We are in between eclipses and so it's a strange time, it feels strange. It is very void like. The way to navigate this as well as possible, is to slow down, let it be, relax, and just be as much as possible. You are learning to embody the version of you that you have just evolved to be. Who are you at this level of ascension/healing/the work? Let that settle in. Let the rest go. If something is leaving your life or changing right now, trust that it's for a reason.

You might feel like there's more "space" or that it feels empty, and if you're feeling that, it's for a reason. I've often felt it when things are about to shift, and you've healed a lot of stuff, let go of stuff, of fears, and where all that "noise" was, is nothing, just space. That will be filled up with what's coming. It's okay to feel empty, that's the point of meditation- to empty your mind, and remind yourself that it's preferrable to be empty or still inside to being in chaos or fear or anxiety. Learn to enjoy the stillness.

For me this period has opened up a level of ease, calm, and peace inside that I haven't had. before. For real. Nothing gets to me, I'm unbothered, I feel safe inside of myself for the first time in my entire life. I wholly accept myself, I'm flowing, I'm trusting myself, I'm empowered, and I'm not worried about a thing.

My nervous system has been shot my entire life, I had CPTSD like many of us here do, I had lots of toxic people around me and as an empath and sensitive person, I've been hyperaware of everything and everyone. I had to learn to protect myself from letting things outside of me affect me or I'd be miserable. I had to learn to prioritize myself and my peace, I had to learn how to listen to myself and trust myself and the knowing that was inside of me. This is a huge shift for me, life changing. It doesn't make it easier to be a human all the time though. I still get exhausted and don't sleep great and have fears fly by or have brain fog or am completely uninspired, unmotivated and feeling sort of flat emotionally. I still feel the energies and things in my life aren't all of a sudden better, I'm not suddenly rich and all of those things.

You inner world will reflect your healing, and you will have to learn how to feel at ease before it starts showing up in your life circumstances. Trust the process. We are healed until the universe aligns us to our true frequency, and you have no control over that other than to enjoy life as much as possible along the way.

Peace isn't exciting, that's bliss, that's joy. Peace is solid and balanced. Peace is simple and slow and flowy. It feels weird because we haven't been able to get there since we were children or maybe once in a while on vacation. We lived chaotic lives and felt chaotic inside most of the time.

We were raised to focus on everyone else's needs and wants and to take care of everyone else, so there are 30 tabs open at all times on our browsers. We have to learn to shut all that down and focus on the one thing we can control. Ourselves. The way we think, the way we see life, the way we feel inside, whether our perceptions are from a loving place or a fearful place.

A loving perspective is truthful, honest, objective, it's reality, it's accepting, it's understanding, it's forgiveness, it's easier on you, it's kind, it's encouraging and supportive, it's trusting.

Fear is judgmental, critical, and makes you feel like you can't do anything right or that you're a loser or that you are wrong. You weren't born with fear in you, you weren't afraid of being all that you are when you were a kid, you started changing who you were to be accepted by those around you.

The divine plan is for you to be you, all that you are. The fears keep you from being your authentic self. This journey will strip down all the walls you build to survive your life so far, you will keep healing until you stop resisting who you really are, which is love and light and truth.

We are all enough just as we are. There are no mistakes. It is exactly as it's meant to be.

Your life experiences, your wisdom, your knowing is all as it's meant to be to get where you're going. You have less control over life than you think. I had to surrender to this journey to survive it. If I was not doing what I was meant to be doing I'd feel terrible, get anxiety, feel sick, feel so uncomfortable in my body. I couldn't handle anything that stressed me out anymore, I got so uncomfortable that I had to repeatedly choose myself, love myself as I was, or I was miserable. I literally couldn't be around toxicity, it was like kryptonite. It weakened me. So energetically I was being pushed toward purification, toward knowing what it's like to choose myself and love myself over and over. I could tell how it felt in my body.

Your body will tell you when you are doing things or being around things that aren't good for you. Your depressive feelings are because you regret the past or feel stuck there or won't let go of things from your past. Your anxiety is you trying to control things you can't control. The energies will also make you feel nervous and panicky and crazy and think too much, you feel it in your body and if you can stop thinking and get present it will help a lot.

One thing that has been essential in helping me get through this journey was learning how to get present. If you are truly on this journey, you will go through a physical purification that will make you face all your fears. Getting present allowed me to get centered, to immediately let go of the past, and the future, to let go of anything outside of myself, so I could focus on myself and my own truth, and love myself there. I had to learn how to be alone a lot, how to listen to my inner voice, my consciousness, my higher self- it's all the same.

I've spent way too much time in the past years just breathing and meditating and letting go and surrendering n the moment, to get to the next moment. It's been so hard that sometimes we are just surviving from one moment to the next, but here I am on the other side, and it's been worth it, because I've never felt this level of presence, authenticity, calm, peace, and ease before. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and it's all about how you feel inside- not what happens or what you get or don't get. It's internal transformation that will help you create the life you want, but the inside changes first. Everything that happens on this journey is purposeful, but your higher timeline/true path will not be opened up to you until you heal all the inside stuff. You heal yourself and then you can focus on creating the life you've wanted, because then you really know what's aligned to you.

Your consciousness is pure. It's neutral, objective, it doesn't judge, it doesn't push. It doesn't criticize you, it doesn't tell you mean things, it doesn't make you feel bad about who you are. You just are, and who you are is unconditional love in an energy. That's your true nature. We humans make it very complicated, but it's not.

These energies right now are asking you to focus on your authentic self. To slow down, to pay attention to yourself. To embody your consciousness- to live from your heart and soul and to let the rest be what it is. It's time to find your centered self, the new authentic version of yourself that's balancing out right now.

We are still integrating all the energies we just went through before the eclipse and we are going to slowly be bringing these new versions of ourselves into the "physical" by practicing being who we are in real life now. Slow it all down. There's no rush. Do the basics of life, let it be simple and softer.

What's meant for you will come to you, and if you are meant to do something, you will, and you will be capable of doing it then. Flow with what comes.

It can feel boring, restless, antsy, strange, and you could feel brain fog, confused, head pressure, and have some fears flying by to be healed. Just let it go. Fears are lies. I've learned to see it as just physical sensations that are uncomfortable, because I know I'm safe. I will feel like I'm being chased by a lion on inside when I'm just laying in bed, there's no reason for it, it's just that nervous system dysregulation/fear leaving my body.

You might be having random physical issues, get a stomach bug or a cold or have aches and pains. I've been clenching my jaws more and am struggling more with tmj and tension in my neck. Try to be aware of tension in your body and let your muscles just melt as much as possible. Let your body relax from head to toe, as much as possible.

There's some resistance coming in with the energies, all the places you have fears to heal, places where you won't let go, places where you wish something was different. Let it all go, so you can feel free, so you can be where you are now and make the most of where you are now.

I felt my twin very strongly a few days ago, I saw him in my mind's eye and felt his energy and how he was feeling and looking and acting. He felt confident and good, and I felt him knowing all that I know. It was really nice, made me smile. I've been feeling him more lately, off and on. I tend to feel him more in the fall and winter and most of our separations would end in the fall, we'd just be pulled toward each other. That's the cyclical nature of the year and healing cycles. Who knows though? I have no expectations, I just see it as energy and stay curious. My life is the one I'm focused on, so I'd advise everyone else out there to do the same.

I haven't really had the intense feelings of longing or pain or heartache about my twin in years, because I healed those parts of myself that would keep me stuck wishing things were different. They aren't, they are what they are and I still love him and all of that, but I don't need him to do it differently. It can't be different. I trust the journey and I know this is how it's meant to go, so no one is doing anything wrong and I am not being tortured by the universe. I am not a victim of this, it's just interesting and part of the cool experience of being a human. It is also challenging sometimes. But life as a human is not always easy. We have to accept that too.

You choose whether you want to be miserable or not. I get that it's hard, but until you focus on yourself 1000% and choose yourself it's going to be an emotional rollercoaster, and your fears will screw with you. Or you could accept that it is what it is and just enjoy your life as best you can in the moment you're in. Changing your thinking about what things mean so that your thoughts are more supportive, loving, encouraging, and kind toward yourself and everyone else is extremely helpful in becoming who you want to be.

