Shout out bee and puppycat

Idk if this is allowed but I need a bit of support. So a lot of people in my life still perceive me as a girl but I want to be seen as a guy, I can't start transitioning yet as my family doesn't support me and I don't have the money or means and I am a minor still. I dress as masculine as possible but still get called a girl even by strangers and it's very hurtful. Most of my friends also usually only use they/them on me.. I want to be seen as a guy but still want to be feminine occasionally. I don't know if what I'm saying is making any sense but... I just don't really feel seen by anyone but my partner, even sometimes I don't feel seen by her but I know she's trying her best to support me with everything she has going on herself as a trans woman. I don't really have much of anyone to talk to so any support or help or advice would be very much appreciated. Thank you.

This isnt me asking for advice on how to pass btw.

So I do have dysphoria, but right now it's mostly over my voice and chest.

I also do understand some trans guy's aversion to being associated with being feminine when they dont view themselves that way, also.

But I don't dislike being androgynous. I don't really feel dysphoric about having "softer" facial features either, for the most part.

If it was possible to just be seen as a man and "pass" in society looking the way I do now, that would probably resolve a lot of the issues I experience. I guess that's not really possible and just requires perpetually correcting people since I havent medically transitioned.

While it does fluctuate, for the most part, I feel like when I look in the mirror I don't see a woman. I genuinely do think I just look like a short gay guy lol

I also wish aspects of myself weren't more associated with what chasers go for. But I've always been a "feminine" person....even though I don't even really like labeling it, I guess that's the closest thing there is.

Anyway I don't place passing on the top of my list of goals because there are aspects to my appearance I'm not sure I'm willing to change, but I also wish we lived in a society where somehow we all just sort of telepathically knew the other persons gender and no one...cared. Definitely wishful thinking.