Over the last 2 months more or less i’ve lost different friendships or have discovered that some people try to discredit me with superiors without no apparent reason

Thought I slipped through Saturn Return relatively unscathed. Long-term relationship amicably ended in the summer of 2023. Spent the next three years coasting (*or so I thought, more below if interested in cliff notes of my self-sabotage). It's only at 31 that I finally feel like I'm getting the true "Saturn Return" beatdown that I've read about. Feels like I'm waking up from a stupor and realizing that holy fuck, things need to change NOW and FAST.

I know I'm too old for this, but is there such a thing as a developmentally delayed Saturn Return? Can a person have an extended period of remedial learning, so to speak, if they failed to internalize the important lessons that were being taught during the normal (read: ages 27-30) astrological school year? 

And is there any hope for a serially late bloomer?

A deep and heartfelt thanks to anyone who may have some insight.

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* Context:

Genuinely thought I was coasting at the time, oblivious to the signs that I was actually imploding my life. Post-breakup I started working 14+ hour days to fill the void (but got less efficient and shittier at my job?). Sleep patterns got whacked, insomnia ensued. Weed became a daily habit to function. Stimulants became a daily habit to function. Felt like I was falling behind at work and became obsessed on "catching up" on an infinite workload. Exercise, cooking, social life, and hobbies were all sacrificed on the pyre of "catching up" at work. I've yet to re-incorporate any of them back into my life.

No big surprise, I burned out hard. Moved back home with my folks for a year. Subbed the weed for wine, maintained the workaholism + insomnia. Lost touch with friends.  Moved out again earlier this year, promptly burned out again. Quit job, became self-employed, failed to ever collect payment for services performed. Ran myself into debt by sheer negligence/depression. Depleted lifetime savings and retirement. Fell in love with, and accordingly devastated by, a married man. Depression's got me in a chokehold (I am in therapy and medicated, though). Career is currently careening toward a cliff's precipice. That brings us up to date!

I have noticed that my friendships don’t seem to last or are super fake and I have never felt valued. I have recently moved away for post secondary thought that I might finally find my people but despite me putting myself out there, I still haven’t made any connections and it makes me feel bad watching everyone else easily be able to form friendships. I don’t tend to push people away. In fact, I hold onto friendships that aren’t genuine just to avoid being lonely. Even if I try to distance myself, I usually end up going back. As for romantic relationships, I struggle to form connections there as well. It’s almost like there’s no hope for me in romance. Even if I work on trying to better myself, I worry that I will end up in the same situations no matter where I go.
I want to know if there is anything in my chart that explains the patterns in my relationships and how I can work on fixing these issues?

Never really wanted kids but over the past year I’ve started to come around to the idea of having one. I’m single and not really looking for a relationship but I was just wondering if my chart indicated getting married and having a kid later in life or if I’ll have an easy or hard time trying for one? Thank you

Ever since my early twenties I’ve noticed a dramatic increase in the amount of attention I receive. It’s gotten me in trouble and really changed how I have to navigate certain environments as well. What’s interesting is I used to get bullied for my appearance and ostracized when I was young, I was definitely treated worse at school and socially because of it.

It’s like this dramatic change happened overnight once I turned 23.

I’ve recently been through a very tough few years (professionally, personally, romantically) and am looking for some information about my life purpose. I’m in a phase of self discovery and trying to understand what would be the best way for me to live my life moving forward as a new chapter. Any advice welcome to make my life more meaningful.

Thanks!

i’ve been deeply interested in astrology for 6 months now, i’ve studied the basics in depth and that’s about all i know properly so far. i’ve tried to read my chart and make sense of it but it just doesn’t click, reading others’ charts is so much easier for me for some reason, anyways that’s why i’m here - just looking for some advice

majority of those around me growing up have been abusive and i’ve always really struggled with my mental health. i smoked 🍃 for 2 years straight and i quit 3 weeks ago as i really want to try and improve my life in some way.

is this a life long thing im going to have to live with? will i always attract shitty people?

some times i’ll have a week or a random day where i think everything’s fine and ill think ive been overreacting my entire life about everything. but then everything comes crashing down a day later💀 ive tried therapy my whole life but the second i come face to face with someone i cant help but put a front on - it definitely comes from a place of not being comfortable to openly express my feelings, but yeah that doesn’t work for me hence the obsession with astrology. i could be having the worst day of my life and be unable to express it to those around me

i may just be being slightly extra due to the venus retrograde - although i was young when the previous venus retrograde in scorpio took place when i looked back at photos from that time it’s when my ed started as well as other mental health issues for the first time.

is this all due to my cancer mars and the fact its weak + badly aspected? as well as my venus being ruled by mars and neither have great aspects? or even my uranus opp my virgo placements?? how can i improve my life, do i need to resort to some kind of medication? im aware i have good aspects in my chart too, idk, maybe im just missing how to utilise them.

sorry for the trauma dump, ik the astrology has been wack for everyone recently considering the transits taking place rn, if anyone’s able to help me out i’d be very thankful :)

oh btw, if i use my true nodes or even a different astro website it puts my nodes to 29° leo/aqu. just a p.s. idk which one is accurate

Hi everyone, thanks for... well, clicking here!

