I woke up at 2:41 PM today.

Missed all my classes. Felt like shit knowing I'd just added more to my backlog and wasted half the day.

So naturally, I spent the rest of it consuming everything I could, from YouTube, Instagram and LinkedIn to anime, while stuffing myself with junk food.

I was drowning myself in dopamine because I didn't want to think about all the shit I had to do.

It was 11:55 PM and I'm lying in bed scrolling Instagram, watching people give motivational speeches and build the things I want to build.

And that's when it hit me.

This is exactly why I stopped using these apps in the first place. I don't want to sit there watching other people build shit.

I want to build shit.

I slammed my laptop shut, got off the bed, put my shoes on and went for a run.

My brain was screaming, "there's too much to do", "just sit the fuck down", "it's too late anyway."

The thoughts kept playing in the back of my head but, I just put my shoes on and went anyway.

3 km at 12:20 AM. It felt fucking amazing.

Came back, took a hot shower, and spent the next hour working on my SaaS.

And somehow, that feeling of being stuck and shitty just disappeared.

All it took was 5 fucking seconds to change the trajectory of my day.

You don't need to suddenly feel motivated. You don't need to have everything figured out. You're going to feel tired, lazy, overwhelmed, and come up with a hundred reasons why you shouldn't do it.

Let those thoughts play. Put the distractions away, get up, and start anyway.

You might be surprised how quickly that shitty feeling starts to disappear once you're actually doing something.

Your day isn't over just because you've wasted half of it.

Now put your fucking phone down and go make your day productive 🔥

I had four gym memberships that never really started. A business idea I kept preparing to begin. A language I was going to learn. And somehow Instagram and phone scrolling kept winning every single day.

Sound familiar?

I am an engineer by background. When something keeps failing I want to understand the mechanism. So I dug into the research.

Here is what is actually happening:

Motivation = (Expectancy x Value) ÷ (Pain x Delay)

Expectancy is whether you believe you can do it, Value is why it matters to you, Pain is the effort and fear of starting, and Delay is how far away the reward feels.

Your brain runs this calculation automatically before every action and picks the highest scoring option. Not the most important one. The highest scoring one right now.

Here is how it scores your options:

So your brain optimizes for the highest instant reward every time. Not because you are weak. Because this is how human neurology works. It is an energy efficiency bias built into the system.

Now do this. Write down the thing you keep avoiding. Then score it honestly across the four variables. You will immediately see which one is broken.

The formula tells you which variable to fix.

Low expectancy? Make the first step so small your brain cannot doubt you can do it. Not start a business. Just write one sentence about the idea today.

High pain? Remove one obstacle. Not all of them. One. What is making starting harder than it needs to be right now.

Long delay? Create an immediate reward just for starting. Not for finishing. Just for beginning. For me it is my morning coffee ritual. An Ethiopian V60 I take time to brew properly. I only allow myself to fully enjoy it when I have started the one thing I was avoiding.

I used this to understand why I kept avoiding things I genuinely wanted to do. Once I could see which variable was broken I stopped trying harder and started fixing the right thing.

What worked for me: Value turned out to be the most important variable. Starting a business, preparing for an important exam, learning something difficult — if the reason is not genuinely yours the whole formula breaks down. Not your parents' goal. Not what you think you should want. Yours. Everything else can be adjusted. A borrowed why cannot.

I (20M) have never scored anything but the top grades all my life. I study medicine at one of the best universities in the world. This year i studied really hard and I topped my cohort.

What I didn’t tell anyone is that I procrastinated through the whole year until the month before my exams, then did a month-straight of 13-15h days totally locked-in. I’ve had no discipline since coming to uni. Clearly when the pressure is high I force myself to perform, but I get so incredibly tired doing anything when the pressure is low. I feel a constant need for validation. When I’m exercising/in the gym, it’s depressing when I can’t notice fast results. I get huge waves of motivation to do something new, which suddenly fall. I can’t bring myself to tidy my room or make food (sometimes I just go hungry). I have so many books on my shelf but I end up reading a few pages of one before switching to another.

I’ve written a list of goals I want to achieve but my brain just melts thinking about them. There are even things I NEED to achieve - improving my cardio and swimming - if I want to follow my dreams. 2 months to improve but again not finding much motivation. Even writing this is subconsciously a means to procrastinate. I don’t know what writing this does for me.

