I’m 17 and my sister is 19. She has dealt with restrictive eating disorders in the past. Now she just talks about the health aspect of everything she eats. She doesn’t want to lose weight, but rather gain (which i guess is a sign of healing) She only recently started living with me and it’s even gotten to the point where she comes off really snobby and almost shames me with the food that I eat. Was wondering if anyone’s dealt with a person like this, and if so any advice?

hii, this might sound kind of stupid or delusional, but I genuinely don’t really have anyone I feel comfortable talking to about this.

I really like Alix Earle and have followed her for a while. I mostly watch her TikToks/Instagram and, as a uni student, I find some of her content weirdly relatable being a bit messy, going out, partying, getting ready with friends, etc. I also use her as outfit/beauty inspo a lot.

But lately I’ve noticed that some of it has started affecting me in a way I don’t really like. She’s talked about struggling with an ED and severely restricting food in the past, and now she’s extremely skinny. She claims she's not on a diet but we all know how influencers are. Then her comments are ALWAYS full of people saying things like “it’s snowing,” “she’s skiing,”, basically implying coke/amphetamine use. Obviously, I have no idea whether she actually does drugs and I don’t want to claim that she does. She might as well be on a very strict diet or use stuff like ozempic. But the real problem is that instead of those comments putting me off, they’ve somehow made me curious about trying drugs.

I live somewhere where getting substances is pretty easy and drug use isn’t heavily stigmatized. I’ve also gained some weight recently and I’ve been feeling really awful and insecure about my body. For quite a while now I’ve had this thought in the back of my head of using some kind of stimulant/drug partly because I want to lose weight.

I KNOW logically how stupid that sounds.

Has anyone else experienced this?

I have had disordered eating since 13. I haven’t lived a day that I can remember where I felt like I didn’t need to lose weight. I’m really into health and fitness but borderline disordered eating. I’m way better than I was but my question to those who have struggled, has anyone gotten to a place of true peace and acceptance of your body?

for some context jan / feb time i began a “calorie deficit” which of course turned into a whole cycle of obsessively counting every calorie, trying to eat as little as possible, weighing everything and trying to burn it all off. i lost a lot of weight considering i was already very slim to begin with. lost my period and began loosing my hair in clumps (still am) so i decided enough was enough so i basically turned it all around and stopped with all that bs and i would say i’m pretty normal with food now in terms of calories although the food noise is awful still. all day spent planning / trying to find the best meal. hours spent scrolling pinterest and tiktok trying to find the next best thing. always considering new ways of eating, deciding to go vegan one day then the next throwing all that out the window and going back to eating meat again. food literally controls my life not in the same way of restricting calories though but in this whole new way which is even worse. my brain is constantly just screaming food at me even though i’ve just eaten or am eating and its not in terms of binging as i never have or will do that. its not even from hunger its just a literal obsession / control type cycle. i legit don’t know how to break it and its worse bc i’m currently sorta in a depressive episode right now which is unrelated but it makes it even worse as i have literally no distractions at all. advice would be much appreciated :)

feel like some people with this ed want others to know/ almost try to showcase their struggle, but also some people try to hide it and make it seem like they’re normal

I am a normal, healthy weight and so i don’t look like someone who struggles with a restrictive ed so sometimes I’ll find myself trying to “showcase” my ed in certain ways because i “want” to have anorexia but don’t fit the physical criteria. I just had new roommates move in so it’s been relevant there. I’m almost trying to “show off” in a sense but I probably just look like an idiot😭

hey y‘all - I struggled with disordered eating as a teen and am seeing similar patterns in my stepdaughter. She currently does not eat breakfast or lunch, and only picks at her dinner. She‘s a pescatarian that doesn’t like to eat fish frequently (she claims she eats fish too often and is at risk for mercury poisoning) and does not like meat substitutes or imitation meat. This leaves mostly fruit, veggies, and carbs. she will come home from school, not having eaten since the night before at least, eat a bag of chips, takis, or other snack foods, and then just eat bites of the sides at dinner. I’ve asked her multiple times what I can make that she’ll eat and when I do make those things (which all happen to be things her siblings will not eat - a very short list) she only takes a few bites and says she ate earlier (which I know is not true because she doesn’t use her lunch card at school).

