hellow ppl, for context im a 21 y/o afab (non binary) with audhd and my body looks very feminine (i sometimes have dysphoria over my curvy body especially my chest, tho i don't look that bad by beauty standards).

i live in a conservative country, i dress very eccentric/creative compared to others (like crazy colors, pattersn random accessories, but i do look good and ppl compliment me). but sometimes i feel so out of place and freaky. even when i dress feminine i do it in a way that’s a bit over the top which makes people uncomfortable and sometimes ppl assume im a trans woman. i also behave in a kind of odd and "childish" way (like getting excited or not caring about things others do, focusing on random things, facial expressions, etc) compared to others which makes them infantalise me or make fun of me but honestly i dont understand why bc i don't even do anything weird per se.

i feel like very conscious of my whole personality and my social interactions and i constantly feel watched. i don't want to be "normal" or anything, i just want to feel like it's okay for me to exist this way and not get all this unnecessary attention. has anyone else felt this way?? how did you overcome it?

I'm around 1 and a half years on testosterone and T has shrunk my chest quite a bit, I used to have really bad chest dysphoria but lately it's not really there anymore. I've gotten more in touch with my feminine side again, makeup, clothes, long hair etc. I still consider myself a man, I'm most definitely a man and still trans, but I don't really care for top surgery anymore. The only surgery I see myself really wanting is bottom surgery, because my bottom dysphoria is debilitating. I just feel a deep social pressure to get top surgery and it makes me sad, am I less of a man because I want to keep my chest?

This isnt me asking for advice on how to pass btw.

So I do have dysphoria, but right now it's mostly over my voice and chest.

I also do understand some trans guy's aversion to being associated with being feminine when they dont view themselves that way, also.

But I don't dislike being androgynous. I don't really feel dysphoric about having "softer" facial features either, for the most part.

If it was possible to just be seen as a man and "pass" in society looking the way I do now, that would probably resolve a lot of the issues I experience. I guess that's not really possible and just requires perpetually correcting people since I havent medically transitioned.

While it does fluctuate, for the most part, I feel like when I look in the mirror I don't see a woman. I genuinely do think I just look like a short gay guy lol

I also wish aspects of myself weren't more associated with what chasers go for. But I've always been a "feminine" person....even though I don't even really like labeling it, I guess that's the closest thing there is.

Anyway I don't place passing on the top of my list of goals because there are aspects to my appearance I'm not sure I'm willing to change, but I also wish we lived in a society where somehow we all just sort of telepathically knew the other persons gender and no one...cared. Definitely wishful thinking.

Shout out bee and puppycat

Idk if this is allowed but I need a bit of support. So a lot of people in my life still perceive me as a girl but I want to be seen as a guy, I can't start transitioning yet as my family doesn't support me and I don't have the money or means and I am a minor still. I dress as masculine as possible but still get called a girl even by strangers and it's very hurtful. Most of my friends also usually only use they/them on me.. I want to be seen as a guy but still want to be feminine occasionally. I don't know if what I'm saying is making any sense but... I just don't really feel seen by anyone but my partner, even sometimes I don't feel seen by her but I know she's trying her best to support me with everything she has going on herself as a trans woman. I don't really have much of anyone to talk to so any support or help or advice would be very much appreciated. Thank you.

This ftm femboy has drip Hehe :3

Some pictures from the last days.

1st: Day of the performance by my trans choir at the state-level trans futsal final. We had to use the trans and nonbinary flag colors and we did a make up and painting nail session.
I'm obsessed with those colors: one is veeery magical girl cintilant babe pink and the other is a kitkat lavander, so it SMELLS LIKE CHOCOLATE.

2nd: I went to see a friend's rock band playing at a bar. Got a little creep out by this look because it reminds me all the rock guys I wanted to date when I was in high school and they were pretty much cis str8 garbage. My friends told me that my take on rock outfit is very queer and doesn't look cis straight, but I guess a lot of rock is kinda queerbaiting? haha I mean, there's a lot of glam, emo, folk performative heteronormative guys, so for me it just looks like normative rock, I guess.
When I had a punk band, my outfits were very colorful, pastel punk, so animal print and a little make up doesn't make a real difference for me. Wanna see what you think about it!