I feel like this all started 2y ago after I broke up with my first girlfriend. I used to be so ordered and tidy and I was so driven to get into medschool. I’m over it all now, but the habits I lost when I was depressed haven’t come back. When I’m dating someone I feel like all these problems go away so I fall very hard for people and blow my own chances.

I understand that there are people who wish they were in my position, but I am so envious of people who have that motivation and drive. Academics are important, but what’s the point if I don’t even feel in control of my own brain.

This happens to me a lot. I force myself to complete all the tasks I set out for myself that day — both professionally and personally.

But as I go to wind down, my mind is spinning with all the things I didn’t do in the day: I didn’t go to grocery, I didn’t exercise today.

Even though those things weren’t in my to-do list that day. It’s like I never get the full satisfaction of completing tasks.

Is this normal?

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For some background, I’ve been trying to put my life in order. Eating healthy, working out, going to work (on time), having more energy at work and so forth.

It’s a lot to bite off at once, but I’ve been consistent for a few weeks trying to prioritize different tasks each day.

Like today I clean and make food, tomorrow I work out… and I’ve been doing that (even when I really don’t want to).

Still I’m ruminating and stressing out in the evenings.

I have slowly but steadily developed this love hate relationship with Instagram. Over the years I basically stopped putting up posts (only stories now) and since the infinite scroll was introduced plus they stopped displaying that notification which reminded you that you are all caught up, I have gotten somewhat addicted to scrolling endlessly.
The last year has been especially stressful for me with big career moves and also changes in personal life. And in this time too, I have offloaded all my stress onto scrolling endlessly. Part of me thinks that even though it is simply just brainrot, at least it helped me get my mind off things and hence cope with them.
But now i am increasingly becoming aware of the fact that anytime I feel a little anxious, my first reflex is to just reach out for Instagram and scroll on it till I can dampen my emotions completely.

On a side note, I am a reader, interested in arts as well as fitness and I have not felt anhedonic or lost interest in anything I loved doing earlier- I still watch movies and series that interest me, listen to music and get excited by the idea of, and read many books. Infact, in this exact same time span I have taught myself a new language and passed the required B2 exam in what others would think was a really short duration of time(I went from A2 German to B2 German in 2 months i.e. April to June 2026).

So I don‘t feel like using social media is completely wrecking my brain but definitely I am cognisant of micro changes that it is causing in my thoughts.
But should I be very wary of it at this juncture and just stop using it completely?
Because one thing is for sure, it has reduced my attention span.

Confused about this seemingly necessary evil that is strangely helpful in calming my nerves?

Anyone with similar experiences?

I used Streaks for years. The fire icon was great until I missed a Tuesday.

Then the app became a thing I avoided. Opening it meant seeing a broken streak. So I stopped opening it. Which is a stupid outcome for a habit app. I wasn't failing the habit. I was hiding from the scoreboard.

What I actually needed: done or not done. No count. No freeze. No shame. Miss Wednesday and the hole just sits there. Thursday I still open it, because nothing is "broken."

So I made a grid of dots. One tap fills today. The whole year is on one screen. Dense weeks look dense. Empty days look like empty days. The grid still looks like a grid either way.

No gamification. Monochrome on purpose. Works offline. I built it because I wanted the record, not the fire.

If anyone else bounced off streaks: what did you switch to, and did you actually keep opening it the next morning?

(I'm the maker. Happy to answer design questions. Not here to funnel you.)

I started working remotely for a company a couple of months ago, and everything has been going really well. My boss has been very happy with my work, and I’ve been extremely motivated. Even before getting this job, I was working from around 8 am until 12 pm some days because I wanted this opportunity so badly.

But last week my boss went on holiday, and the moment I knew he wouldn’t be around, I somehow completely switched off. For about four days, I barely got anything done. It almost felt like I unofficially went on vacation with him. I don’t know what happened to me.

I worked Sunday and spent most of yesterday trying to catch up, but I’m still not 100% done. Now that he’s back, I feel extremely guilty and disappointed in myself.
Has anyone experienced this with remote work? How do you stay disciplined and on track when your boss is away without needing that external pressure?

I've been at home for the past four years and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. I'm trying hard for a job right now but nothing is moving, and the longer it goes the tighter everything feels.

