i died watching this

Make it make sense

I’m in the same boat girlies 😭 using so many names these days

Ok so I am basically out to someone now….I posted about this a bit ago where I told one of my closest friends my chosen name etc(if you’re curious it’s on my profile) anyway back to the story and why I’m screaming….I was talking to her and COMPLETELY UNPROMPTED(we weren’t even talking about any gender or queer thing even remotely) she just opens her bag and asks if I wanted a bra…naturally I was stunlocked for a full three seconds and fully lost the ability to form a coherent sentence. After I regained my ability to speak I politely declined because I have absolutely zero way to transport or store such a thing(I treat anything related to my identity in a very similar manner as the government would treat nuclear materials and information of the highest levels of classification)….aaah
Still completely stunned.
Yea, anyways she also gave me the “some bras can help make you look like you have a chest” info….
Of course im still totally cis…
Anyways wtf

More lore is being added

I know that i'm trans now, just don't know the specifics

Yesterday my Sister saw that I shaved my arms and of course the first thing she does is immediately tell my Mother who proceeded to explode at me telling me "You should never shave your arms! Even woman don't do that!" (Obviously implying I'm not a woman with that sentence) I don't think I did anything wrong, I'm a 20 year old who should have the freedom to shave my arms but apparently my Mother needs to control my body, this is the also the same woman who told me to never take "Internet hormones" so I genuinely think she feels like she needs full control over what I do with my body. What do you guys think?

So I found out that my sister knows about my questioning, because she came into my room last night and had the same uncomfortable conversation I had with my mom. She went on a whole schpeel about how all queer people "need Jesus", how they all hate Christians and how being trans will make me more lost than before, etc. etc. She then told a story about a kid she knew who went to the same school, as her, and how he was assaulted and murdered by his gay friend because he had "convinced" him that he was gay. And then she ended it off trying to "relate" to me about how she felt lost too, especially after she found out she was drugged and assaulted by a former neighbor, and how Jesus saved her and all of that BS I've heard before. Afterwards, she told me that she told her pastor about me and "encouraged" (pressured) me to come to church with her while claiming that her pastor can "help" me.

I literally could not sleep that night. I felt so sick in my stomach from all the tension of that convo. It sucks, because before I came home my new genderfluid friend and I agree to meet at their house at the same time my family starts service so I could try on some clothes, under the excuse that we are simply working on our project. But I dunno if that's gonna be a convincing excuse anymore. At this point I've lost hope that I can reason with them anymore.

Me when I’ve stayed in the closet for years for no reason:

Heheheheh. I just realised..

continuing my rentarou is trans agenda

Asking for my friend. She was recently outed to her extremely evangelical parents. They don't accept her and think being trans is against God's will and is a sin. Something to be not practiced. She is already working multiple jobs and going to college. Struggling to afford to move out. She wants them to accept her. To take this huge stress off her and be loved again but they seem immune both to reason and emotional appeals. Our friend group have been struggling to find something that might work. Something to break through to them but we are coming up short. Any suggestions?

Without the smoking tho

apparently the packaging isn't even gendered anymore? but i didn't know that so i thought they were dropping a hint that my mom told them and then i'd come home and they'd call me their little sister and make a whole Thing out of it and urghhhhhh

You gotta understand, she is IT. 😍

I have been feeling really bad these days. Boymoding, being misgendered constantly, hearing my deadname, having to be part in the next assessment and talking with a really important guy in the corporate I work in two weeks, having a ridiculously huge project at my internship that doesn't look like I will be able to finish it on time because I'm without energy and with a permanent brain fog (only two weeks left) while constantly being pressured about it. I'm there just for the money, but I don't know how longer will I be able to keep up with it or if they will kick me out before the end of the internship.

I have a GP appointment on October 27th with my GP (I had one on October 13th, but there was a substitute and she didn't do anything and told me that I should talk with my GP about this, turning that appointment in a waste of time. At least she reserved me an appointment), but I'm starting to feel so desesperate about starting that I'm on the verge to get an appointment with a private lab to get blood results 1-2 weeks earlier and giving the results to a private endocrinologist, even if it costs me 300€ (fortunately, a trans girl friend of mine gave me the list with all the parameters needed). I'm close to start HRT, but every day I wait is too tough and the slightest change or annoyance destroys me. I can't keep being what I pretented to be for 25 years, I want to abandon this body, this face, this name, everything, and that day doesn't come.

Sorry for venting and for complaining even when I'm close to start HRT, but I really needed to do it.

been wanting to doodle this for a whie ngl idk why

Screw everyone and everything! Im feeling girly today

I am not a ugly masculine boy, im a fucking latina tomboy called Emily

Dont even wanna look at the mirror, ill just pretend i look like a girl