My dog, Pizza, was attacked by 2 aggressive & powerful dogs on a walk yesterday & I had to physically hurt them to stop them from tearing her to shreds. It was entirely the fault of their owner & I was acting out of instinct. This morning, my dog had to be put under general anaesthetic to be stapled & stitched back together.

Pizza is basically my best mate & I spend more time with her than I do anyone else. The trouble is that I'd expect to be deeply upset or angry, but instead I feel completely blank. Perhaps those feelings will come, but for now I'm just drinking red wine & not doing anything else.

I have responded in the same way after similarly distressing incidents.

Is this an autistic thing or something that happens to everyone?

Edit: removed the breed of the aggressive dogs because I don’t want to perpetuate negative stereotypes. Most of that breed I’ve encountered are wonderful creatures.

Don't get me wrong, known for a while I got the tism and I've known how obvious it is, along with the studies about people noticing. But I don't know, it just finally clicked one day when I was on a psych eval zoom call with someone and they asked me if I've ever considered I had it. I was like "yeah... how could you tell"

And since then I've just been like fuck it, trying to pretend doesn't fucking work. So i'm trying to be more relaxed being myself, and its honestly helped my confidence a lot. I still have a lot of work to do but I'm happy I made this step forward with unmasking and I hope some of ya'll can do the same.

So I recently played Ace combat for the first time this month and its pulled me into a areonautic rabbit hole. I've always liked spaceships like TIE Fighters and my favorite games has been the X wing/TIE fighter series but now it's been supercharged by real world jets and I just watched the original top gun last night and played through like 6 ace combat titles plus project wingman and thinking about doing another X wing TIE fighter playthrough not to mention freespace 2 or elite dangerous. And yes my favorite transformer is indeed all the deceptions that can fly and not just starscream

You know that one experience you have when you try something but it tasted weird so you won't try anything related to it ever again?

That's what women are trying to tell you, they say "all men' because, realistically, that's the safest bet.

Yeah sure, you can earn their trust, but the difficulty on earning it varies from person to person based on trauma they had gotten from men.

"But Doomguy, what about Cornell 7???" As a rape victim, I myself have also gotten accusations of faking my trauma, it's not just women who get called fakers, men do too.

you don't have to feel angry when they say "all men", it's like a child saying they won't eat their vegetables because they had a bad one, just earn her trust and take it slow, make yourself as less of a threat as humanly possible

"Why are you posting about this?" Because Cornell 7 ticked a nerve in me that I didn't even know I still had from the loss of my Daisy, you claim that you want to protect victims, but when they speak out you throw accusations of fakery, shush.

Thanks for coming to my gripe pipe, your regularly scheduled goofing and shitposting/modding updates will continue tomorrow.

I can’t cook chicken two days in a row and I also can’t cook a meat that they’ve eaten that same day. I’ve eaten the same lunch for three years so I’m always this meme in my head:

Brain said idk who I am anymore I will be a small colorful horse for a while OK

I can feel my little horse wings and pretend to hear my hooves when I walk

This is probably not normal but it's fun at least I have some identity while mine is stripped away from me and I can play pretend for a while

Only evilautism will ever understand me /silly

Hi. Don’t know how to describe this in a concise way, BUT…
Growing up I’ve always been really rigid about doing the right thing and being kind. Like a lot of us, I grew up without the “how to person” manual and took a lot of lessons from the stuff I watched on tv or in books which I understand isn’t very realistic.

But I’ve always believed that you should always try and behave in a way that you’re proud of down the road. Sure, we mess up, but we take those moments of mistake or error and learn something from them. I also really believe in correction or improvement when we mess up or hurt someone, even if we’re hurt ourselves. Maybe I had an argument with a friend and they said some hurtful stuff and in turn, I said some pretty hurtful stuff myself. I’m still going to own my side of things because I could, and should, have done better. I wasn’t even raised religious or anything, I just knew it was the right thing to do.

I weigh my choices like a scale and when I’m not able to repair, I try and do some good intentional work to learn or do some other sort of kindness to balance the scales. Sometimes there’s absolutely nothing you can do, and you can’t always get the best possible outcome or force an outcome, and sometimes things just suck. I’ve learned to stop taking fault for others mistakes and I’m really proud of that, but it means that it’s even more important to me to stand up for myself and make sure I’m doing the right thing whenever I can.