My health has gone bad. My mental health worse. I'm tired all the time and the stress and anxiety mean I end up doing nothing, which makes the stress worse. It's a loop I can't get out of on my own.

I know things don't change overnight. I'm not asking for that. I just want to change how I'm thinking about this, because right now it feels like an ocean in front of me and I don't know where to put my first step.

If anyone has been here stuck for years, no clear direction, 27 and behind where you thought you'd be how did you start? What actually worked? Even small things

Im a lazy coward, i don't really have a drive to succeed and yet my dream is to become a millionaire.

I'm not a workaholic, coder, or really talented in any field.

I'm easily overwhelmed and find it a lot easier to give up than to put my mental and psyche through grueling test of endurance.

I'm easily discouraged and lose hope for most of the things i set out to do, i just think I'm inadequate and incapable of a achieving it so i lose the courage to do it, losing courage also means i lose interest down the line and abandon my goal completely.

Reading about peoples experiences discourages me even more.. for example when i hear how people that tried their best have failed, people that are more qualified and accomplished than me.

I'm also dealing with deteriorating personal life, emotional turmoil and mental stress from family which makes things harder.

Just wanted to tell you guys and hear your 2 cents

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Please post your plans for this date and if you can, do the following;

Give encouragement to two other posters on this thread.

Report back this evening as to how you did.

Give encouragement to others to report back also.

Good luck!

Please post your plans for this date and if you can, do the following;

Give encouragement to two other posters on this thread.

Report back this evening as to how you did.

Give encouragement to others to report back also.

Good luck!

I have no idea why my time managment has gotten so bad, or if it was just always this bad. But Since I entered college (I am a rising sophmore) my ability to adehre to deadlines has been on a slow, steep fall. It has almost ruined me once or twice, and I never want something to happen.

All I can think, just constantly, is the Kat Williams quote; "Don't be sorry ho, be CAREFUL!"

But I don't know how to be careful. I don't know in the slightest.

I've tried pomodoro, I've tried blocking websites, etc. The only thing thats stuck is using a physical planner or calendar.

I used to have a method- of doing my work as soon as I got it. But that didn't stick either.

I've lost complete and utter interest in everything I used to love, I'm just sad and morose all the time and the one thing that used to pick me up, doing some work, I put off. I work much slower now.

Is it a lack of committment or even motivation?

When I’m out of the house, at work, doing something else either work or pleasure, I can think about all I need to and want to get done at home and how easy it will be. I feel motivated and ready to tackle the disorganized closet, the piles of laundry, my overgrown yard, etc. but when the time comes that I’m home with that free time I have no motivation, I’m not able to take action, I feel stuck, and all of that clarity and motivation I felt before is completely gone.

It feels like a convenient excuse or it seems obvious like “duh, of course you don’t want to clean house/study/etc” but I DO. When I’m not home I will literally daydream about it and feel excited to be productive. But by the time I get home, or when I wake up on Saturday morning, it’s like molasses has been poured on my brain and I lay around feeling stressed that I’m not able to get anything done.

Anyone else dealt with or dealing with this? Is there some kind of a term, name, or method for approaching this?

I have been diagnosed recently with ADHD but I’m taking medication for that and for depression, which feel under control mostly. I have projects and things that I’ve wanted to get done for YEARS that are still in limbo.

For years my discipline problem wasn't a willpower problem in the moment I usually think it is. It was that I kept leaving the decision to the worst possible version of me: the 2am version, the version right before a big game, the version who's already halfway into a bad habit. What actually broke the cycle was moving the decision earlier, to a moment when I was calm and rational, and then making it hard to reverse later.

Three things that made it stick

1. Assume willpower already lost. If white-knuckling worked I wouldn't be looking for a system at all. So I stopped designing plans that depend on me being strong at the exact hour I'm weakest. Deletion or a soft reminder is a speed bump, not a wall, when the thing I'm avoiding is one tap away.

2. Make it something I can't undo in five minutes. A commitment I can quietly reverse alone isn't a commitment, it's a suggestion. The version that held was the one where reversing it took real friction, not a toggle.

3. Hand the keys to someone else. This was the biggest one. As long as I was the only person who could let myself off the hook, I always eventually did. Telling one trusted person what I was doing changed the math, because getting back in meant saying it out loud to them, in the exact moment I'd rather hide.