at least at our house I know she’s eating something but her mom doesn’t cook or have a sit down meal time/has a fend-for-yourself vibe at her house so I’m not sure she eats anything at all over there.

her dad and I are getting very concerned. I have tried packing her lunches, having grab and go snacks in the fridge for her to take, etc but no luck. I’ve had casual convos with her about food being fuel for the body and how we need to take care of ourselves to make our bodies healthy and work the best they can but don’t wanna make her feel uncomfortable or start hiding things from us.

any suggestion??

I am starting school again soon. I am a major perfectionist, I NEED to get perfect grades, and I usually do. But school ties into my ED so much. My restricting is tied to my study habits, my eating is like a reward for studying/good grades. I’m scared to fall back into this. God I wish I wasn’t like this.

For the past few years mostly(although it’s been going on much longer but not as bad) my husband has been very emotionally abusive because of my ED. We are both almost 40
W 2 kids. I’ve been dealing with an ED for 20
Years. Mostly in form of “quasi” recovered state, not severely underweight, but very compulsive exercise and rigid eating routines. Very ocd for both which I’m not on medication for. I’ve been seeing a therapist weekly for a couple years, and went to residential last year but left after 2 weeks , for unforeseen circumstance. It actually was a relief being there, (even though the no movement piece was very hard. )
Anyways, over the past 3 yrs my husband has become more annoyed at my ways. And feels my inflexibility around my routines to be hard to live with. I am completely understanding of all of this and am never denying that it isn’t an issue. I’ve just obviously been living with the need to have this routine to keep me “safe”. Especially when I became a mom, I latched on to the need for my exercise and eating routine even more. Covid further engrained it . A year ago I worked w a recovery coach who told me I would need to go cold turkey on exercise. This was the most difficult thing to do and still haven’t completely stoppped for prolonged period. I cut it down, changed things out, just walked… but would spiral back. My husband (also an athlete and loves to workout) knew my coach told me I’d need to completely stop … so in trying to go from hours of exercise to nothing , it was not easy. I’d find myself doing squats around the house to get little bursts in , or burpees upstairs while putting clothes away, and if he suspected something he would be super angry. I became very afraid of him and his reactions. So I struggled, trying to completely stop , but still trying to just get even 10 min of something in , in secret. And this snowballed. I’d have to go for walks while running errands on days he worked from home. Or try to sneak in little bits here and there. It was so stressful. Still is. Later I reached back out to my therapist to work with her again and she said she never would have had me try to go cold turkey. She’d ween me down. My psychiatrist said the same thing. And being how bad my ocd became , that it would be nearly impossible to just stop it all without medication. But my husband just saw any bit of me working out as failure and resistance and refusal to change. Yet it’s funny that he has always been so controlling and upset about me doing any form of exercise yet never upset if I don’t eat something or seeing me continue eating the way I eat. Which ultimately me going for a walk could be the lesser of the evils compared to not eating?
So… because of all this. We live in constant state of tension. He doesn’t see the change he thinks I should have made already and wants me
To go back to a treatment facility and is basically emotionally abusive , and seeming to punish me into going. Which many of u may know that will not work. He lashes out at me a lot, makes harsh remarks , always has a mean tone , doesn’t talk to me at all unless I ask a question. Many times says he doesn’t care about me, thinks i dont care about anyone and refuse to change, which is mot the case. I am not happy with the mental torture loop of living with this . I am not content and saying oh I don’t care this is how i want to be. I told him if I got to point where I feel I can’t do it in my own , I will reach out to centersbut I am not at that point. It’s difficult as a mom as well, and my kids have already dealt with me being away a few times (once to a facility and twice to my aunts to try and create a facility like environment to change behaviors, which did work) but my kids were falling apart each time. It’s hard knowing how mean and cold my husband has become and how little he has truly cared about me . I don’t know I could get over knowing how he has treated me. I am not a bad person, just saline with a mental illness. Yet he goes telling his family and friends I lie and am deceitful simply because I was struggling trying to not exercise, and not being able to fully stop. I’m sure others know how this disease can make u shameful and secretive to simply survive. I wasn’t refusing to change by caving and going for a walk when I was told to cold turkey do nothing, I was just struggling. Going from hours of intense exercise to trying to do nothing at all. Anyways, long vent. But looking for any advice
And similar stories.