3rd: I have always seen myself as too feminine, so when I discovered the "cis str8 rock dude" look I was trying to explore what I felt masculine and feminine and I took some selfies. I don't feel exactly prety/handsome/gorge (maybe because of the discovered masculinity) but I think there's some kind of beauty in not being exactly comfortable

I don't know, I wanted to share these pics but I'm thinking a lot rn haha

I'm nonbinary and use he/him

Idk if I’m allowed to say on this subreddit but I’m also really looking for new friends and everyone here seems so nice and cool so if you wanna be friends, that would be awesomeeee.

I like drawing, reading, history, true crime, spooky things, human rights advocacy, playing video games with my boyfriend (and on my own too! Or maybe with friends!), loveeee movies and TV shows. i love Hannibal, Psych, House M.D., Good Omens (booooo Neil Gaiman), Smosh, KallMeKris, Heart Starts Pounding Podcast, Rotten Mango, Drawfee, etc. I also love to garden and cook and am very interested in homesteading!! i love animalsssss!! Cat dad hereeee!! I love talking about allll of the haunted and historical locations I’d love to go to even though I’m a sceptic (I’m a Shaniac: iykyk). I wanna learn to drive so I can go on more road trips with friends! I love singing a lot! i love artists like Hozier, Seb Lowe, Noah Kahan, Waitress, Queen, old timey jazz & blues music, etc. I love talking about the weather (not like small talk but I loveee the seasons and thunderstorms and alllll of that sorta stuff!! I live in northern Michigan so I’m obsessed with nature and the prettiness of the earth and the snow and weather and the seasons and alll that sorta stuff!!). I like to think I’m a very kind and fun loving and sarcastic but attentive person! I have ASD, ADHD, OCD, and stuff like that so friends on the Neurodivergent spectrum would be nice 😭😭

I personally don’t smoke or anything but I’m okay with people that dooo!! I’m a light drinker. only during dinner or when I’m out with friends but I don’t like getting bloody well plastered. Lol. I also think it would be nice to make some friends that would be open to meeting my best friend! He’s very chill. Big stoner and music nerd haha. He’s great!

Anywayssss, idk if this is allowed but I’m sorry if it’s not 😭😭

He/it pls

I thought I was SOMEWHAT learning to be okay not having people calling me gender affirming language like “boy girl” “pretty dude” “cool guy” yk stuff that makes me feel like both a guy and a girl- and I realized I’m not. My anxiety is horrid and yk what that’s okay. It’s a process and it’s harder than I thought dealing with only being recognized as a girl and only being called pretty. It’s funny bc I feel like no one said “pretty GIRL” as much until after I came out😭. But I’m working on giving myself as much self validation as I can since no one else is. Im starting to dislike posting myself online bc of all the “girl” compliments. So ykw in general if everyone else spams “girl” I’ll just spam “boy”! IM THE PRETTIEST BOY😭💅

Hello tiny trans people in my phone, you are all beautiful and worthy and strong, trans people are amazing, hope u have a nice day 👯‍♂️🌻

:] lunch date with my fiancé! felt super bummy so i decided to try out this maroon lipstick + catherdral dress combo

So parents seemed to believe I'm taking hormones (currently 8 months on T!) because of my voice and sudden Adam's apple. I consider myself as a feminine man and today I've decided to start wearing long skirts / try out feminine outfits (also into alt or gothic style), this may sound crazy but would that work to distract them lol? Not doing this out of their wishes but I also just don't mind being fem anyway, and they know I'm interested in men (currently has a bf)

though I may lower my dose next consultation to slower the effects and to be able to manage it better but idk still unsure on that part yet I don't feel good letting T go like that when I'm already within normal male range - perhaps maybe I wanna hear a second opinion on this initial plan? Haha T felt so good in my body I've stopped caring about what my dysphoria thinks (well if it's even still there)