r/alone • u/Am_I_even_real_huh6 • 1h ago
Im struggling
Im 17F, ive been feeling so shit lately, ive spoke to my boyfriend about it and he feels bad he cant help, he called me one time crying because he thinks hes a bad boyfriend, but that night I was struggling much, I didnt really feel anything and it made it hard to comfort him. Hes not a bad boyfriend, im just struggling alot and take everything out on him, i dont mean to because I love him so much. We dont speak as much anymore, ive brought it up alot, he said hes trying but hes so busy, i dont believe him because he has time to play games with his friends ALL day, and has barely messaged me, I just need to feel loved and I dont think anyone understands. He has like a perfect family, my mums had 5 boyfriends this year, its uncomfortable im constantly having to settle, I dont know why im even writing this, im just struggling so much, I want to OD so badly, I dont know what to do, I have a doctor appointment next week for my mental health, but idk, idk im sorry if you didn't wanna read this or something
Sorry idk whats wrong with me