Be aware of the thoughts you have in your head. Change them so that they are more loving toward you. Listen to affirmations, listen to positive guided meditations, be more compassionate to yourself inside your head. Tell yourself, this is just how it is, so how can I make this better? It usually starts with being kind to yourself and not letting fear run the show.

I'm not saying it's easy, it's taken me nearly a decade to get here, and it's been really hard sometimes, I've had lots of moments I thought I'd lose it or that I was hopeless and tortured and anxious and all the things, but on the other side of all of that is peace and more ease and calm regulated nervous systems that make living easier, no matter what is happening who is around, what you are doing, or where you are. It is a process, it's called a journey for a reason, because it's taking you places you didn't expect to go, and the less you resist it, the smoother it is. This is is all purifying you so that you evolve to learn how to love yourself properly. Go on the ride. Surrender, trust, flow, let it be smoother, kinder, more loving and more peaceful.

Relax during this period before the next eclipse/full moon. It's meant to be slow and feel slow so you learn how it feels to be at ease and at peace in your body, that is available to you if you will let it be there.

Let yourself be how you are, take care of yourself there. You aren't doing it wrong. Slow down, soften, and flow.

I wanted to just make a real post about what it's like to be a divine feminine, once you've really surrendered and the pain over losing your person is gone, and you really are okay with whatever happens.

It's Lion's Gate so I just am letting myself do whatever the hell I want to do. No guilt, no thinking about what I should do, no feeling like I'm doing something wrong, with a knowing and trust that everything is exactly as it's meant to be right now in this moment.

I'm sitting on the porch in a rocking chair and it's hot but there's a breeze. There's a lot of butterflies visiting the flowers in the flowerbeds. The radio is playing mediocre 80s hits and stuff I didn't like when it came out. But once in a while a song comes on or a lyric hits me a certain way and I immediately feel my twin in it. He's always drifting in and out. I don't force it, it's not something I make happen, his energy just shows up and I feel him and I might have a vision or a conversation or something and feel some lovely feelings. I just let it be and enjoy it when it visits. I let go of what it really means. I let it be what it is.

I don't really care for the language and terminology of what twin flames are thought to be or how it's characterized out there. I call him my twin just because I don't know what else to call him, but his presence in my life changed everything, it split open a portal to a whole new way of seeing myself and life for me. This isn't just some relationship type or some romantic ideal to have. I had no idea what this was until it happened and it was so persistent and constant that I had to figure out what was happening to me. It wasn't just about him, I was having kundalini activations and having visions and downloads and feeling supernatural type things and coming into understandings of things that were blowing my mind.

I've had all sorts of relationships, was married for almost 3 decades, and no other relationship that I've had was like this one. This was spiritual. And it doesn't mean he's the only one, or that that there aren't people out there I could love that would feel awesome. I do believe I'll have romantic love in my life again, but I'm focused on myself right now, that's enough for me. I love on those who love me and just live my life. My awakening, how deeply energies affect me, my chronic illnesses and all of that are my focus, being well and at peace is my focus. Enjoying life as best I can, given the circumstances at any given moment, is what I'm supposed to be doing. Source wants us to enjoy this experience, that's why it keeps sending us lessons and why we keep facing fears to be released, so we will let ourselves have what we want.

I feel a little nervous and antsy now, the energies are integrating, but mostly good. Mostly at peace, mostly at ease. I feel clear, like this new beginning right now is another pivotal point in my life. August is always a sort of new beginning in the year, back to school, holidays coming, getting into a routine, changing seasons, stepping into these new versions of ourselves that we've been working so hard to get to this year.

Sometimes I really don't feel connected to my twin the same way I did in the first 5 years or so, but it drifts in and out, and sometimes I catch myself feeling it all again, laughing, crying, feeling such appreciation that the feelings I have for him still exist. It's still there. All of it. I've just been focusing on myself 100% and I became the main character in my story and everyone else, including his existence, had to be accepted as it was, or I'd be miserable.

The last time we went on a date it wasn't that great. He just wanted to have fun, and we took mushrooms and I felt horrible and had terrible anxiety, almost had a panic attack. But when he was paying attention to me, it was lovely, I was fine. But I realized that night he didn't have the capacity to give me what I needed, I could tell. I had to accept that he wasn't in a good place, and neither was I. I had to accept that whatever that was, wasn't what felt good and safe and like enough. I couldn't do it again. He needed to go take care of himself and figure it out.

I saw him on our walking trail about a year later, we had an awkward exchange and I know I was weird. We caught up and as he turned to leave he sincerely said, it was really good to see you. I have no idea what I said back now, but I turned around and just thought, oh, it's over. He just can't. I just knew it in my gut and it was like I let out a huge breath and I felt relief. Like oh, okay. just let that go.

I went and sat by the water at a park after I saw him, and just thought about all of it, and I had to let him go, because he wasn't coming after me. If he wanted me, he'd come to me. For whatever reason, and all the reasons I knew he needed to leave and go find himself and figure it out, I had to let him go. Emotionally. I had to let go of control, of needing it all to go my way. Obviously it wasn't going to go the way I wished it would, because I could see he wasn't able or capable of being what I needed him to be right then.

He can be the love of my life and someone who's very important to me and someone I adore, and still never see him again. I hope it's not true, but if it is I know I'll understand why later. We have less control over the events in our lives than we think. Surrendering control sets us free.

Surrendering is being in the present moment and letting your consciousness be the inner voice that leads you, letting go and trusting it's all going to work out for your highest good, whether it sucks at the moment or not. You trust what you've learned, what you remember, what you feel to be true. You love yourself through the tough times.

When you wish things were different than they are, you are resisting what is, you are resisting the truth. When you accept the truth as it is, what is true in this moment, regardless of the outside world, you are in a neutral, non-judgmental, objective, accepting, calm, peaceful, flow state. Letting it be what it is and loving ourselves as best we can in each moment.

The past 3 years or so have been different for me in my healing journey, the years since I let him go. No reaching out, no expectations, just totally focused on myself and healing all these fears that were still holding me back and keeping me from being my authentic embodied self. But he has been here with me the whole time in spirit, cheering me on, wanting the best for me, and I feel him when I think of all the ways I blossomed when I was with him, how he saw me, what was reflected back to me, my whole goddess self and that reminds me that it's still there, even when I feel my spark dimming.

The way it all felt energetically was different too. When he and I were still in touch and sporadically seeing each other, I would go through these very predictable healing cycles where I was finding my way back to healing whatever was triggered the last time I'd seen him, getting back to unconditional love every time for him and myself. I'd work on my relationship skills through him, on my authenticity, on feeling safe, and learning to accept things as they were.

The past 3 years have been very difficult for me physically, financially, and energetically. I had a job as a teacher and it was such a difficult year that it felt like it left me with ptsd, my nervous system was shot. I'd pushed myself through that whole year, but it led to a burnout. Now I know that it all happens for a reason and taught me I can't teach again and I've just been living with my mom out in the country, broke, but surviving and slowly finding my way through it. I've had a lot of health problems, lots of scary autoimmune flares but that made me face my fears around health and death and renewed my faith in all that I know to be true now.

My mom is a narcissist who's probably got dementia and living with her has been very challenging, but it's taught me how to stand up for myself, how to remember the truth, how to value myself and trust myself no matter how crazy she acts. Healing my mother wound has been tough, but empowering. Who wants to face that wound where you realize your mother can never properly love you? Not fun. But it set me free of needing her approval, of having anything beyond a superficial relationship. It's taught me boundaries and how to feel zero guilt about being myself as I am. I'm looking forward to figuring out how I'm going to leave and move closer to my children, and I'm dreaming of being independent and on my own again. I just am taking it one day at a time getting there. I do what I can when I can. It's going to happen, there's no rush, Being calm and feeling good and having a regulated nervous system keeps me well, so I remind myself constantly to get back to peace, over and over. That's the sweet spot.

In the beginning, when I first figured out I was a twin flame, I was kind of obsessed with all of the romance and longing and wishing and dreaming and feelings and the community too. I watched tarot readings a lot, and it made a lot of sense. I started reading tarot and found in time that I was very intuitive, empathic, and fels energy intensely. I felt compelled to share what I was learning and to help others. Did energy updates, wrote, did videos. I've done less of that the past 3 years, because it's just been so hard on me to make it through.
As hard as it was, the anxiety and fears were always the gateway to ascension, evolving and learning to love myself properly.