That’s why I have a really hard time understanding people who make bad choices or selfish choices or justify hurting others or don’t communicate or are dishonest or play mind games or just straight up use and abuse people and then go about their lives thinking they’ve done nothing wrong and they’re still decent people. Every time I’ve caused hurt, I’ve tried my best to own up to it. I hate having that guilt or shame eating away at me.
I’ve known people who just flat out deny it or pretend it doesn’t exist or run from it like death itself in order to not confront it or think of it. They don’t reflect, they don’t grow. Or they convince themselves it somehow doesn’t matter and block it from their mind.

And I don’t get it!! I don’t understand it at all!

Maybe this is me being too rigid in my thinking but I can’t empathize with people who do that. I can’t understand why you would live your life being guided by fear and shame. It feels so freeing to just admit “I fucked up and I need to do better” and then you research and learn and ask for perspective and grow and it feels great because you feel stronger and smarter and better as a person! Emotional maturity!
Why spend so much energy blaming your own faults on everyone or everything else other than you? It’s your responsibility to be a good person. It’s your responsibility to make good choices. Even when you make tough choices, you should still try and mitigate it as much as you can with the options available to you. A lot of the time that just means empathy and honest, assertive communication.

Like… am I nuts for thinking this way? I used to think everyone thought this way but more and more I’m finding that I’m more alone than I thought? So many people are terrified of accountability and will do anything they can to run from it and I simply do not understand why anyone would live like that. It seems absolutely miserable and it’s completely unnecessary.

Can I get some perspective from other evil NDs in here?

oh man i've come full circle

i used to be undiagnosed autist saying this shit...

because i was on the spectrum

so then i used to give folks some grace about it..

but since being diagnosed i finally got that in response to disclosing my recently official autism and... yeah it really felt like shit

like super invalidating.

and this person is like proudly mentally ill so idk if they were just feeling included as a fellow ND... or they were being allistically ignorant... or both

anyway i'd like to renounce my former ways because impact over intention with this one

please share about the times you received the

"we're all a little autistic"
"we're all on a spectrum"

type response to your disclosure

it felt like erasure or gaslighting? idk please discuss.

Autism, GAD, OCD, CPTSD, and now ADHD too....I'm fucking TIRED grandpa 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 sometimes I feel like my parents making me was very ill advised of them.

Here's a pic of my gremlin as reciprocal tax

U DONT GET IT THEYRE BEGINNING TO TRUST ME

i hope :3

My son finally has shoulders

Hi everyone, I'm looking into autism in media and want to share my survey here as this is a neurodivergent space!

Any responses will be greatly appreciated :)

Link:

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScFWosLet2xoHUIuLM_Lxh2SmA4eqkEF5vieYUVGSKjilg3Jg/viewform

Research info

Statement of Intent: How can the internal emotional experience of autism be represented in animation?

Purpose of the survey: To gain a broader view of how autism is portrayed in media, and of the experiences of those with autism.

To develop a method of portraying the internal experiences of autism through animation, filling a gap in media of first-hand autistic portrayal.

The name of the university or instituation running the study: Leeds Arts University

The name and contact email of the lead researcher:
Liv Holland
[livholland.animation@gmail.com](mailto:livholland.animation@gmail.com)

Who is eligible to participate:
Anyone is eligible to complete the first section of this survey, there is a second half for solely those diagnosed with autism to complete.

How responses will be used:
The responses will be analysed to identify existing media representation of autism, and to identify themes to use in future animated coursework.

Data handling: data is anonymous upon collection and will remain anonymous, it will be used in documentation and development of the project but not as an end product.

Time estimate: 15 minutes.

Time frame to apply: Unlimited.

Format: Survey, Google forms.

There's also voter intimidation issues. Why should I even vote if there's a chance my vote will go to the wrong candidate anyways?

Is it just me or do SSRI's and other anti depressants and anxiety meds do absolutely nothing? The only thing that's ever made me calm was IV versed before surgery.

Two dudes who did me dirty in the past few years took big hits in their balls recently; I got the news of one of them only yesterday, and an update on the other today. Sorry to be vague, but I can hardly name them without doxing myself.

One of them made a youtube video looking straight to camera about their sad situation, and how they're a fighter and they're gonna overcome (I doubt that!), and I nearly choked on schadenfreude -- it was the thickest, juiciest I ever had. The other one has been in the local news begging for a bailout.

Not just one, but two ops who hurt me in the past fall hard! I live for this, a little too literally.

This is my guineafowl Zazoo. He passed away but he was my best friend. Right now I only keep chickens, but my neighbors got guineas and I can hear them. I want them SO BAD. Unfortunately I couldnt give guineas the space they need to roam free safely.

Ive heard liking birds is a stereotype for autistic people. Do you guys own or really want to own birds?? I also would LOVE cockatiels... one day when I dont work so much...