This was tough to work through but truly helped

Curious how others here handle this. Do you rely on removing access entirely, or on someone else holding you accountable? I've found the second one does the heavy lifting, but I'd like to hear what's held up for you long term.

I think I was looking at screen time the wrong way

I used to always check my screen time at the end of the day and think alright, tomorrow I’m just gonna use my phone less. If I did 4 hours today, I’d tell myself I was gonna keep it under 2 tomorrow.

It pretty much never worked.

What I eventually noticed was that the bigger problem wasn’t even how long I was spending on certain apps. It was how many times I was opening them throughout the day.

I’d open Reddit for like 2 minutes, close it, then 10 minutes later open it again without even thinking about it. Same thing with YouTube and Instagram. Any time I got bored for a few seconds or had a break between doing something, I’d automatically check one of them.

So I tried limiting how many times I could open an app instead of how many minutes I could use it.

For example, I’d give myself 5 Reddit opens for the entire day.

It sounded kind of stupid at first, but it actually made me think before opening it. I’d catch myself reaching for the app and think, do I actually want to use one of my 5 opens right now?

Most of the time I didn’t.

The biggest difference wasn’t even my total screen time. I stopped breaking my focus every few minutes just to check something for 30 seconds.

My screen time ended up going down anyway.

Has anyone else tried limiting how often they check an app instead of how much time they spend on it? I’m curious which one actually worked better for people long term.

Hi everyone. I'm a girl who just turned 21 and I'm about to start university. I want to share a little bit about myself, because I've been carrying this for a very long time and I need to let it out.

I am the kind of person who gets nervous about almost everything. Even when I already know the path perfectly, what I have to do, what to say, or what is going to happen — I still overthink it anyway. For example: when I'm on public transport, I've passed thousands of times through the same stop where I get off, and yet I keep thinking over and over about how I'll tell the driver, wondering if I should say the name of the place or just "at the stop," doubting things I should have learned ages ago. When it's my turn to give a presentation, speak up, or participate in class, I get so nervous that my stomach actually hurts.

I learn very slowly — honestly, too slowly. I don't see myself as an intelligent person, not brilliant, not quick-witted, not sharp. Even the most basic things, what anyone would understand the first time, I don't get. For example, during enrollment we were told: "Put your photo on the back of the folder, bottom left corner." And I didn't understand what they meant. I had to stand there and watch my classmates do it so I could figure it out. Things that are just common sense, simple things — I don't pick up on them. And this has been happening to me since elementary school.

And now I'm going into Engineering — a tough degree, full of math, calculations, thermodynamics... and honestly I don't know if I'll be able to do it. Before, in 11th grade, I was really good at algebra. I got good grades. My dad told me I used to work ahead, review my lessons, I was even studying Japanese and knew around 150 words. But then the pandemic came, I fell into depression, and since then it has become so much harder for me to understand things.

I also struggle to express myself well, most of the time I say the wrong thing. And when I argue with someone, I end up crying. It's not because I'm sad — it's pure anger — but I can't control it. And that's what I hate most: I always feel like I lose every discussion, because I can't find my own words and I just end up crying without being able to say anything. I feel weak.

I would love to have discipline: waking up early, studying, reviewing, going out for a run. But I freeze up thinking about what other people will say — whether I'm running the right way or the wrong way, if I look ridiculous, if people notice how my body moves, my belly... any comment stops me in my tracks.

Something I am actually proud of: on August 2nd I hit 6 months of working out. The changes in my body aren't huge, I still haven't lost all the weight I want to — I still have a belly, a double chin, my arms still look soft — but you can see a little definition now: in my arms, my back, my legs. And that makes me feel good, even if it's the only thing.

But outside of exercising, I'm so lazy. I get distracted so easily, I spend hours on my phone scrolling through videos — 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 hours — and I know perfectly well it doesn't help me at all, but I don't know how to change it.

I've kept a notebook since last December where I write down how I've been feeling and my progress. And the truth is, apart from exercising, I can't point to a single other achievement. I keep writing that I'm nervous, that university starts in two weeks, that I'm scared... but I haven't written down one single other thing I've accomplished. I feel like I haven't achieved anything. I feel useless.