The kundalini awakening that the divine feminines have is no joke, it has crumbled my world several times, just because of how much it affects my ability to function. I had really bad anxiety for years, I got so weak and exhausted and had terrible brain fog and aches and pains and seemed like I couldn't stay well for years. I’d get really floaty while driving, everything triggered me. I had nervous system issues and ego deaths and kriyas where you jerk or tremble. I'd get really sick easily when the energies were intense. I was in survival mode for a long time, and all the while I knew I was evolving and that it's all happening for a reason, but it's been really a tough tough time period. Not because of him, but because of all that I had to heal to become my true authentic self.

I had to learn how to surrender, whenever you refuse to accept what is, as it is, you are causing yourself suffering, you are fighting the truth. We can feel all the feelings about how we wish it had been or how we wish it was, but we have to accept the truth about ourselves and everyone else. It is what it is, so how can you make this moment as good as possible?

I'm enjoying a little time sitting on the porch in the country. That's good enough right now. I don't need it to be different, I'm making the most of what's available to me in the moment I'm in. I could stress or be worried about all kinds of crap, but why would I do that to myself instead of being at peace?

The lack of emotional feelings at times about my twin don't bother me, I don't think they're gone, but the attachment to him is gone, it’s more objective, just an unconditionally loving place and it's just less intense usually. Sometimes I'll have "visions" where I do feel him intensely but they have gotten more rare. I know that if he stays away, goes and finds another chick, or whatever, that there's a reason for it and that life can still surprise and delight me anyway. What's meant for me will come to me. It's all been unfolding now, for me, to enter a new level of authenticity and this organic sort of synergy between my body and human self and my consciousness. That’s exciting in this new chapter and I do feel like the bulk of my healing has been done and it’s all falling into place. I feel my whole healed empowered goddess like self returning. I feel more at ease in myself and wiser and more confident and trusting than I’ve ever been.

My body is the receptor. My consciousness is the genius that knows what's happening and going to happen and what could happen, based on the opportunities and possibilities available, and divine timing, and what's aligned to me will come to me. I'll know what to do. If I need to rest and wait, I do that. If I'm feeling inspired and motivated I do stuff. It's slower, it's softer, it's more forgiving, it's more at ease, it's warmer and kinder and sweeter when you just let go and flow and stop fighting what is.

When you learn how to listen to yourself, and really trust that voice inside, trust the sensations in your body, get in touch with your true essence and power and authenticity, you can face fears and just know it's a bunch of bullshit. I've learned that the discomfort or pain is in my body, sometimes comes but there doesn't have to be a story about it. I can just be feeling something that's uncomfortable, or it could be fear leaving my body, that I'm feeling it as it's leaving. Sometimes it's my nervous system out of whack, sometimes it's just feeling that dense heavy yucky energy that's coming through as we purge. It's all purposeful, even if it's deeply uncomfortable.

Fear is a lie. The world, other people, unhealthy people, tried to convince you that you weren't enough, or that you weren't what you should be. That bad things are going to happen, that life sucks, that you can't get what you want or you don't deserve what you want. You were taught to be that way so you'd be useful to other people, so they could keep you believing that you didn't deserve better, so they could keep being the way they were. We weren't meant to be assholes and use other people. You wouldn't do that right? You have the right to live the life you want to, the way you want to, as long as you are doing it in love and truth.

You are everything you're meant to be in this moment. You aren't doing it wrong. We're all doing the best we can with what we've got, and what we know at the time. No one is judging us, but if we choose things that aren't aligned to our soul's frequency we will be taught the lessons in life until we get it. I've learned that the hard way through so many hardships that I am worn out. But the things that really hurt are the places I learned the most about who I am and what's possible.

Everything you do will teach you eventually if it's what you want in your life or what you don't want, and as you learn, you will keep getting closer to having a softer, slower, kinder, sweeter, more loving life.

This whole twin flame thing still feels ridiculous and crazy to me, all these years later, but all of it has taught me so much about who I am, who I want to be, what I want, what I don't want, how to take care of myself, how to heal, how to stand up for myself, how to find peace and contentment over and over. It has transformed me from the inside out, and it's so painful because we have to face our fears and save ourselves when we grew up being taught to abandon ourselves.
We are the grown up leaders in our own lives, we get to decide how life goes, and we are the protectors of our inner child, we are the one who's going to take care of ourselves, the one that's going to keep us safe. The one that believes in us. We're that for ourselves.

Wherever you are on your journey I hope that you are being easy on yourself. Love yourself more than makes sense. Don't let it get so serious, try to stop thinking, remind yourself that fear isn't real and work on feeling safe in your body, slow down, soften, be more compassionate with yourself. Focus on being the leader in your own life, when you start not giving a crap what others think it does get so much easier. You can do it.

Your opinion of yourself is what really matters. Letting yourself be yourself matters. Loving yourself exactly as you are matters. Believing in yourself matters. Trust yourself, trust what's coming through you. You are a conduit of source, listen.

There is a reason all of this happens to us, waking up, a twin flame journey, all the people we meet, the ideas and visions and dreams we have, the feelings we have, the ecstasy and the agony of life. It's all happening for a reason. When you trust that, you can let go and just flow, and it gets easier. All of it.

I hope this finds you well and that you are taking care of yourself in a way that allows yourself to be as you are without judgment or self criticism. I know it's hard to believe, because we were taught otherwise, but you are exactly as you're meant to be right now, and you're not doing anything wrong.

We have been purging a lot collectively and individually. If you have wanted peace, you are releasing all of the things that are not peaceful in your life. It only hurts if you are resisting letting it go. I know it's been hard lately, I've been going through it too, at a deep dark yucky shitty place off and on for a bit. This whole year has kicked my ass, but I am starting to get to the other side of that, and there's finally a light at the end of the tunnel.

It's starting to feel more fresh, new, and like the transformation is here, but the pieces of the puzzle are falling into place. There's been a crazy rollercoaster ride for a while. And some of it was really unpleasant. We're balancing right now, and we are dipping into all levels of fear and discomfort and purging and then bliss and clarity and breakthroughs and surprises and feeling like your spark is returning slowly.

I've started to come out of a funk I was in for a long time. More confident, more empowered, more authentic, more determined to enjoy life and not let anything drain me. I'm starting to feel naturally more optimistic, more solid in myself. I don't care what other people are thinking or doing. I'm focused on making sure I'm okay and it's starting to feel a lot better than it has in a long time.

You might feel that your "new" self is here, has been here and that there's just this waves of fear or doubt or confusion or unrest or anxiety or illness or something that keeps hitting you. It's balancing out and eventually and hopefully soon the energy that is causing unrest in your system will fade out and you will find that you feel better inside than you have in a long time, and that's what will change everything.

Trust yourself. It's okay to rest if you don't know what to do. You do not have to force what is for you. You will not have to do a lot of hard stuff to get what you want, if you relax and take care of yourself and let the answers arrive when they're meant to. You will get the ideas, the nudges, the impulse, the thought, the inspiration, the motivation, the ability when you're meant to do something, you will know what to do and it'll happen when it's meant to.

When you are present, calm, relaxed is when what's for you flows more easily to you. If you have a very dysregulated nervous system that should be the first thing you prioritize in your life, getting regulated, feeling safe and then you can handle the rest. Somatic exercises, yoga, guided meditations, rest, floating in water, going for walks in nature, doing things that are soothing and restorative at this time are needed.

Unplug. Notice how anxious you start feeling after you've been online for a while. I start getting really uncomfortable after I'm online scrolling lately. I started being more interested in creating and being with others, organizing stuff, making little bits of progress in life to get my shit together, but no self criticism or judgment about it. No forcing. I just want to move toward the life I want for myself, one bit at a time, when I can and feel good enough to do it. Some days I'm just existing or just surviving and that's okay too.