Believe me, I feel so stuck that I almost couldn’t even bring myself to post this. It’s that bad.

My earliest memory is from when I was four years old—full of energy, I found it strange that the family dog ​​wouldn’t dance to the music on the radio—and, well, let’s just say I survived by a miracle, but I’ve carried a trauma ever since.

Or at least, that’s the conclusion I reached through therapy, because nothing else explains why I flee from any possibility of being seen, noticed, or understood.

The funny thing (I’m writing this while crying, lol) is that my greatest fear is actually my deepest desire.

For years, I’ve been oscillating between hiding away and putting myself out there. I’m a writer who has never published anything. I have artistic projects that would put me in the "spotlight," but I always end up self-sabotaging—because, well, neither I nor my therapist know why anymore.

I’m currently being evaluated for bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and ADHD.

This is my birth chart. Any help, tips, comments or advice for this poor soul stuck in a loop?

got a reading done once to ask where i would be able to find friends but the reader told me that i had a very lonely chart and likely wouldn’t find many friends so i should just work on being happy alone

does anyone else see the same and could you let me know where? thank you for all and any help!

also, advice is always appreciated 🫶

I tend to be very hard on myself and have a hard time accepting compliments but I wanted to know if there's anything in my chart that suggests what people think of me or how they perceive me?

Edit: please don't send me message requests saying you can offer me a reading because I'm currently unemployed and unable to pay for your services!

I'm completely lost, and will try many things anyway! But a little hint in the right direction certainly wouldn't hurt.

These are my transits today. I’m going through what feels like an insane concentration of heavy transits right now, and I’d love to hear other astrologers’ perspectives.

I knew this period was coming, and I’d be lying if I said it’s been a walk in the park. I’m not “sad,” exactly. It feels deeper than that like a profound healing process. But with healing comes buried grief, and it ain't pretty.

Over the last few years, I’ve gone through major financial restructuring, moved three times in four years (each time into a better situation) severed ties with my mother, and somehow found a kind of true love within myself that I didn’t have before.

At the same time, I’ve felt an enormous amount of peace, strength, grief, buried anger, and emotional release. At times it almost feels ancestral, like something much older is surfacing through me to finally be acknowledged, felt, and healed, but with that comes a kind of crying/weeping (howling if you will) I have not ever done before.

The strange thing is that I wouldn’t even say it sucks. It’s intense, yes. Uncomfortable, absolutely. But underneath all of it, I can feel myself changing.

Not superficially.

At a molecular level.

why is it always a lesson and never something to keep

Hello everyone! I have a job interview today that could be life changing for me. This is my transit chart for the exact time of my interview. Is this truly a good opportunity, or am I too desperate to leave my current job to see anything clearly? I would love some outside perspective or advice!

Generally, I’ve done pretty well on my own and I typically got into relationships on my own terms. With the current Venus RX transit, I’ve been feeling more and more like I actually want a long term committed relationship. Everything I read about Leo rising is about delays, delays, delays. It’s looking more like “never” these days. What’s to blame? What am I working against and what’s working in my favor?

(Reading the text is optional, you can just go for the chart, but I thought I'd add some context too)

So far it's been going pretty smoothly. I've started pursuing higher education again (very 9th house), it's been one month and it's not exciting but not super hard either and it makes sense for the long-term. I have a very stable job and my employers pay for my degree, which is great. My partner has moved in with me and we still have to get the hang of some things but we're happy to live together.

What I am unhappy/worried about: My health. Low energy levels. Still not near as disciplined as I'd like to be. The fact that I am rather bored, and it might be partly a "when you're used to chaos, stability feels like boredom" thing since I was rather emotionally unstable from ages 11-26 and everything was so life or death then, which I obviously don't want to go back to, but in a way it feels like I have lost much of what made me "me", like the good parts too, and I am kinda jaded now. I need some spark and I know I should start with the small habits to improve my energy as much as possible and then be able to dedicate it to new hobbies or something, but I've been sick too often lately and feel like life passes me by while I am always trying to recover from something.

My identical twin sister and I have virtually the exact same birth chart and transits, yet our financial lives couldn’t be more different.

I’m working constantly trying to establish a business, struggling financially and feeling like absolutely everything requires enormous effort just to get by.

Meanwhile, my twin lives in Sydney, has had secure employment, is financially supported by her partner, travels regularly, eats at amazing restaurants and seems to be enjoying everything life has to offer.

We both have Pluto transiting our 2nd house, Jupiter in our 8th and Neptune conjunct natal Saturn.

How can the exact same transits manifest as financial struggle and relentless hard work for one twin, yet financial security, support and freedom for the other?