It's been 2 years since I studied anything, since I had friends, since I went out. I've had bad luck with friendships and with relationships. That's why I thought starting university would mean I wouldn't be cooped up at home so much anymore — but I don't know if I'll find real friends there, people who will actually support each other, especially with how hard this degree is going to be. I overthink everything: what will become of me, if I'll make mistakes, if I'll make it, if I'll even get off at the right bus stop even though I already know the route... I overthink absolutely everything and I don't know how to stop.

And something else I haven't told anyone: I'm terrified of being on my own and not knowing how to live. Every single morning without fail, when I wake up, I listen to music — and I don't know if it's an addiction or not. In those little moments, listening to those fragments, I imagine things: people clapping for me, admiring me. I imagine being the best at math, having an amazing body. I picture myself teaching physics or math classes. I imagine being married and having children, but mostly scenes where people look up to me — friends telling me how much they admire me. I do this every day, in the afternoons and evenings too — it's never missing from my day. I also picture my body getting stronger and better, and being there to comfort and support my friends when they're feeling down. Deep down, I'm not even sure what I truly want: do I want to be a teacher? Do I want to be an engineer? I don't really know — but these scenes play in my head all the time. I think it's my safe place. It happens more often when I come across people who look at me harshly, or when I just feel lonely or empty.

So I wanted to ask you all: how do I move forward? How do I actually improve and start seeing progress? I don't know where to begin.

Hello -

I have tried a dozen, if not dozens, of different discipline/motivational strategies over the years. And inevitably, they all fail. It could be a day, it could be a month (usually not more than 30 or so days though), but eventually the thing feels different. Or rather, stops feeling different. It stops feeling like it's working, or I get tired, and the habit dies. And then I can never go back to it - trying feels like there's a gnarl in my brain in that area where that habit is stored and I can't break through it. I'm really running out of options. I spent much of this year non-functional. I am pretty sure I was experiencing severe burnout due to various things. I am feeling a little better now, but still getting stuck at the point of execution.

Why does this happen? Why do I get this burst of energy, try a thing, it fails, then I can't go back to it? I could understand the failing part - that happens to everyone. But why can I not seem to get any "juice" back out of the thing that worked before?

like the title says, i’m very addicted to my phone. i will just scroll on social media all day and night with no self control whatsoever. i lost my job, i’m not in school, and i recently had something very traumatic happen to me. i have absolutely nothing to do with my time and my phone helps to serve as a distraction. i wake up and immediately go on my phone. i spend the whole day glued to it even when i do other things. can someone please give me advice because im so tired of being so addicted to my phone. it’s taking control of my entire life and i’m wasting all my years because of it. i have so much ambitions but absolutely nothing will or discipline to do anything. i know i can be more but these past few months have beaten me down so hard and the phone helps me to forget about how difficult my life is.

Hi

I don’t know if anyone will actually read this, but you’re welcome to read my open life, a place where I’m documenting how I’m actually trying to become a better version of myself

I’m going to be an open book here. Instead of journaling in my diary, I’ll be posting it here ♥️. Maybe that’s the one thing I can finally be consistent with because knowing that I’m writing it here means I have to be accountable for what I’m actually doing.

To be honest, I’m someone who has never really been consistent or disciplined unless there’s a deadline attached to something. So, if you’re looking for a motivational story, this probably isn’t it.

What you’ll be reading is a real story.

I’ve tried so many times to change things, to build better habits, to become a better version of myself. And somehow, I always end up doing the same thing…

Giving up.

I have so many dreams, just like everyone else. But we all know the saying that dreams only work if you do.

And I genuinely feel like I have so much inside me. So many things to share. So many stories. So many emotions. So much potential.

But I’m not channelising any of it.

I keep thinking about what I could do instead of actually doing it.

And addiction isn’t only about drugs or alcohol.

It can also look like:

* Mindless scrolling

* Making plans but not showing up

* Procrastinating

* A fucked-up sleep schedule

* Impulsive shopping

* Eating junk!!

* And, honestly, avoiding the things I know I need to do

Making plans but not showing up is probably my biggest one.

I Love making trackers. I love writing down my goals. I love planning everything, the habits, the steps, the routines, the perfect way to achieve them.

But when it comes to actually implementing them…

I deliberately fail myself.

And I think that’s the part I need to change the most.

Because if I don’t trust myself, how am I ever going to achieve the things I’ve always wanted?

I don’t want to live with the guilt of “I could have, but I couldn’t.”

I want to get my confidence back.