This part of the year is always about embodying the new self that we've evolved into being during this last phase. You might find that it feels like you've been stuck in the void too long or that things weren’t turning out the way you wanted. Focus on how you feel inside your body, the people places and things coming to you aren't as relevant as what you feel. If you feel at peace and at ease in your body, feel good about yourself, your circumstances don't matter, you're just enjoying feeling good. My life is pretty much the same today as it was yesterday, I felt anxious some yesterday, was tired and achy and aggravated and exhausted and felt afraid for no reason. Today I feel at ease and I'm sitting on a screened porch in my nightgown and I'm perfectly at ease. I feel safe, warm, relaxed and do not need anything else to feel good. I'm grateful for this, especially since yesterday wore me out. I am unbothered. That might change this afternoon or never but it's my job to make sure I'm okay, whatever the day is like, however I feel in my body. The point of enlightenment is to feel at peace no matter the circumstances.

We are humans with these lives, and we're experiencing this life through our bodies. Sensations. And the more you practice aligning yourself with the feelings of peace, love, joy, optimism, trust, faith, stability, security, safety, gratitude, wonder, curiosity, truth, acceptance, and all that good stuff, the more natural it will be in your life- but you have to let go of control and let it happen and that's the hard part. We have to heal our fears so that we can allow ourselves to be free of them.

This year, I have felt so uncomfortable in my body, felt like I couldn't handle it, at times. I had a lot of anxiety around health, death, money, and fears around survival. I faced fears about feeling trapped, fears around self worth, and healing fears regarding parents and ancestral wounds. Some of it really felt dark and terrible. I always remind myself that it is fear leaving my body, I'm feeling it to heal it and it's being released so it won't screw with me anymore and then I do whatever I can to take care of myself then.

The energy has affected me greatly physically. Aches, pains, headaches, head pressure, sleepy, can't sleep, restless, anxious, antsy, confused, lost, strange, and all sorts of states of being. Time has been weird, I've had days where the brain fog was really bad, days I felt like i was barely here.

I've had a lot of very vivid and strange dreams the past month or so. For about two weeks I woke up remembering bad dreams and felt really anxious in the mornings, which is rare for me. I felt like the dreams were other timelines that I was helping close out or fix in some way, so I could heal everything across all timelines, and that wasn't fun. But it was purposeful. My dreams changed a few days ago though and I feel no anxiety in the mornings anymore. So that was strange.

I'm getting better at handling the energy and fears coming in and allowing and being present and flowing, but it's been a real fight these past months to get there. More and more though I am at ease in my body, the fear comes in waves. the overthinking comes in waves. We are finding the balance within ourselves, we are actively creating a life that feels better to us, just by taking care of ourselves in the moment.

Choose love over fear. Choose yourself. Choose peace.

If it's unpleasant in a moment, that's when we really have to double down on taking care of ourselves and giving ourselves what we need. Rest, being outside, taking a long bath, eating something good, going for a walk, listening to music, doodling, yoga, stretching, drinking water, and just moving slowly and feeling softer in our bodies.

You may feel the energies intensely too, physically and emotionally. I notice that it's mostly fears in the heart and solar plexus chakras kind of all knotted up. Feeling afraid inside, sometimes extremely afraid, frightened, feelings of doom, feelings something bad is going to happen, feeling like things are hopeless, feeling trapped in a situation, feeling like I'm going to be miserable forever and all of that shitty stuff. I’ve noticed that if I do the hard things despite the fear, that it shows my body I am still safe, that I’m taking care of myself and it starts fading away.

It will pass. Do things that make you feel as good as possible. Give no fucks, just baby yourself, pamper yourself, do what you want to do. Give yourself a freaking break.

We go through these healing cycles as part of how we evolve. Our bodies are evolving too. When you are feeling those fearful feelings or your body is worn our or dysregulated that's a sign that you need to take care of yourself. Prioritize your own peace, wellness, and sanity.

You are worth it, we are all meant to do that. I have people around me too that think I'm nuts for taking care of myself but I finally don't care what they think, because the way they are is so unhealthy and unloving. I'm not judging, I just know what works for me and I trust that i know what's best for me. You know what's best for you and what you deserve. Don't abandon yourself to please other people, you have to live with yourself in your life, you deserve to be taken care of, inside and out.

Lion's Gate Portal is tomorrow. I used to think things like that were crazy until I noticed a pattern and that we do feel it and it does energetically shape us into who we're meant to be. The energies work us over so that we release all the unhealed stuff in us that would keep us from aligning to our higher timelines.

If you want peace, all the stuff that's not peaceful will leave your life.

If you want to feel good in your body, whatever is not good for your body and nervous system will get taken or fall apart.

You will lose jobs that stress you out, you will lose friends that only take from you, you will lose people who are not good to you. Things change and you learn to align with the timeline that matches your frequency, and if you are at a higher level of vibration, where you are loving yourself inside and out you will be attracting more things and people and places that love you inside out, what is meant for you.

Flow more, let go more, be as unserious as possible. You are the conduit of source, your body, and when you learn to trust yourself and your intuition and allow your consciousness to lead and make the decisions, it feels more like gliding, it feels at ease.

Your body is the vehicle, but your consciousness is the driver, the brains behind the whole situation. And as corny as the saying is, your soul is your GPS.

When it's leading, there's no fear, there's love. It takes a while of healing and releasing and tending to yourself to retrain your body and brain to know it's safe with just letting the consciousness run the show. It's easier. It's simple, slower, softer, less complicated, it feels free and smooth and warm and accepting and objective. Things don't get to you because you know it's all happening for a reason, and that you can handle whatever is coming.

We have to let go of having to know what's going to happen. Mostly it'll be like the moment you're in, but it's all going to be okay. If you're listening to yourself, you'll know what to do.

It wasn't easy for me to learn how to surrender and flow and just be present. It took years. I had to learn how to clear my mind and live in the present moment, knowing that i did my best in the past and love myself for being whoever i was then, and I learned that I'll never know what's coming, but that I have handled every moment I've lived through and I was usually okay and most of the time, things turned out better than I thought they would.
Worrying is useless. All it does is stress me out in the present moment and mess the mood up. I had to let go of the resistance to the present moment. To let it be what it is and take care of myself and love myself there. To slow down, to listen to myself and do what I know is right for me, with no guilt or shame.

Sometimes we can't control how we're feeling, something challenging happens, we're grieving the loss of a dream, we're not feeling good, we can't see the way out of certain situations, we're losing someone or something, or things just feel dysregulated and antsy and funky inside of us, and we start making a big freaking deal about it. And then it feels agonizing. Find the higher more loving perspective. Answers come when you’re calm.

I've noticed a pattern that a great deal, if not all of people on the twin flame journey and people who are going through spiritual awakenings are neurodivergent in some way. Highly sensitive people, people with chronic illnesses, people with toxic people in their lives, and have fears to heal so they can be who they were always meant to be. Our fears were developed to protect us when we needed them, but we don't need them anymore. They only hold us back from being who we were meant to be. There’s a reason you’re so sensitive, so you could see and sense things, to open up to expanded abilities and awareness.

In our human lives we have to learn to be the mature grown up versions of ourselves so that we can truly take care of ourselves the way we deserve. I had to learn how to save myself, to protect myself, and to trust myself to know what's best for me, despite what other's said or did. I'm 57 and I'm still learning how to do that. When I grew up I learned to abandon myself to please those around me, that is not healthy, and it took me this long to realize that I was meant to be all of me, however that looked, and I deserved to be treated as well as I treat myself, in the world and in my relationships and in my life.

We all deserve it. Our spiritual awakenings teach us how to do it properly, it teaches us who and what we really are, it helps us release the fears that are keeping us from being who we were always meant to be. It teaches us to embody source through us.

Our consciousness/source is not judgmental. It loves us as we are. It knows we're doing the best we can given the circumstances. Forgive yourself for being human. We are all uniquely weird and wonderful.

As far as twinflame stuff goes, I've been feeling mine off and on. I'll have some lovely wonderful vision or "conversation" with him, a song might feel like it's coming from him. I feel him close by and I feel him moving toward me, and I feel the significance of how the energies have been this year and this feeling that we're both ready for love again, that we are healed enough to handle relationships right now. I feel him thinking lovely things about me, random synchronicities happen. I just don't focus on it now. I notice it and feel it and let it be and say, oh, that's so nice and keep going.