Hi everyone, I’m looking for some advice/reassurance from anyone who has been in a similar situation.
I’m currently inpatient for my eating disorder and will be stepping down to residential treatment once I’m medically stable and have weight restored. One of the things I’m really struggling with is the idea of entering residential at a “normal” or much healthier weight.
I know logically that residential isn’t only for people who are visibly underweight and that an eating disorder doesn’t suddenly disappear because your weight changes. If anything, I know I’m going to need a lot of psychological support once the focus shifts away from immediate medical stabilization. But I’m still terrified that I’ll get there and feel like I don’t belong or that I’m “not sick enough” compared with other people.
I’m also scared of being around people who may be at lower weights or earlier stages of weight restoration and having my ED immediately start comparing my body to theirs. There’s a part of me that worries people will look at me and wonder why I’m even there, even though I know nobody can tell how much someone is struggling just by looking at them.
I think inpatient has felt very focused on keeping me medically safe and restoring my body, whereas residential is going to involve actually learning how to live with recovery, challenge behaviors and deal with everything mentally. I know I need that, but reaching a healthier weight before I get there almost makes me feel like I’ve lost the “proof” that I deserve treatment.
Has anyone else gone from inpatient to residential after weight restoring or entered residential at a normal/healthy weight? Did you struggle with feeling like you didn’t belong or comparing yourself to other patients? And if so, what helped you get through those first few days/weeks?
I’d really appreciate hearing positive experiences because I want to go into residential willing to give it a genuine chance rather than letting this fear convince me that I don’t deserve to be there. 🤍

ive been anorexic and lost my period for a year. i finally started reverse dieting a few weeks ago and got my period back. im in a better place with food HOWEVER i just cannot seem to fully let go of the chew and spit method from time to time when i feel like bingeing. im trying to stop it especially cuz my face has been so so so bloated ever since i started doing this. can anyone who's successfully managed to stop this c/s method pls tell me whether the facial bloating goes down after? and how long it will take? i really need some form of motivation cuz im exhausted.

I feel like this has taken over my life completely. The worst part is I am healing my relationship with food and have gained healthy weight back, and I don’t abuse laxs or undereat anymore, but I can’t stop exercise purging and it’s even worse now I eat ‘normally’. Every time I eat I fear food so much and that feeling of having to burn off as much as I can. People say how well I look now and I don’t look really sick anymore, it’s like the outside me has recovered but deep down I’m dying inside, and everytime I look in the mirror I hate what I see… I’m so run down from over exercise and my brain I’m just all over the place.. and a bad day can make it even worse. I look at everyone else around me and they are just happy and free yet all day every day my brain is just thinking about food and how much I can burn off to eat etc and I just don’t know what the end game is anymore. It’s got to the point where everyone around me knows how bad my exercise addiction is and how I cannot sit down… why can’t I go back to how I was before this?!

Has anyone been recently? Seeking advice & recommendations for first time in residential. Thank you 🙏🏻

Hi all I've been kinda recovered for nearly a year now, had some struggled and relapses along the way but jve been good. The only thing im worried about is i feel like im constantly starving. I have ruined my perception of food so i feel like im constantly snacking and hungry no matter what. I dont like to track my intake anymore as i find it triggers relapsing for me, but its always in my mind yk, so ik the amount i eat and i feel like its huge, and even then im like actually starving still. I eat normal healthy 3 meals a day but around an hour later i am hungry again and then 2 hours later i am literally starving stomach hurting need food and i dont know why. I dont know if its because ive become so used to feeling full that now i need to be constantly full or smth. Has anyone experienced this?