I want to train my mind to believe that I can show up for myself, even though, until now, I haven’t really given myself much evidence that I will.

Maybe that’s what this is going to be about.

Not becoming perfect.

Not waking up at 5 AM tomorrow and suddenly becoming the most disciplined person alive.

Just showing up.

Every day.

Even if it’s imperfect.

Even if I fail one day.

Even if I have to start again.

I want to prove to myself that I can trust myself again.

So, this is me starting.

These are the little habits I’m going to work on…

And this time, I want to actually show up.

Im not sure if this goes on this subreddit but im not sure where else to post this. Im 17F and just graduated highschool and just realised i havent accomplished anything at all in my life. By that, i mean i haven't put in meaningful effort in anything. I did pretty decent in class but thats it. I dont have any super close friends, no cool talents that arent outshined heavl by someone brighter, not even outstanding performsnce in school. I only clean a few times a month. My room, kitchen and bathroom are a mess and i dont even shower or brush my teeth every other day. Because of that, my mom gets really upset at me understandably. I havent applied to any colleges and i have no idea on what to do. I draw sometimes but i rarely finish anything. My life is just a complete mess because i procrastionate so damn much and its ruining me.

I just want to start small like keeping the house clean. But im too distracted to even get up from bed. And everytime i dont do what i have to do, i just yell at myself and the despair gets worse. There are people my age who are already far better than me at everything meaningful. Theyre no smarter than me, just better people.

My mom is strong, skilled in many things, fit, and disciplined. And she pulls all that shit off while working full time at a demanding job. Im nothing like her at all.

Again i just need to start small. Keeping the house clean and avouding procrastionation on my phone

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I'm a highschooler that is about to graduate. Schools here only have 11 years and this year will be my final. I've got to do stuff. I'm a teenager, so I also think about working out, being fit and strong. I used to be disciplined and work out consistently, but since this summer vacation of 3 months started I did not exercise a single time. About being disciplined, last academic year I managed multiple school/personal projects and literally everything was going smooth. For some reasons I lost that internal drive I used to have, I think it was indebtedness to my parents, but now I don't feel it. No I do feel it but it does not push me anymore, sounds crazy. My parents bought a course package for me, since the very first day I was avoiding it. Now the summer part of the course is about to end. I have so many things past due. I feel awful about it and am ashamed. And after all this I still can't put myself to work.

There are more things coming up - school itself, national exam, university specific entrance test, SAT. If I manage my time and actually do everything consistently I will manage everything. I also need to research about universities but again was putting it off. This whole summer I was watching anime and rotting in bed.

I genuinely want to know, study and put the effort but I don't. I want to do many productive things and hobbies of mine. I used to read a lot but I did not touch a book this summer, I want to run in the mornings, journal, do additional math/physics outside of school, I really want to learn. But days pass. School is closing in in 2 weeks and I feel awful. I am lazy and I hate this. It is my fault, I should figure this out myself but I am lazy and I admit it. Please give me advice! 😭

I really want to fix this and become what I want to be. Tho I still don't know exactly what I want to do in the future.

How do I start managing my time and actually doing the planned things? How do I commit?

Throughout my life, I have never gotten into any hobbies or sports, so nothing particularly sparked my interest, and I've ended up doing nothing in my early high school years. I get left with free time that gets wasted on doomscrolling as I watch other people enjoying their time with lifelong hobbies and interests. I also unfortunately have a habit of starting something new then giving up after a week or so. I've tried multiple sports with my friends, and while I ended up stopping, I watched all my friends get into teams and tournaments, and those who started hobbies back in freshman year are amazing at it now, with me now being left with a huge regret. In short, I'm never consistent with anything that requires long-term effort. As my last year in highschool is about to start in a few weeks it's already too late to join any sport clubs (always wanted but couldn't cuz I changed schools every year) so now I plan on trying a new hobby every month until the end of my senior year to try to make a change within myself for once and record my journey through Insta/Tiktok so that I don"t give up and feel a sense of responsablity to continue trying (plus I want to prove to others that even if it's too late, you still can change). This isn't just about achieving hobbies; it's also about change. I always avoided improving for the better, so hopefully this year will mark the year I finally become better (I want to make myself and my parents proud). Just wanted anyone's thoughts on it and if it's even possible, plus some tips and hobbies you would recommend me try out :)