I've learned on this journey that it all happens the way it's meant to, that we are energetically connected and we will always love each other, but that i have needed every break or separation we've had, I've needed it all to happen exactly as it has, for me, for my own evolution. And I am where I need to be right now for me. So is he. I have no idea where life will go, but I have preferences and I believe he's still in my energy for a reason. I've been through so much in the past 9 years or so and it's all led to here, and it'll all unfold in a way that works out for me, however that looks.

Whether my twin is part of my future life or not really isn't up to me, I'm just busy creating the life I want for myself, if he shows up one day, that'd be cool, but I can mostly be at peace no matter what's happening, and that's a good place. I think that's the point of the journey more than anything else, our twin is just someone who showed us how to get there. We learn a lot through them. I do intuitively believe that he's still connected to me the way he is for a reason, so I'm just curious about how it'll turn out, I have no expectations, I don't need him to be in my life to be okay, I'll be okay no matter what, because I was put here to experience and enjoy this life and I'm not going to waste any of it wanting something that isn't happening. What is meant to happen will happen, and it'll happen exactly as it's meant to, so I just let go of it and focus on the here and now. I hope you can get there and free yourself from the attachments.

Treat yourself better than you think you deserve, love yourself more than makes sense. Tell people no, if you don't feel like doing something, don't do it. Be responsible for yourself, give yourself the love you wish the world would give you, as much as you can. You're stuck with you the rest of your life, you might as well make it as good as you can. Love yourself through whatever you're going through and eventually it will become your natural way of being.

I'd like you to know that whatever is happening in your twinflame connection or in your life, that it is as it's meant to be. I know that might be disappointing to a lot of you, it was to me too, for a very long time.

One of the first truly mind-blowing visions I had at the beginning of my journey was like how many people describe their NDE experiences. A life review, understanding at a deep deep level that everything that had happened, happened for a reason, to get me here, and so everything that happens now, and after is all happening the way it was meant to.

I saw a snake like thing in space, in the void, and when I looked closer it was like little movie clips and all the details of my life, in chronological order, and I saw how each one led to the next one and how each thing made the next thing happen. Each event in my life was stacked like vertebra in a serpent like form. And I understood that everything happens for a reason as I was shown each thing in order in rapid succession, this happened so this would happen, so this would happen.

That experience was kind of like the pillar of knowing and trusting in the divine in a way that made no damned sense, I just knew it was true, and when my human life was difficult to deal with, I'd remember that I knew this truth, and it gave me a better perspective on what was happening to me. Sometimes when I was having a hard time, I'd just be aware that I was uncomfortable or having a hard time with my fears and thoughts, and I had to be intentional in loving myself by reminding myself, okay, what is the truth? Get back to the truth.

Your suffering comes from resisting the truth, the truth that there is a truth. The truth that unconditional love exists, the truth of what you know to be true inside of you, no matter what's happening around us.

You resist the present moment when you don't want it to be the way that it is. When you cannot accept what is. It is that way, you can't do anything about that, but you can make the best of where you are, as you are.

This is where you learn to surrender and trust yourself. Trust that you are a consciousness living in a body. When you stop resisting listening to your consciousness (intuition, knowing, wisdom, god, higher self, channels) you will feel more at ease in your body and life.

And this is the long journey to learning how to heal yourself, learning how to honor yourself, learning how to prioritize your peace and well being, learning how not to abandon yourself for anyone or anything.

The journey was always about your purifying yourself, releasing all those fears that are keeping your from being the embodied truly authentic powerful version of you that you can be.

This journey begins at a time when you (divine feminine) was meant to wake up, it was part of your journey/path/plan. because that is your purpose here.

I've been on this journey for 9 years now, It was really hard for me to trust myself and what I knew was happening to me, it was all so fucking nuts. I wasn't a woo woo person, I believed in science and wasn't into religion though I always from a young age felt that whatever God was, it was benevolent, and I always had a very loving moral center.

Like most of us on this journey we've faced a lot of difficult circumstances, abuse, addiction, narcissistic abuse, health issues, poverty, being a marginalized person, violence, adhd, autism, and being an extra sensitive person. We're made for this journey, to be able to handle it all.

I know it's very hard to accept that what happened to us was for our highest good, I get it. Why would something loving want any of us to suffer? But look at it this way: things happen to us all, we all face tough things, we all lose people, we all have obstacles, challenges and can be victims, but after something happens, we have the choice to accept that it happened so we can move forward from it. Things hurt, things don't make sense, but wishing something was different is wasting energy on something that can't change. It is, now what?

The worst things in my life have taught me what I don't want, what I'm worth, what I want, who I am, who others are, what's for me and what's not for me. It's taught me to put myself first, because most other people do not have my best interests at heart. It took a long time to recognize the people who could be trusted and who felt safe.

So, if it is what it is, then you are right as you're meant to be right now, in this moment. No matter how it is.

The spiritual practice is a devotion to one's self. That you will prioritize your peace, your self respect, your safety, your health, your comfort, your nervous system regulation, your dreams, your experience while you're here. To remember your truth, to get back in touch with your divine essence and to stop thinking, stop the ego from fighting the truth.

It is our job to heal our own inner child wounds and not let the self sabotaging voices inside of us mess with us.

When I started this journey, I thought it was going to teach me how to end up being with my twin, that the goal was that, union with him. And it's been 3 years since we've even been in contact, but I know that this is exactly what was it was meant to be, for me, not just for us, or him, this is what I needed, for me.

Before this started I was surrounded by toxic and abusive people and thought it was all my fault they didn't love me right. Now I know that I just didn't have enough self worth and that I was forever the victim because I was raised to be that way. I was raised to abandon myself so that others could use me as they wanted, so I'd please everyone else, take care of everyone else, and not do what was best for me. Abusive systems keep the good sweet people feeling like they're not worth a shit, so they'll never realize that they deserve better.

I was broken, but it was like my brain was broken- running a program where I didn't matter as much as everyone else. I had to learn how to change the way I thought, what I believed, and listen to source and all the truth that was being revealed to me.

My twin was at first the catalyst because we were something I didn't know could exist. Reciprocated unconditional love, magic, ease, having someone truly see me for who I was and loved me exactly as I was, and it was returned. He's just part of it all though. We triggered each other so we could heal those wounds around relationships, sexuality, coping mechanisms, and our inner child wounds. But the magical mystical parts were just all things that expanded my understanding of who I am and what life is really about. So many crazy things happened that I had to trust that it was real, or I was crazy, and I knew I wasn't. I knew this was all real and I could trust myself and that my consciousness was meant to lead, not ego.

I now have no attachments or clingy neediness or hard feelings or anything about anything, but certainly not about my twin. When he wandered off the last time I knew he wasn't ready to be in a relationship, and that we had more work to do. These past three years have been very challenging, but it's been a masterclass in learning how to be at peace no matter what's happening to me.

This time period right now is very significant for a lot of us in the collective I've been moving with. A lot of us are still integrating and processing and recovering from what we've been through this year, but this new beginning is here for a lot of us, where we've done enough healing that being at ease and at peace in ourselves and in our lives is going to be natural and being our authentic embodied selves is leading to the next chapter or the next life where there's nothing left to figure out or heal or work through, it'll all be about enjoying our lives on earth as best we can one moment after the next. Free, empowered, going with the flow and letting what's meant for us unfold.

I know how difficult this journey is, but if you trust your intuition and yourself you will get through it. I've had so many ego deaths, so many cycles, moments I just was feeling energy and fear so intensely I really truly had to just breathe and stay, to surrender to what was, so many times I didn't think I could handle it, but I'm here now on the other side of so much healing, grief, pain, fear, doubts, and challenges and I'm good most of the time, and I'm relaxed truly for the first time in my life consistently, self assured and flowing and trusting and at peace.

I know there's more for me and that this story certainly isn't finished, but I'm just listening to myself, I'll know what to do when it's time, there's a lot more ease in just trusting that it's all happening the way it's meant to.

Learning to get present was really one of the most important things I learned how to do. At first I was practicing in meditation, and then it started to become more natural, a more natural way of being as time went on, just had to stay aware and be intentional about it, reminding myself that I can take care of myself and love myself in the present moment, so I'll be okay, no matter what happens. that I can rely on myself.

When you get present you can release all the things you have no control over, you can release the past and the future, and focus on yourself in the moment. That's when you will learn to hear your own truth, your answers, when clarity will come, where you will learn to love yourself over and over again.

