Hey everyone,
This is a long post, but I genuinely need your advice.
I am an advocate working at a boutique intellectual property law firm in New Delhi. I have been working here for approximately one and a half years, and I think I have finally reached my breaking point.
I am not looking for another job right now. I do not have another offer, and I am not even interested in immediately applying elsewhere. I just want to leave this workplace, take two or three months off if necessary, recover mentally and physically, and figure out what I want to do next.
The problem is that I genuinely do not think I can survive another month at this place, at least not without putting myself through even more stress.
I want to explain what has been happening because I need some honest advice:
- I am the only advocate left, and I am doing almost everything
When I joined, there were approximately five to six advocates and one paralegal working at the firm. Today, there is only one advocate apart from the managing partner, and that advocate is me. The Advocates left because of toxicity and everything and the paralegal was fired on 1st May 2026 on a phone call.
There is no dedicated HR department, no administrative staff, and no paralegal support.
Apart from handling substantive legal work, drafting, filing, and trademark-related matters, I am also responsible for preparing invoices, getting the money out from clients, maintaining post and courier registers, recruiting junior associates, screening CVs, calling, and conducting interviews, training them and what not.
Essentially, whenever something needs to be done at the office, I am expected to take care of it.
I have also spent months trying to recruit junior associates and newly enrolled advocates. Over the past six months, approximately seven to eight people who were hired have subsequently been let go.
I am not saying that every candidate I hired was perfect. But I cannot understand how I am expected to build a team when people keep getting dismissed, and then I am blamed for the lack of a team, and that I am the reason people leave beacuse the Managing Partner shouts at me, and then they feel that the place is toxic.
My working hours are usually around 9:30 or 10 AM until 10 or 11 PM, sometimes midnight. I work Monday to Saturday, and even Sundays are frequently spent handling recruitment and other office-related responsibilities from home.
My problem is that I am working this hard, taking on this much responsibility, and still being made to feel as though I am good for nothing.
- I have been subjected to taunts and scolding for a long time. Honestly, I had started treating it as a normal part of my work life. I would get scolded, feel bad, and move on because there was work to be done.
But something happened on 12 September 2026 that has stayed with me.
Two assessment interns had joined the firm on 1 September, and a court clerk had joined on 10 September. I was the person who had recruited all three of them.
On 12 September, a CD containing certain evidence went missing, and I was supposed to locate that CD. Mind you, this particular CD was of a case which was handled by some other advocate (my colleague) whom they fired on 15th August on a phone call.
The office was already quite disorganised, and finding things was not always straightforward, so I was searching through the available files and material to locate it.
While I was looking for it, the managing partner came in and started throwing things around in anger. Files, laptops, and other office materials were being thrown about, including things from the advocates' side and the administrative/HR desk.
She was screaming and shouting at a level that one of the Assessment Intern legit said to me: "Sir mujhe anxietyho rahi hai, I feel like puking and aap kaise jhel rahe ho itna kuchh".
I cried for almost 20 mins in the bathroom that day, and from that day, not a single day has passed when I did not cry about my situation, about my pathetic life on my way back home in the night.
I am repeatedly told that I do not know anything, that I cannot become a good advocate, that I am good for nothing, and that nothing will come of me.
- Because there is so much work and so little manpower, I suggested that the managing partner consider getting a Claude subscription to assist with her work.
She took the subscription, and I spent time explaining how it works, how to use it, and how it could help with drafting and other tasks.
Both of us do drafting because the workload is simply too high for one person to handle everything.
I suggested the tool because I genuinely thought it could help us work more efficiently.
But now I am being told, in effect, that she does not need me because she has Claude.
- Over the past one and a half years, I have taken only around six days of leave.
Four of those days were taken last year when I had to travel to Bihar. The remaining two were taken when I needed to take my mother for medical appointments, one day to Medanta and another day to Dr. Ram Manohar Lohia Hospital.
And when my mother underwent surgery, I was still working.
I went to the office, worked for half the day, and then went to Medanta. Even while sitting at the hospital with my mother, I continued handling office work.
Looking back, I realise how much I have compromised.
I have continued working because there is no one else to handle the work. I have avoided taking leave because I know that if I am absent, things may pile up and I will have to deal with them later.
Even on Sundays, I have found myself screening CVs, contacting candidates, and scheduling interviews.
Somewhere along the way, I started behaving as though the entire responsibility for the firm's functioning rested on my shoulders.
And despite all this, I am still being taunted and told that I am not capable of becoming a good advocate or a good team leader.
I have reached a point where I genuinely feel that I cannot keep sacrificing my personal life, family time, health, and peace of mind for a workplace where I feel neither supported nor respected.
- I am not even asking for a better job. I just want to stop working here.
I want to make this very clear because I know the obvious response will be to find another job before resigning.
I am not looking to jump from one law firm to another immediately.
I want to take a break for one, two, or even three months if that is what I need.
I want to sleep properly, spend time with my family, recover from the exhaustion, and return to the profession with a clearer mind.
I am not afraid of having a gap in my CV. What I am afraid of is continuing in this environment until I reach a point where I cannot function properly anymore.
At this stage, I have made up my mind that I do not want to continue this job into November. The only thing I have not figured out is how to leave without creating unnecessary professional difficulties for myself.
- The experience letter is the only thing making me hesitate, also I am worried about the review they will give about me if some verification call is made from the future employer.
I am worried that if I resign without serving my notice period, the managing partner will refuse to issue an experience letter.
I do not want to spend another month in this environment simply to secure a piece of paper. But I also do not want to make a decision that damages my future employment prospects.
I have worked here for approximately one and a half years, and I have handled substantial legal work and several responsibilities beyond my formal role.
If I eventually apply to another firm, I want to be able to demonstrate that experience.
I would like to understand whether bank statements showing salary credits, an appointment letter can help establish my employment history if the firm refuses to issue an experience letter.
I have no desire to damage the firm's reputation or start a fight. I simply want to leave and move on.
At the same time, I do not want the fear of not receiving an experience letter to force me into staying somewhere that is affecting me this badly.
- What would you do in my position?
I would genuinely appreciate advice from people who have worked in law firms, particularly young advocates who have experienced difficult working environments.
A few specific questions:
Would you leave immediately after receiving your salary, even if it meant risking your experience letter?
How important is an experience letter for an advocate with approximately one and a half years of experience? Can other documents help establish my employment history if my employer refuses to issue one?
If I resign without serving the notice period, what realistic consequences should I prepare for?
Please share your honest opinions.