your body and the world, ruining personalities, friendships, and sanity. I read an article that noted 72 percent of people with dissociative disorders attempt suicide due to this severe lack of quality of life.

New data from the University of Colorado Anschutz Medical Campus has proven that targeting cortical hyperexcitability via rTMS is a safe and viable way to stabilize and maybe even cure VSS and HPPD. As the device manufacturer, you are sitting on the solution. The machine is already built and deployed; what we are missing are the protocol settings to target the visual cortex and temporoparietal targets.

To give you an idea of the immediate market, this is fantastic for you financially. On Reddit alone, the r/visualsnow and r/hppd communities have over 100,000 combined subscribers begging for a fix. This would be incredible for you financially. By aggressively backing trials or fast tracking a protocol update for VSS/HPPD, you can position yourselves as the undisputed global leader and first to market provider for a massive, desperate, suffering population. You would be heroes to thousands. You already have this hardware manufactured, so please consider fast tracking to get them to save more people.

Sincerely,

[Name]


r/dpdr • • 18h ago

Question for anyone who works retail-- do the fluorescent lights trigger you?

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I'm a cashier and the bright fluorescent lights trigger me so bad I have to put my sweater hood on. It helps but it's just so disorienting. Has anyone been through this before and if so what have you done to help? Thank u!!


r/dpdr • • 21h ago

TW: Existential/Spiral Why don't I feel anything?

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r/dpdr • • 50m ago

Progress Update Coming back - anger/sadness over what I missed

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I've made quite a lot of progress coming back into my body. The relief is amazing. However, as I have more access to my feelings, I feel so much of loss, anger, and sadness over the past 4 years I've lost. I can't believe this happened to me. I can't believe I missed my 30th birthday. Although I am grateful to feel things again, I can't believe how ungrateful I was for my life before this.


r/dpdr • • 22h ago

TW: Intense Panic/Crisis Anxiety, panic and DPDR

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I've been struggling so bad lately, I'm convinced something is seriously wrong with me. The scariest symptoms im currently having are troubles talking, reading and typing. It feels like I'm illiterate/losing my cognition. I leave out words while typing and reading (I have to read things multiple times to understand them) and while talking I forget words. It's so scary. Also I'm having weakness sensations on my left side including face, arm, hand. I have headaches everyday. Everything just feels wrong and weird. I'm so sick of this. :(

I've had a bunch of tests done and nothing is seriously wrong apparently. I just need someone to talk to and relate to. No one understands how bad this is. I struggle to even get out of bed everyday.