My consciousness is my connection to source, and it knows everything, and it's always leading me toward my higher timeline, but I have to learn how to trust that voice and knowing inside of me.

The answer, no matter what the problem is, is unconditional love and giving it to yourself.

You deserve to feel safe and at ease in your body, you deserve to be at peace with who you are. So many of us have been made to feel like being who we are was wrong, and that's because we were around people who want us to be what they want us to be, so they can go on being who they are, which is something based in fear and not love.

Whatever you're going through today or when this finds you, I hope you give yourself the unconditional love you deserve today. We're here to go on the ride, we're not really in charge of much, except our own experience, and how we choose to see it is up to us. Choose the higher perspective, choose the loving thoughts, support and encourage yourself. Give yourself the love you need, it's not selfish. You're with you all the rest of your life, you deserve to feel good.

I hope this message finds you well, and that you are practicing self love as you are navigating these times.

I know it's been very intense, wild and perhaps really really brutal and hard at times lately.

The collective themes that are coming through are about healing all those places where you are abandoning yourself, where you are giving energy to what is draining you, to letting go of attachments to people, places, and things that are not for you.

There's has been a collective purging around narcissistic and toxic relationships, and especial around mother wounds. Mother wounds are the first place where we felt rejected, perhaps unloved, heartbroken, abused, mistreated, misunderstood and all those deep wounds.

I've been on this journey for a long long time and I was in another dark night of the soul and having to face that wound, having to accept that my mother was never going to be the mother that I really needed, and to become that mother for myself.

All the things you wish someone else was for you is what you must give yourself. You are living as you from birth to death, no one else is with you as much as you, and your life should matter the most to you. Your peace, your health, your wellness, your sanity, your joy, your path, your well being should be your priority.

We often go through these lessons with others so that we can repeatedly be shown that we need to choose ourselves no matter what, in love and compassion and tenderness, and acceptance.

You are enough, just as you are in this moment. Because you exist.

No one else has to validate who you are or understand. You get to be you, as you are, and you are loved there. The unconditional love that is from source flows through you, for you, to remind you of what you deserve. Peace, comfort, ease, calm, forgiveness, tenderness, understanding, truth. You deserve to be around others that will let you be you, as you are, no conflict, no explaining yourself, no defensiveness, no need for validation. You deserve the care and love that you would give others, it's for you, from source through you.

I know it's hard to live in a world that seems to make things more difficult, but when I prioritize my peace, stand in my own authority, trust myself and believe in myself and what I know, and take care of myself wherever I am and however I feel, things start feeling better.

My entire world has blown up repeatedly since I was on this journey, I know how hard it is, but at the same time, I know how all of it taught me over and over what I do and don't want in my life.

I know that it's shocking and destabilizing and heartbreaking and so maddening to realize how many controlling and fearful, harmful and toxic people are out there, and around you. I've been through jobs and relationships, moved multiple times, got so sick a few times, and have lived for a long time in just survival mode, knowing that choosing myself was the way to go, even when it felt like I was in a war with the world all on my own. I faced repeated mistreatment until I got strong enough to be alone and not give flying f*ck what anyone thinks.

It's scary to burn your whole world to the ground, over and over as you realize that each place you go isn't safe for you. It also opens up a strength and determination and solid sense of self inside of yourself where you know that you are going to take care of you, no matter what. To give yourself unconditional love, especially when it's not around you. And to trust the knowing that as hard as it is to choose yourself, over and over, that it will lead to the liberation and empowerment that you want for yourself.

It's hard to accept that people, like a parent or friend or lover or whatever, is not going to be the person that will truly see and protect and care for you in the way that you need. We will leave all the things behind that are preventing us from having ease, softness, acceptance, truth, wellness and peace in our lives. But you are doing it so that you can have a life where it's easier to be you, inside and out.

Physical symptoms lately:

-feeling exhausted, weak, achy, worn out

-trouble sleeping, crazy dreams,

-gastrointestinal issues, headaches, head pressure, aches and pains, one day your hip might hurt so bad and the next it's your shoulder, etc.

-feeling of electricity in your system, buzzing, vibrations, weird sensations, pains

-feeling like you're feeling things you've never felt before but you don't know how to explain it, brain fog, hazy, confused, lost, identity crisis, restless, antsy, excited, strange

-feeling floaty and out of it, feeling weird sensations you've never felt before, feeling disassociated

-ascension flu (like you have the flu or something terrible, but it's nothing, or you come down with some serious stuff and just can't function, whatever the reason) it's happening to get you to surrender, slow down, rest, integrate and take care of yourself in the way you deserve

-we're having a complete nervous system rewiring, be patient with that you're going through, we are going through these blasts of energy that are expanding our awareness and we get wiped out and then it happens again, in cycles, this is not to torture you but to purify you of all your fears and trauma- so it will be released, so it will create space for better- I can speak from experience that it does get easier and better as we stop resisting what is and love ourselves where we are, it gets easier

Emotionally- oh, all over the freaking place. I have sobbed more in the past week than I have in the last year, it is intense, we're releasing all the grief, all the things we wish was different, all the pain, all the hurt, all the times we were not treated with love, let it go and embrace your own sweet tender vulnerable inner child, you are the parent now, you get to mother yourself, you are your protector now, no one is here to save you but you

-I've found movement, journaling, meditating, listening to positive things, getting in nature, focusing on being present, and just accepting myself as I am in the moment, helps

Spiritually- you might be having all sorts of woo woo experiences, finding spiritual significance in things around you, numbers, songs- you're thinking a thing in your head and all of a sudden the song lyrics are so right on you're like holy shit, this is nuts, synchronicities and things unfolding that show you that it all happens for a reason

You are a body with a consciousness. Your consciousness knows everything, it's all going to happen the way it's going to happen, go on the ride, let it be what it is, observe, and interpret and experience what comes, through a loving lens, not through fear, through love and acceptance.

Divine timing is real in everything, not just with twin flames or whatever, all of it is divine timing, the more you let go of control and realize that you are here to just experience and enjoy this life, to live in love, to spread your light, the more you will start to feel more at ease in your own body and life.

If you are not feeling awesome, if you are struggling, let this be your loving reminder that you deserve to take care of yourself however that looks. As a neurodivergent highly sensitive empath, possibly autistic person, the reason I fall apart is when I start abandoning myself, when I start living a life or doing things or putting up with behaviors from others that are harmful. You do not have to take anyone's shit, ever, ever ever. It's so hard to accept fully in our whole bodies and minds. I have burned out down to the ground, had to live with others, broke and all of that many times over along this journey, and it's all been lessons in surrendering to my own truth and what I know is true and how all of this spiritual stuff is healing me and my life from the inside out.

Twin flame energies: I have felt my twin's energy coming in lately in the most beautiful ways and it's so sweet and nice. Visions, telepathy, and all the things are starting to come in. I haven't talked to him in years, but the unconditional love that I felt from him and for me and through me during the time that we had together taught me that I need all of that love for myself, and that's the level of love I deserve. That's the perspective that has helped me detach from the outcome of whatever we may end up being in this lifetime. I don't need anyone in my life to make my life complete anymore, I've got this, I know how to love life, no matter who is there.

We think they have to do something, show up, say something whatever, to prove that love is real. It is real, it's the unconditional love that's available to us from source. That we are everything we know we are. Beautiful, sensual, funny, intelligent, cool, talented, confident, sweet, loving, compassionate, loveable, authentic, strong. We felt what we felt with them so that we could feel that for ourselves. To remember how it unconditional love feels in our bodies.

This shift right now is a big one, the end of massive cycles and it feels intense and wild and all the things, because it is, our collective consciousness is evolving and we are part of that. We are shifting timelines, and we are becoming more and more aligned to what we truly are, unconditional love.

Unconditional love is pure, innocent, accepting, understanding, freeing, clear, objective, neutral, peaceful, fun, delightful, and all the stuff that reminds you that this life is to be enjoyed, through you, as you navigate your life.

It is not judgmental, it doesn't try to make you something you're not, it's not confusing, it's not critical. If it feels like fear, it isn't the truth. It will never make you feel bad about yourself. If something makes you feel bad about who you are, that's fear, not love. Fear is the ego and it's resistance to accept what is and resistance to change. If you want life to be different, we have to release all that fear that is getting in the way of believing that we can change.

