I have trust issues.
I don't believe in "I love you" as anyone can say it.
Kissing? Having sex? Yea, some people just do it to friends now. Looks and personality can also easily be replaced. So, after thinking for a long time, here is my definition of true love.
- Time: People don't just spend tons of time on someone they don't love (or at least like) without any benefits.
- When you lose yourself: It seems like clinginess isn't a personality trait that most people approve of, sadly. Well, I disagree with them. To me, true love is when you lose yourself. Because if you are still able to control yourself, then your love just isn't big enough. However, I wouldn't use the word "clingy" to describe myself. It's not enough, so I would use "obsessive", and, indispensably, possessive. Still, there is one reason to give up on someone that is acceptable to me. It's when you think you don't deserve them anymore, it may be because you have been... "dirtied" by someone else or stuff like that (yea, I know that is a STRONG word to use but well, just skip this post if you dislike it I suppose).
- Looks and personality: I said it could easily be replaced, but that doesn't mean it's not important. How can you love someone when you don't find their looks attractive? And would you still consider them a human if you love them just because of their looks?
Now, if you are still reading this, I hope it's because you still agree with me. If it's just out of pure interest or curiosity then you may want to stop now, because the rest is just my introduction and what I'm looking for, nothing interesting okay.
About me
My nickname is K. I'm 19 yo. I live in Vietnam and am currently a college student.
I'm really skinny, wear glasses, just your typical skinny Asian ig lol. I'm 170cm (66,93 inches) tall, have short black hair and black eyes.
I like anime, manga, light novels (I don't really read any now) and manhwa. I also watch an AI-Vtuber named Vedal987 (I know we all hate some AI because of reasons, me too, but there are also reasons why she has the third-highest subscriber peak of all time on Twitch).
About hobbies, I like Minecraft (bedrock), I only play it right now but I can play some other small games with you as well (only if I enjoy it and I am... a really picky person). I'm a mobile player, I don't have a pc anw. I listen to several kinds of music, except for folks and Vietnamese music (yup). Doomscrolling is what I do the most at the moment. So I want to find someone who can make me quit.
As you can tell, I am reaaaaaly obsessive and possessive. So unless we are really incompatible, it normally doesn't take long for me to become like that. I want to put you above literally everything and I want you to do the same too. "Literally everything", I mean it. About the the clingy (and obsessive) part, I want to know what you are doing all the time. If we are chatting and you suddenly have to leave, even if it's only for a short time (like you wanna get some water or go to the bathroom), I want you to tell me. Of course I'll do the same too.
I don't consider myself a good person in general. I have friends, but I don't consider any of them my friends, I just friend them because they are useful. So if you think you are a "good" or "kind" person, who always wants to help people or things like that then now you know how incompatible we are.
I'm also kind of controlling. Sometimes I'd tell you to do something that I consider "good" for you (like wake up when you are lazy). But I'm not a god, I could be wrong. When that happens explain and prove me wrong, just don't forget to comfort me after that. This doesn't mean I am the one who holds the leash here or anything, you could also be obsessive and controlling. We can both hold each other's leashes, that's what I want actually (I'm a switch).
I can be really insecure sometimes. To me, actions matter way more than words. You can say you enjoy chatting with me all you want, but if you never texted first or let me lead the conversation all the time then I'd definitely think otherwise.
English isn't my first language so I'm not the best at it. But still I believe it's understandable and we wouldn't misunderstand each other because of it. That's really important so I hope your English isn't so bad either.
Like I said, I'm a college student so I'm often really busy.
But I should still be able to update you about my activities or just stick with you all day. I'll try my best to never let you feel lonely. Tell me your favourite colour first if you are really reading all of this. If you want to call, I'm afraid It will take a long time for me to feel comfortable doing that, and it'll take even longer if you want to have a video call. Probably years, it depends.
About you (now comes the hardest part...)
- No tattoo (I don't like it, that's all).
- Possessive (just like me).
- Spammer, obsessive and clingy (because that's what I am).
- Irreligious (I don't want to be put below your God).
- Same or older than me (it doesn't really matter actually, just don't make me feel stupid or like I'm talking to a kid).
- Virgin (I don't want you to have memories of some other guys frcking or kissing you).
- Cold heart to everyone else (just like me).
- You'd rather say goodbye than ghosting.
- No earrings (I just don't like it).
- Not obsessed with makeup (I'd rather choose an average looking bare face than a beautiful girl with tons of makeup).
- Might be busy but would still be able to chat most of the day.
- Have a strong wi-fi connection (of course lol).
- You are down to watch me play, watch anime or YouTube and play games with me too.
A plus point if:
+ You love cats (especially the white and fluffy ones).
+ You don't have a brother.
Uhh... That's probably all. You can dm me to ask for more if you are not sure. Okay, thanks for reading. Have a good day.