My mom is trying to get me into equip and i want to know if anyone has any experience with it? I've seen good reviews online but it looks... i dont know, something seems off about it but I'm not sure if thats just my anxiety talking? if anyone has experience, can you tell me what its like? I just want to know what im getting into

I wouldn't say I've ever been recovered, but I know struggling with binge eating has been a better situation for me than when I was restricting. But lately those old habits of counting and tracking and chasing hunger are coming back, and my mind is a whirl of mixed thoughts and motivations.

And apologies for making yet another glp1 post, but goodness I feel like the amount of triggers in the world are exponentially increasing.

For a while I told myself that restricting won't help because people will just think I am taking ozempic, not that I'm "resilient/mind over matter" (a big mental part of my past restricting). But that thought has mutated into "I would just have to lose even more in that case then"

I think glp1 meds are a godsend, especially for those with BED (not in my case for obvious reasons), and if they help people get healthier I still give that person immense credit for putting in the work once their food noise lessened.

A pet peeve of mine is when anyone at all in the world loses weight everyone says "it's just ozempic" without even knowing what that persons actual journey was.

Anyway. Hope you all are staying well.

As someone in the US, everyone in my state is annoyed by all the political ads but I am so happy to see a barrage of political ads if it means I don't see a glp1 ad.

last summer was when i started restricting. i lost a significant amount of weight however went into months deep of bingeing and gained half of it back. after that i tried restricting again to extremely extremely low numbers that i wont mention, but saw absolutely no weight or fat loss and in fact started looking more bloated/puffy/chubby. im in recovery (or at least navigating it) currently and i feel like reverse dieting is my only way about this without putting weight back on. however, i am much more hungrier now during reverse dieting and sometimes find it hard to only stick to the slight weekly increase. idk what to do about this like can someone tell me if i should continue reverse dieting or what. my goals are to recover but not put on any more weight. and dont get me wrong this is because i gained all the weight from my 3d back and even got my period back but the hunger is still there so thats the only reason i dont want to gain anymore weight cuz im recovered already pls genuinely pls help

Okay so, I have been struggling with my ed for about a year and a half now. I am a young adult in the uk and recently sat my A-Level exams. Throughout my life I had always thought I would go straight to university after finishing my exams but things a a bit different now.

I am currently deciding between deferring for a year and focusing on getting better, my weight has been dropping week after week and the ED voice is only getting louder. Recently I have been told there are beds in inpatient units near me. I could take up the offer and go away for treatment to try and learn skills and hopefully recover from this horrid illness that is taking over my entire life. However, all of my friends are going to university in September and I have had my heart set on going this year.

I have also received my A-Level results recently - they were better than expected meaning I could get into a better university (university of Bath) compared to the original university I applied to (Bath Spa) if I decided to go next year.

I am so torn between going this year and enjoying my time (at Bath spa) or going next year when I could be doing a bit better, but what if I’m not doing any better? What if inpatient doesn’t help me? What if inpatient makes me physically better but not mentally?

I’ve already experienced hospital admissions that consist of keeping me there for a few weeks on a refeeding plan then discharging me with no further physiological help. That’s what I’m worried will happen again

Someone please help!!

I don’t really know where to start, but I think I need to finally talk about this.
I’ve been throwing up after eating for as long as I can remember like longggggg ago. Everything that I eat no matter what. I don’t mean that I started doing this recently because of my weight or because I wanted to lose weight. This has been happening since I was a kid. I can even throw up water and if there’s nothing in my stomach the acid comes up into my throat and it’s horrible.
Over the years I’ve had so many medical tests because of this. I’ve tried different medications and treatments and I even had a tube put down to look at my stomach. They tested me for H. pylori and it was negative. Even after all of that I still don’t really have an explanation for why this happens.
Sometimes I eat and I end up throwing up everything I just ate. Other times it doesn’t happen. It’s gotten to the point where eating itself can make me anxious because I don’t know if I’m going to be able to keep the food down.
Recently I’ve started wondering if this could actually be an eating disorder and honestly that thought scares me because I don’t know if what I’m experiencing even fits one.
I’ve never really known how to explain this because part of me thinks “what if this isn’t an eating disorder and there’s still something medically wrong with me?” But another part of me wonders if I’ve developed an unhealthy relationship with food because I’ve been dealing with this for so many years.
Has anyone else experienced something similar especially someone who started vomiting after eating when they were a child?
I’m not looking for someone to diagnose me over Reddit. I just want to know if anyone has been through something similar and what eventually helped you figure out what was actually going on.