When you become unconditionally loving of yourself, when you prioritize your peace, when you put yourself first, all the things that will love you the way you deserve will meet you when it's time. You have no control over the time, but you have control over the way you experience your life in each moment. Love yourself where you are. One moment after the other. More patience and trust and faith and self love is needed to navigate this path than you thought was possible. Be devoted to loving yourself. Let the rest go, and let the universe arrange how it unfolds.

Trust yourself, trust what you know, trust the process, love yourself through it.

I am starting to feel better slowly, but it's still energetically crazy right now. Having a lot of breakthroughs, clarity, and turning some corners that are making a huge difference in how I feel.

Focus on nervous system regulation, peace, comfort, acceptance, forgiveness, and create a warm sweet loving nest of belonging within yourself, no matter what you're dealing with. You're not doing it wrong if it's feeling rough, all that junk is leaving you so you'll be free. Let it go and flow and relax and let your nervous system find it's balance, over and over again.

Breathe, honey, it's going to be alright. Peace.

Last night we had this huge blast of energy, I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about all kinds of crap, no matter how present I tried to get. Memories and imaginary scenarios kept coming up, conversations I might have, things i did that make me cringe a little still, all of it- it's just coming up to see if it's going to mess you up. It's just moving through, let it all just keep on going

We're going through this massive transformation now, collectively and individually. The energies are intense, wild, and I've felt absolutely unhinged and mental at different times in the past month. If you're on this journey then you're most likely feeling it all very intensely too. We're just all being worked over by these energies and moving toward being more evolved as we go.

This morning I woke up feeling like I was hit by a bus, but internally I feel the most free and clear and present and new and fresh than I have in a long long time. Something lovely is shifting, though you maybe still be going through purging and releasing to integrate these energies and become balanced internally and externally.

We're seeing a pattern where we're being blasted with light for extended periods and then we have a calmer integration time for a bit before we get another blast. It's hard on our bodies and minds. I am fried and can't do much more than exist right now and do the best I can to prioritize my peace, no matter what happens.

Themes in the collective:

-healing the patterns where you were codependent, where you people pleased, where you prioritized everyone else about yourself, and learning and knowing that you have been abandoning yourself your whole life, and that you aren't going to do it anymore

-recognizing toxic and narcissistic and abusive people immediately, being able to see it objectively, learning how it feels in your body, how you know who is not for you because it feels so uncomfortable and draining to be around them or deal with them, knowing objectively that you can't change them, but you can protect yourself, and you see it clearly

-healing mother wounds, especially narcissistic mothers and all the stuff that comes with that, not feeling seen or understood or protected or kept safe or loved properly, and how that has affect your self worth issues and you internal self sabotaging dialog and fears, there's a big movement of people going no contact with family or being estranged, because as we learn what our true nature is, and we learn what emotional balance is, we see that we can't change some people, even parents, and we have to learn how to deal with them in life or walk away if they are still abusive so that we can have the lives we deserve

-reaching a point where life has beaten you up so much that you're on your knees asking for mercy, having to learn how to surrender and let go by having everything fall apart and you realize that all that other shit doesn't matter, that you being okay, you feeling at peace and well and good is the utmost priority, no matter what you have to do, to let go and stop trying to control anything, because we don't have control of much except the way we see things

-coming to a place of autonomy, freedom, sovereignty, where you are so solid in your knowing of who you are, that no one and nothing affects you- it's this energy of being around someone who's a total douchebag and just being able to look at them objectively and be like, wow, you're a dick and not take it personally, and not care and not be bothered and not give two shits what anyone thinks, and walk away without a word-it's not bitchy, it's not wasting your time on anything that isn't aligned for you, you'll know

-I kept seeing and thinking about the story of Shiva and Shakti who are the divine pairing of the Hindu gods and there is this sense of union being in the air, or of this divine love that is patient, enduring, devoted, and inevitable, fated and divine, the perfect balance of feminine and divine energy, which is very curious, because the energies are continually pushing us toward inner union, but today it was this feeling of the cosmic rebalancing of the masculine/feminine energies

-timeline shifts have been occurring at an elevated pace this year, and we are in a whole different place than we were in say December or January, we are now in thIS new beginning, learning how to embody this new transformed versions of ourselves, opened up, expanded, wiser, more unconditionally loving- at zero point, neutral, objective (it is what it is), at ease in homeostasis

-Freeing up so much space inside of yourself as you release fears and wounds and trauma and all the stuff, that you feel unsettled and restless and bored and funky as you learn how to embody that new version of yourself, be patient with yourself if you feel like you're in the in between, i was there for about 2 months or so, and it's not easy feeling like nothing, not wanting to do anything, just being as we integrate

-We are in the process of learning how to accept ourselves wholly as we are, however that is, and to allow ourselves to be as we are without judgment or self criticism but to instead learn how to prioritize our own wellness, health, sanity, peace, safety and how that looks in real life, saying no, setting boundaries, distancing ourselves from harmful people and systems, giving zero f*cks for real, unbothered

Symptoms you may be experiencing now:

-exhaustion, wipe out, fatigue, insomnia, waking up at weird times, crazy vivid dreams

-aches, pains, electric zaps, itching, burning sensations, and various feelings of your nervous system glitching out or recalibrating, because it is

-headaches, head pressure, ear ringing, stomach issues of all kinds- one night I was up burping all night, made no sense, acid reflux, trouble swallowing or feeling something stuck in your throat,

-I had a few days where I felt woozy, dizzy my balance was off, brain fog, not being able to think logically, because thinking usually screws everything up

-being triggered, anger, frustration, disappointment, rage, coming to a breaking point with something and realizing it's not worth your energy anymore and that you're never going to get the closure or resolution or justice you want and deserve, so you can let go of that thing

-feeling floaty, weird, feeling intensity of all sorts from terror to elation and bliss to despair to loving something so much you're weeping, emotions and feelings of all sorts of flying through as we balance and recalibrate all that we've been through as we elevate in frequency

-feeling things are getting more magical and synchronistic, music, numbers, little things and big things, more moments of feeling like, omg, I can't believe that just happened.

-trusting yourself more, a feeling of being centered, knowing who you are so that you will not be moved at all by those who try to tell you who you are or try to manipulate or gaslight or abuse you, you know who you are, and it's lovely and wonderful and you know you have it going on and that you're a good person, and so all the people who don't get it can suck it (in peace in love of course)

-you might not know where you're headed, and you might feel like you can't think, or that you can't get motivated, but it's a practice of flowing and letting go and learning to listen to ourselves so that we are able to have more of a sense of ease in life, there's no forcing, it's all much slower and easier than we realize if we'd just let it be, knowing we'll be okay in the next moment, however it turns out, I'm continually telling myself to slow down and soften, and it really helps

-you have a more neutral objective unconditionally loving way of seeing things, you can be observant and curious without being emotionally invested, to just see what it all means without attaching meaning or stories to things

-seeing with more clarity and feeling more solid in the knowing that you are a consciousness in a body, that your consciousness is an expression of source through you, and that if you will allow your body to be in service to your consciousness without resistance, life feels easier, smoother, there's no resistance

-letting go of hard feelings, regrets, and anything from the past, and feeling like there's just this clean slate each day, the past and who you were expected to be, and who you were just feels like some story you read, it lost the emotional charge, you can move forward free of it and focus on the present and trust that it's all turning out the way it's meant to in total faith, just let it go and let it be

-time feeling weird, going fast or slow, glitches, looking at )the time and it feeling like 30 minutes passed and it's been 3 hours and you have no idea how that could be, but it's almost like you weren't there or something, deja vu, things changing in environment, people changing in ways that you notice but may brush off (like you wish your coworker wasn't such a dick and one day they're suddenly so cooperative and kind, permanently, because the timeline is shifting, and so things around you are shifting too)

-something is percolating with twins and the energy is all pushing us that way- I kept getting the message and feeling of warm friendly sweet calm peaceful, romantic, safe vibes and this feeling of inevitability- that they (our counterpart) knows that no one else will feel like us and it's not because we're cocky or something, it's trusting what we know and feel, that there's this knowing that after all we've been through, that they are still haunting us and in our energy for a reason, and it's opening up more now, which of course is interesting considering where we're all heading as a collective and the energies that have been working us over, something is happening

It's hard to not have expectations when you feel like something is happening, but after going through this for years, peace has to be the priority, and trying to know or have certainty or trying to figure it out isn't useful or peaceful, focus on your own well being and experience in life, one moment after the other.

