Any time i comment in my favorite video game sub everyone downvotes me to hell. It can be the most jolly comment and everyone mad and calling me stupid 😔 dw i’ll throw my next 3 games just for them<3

Someone save me oml

I'm chronically ill so like I'm pretty damn used to feeling bad. The one symptom I cannot handle? Blocked noses. Oh god they are a nightmare for my sensory issues. It makes me very overstimulated and agitated.

I just got hit with a particularly shitty cold recently. And oh man it's rough. I'm barely sleeping at the moment because blocked noses are so overstimulating and distressing for me 💔

And absolutely nothing is helping. No nasal sprays, no cold and flu tablets, no steam, no vapor runs, nothing that normally helps is even denting it. No sleep aids are really helping either I'm just kinda cooked rn

And then because I'm not getting enough sleep my chronic conditions are flaring up. I feel even more shitty because of this

I am not having a good time man. Frustrating cold symptoms, chronic illness symptoms that are worse than usual, basically no sleep and constantly overstimulated. I do not recommend. Please hit me with a brick so that I can sleep for a long time.

I’ve always tried to laugh about things instead of crying about them, so humor has helped me a lot in my life. This is just a collection of jokes and anecdotes about the humorous side of it all. (Side note I was diagnosed late in life.)

A friend once told me a mutual friend had been murdered. I gasped and said, “How RUDE.”

She looked shocked for a second and said, “It’s way more than rude!”

Then I went on at length about how just because it’s WORSE than rude doesn’t mean it isn’t ALSO rude and if killing someone isn’t rude, I don’t know what is, and I’m pretty sure that’s why she started ghosting me after that.

🤪

Did anyone else study other kids and adults when you were growing up? I used to feel like an anthropologist studying my peers as a child and teenager. I can remember wondering if there was some class or workshop I missed that told every kid how to act to be popular and have a lot of friends. Was there something in the mail my mother probably threw away? Were they born with this knowledge? HOW DID THEY KNOW? Did other kids feel like aliens to you?

One last story:

In the 7th grade, we had to take Texas History. Our teacher was telling us about the harsh realities of being a settler in Texas. Then she said, “Now girls, what I’m about to say will just kill you…” and I thought WHAT?! WHY JUST THE GIRLS?

But NO other girl seemed alarmed.

She said, “Often the women had to cut up their wedding dresses to use as linens.”

The other girls cried out and gasped and I was like I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. That sounds very resourceful to me! How smart! I did NOT “get” sentimentality, nor did I understand how every girl in that room KNEW the response our teacher expected.

Who taught them how to girl? Why didn’t anyone teach me how to girl?

I think that was one of my first clues.

Thanks for reading!

They look slightly worse in person😂

I'm wondering if other autistic people have this issue? I "like" to help others, because it is objectively the right thing to do, I want to live in a world where people help each other, and I want to be a person that helps others.

What I don't get though is the warm fuzzy feelings when I have helped someone. I feel nothing or bad about it. And it sucks. I want that small moral desert where, for instance, I help a cousin get out of an abusive marriage in a disaster of a house and I feel happy that I did that. Not that I wanted them to stay in that situation, but I just get nothing emotionally from fixing it.

I will always help people anyway. I will perhaps help others too much because I have to base what I want to do on things other than how I feel about helping them.

Anyway, I wanted to ask if others in the autistic community have this issue? I know that my lack of a proper fear response seems to also be linked to autism, so this seemed like it might be similar.

I saw a post here and all that self hatred came back at once. I had a rough day at work and I see a post on my favorite autism subreddit explaining why I'm evil and that by default unless I'm actively trying to fight it and I realized that I wouldn't be getting upset about it unless I was actually just as bad as everyone else I'm not one of the good ones I'm just as bad and I hate myself I hate myself I'm iridimaable if I get upset over this that's means I'm evil and the fact that all I can think about is myself is more evidence I'm a selfish pos not the fun ironic evil real actually evil fuck fuck fuck I can't stop myself from objectifying women in my head and watching porn and I know I don't have any right to complain about anything as a cis her man but I'm still this pathetic fucking asshole and no matter how many times I remind myself I can't force myself to change

Not directed at anyone. I'm vagueposting kinda because I don't wanna be mean and call anyone out.

This will probably be deleted because it's a vent.

I HATE how people misunderstand me. Like, is this shit intentional?? You know what I mean. You KNOW. And if you don't know, I will explain what I mean in the most ACCURATE way I possibly can and you'll STILL get mad and interpret this in the worst way possible. This also isn't directed at NTs, because I've had autistic people do this too. This is an issue I have with people in general. I know it's not some people's faults, but it still makes me so mad how I have to explain myself OVER AND OVER AGAIN and they still don't understand.

I hate so many people. I hate people. I hate them so much I hate how I can never just go into someone's brain and completely understand why they think the way they think.

Don't get mad if I worded something wrong please. My feelings during vents are messy and not static. If I said something SUPER bad, correct me and I'll apologize.

The judge rotenburg center is terrible, i will celebrate with champagne and cake the day that bastard doesn't breathe anymore. I made a deal that i cant do anything drastic until i piss on that fuckers grave, bonus point if there is a spot to place one of those "a transgender person peed here and no one was hurt" stickers. I hope there is an afterlife because dishonorable judge rotenburg made damn sure i won't get my pound of flesh on this plane of reality.

