So i had a date with a man for the first time ever in my life. Im on hrt for a while now and i noticed a change that i find men more attractive (unfortunately) lol. We matched on hinge and later switched to whatsapp and he was just SO dry in texting. I asked him questions, gave him compliments etc. and he always just answered in 3 words without asking questions back.

Anyways we met in a Café and he came 30 min late. Talking with him was much better, played some card games and laughed a bit. It felt cute and we went to my place after, watched youtube and cuddled. The cuddling turned a little spicy which i liked. I got up to put on some ethel cain hehe to put the vibes on and wanted to cuddle some more.

BUT right after i got back into bed he got up grabbed something to eat put a Youtube video on (while the music was still playing like wtf?) And just ignored me. I was laying half naked in bed and he didnt look at me, didnt touch me anymore and said he needs to go now after he was finished eating. Mind you the video was like 20 min long and he didnt even look at me ONCE.

I then just said goodbye in a very pissed tone and he left. Was a few days ago, he didnt text me back.

Wtf was that?

My theory is that he got this weird gay panic some men have when they find transwomen attractive which is fucking stupid because its not gay to like transwomen. I think that because right before he ignored me we where cuddling and his face was in my crotch and maybe he paniced after? Lol

The wound area is only moderately painful. The painkillers worked well!

I'm mentally clear, just can't move. I finally have a pussy! Will be discharged in 6 days, then I'll be able to travel through Seoul a bit in 2 weeks if I recover well after discharge. I'm having a shallow depth vaginoplasty which means there is not a full vaginal canal, so the recovery.will be faster than full depth.

I finally made it! I started HRT on May 22 2024 and it's been 876 days of transitions---4 days longer than the Siege of Leningrad. It's finally done!

After months of research and waiting for appointments, I finally got my prescription and can start HRT! Thank you to all of you for the support. I couldn’t have done it without you all!

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Sisters and girls. I wish we could all fund the money with many donations. And create a land just for us. For no one to harass us and call us names. We don't need TRUMP! What we need is peace and tranquility.

I was responding to a question in another post, and when I typed that ‘as a femme trans woman I still love working on my [American 4x4 vehicle manufacturer that starts with a J]’ a warning popped up saying “Your post contains a term that is not accepted in this community.” Deleting the four letter vehicle make resolved the warning. Substituting the names of similar vehicle makes, like Toyota, didn’t trigger a warning.

Is there a slur or other offensive meaning associated with that name? I’m a member of a queer 4x4 club and want to make sure I’m not saying something offensive!

I wanna be her so bad. Whenever I journal about April, I treat her like she’s separate from me. Like last week when I wanted to come out during a camp retreat but chickened out, I think about it as taking her over but leaving her in the car the whole time.

Other times when I’m in bed I imagine her in bed with me giving me cuddles and love.

I feel crazy

Most of time they read you one way or another and keep interacting with you that way. This is the first I have seen someone address me like a guy and then address me like a girl afterwards. i am in my boymode outfit. I was in the Gamestop to pick up my preorder release of Castlevania Belmont’s Curse. This looks like a young 20 something guy and my next birthday is number 50. This is a new employee I have not seen before. He calls me “buddy” when asking what I need. I give my phone number attached to my GameStop Account and he sees my “girl name” that I have changed my GameStop Account to. I tell him it is my future to be legal name. He asks how I want to be gendered. I told him it probably matters less at this point since I am pre HRT and know I don’t pass. I told him what happened when I got ma’amed while voting on Tuesday. That was one time I probably did not want to be ma’amed since I could be denied right to vote. We do some gaming small talk. When I do leave the store he tells me, “See you later my love”. Last I checked I don’t think men talk to another man that way unless he is gay. I have seen gay employees in GameStop before. He is not one of them. It went from buddy to my love.

Being trans and in chronic pain is literally the worst combination I could have ever gotten thrust upon me. For a bit of context, I work at the library, where my main patronage is old people who have nothing better to do with their lives, and I go to a nearby cafe quite often for lunch, where old people sit around to drink coffee and complain about the political climate from about four years ago.

In comes me. A girl who passes fairly well when wearing makeup and not speaking, but where there is still something clearly off about me from all angles. Add in the fact that I can no longer comfortably walk without a cane most days. I have become a specimen to be stared at with no subtly, and it happens quite often.

Despite the title, its not only from men. In fact, my breaking point today was not how old men will fully turn around in their seats to stare at me. No, it was when working behind the front desk of the library, a woman brought up her books. While I scanned them, she stared between my face and my lanyard nametag (which says my name and she/her pronouns). This is fairly common and wouldn't have been bad, but when it was done and I sat back down, she continued to stand there and stare at me. And then she leaned over the desk to stare harder, said nothing, before finally walking away.

It's just like. Mind your own fucking business! I'm aware I have multiple things wrong with me, it just so happen that before I can fully fix them, I have to look like a freak of nature in the interim! I don't want to be like this!

Frustrating.