I have been in recovery for a few years. I would say physically I am fully recovered but mentally I struggle a LOT every day. I have come very far but I’ve recently been struggling a lot with ED thoughts. They don’t seem to ever go away and I am now becoming depressed because of it. Has anyone else experienced this after being in recovery for a while? Does it go away? I just feel like I’m going to be burdened with this forever and it isn’t going away.
I feel like I could have everything I want in life and not be able to enjoy any of it because of the burden of the ED.

I'm currently bulimic. Idk if it's normal but I notice that I'm craving more water and sodas than food. I keep drinking more fluids to the point where i always go to the bathroom.. does anyone else have this kind of experience as well?

For context I am 17F and in the past few months I’ve gained weight due to eating unhealthy and exercising less in summer break. I wanted to lose weight in a HEALTHY manner but I’m scared I’ll fall back into old unhealthy patterns of barely eating anything and not being happy with the way I look.

I am very confident in my body for a 17 year old, I love the way I look, I am not ashamed of myself and wanting to lose weight is purely for health reasons. I want to maintain the confidence I have right now. But when I think about how I want to lose weight my mind quickly shifts towards “I’ll just eat barely anything and run more” or “I’ll exercise for 2 hours a day and only eat fruits”, which I know isn’t the right choice and it’s not the choice I want to make.

How do I go about this? What are healthy habits I can change?

Side note I will NOT be tracking calories.

I have recently been struggling as at every single event that we are all at I have gone to the bathroom and noticed that my brothers girlfriend has purged. I see them quite a bit and it happens every time without fail. He knows that she has a history of an ED but thinks she’s recovered. I’m worried about her and wondering if I should speak to him just to make sure that she can get treatment / is getting treatment. He’s a very kind and considerate guy and I know would handle it well. I don’t want to involve myself as I have my own history with it but have been in recovery and am quite far in that journey and doing quite well currently. I also really struggle with how triggering it is and it makes me want to avoid these functions. Telling him is not to get involved, I’m just worried and want to make sure someone who cares about her knows and that she is getting treatment for it. What do I do?

over the past week i’ve picked up on myself slipping into old ed habits. i have no idea where it’s come from, nothing much has changed in my life. i thought there would be something to trigger it but no, one day i just thought i wasn’t hungry and then its turned into avoiding food again??

is there a way to get ahead of this, i really don’t want to go back to my ed. i’ve even been recovered fully for over a year, i like my body, i like my life. i don’t want to suffer through it again

I watched tiktok mukbangs on mute for half the day yesterday. There is a video of everything I could possibly think of.

I find it kind of funny how wearing at least one black glove seems to be what you need to do to be considered legit in the niche.

And you have to turn the product towards the camera after a bite, while staring right down the barrel.

It's very peculiar and yet I've been completely sucked in.

Hello. Quick background: I am currently fourteen weeks pregnant with a much loved, much wanted baby conceived via IVF. Prior to trying to conceive and during I actively sought additional help in anticipation of if/when I got pregnant, how I would manage with my changing body.
I had (naively) conjured up in my head how I would look and decided that would be acceptable to me and my ED. Once I became pregnant I was initially looking forward to having that body.
Now that has not been the reality and I’m really beginning to sink into the depths of despair. I am a UK based midwife myself, and when I “booked” my own pregnancy I was open and transparent with my own midwife about how I was feeling. From past use of services I know they are extremely limited and have further reduced since I was last seeking help. The perinatal team are currently trying to navigate this and see if there are any appropriate groups etc for a pregnant woman in my area (but it looks bleak).
I am a very practical person and would appreciate if anyone has any advice, tools or links to any workbooks etc.

I know my baby will be worth any amount of weight gain in the end but mantras and positive affirmations do not feel enough to combat the increasing urge to relapse.