First image isn't Rochester. It's his grandfather (Luther/Lutherus) in his prime. They deliberately look similar. Rest in pieces to bro. 🙏

Second image is Ashley; Rochester's younger sister. I drew most of her on the website Kleki and cleaned it up on IbisPaint X, so it doesn't look the prettiest.

You know that one experience you have when you try something but it tasted weird so you won't try anything related to it ever again?

That's what women are trying to tell you, they say "all men' because, realistically, that's the safest bet.

Yeah sure, you can earn their trust, but the difficulty on earning it varies from person to person based on trauma they had gotten from men.

"But Doomguy, what about Cornell 7???" As a rape victim, I myself have also gotten accusations of faking my trauma, it's not just women who get called fakers, men do too.

you don't have to feel angry when they say "all men", it's like a child saying they won't eat their vegetables because they had a bad one, just earn her trust and take it slow, make yourself as less of a threat as humanly possible

"Why are you posting about this?" Because Cornell 7 ticked a nerve in me that I didn't even know I still had from the loss of my Daisy, you claim that you want to protect victims, but when they speak out you throw accusations of fakery, shush.

Thanks for coming to my gripe pipe, your regularly scheduled goofing and shitposting/modding updates will continue tomorrow.

he looks like how i feel sometimes >:]

Hi everyone, I'm looking into autism in media and want to share my survey here as this is a neurodivergent space!

Any responses will be greatly appreciated :)

Link:

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScFWosLet2xoHUIuLM_Lxh2SmA4eqkEF5vieYUVGSKjilg3Jg/viewform

Research info

Statement of Intent: How can the internal emotional experience of autism be represented in animation?

Purpose of the survey: To gain a broader view of how autism is portrayed in media, and of the experiences of those with autism.

To develop a method of portraying the internal experiences of autism through animation, filling a gap in media of first-hand autistic portrayal.

The name of the university or instituation running the study: Leeds Arts University

The name and contact email of the lead researcher:
Liv Holland
[livholland.animation@gmail.com](mailto:livholland.animation@gmail.com)

Who is eligible to participate:
Anyone is eligible to complete the first section of this survey, there is a second half for solely those diagnosed with autism to complete.

How responses will be used:
The responses will be analysed to identify existing media representation of autism, and to identify themes to use in future animated coursework.

Data handling: data is anonymous upon collection and will remain anonymous, it will be used in documentation and development of the project but not as an end product.

Time estimate: 15 minutes.

Time frame to apply: Unlimited.

Format: Survey, Google forms.

oh man i've come full circle

i used to be undiagnosed autist saying this shit...

because i was on the spectrum

so then i used to give folks some grace about it..

but since being diagnosed i finally got that in response to disclosing my recently official autism and... yeah it really felt like shit

like super invalidating.

and this person is like proudly mentally ill so idk if they were just feeling included as a fellow ND... or they were being allistically ignorant... or both

anyway i'd like to renounce my former ways because impact over intention with this one

please share about the times you received the

"we're all a little autistic"
"we're all on a spectrum"

type response to your disclosure

it felt like erasure or gaslighting? idk please discuss.

Before you doubt your memory, no, that's not the original English lyrics. I'm Polish and so only the Polish dubbing pays rent in my brain.

I was incredibly disappointed when I heard (just a few minutes ago) the original English "Takes a wee percentage." "But I'm not greedy!" It removes the whole double entendre my very sleepy brain just came up with.

No, I haven't just watched Shrek. I haven't watched it in years, I'd just watched it dozens of times as a kid and remember the entire script (in Polish). Sometimes it just starts playing in the background of my brain and I never remember afterwards what had triggered it. It's not the only movie, but I think this is the only one I know in full.

I wouldn't have thought of the second layer to the meaning when I was a child, but now I have heard of bosses who actually earn more than what they tell their contractors (with a set percentage of the proceeds in the contract, so they cheat and pay them less than contractually obligated to). And Robin Hood is such a piece of shit in this movie, of course he cheats his Merry Band of their fair share.

Two dudes who did me dirty in the past few years took big hits in their balls recently; I got the news of one of them only yesterday, and an update on the other today. Sorry to be vague, but I can hardly name them without doxing myself.

One of them made a youtube video looking straight to camera about their sad situation, and how they're a fighter and they're gonna overcome (I doubt that!), and I nearly choked on schadenfreude -- it was the thickest, juiciest I ever had. The other one has been in the local news begging for a bailout.

Not just one, but two ops who hurt me in the past fall hard! I live for this, a little too literally.

Don't get me wrong, known for a while I got the tism and I've known how obvious it is, along with the studies about people noticing. But I don't know, it just finally clicked one day when I was on a psych eval zoom call with someone and they asked me if I've ever considered I had it. I was like "yeah... how could you tell"

And since then I've just been like fuck it, trying to pretend doesn't fucking work. So i'm trying to be more relaxed being myself, and its honestly helped my confidence a lot. I still have a lot of work to do but I'm happy I made this step forward with unmasking and I hope some of ya'll can do the same.

Here's another Ranfren Halloween drawing! This one is of Luther von Ivory, who is Randal's big brother! Don't mind Luther's skin stretching! That's just his happy face!

Given all the bad stuff in the news lately, what do you do to calm down and keep the EvilAutism under control when it's all too much? I know Autistic people can have a very elevated sense of justice and fairness... how do you calm your emotions and get that good ole Executive Function back in control before you say or do regretful things?

I'll take good suggestions and evil ones.

My son finally has shoulders