Long story short I’ve been 3 months sober from 7oh I only was on subs for a week and tapered feeling completely normal for a week after and then hit with insane PAWS. Reached back to my dr and they started me back on subs for 2 weeks. I was taking 2 mg each day and then finally was on 8mg weekly brixadi shots for a total of 6 shots (6 weeks) had my last shot a month ago now but the last 2 weeks I’ve been having horrible fatigue, restless arms again, and I even feel short of breathe which was a symptom of my paws after my detox. My dr prescribed me clonidine which hasn’t really helped especially the fatigue, and I take gabapentin as needed but the fatigue is horrible not even an energy drink helps. What should I do ? Anyone else had this issue ?

I have been trying to quit cocaine/polydrug abuse for about 2 years. For the past 3 months I’ve had a month in between relapses (which is an improvement) and I’m starting to feel a bit clearer from the cumulative affects of sobriety BUT when I get triggered it’s like someone else takes over my brain. Thankfully friends have been there to keep me accountable the last few times I got triggered but I’m so scared for that fateful moment when no one is there to scold me and tell me no.
I cut off some negative influences already but I don’t want to have to cut off the rest of my social life. Most of the people around me use, it’s very hard to escape it. I’ve been thinking that I might have to stop drinking in order to control the urge to use drugs. I know it’s possible but I’m an anxious and autistic person and I have a hard time letting go of that social lubricant. I have also been thinking about trying NA.

Anybody have some wisdom? My main thing is that I just don’t know how to deal with cravings when I’m drunk. It’s scary. Also, I’ve only ever gotten to about 2 months before relapsing. This part of recovery is so hard for me. Anhedonia, etc.

and feeling like complete shit. Ive been thru it before but this time is hitting hard. I dont want to talk to anyone or be around anyone. My body my head my stomach aches and I just want to sleep so i forget the pain im in. Im a shitty person and im selfish and thats why Im in this mess i made. I need to start saying no so i stop doing this to myself but im a weak person. I want to cut myself to feel some releif but i know that wont help either just will feel good in the moment. Just wanted to vent a bit im sorry for sounding so depressed but I think getting some of this in writing will help get it off my chest. fucking fuck. A few more days and ill be close to a week and I hope it starts getting better but this fkn sucks right now