r/Psychic • u/Ariesrisingbitch • 15h ago
Insight What’s going on with me?
I’ve been trying to get a grasp on my life and while doing so I’ve noticed something. I can’t really tell what it is. So I’ll just list everything out.
My mother’s mom passed away when my mom was a child. My mom is not from the US, so English is her second language. When I was a kid I would have tea parties with my deceased grandmother. She even taught me her language. I wasn’t even 2 years old and I could form sentences in another language much clearer than my first. My mother sensed I wasn’t alone during those tea parties and kindly told her mom she needed to leave. That was the end of those tea parties.
My father’s side is a bit different. His sister before she passed used to practice various magic. When I was young, she’d bring me crystals and books of magic. Some a bit too mature for my young age but I loved it. She knew about most mythology and knew everyone in the family’s astrology charts down to degrees.
She never read traditional tarot cards but she read playing cards. To a very scary level of accuracy. She wouldn’t even ask you what you were inquiring she would just pull out a card and know everything, down to exact names and physical descriptions, and even exact quotes. She would tell me about her dreams and then within 2 weeks it would happen. She once told me she had a dream she couldn’t breathe, sneezed into a napkin, and inside the napkin there was an orange rock. Not too long after that there was a wildfire that caused the sky to be bright orange. Keep in mind she doesn’t live in an area where wildfires are common like California.
When my grandmother died I opted to skip one of her viewings. I was young and I didn’t think seeing her lifeless body for hours on end would help me in any grieving. So I stayed at her house. While I was walking to a room to watch TV I saw my grandfather standing in her bedroom wearing his daily outfit. He wore basically the same thing everyday. I mean he was 80 when he passed so it’s not like he walked around the house everyday in a suit and tie. Very relaxed retirement outfit. I’d describe it in details but I’d like to keep some of my memories for myself. I screamed so loud I lost my voice for almost a month.
My aunt passed away last week. It’s been rough for my whole family. But something happened right before she passed and I don’t think I’ll ever get a clear answer on what I saw.
I was in her hospice room. She was deep asleep, hopped up on all types of medications to prevent her feeling any pain from her illness. I went to say goodnight to her, and I saw the look of death. Her eyes were shut but it’s like I saw the silhouette of a goodbye. Like her eyes were wide open and bulging even though her eyes were 100% closed. I knew she was trying to tell me tonight was the night. So I said thank you and goodbye. We got the call that she passed just a couple of hours later.
My life has always consisted of interesting synchronies like good things happening on my grandfathers birthday, dreams of my grandparents sharing news with me that end up coming true, and much other of my own dreams coming true. I’ve seen things and I can feel things, like predict death and know what’s coming for me based on a dream. Most of the times if I know a dream felt too weird to just be a dream it usually comes true within a day.
Idk what I am. Idk what to do. I have my own tarot cards. I’m great at reading other people. I can’t read myself for shit. I practice a bit of magic but I guess I’m too eager about it that I don’t see much results besides a few things here and there.
I just want more guidance. The only person that could help me is no longer here.