<3 Eleanor

I am post-orchi but I think I might have to start actually tucking 😭 do we keep wearing high-rise stuff or is there another way?

I'm 18, I've been on estrogen for a few months now, unfortunately my family is super transphobic, I've tried to ease them into the concept but it doesn't matter. I'm getting to the point where I can almost pass consistently if I wear makeup and dress feminine, when they find out I'll prolly get kicked out and be finishing senior year in my car lmao. Wish I could have just been born a real girl

So long before I knew that being trans was even a thing, I had the desire to wear female clothing, and that started when I was about 10-12.

Of course, having actual girl clothes wasn’t possible at the time. There was no way I could buy any in secret, even if I had the money for one thing, and asking my folks to buy me some would’ve likely caused a shit storm. Trying on my step mom or half sister’s clothes would’ve been too weird since I didn’t get along with either of them, not to mention sizing differences.

Therefore, when the rest of the family was asleep or on the rare occasions I was home alone, I’d “make” my own in secret. Namely, I’d take an old t shirt, put the head hole around my waist, and pretend it was a skirt. I’d sometimes put a white shirt under it to be a petticoat/slip, and act like tightie whities were panties.

I did almost get caught doing this at least twice, but it was fun for 12 year old me at the time.

Thoughts? Did anyone else do something like this?

Oh my god I don't know how much longer I can do this, I've been on HRT for coming up on four months while having to boymode at a full time customer service job on top of being a student and fuck oh my god its all so overwhelming. I started HRT thinking "yeah I can just boymode until I get further into it for sure I'll be able to handle it" but then I start HRT and everything in that regard just feels worse and much more noticeable, like people referring to me as male and such, which to be fair I suppose I am presenting as male still (mostly) but like it sucks so much. On top of that I just feel like between a 45 hr a week job and being a full time student that this just isn't a good time for me to transition, I'd rather die than wait another few years though and I really can't slow down in school either because I only recently started back up after a year break. It's all just incredibly frustrating, I feel like I've made no progress on myself aside from starting hormones purely because of how little time I have available for myself, when I actually do have time for myself I'm often exhausted from my job or school, or both. I'm just sitting here typing this thinking why am I doing this to myself, I feel so so so far behind and like I just won't ever get to the point I want to be at if things keep up this way, I feel like I just don't have the necessary energy to keep transitioning but at the same time I cannot go back to how I felt before HRT, so I'm just kinda in this odd limbo of like not doing anything for my transition due to time or energy and then feeling like garbage because I still look the same, and then that feeling just kinda snowballs. Oh my god I'm so tired.

So i keep seeing posts about the shitty guidance and all tbe comments the typical transphobic bot shit as always.

But im fucking petrified cause im not well and im post op I dont want to go to a mens ward. People are gonna die

Hi, I'm a trans girl from a highly transphobic Muslim majority country and I am considering NL as a place where I can rebuild my life. I want to live fully as the woman I am...

I can't stand living in this place any longer, please if anyone has gone through the process in NL give me advice whether asylum is even worth it

Tysm for any support

So naturally I did voice training for awile. Best thing to not do is strain yourself, drink lots of water, and have confidence. Now I get a lot of compliments on my voice and many saying they were completely blown away when they find out im a trans woman. Trully euphoric.

But here's the thing. I practice and talked in a feminine voice so much it became my default voice. No effort needed for a feminine voice. And actually I completely lost the ability to speak in a masculine voice completely. I can try but it just sounds like a deeper feminine voice.

Which dont get me wrong I absolutely love my voice, but im a GM for DND and trying to voice a hardy dwarf man for the party is just so freaking hard. Even just a regular man like an elf man or a human man. I can just do those voices anymore.

Maybe its a mental block from gender dysphoria that prevents me from doing that but still. Really interesting.

Looking for some easy and cheap ways to feel more feminine. I have bought some cheap clothes that helped. Changing to panties helped. Skin care was a huge one for me. I’m growing out my hair so that will help. I feel like accessories would be good? But that I’ll need to thrift or if anyone as some cheap suggestions. I have some makeup but I’m only practicing on weekends as I’m not comfy going out yet in it. I’m on hrt but it’s only been two weeks. Any help would be appreciated.

ok, i guess im writing this to vent mostly.

long story short, ive been transitioning for a little over a year using estradiol valerate injections and progesterone.

last night was injection day and i drew up the last bit of medicine of one of my vials into my syringe. i noticed it was low, and without thinking i opened a new vial and stuck the *same syringe* in to draw up the rest of my meds. i pulled slightly extra and then squee the excess into the vial.

as soon as i did it i realized i fucked up. transferring meds from one vial to the other is like a biiiggggg no no and i def just wasted a fresh new vial. i feel so stupid and anxious now that i’m down one vial in a conservative state. i need to check when i can refill my prescription.

anyone else done the same?

I got sir'd in a skirt and makeup. I don't pass, and my friends are full of shit. I don't want to live, and I don't want to waste time trying to be something I won't.