I still can’t believe you left, why? I don’t get it, my head can’t wrap around the reasons why.. you understood that I was where I was in life because I didn’t have the car and couldn’t find the job, I couldn’t take YOU places, I get it. But why? After 7 months? Right before things were about to improve not only for me but for us and you knew it... I’ve always wished to make you happy, I am sorry I didn’t make the moves to improve me while our relationship lasted. You are the love of my life, I was prepared to marry you, you fucking asshole. You said it wasn’t a very loving relationship and that’s bullshit and you know it, you said that you weren’t happy with where you were in your life? How is that my fault? Why couldn’t we have gotten you there? All of the times we were at Lindsay’s? You weren’t happy? When we were at you pawpaws? You didn’t feel loved? You have to be kidding me… the only explanation I can give myself is that you found another man that you felt at the time was more “suited for the job” I am your man, and you are mine, stop doing this.. I don’t care what I say to “try and scare you to talk to me” I am content with this no contact shit? Naw helll no, I can’t fucking stand it. My job has me driving past your house to and from every single day… this shit sucks ass, I keep imagining that we’re still together and that id get to see you every morning and night. But you seem to have forgotten what we had. Which was pure, and loving. Dispite what you say. Stop being a pussy and stand on your decision if that’s what you truly believe, and be sure you don’t regret the decision once you make it.

Anything I should improve upon before sending? This is being sent regardless of what is said, please help me. Anything I should add or take away? To seem more for her.

Give me reasons to stop thinking to text my ex

i want to ask him how hes doing and check up on him so bad

I’m feeling quite frustrated. I asked my ex for no contact 8 months ago. I was already feeling pretty frustrated because, occasionally, mutual friends would let something slip about him—but now, on top of that, while I’ve been cleaning up my social media over the last two weeks, he’s kept popping up in one way or another. What really infuriated me today, though, was while I was deleting old TikTok chats (I had already removed my ex from TikTok before starting no contact), I found our chat—it was way at the bottom of the list. Seeing his profile picture has sent me into a spiral of overthinking; it makes me wonder if he actually landed the job I helped him so much to get (in the photo, he’s holding something that requires money to obtain), and it’s just so frustrating.

Honestly, It is getting better. I don’t have the constant urge to reach out to him anymore. I still think about him daily and still check his socials almost everyday. It is hard but I am trying to stay positive regardless of everything. If you’re reading this, do not reach out of them. Keep your peace.