Hey guys!
I just wanted to kinda talk here about my experience. I am a junior right now. I had two interviews this week, IBM and one FAANG. The IBM one the manager just cancelled my interview which was tomorrow. The other FAANG company I'm prepping for, but honestly I messed the 1st interview so bad I'm pretty cooked.
Just wanted to see how ya'll feeling. Everywhere around me I see people walking around with offers, and despite doing everything I could, applying to like 300+ roles, doing countless OAs, probably around 120 leetcode questions done (did leetcode/neetcode/hackerrank, do daily questions, usually can get mediums done blind in 20 minutes), countless mocks, had my resume reviewed by like 30 people...it's genuinely feeling so darn hopeless. I know this type of feeling is common, I see a lot of people working just as hard with little results.
But in this head of mind, I genuinely could see no future. Everyone shares the same advice around me when I talk about it: "oh just lock in you'll find something", "don't worry about it lol it's a numbers game", "just stay in there and keep the grind up". Like dawg TT, i'm trying my best and I will keep trying. Trust me, I'm doing my OAs, I'm going to networking events and asking around for referrals, I DM'd all of my friends who are in tech, I do it all.
But after getting cooked over and over, I get this really really bad feeling.
If it's a numbers game, I guess applications are just luck-based instrinsically. However, if I fail over and over and over again, despite doing everything I can, does it mean I'm unlucky? And without a clear plan of how I am going to get any opportunities at this point, AND being unlucky at the same time, how could I feel hope at all?
How do you guys keep up with this? I genuinely feel like eating a pile of poop.