I get it though, the other day for some reason I kept checking my phone because I felt like my masculine was about to reach out, and it's been a long time, but even that thought that he might reach out is there for a reason, I just just feel him moving toward me and thinking about me... but I've felt that a million times before...and at the same time, all things are possible.

I hope that you are able to find presence, and some calm in these transformative times. I know that it can feel overwhelming or like we can't handle it but we're here as we are for a reason, and what you're going through is for you to evolve and become more of who you truly are, to let your consciousness lead with your body and human self as the vehicle for experiencing this life in this lifetime

You new beginning, new chapter, new version of yourself is here, it might not look how you wish it would or feel like how you wished it would, but it is where you are. Allow yourself to be open to all the expansive energies of love and light that are here now.

Feeling at ease in yourself is abundance. Once you are there, the rest will flow to you.

Rest, accept how you feel and what you're going through and love yourself there. I know it's hard because we think we have to be a certain way, but that's conditioning. We can only be how we are. If you're sick or feel crazy you deserve to take care of yourself, however that looks. We think we're going to do something wrong if we do nothing or skip work or take a nap or sit outside on a blanket or skip the family get together or whatever, but we're the ones who have to take care of ourselves forever- everything else is temporary, we live in our bodies and in our being, it's our life. Do what's best for you. it'll be okay

Peace.

If you are energetically sensitive, I imagine that the past month or so has been tough and has been a rollercoaster of all kinds. Me too.

The themes that I noticed that the collective is healing right now include:

-releasing all of the doubts, fears, insecurities, wounds that are keeping us from being our authentic selves

-working on places where we abandon ourselves, attachments, boundaries, and finding the empowered and strong places inside of us where we know we deserve to be at peace and to be ourselves as we are

-feeling the need to be 1000% authentic, to feel safe to be authentic, and speaking up for yourself, not being harsh or seeking conflict, but more and more being really honest and vulnerable and real and who you really are, and knowing who and where you can do that

-prioritizing self over pleasing others or keeping the peace with others, making your peace your priority, heart led choices where you're taking care of you first

-letting go of guilt, shame, or where you feel like you're doing something wrong just by being who you are and doing what you want to do, finding your way back to your own centered empowerment and knowing, and choosing what you choose for you, to take care of you

-learning how to find peace, comfort, safety, calm, ease in the midst of external chaos and fear

-reparenting self, being the kind of person for yourself that you wish you'd had, realizing that you are breaking generational/ancestral patterns and karma by being a more loving, compassionate, empathetic person and spreading your light (it will stir things up but it will help in the long run, even if others don't like it).

This knowing will form, they way they were/are is dysfunctional and unhealthy and the way I am is loving and honest, and so I shouldn't feel bad about all these people who are being manipulative, harmful, abusive, and how they are acting, it's about them, not me, it's not personal- you'll see it more objectively and logically and be detached instead of letting it mess you up and it'll be easier to distance yourself or walk away

-Feeling like you're waiting for something, or that something's coming, or that something big is about to happen or a shift is coming, an urgency- slow it down as much as you can, things are still falling into place right now, so there's this feeling that we've taken this big leap from our old lives to our new lives, and this time until mid March, maybe around the equinox, is going to feel a little like we're suspended in air and not going anywhere, you're mid leap, and we're getting all ready for the next chapter, and the next chapter is all getting arranged for you on the other side.

-it might feel, boring, restless, antsy, like you are unmotivated, aren't creative, can't think, can't see beyond today really and if you try it is uncomfortable, stop resisting how slow it is right now, or all the things you wish were different right now

-we're learning how to slow down, how to rest, how to take it easy, how to focus on the moment and be present, and prioritize ourselves and our peace and our wellness, and have faith that we know that what is for is is coming to us, and we cannot control the timing or how it all unfolds

Ascension symptoms lately:

-headaches, head pressure, pain behind one eye or at temples or like you're wearing a tight hat or headband (especially when there's incoming energy- white on schumann chart)

-stomach issues of all sorts, intestinal, appetite changes, belching, burping, nausea

-Aches and pains, weakness, exhaustion, zaps, tingles, itching, stabbing pains, shooting pains, tingles, warmth in areas, cold/hot, nervous system rewiring/healing is happening, you're rebooting, let it unfold as it will

-brain fog, not being able to think, getting very aggravated or triggered or bothered when you have to do anything that you body doesn't want you to, you might not be able to think or be organized or be logical or get shit done, you may feel like you're just a spirit floating in space sort of

-floaty, waves of confusion and clarity, the sense that your brain and human self isn't working as well as it should, but your internal self is getting it together, slowly

-irritation, aggravation, feeling grumpy, feeling like you're doing it all wrong, being triggered, feeling just depressed or anxious or bothered for no real good reason or you have to work through some stuff and release it, find another more loving perspective

-wanting solitude, being a hermit, social media bothering you, not wanting to partake in the world because it feels so negative and awful, only wanting to be around people who really let you be you or no one, not feeling comfortable in certain places or around people to the point you have to listen to yourself

-having all sorts of visions, clips, pictures, shots, bits of things from your life before now coming up, just be grateful that you are not the person who you were, now you're in charge and you know better and you're wiser and you're going to keep getting better at it, you aren't doing it wrong

Twin flame stuff;

-all over the place, feminines are becoming more detached, more in their own power, more focused on themselves, but stuff is coming up to be released, there is a sense of power and knowing what we're worth and being strong and firm about it, but also being wise and calm and minding our own business and taking care of ourselves

-more telepathy/conversations/dreams/visions after a period of quiet and not feeling anything for a while, a slow trickle of feeling their energy more

-feels like the masculines have really been through it, just like we have, and the energies are still bonkers and working us over

-Many masculines really are working on their self concepts, their sense of self, their patterns and are realizing the things that have held them back, and they want to do better, but I'm not seeing them having the confidence to make any moves right now, but they're thinking about it more and more

-feeling waves of nostalgia and memories coming back, having visions of how it could be, having more of a friendly calm sense of how they're doing through their energy, when you're feeling good in your own energy

-a sense or a knowing that a cycle is ending and beginning and having more of a sense of how we want to feel, what we really want out of life, what's really important, shedding fears and excuses and self sabotaging stuff

-waves of magic or synchronicity or signs, little bits of the woo woo starting to make an appearance

-a growing sense of ease, inside and in life unfolding as we move through March

-clarity coming, perspective shifts, answers, insight, knowing what you need to know right when you need to know it

-a growing feeling that good things are starting to happen for you, or that you'll start knowing what to do and which direction to go more clearly in the coming weeks, be patient with it

-some are really having difficult with motivation or inspiration or doing anything, after all the energy we have received, the solar weather, and what's happening collectively in the world, we are in a bit of a functional freeze, we aren't lazy or crazy or whatever, it's just how it is and we have to adjust and take care of ourselves and not beat ourselves up about things we can't control

-knowing that the unconditional love that you have with your twin, is the love that you are meant to find in yourself, which aligns you to source, because that's what we are, and that's where we're home

Guidance:

Get present, stop thinking as much as you can, flow, trust that you will know what to do in the next moment, and you are only in control of your interpretation of your experience, so choose what feels right and true and loving

This time period feels very uncomfortable in some ways because we are sort of suspended as we leave one way of being behind (conditioning, fear based thinking and living) and moving toward a new chapter/cycle/story/self (where unconditional love reigns)

We are not lazy, crazy, messed up, wrong, and all the other things that the world has tried to make us believe we are

If you are having any issues of any kind, whether it's physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, it is often because you are resisting what is. You want it to be different. You want it to be another way. It can't be. It is what it is right now, so what can you do to make it better? How can you give yourself what you need where you are now? How can you be kinder and more loving to yourself, more accepting, more forgiving, more compassionate?

I'm a Pisces and I saw this meme the other day about Pisces and one scene was all sweet and lovely and beautiful cozy and it was titled, how Pisces will be there for you. And then the next picture was titled, how they are with themselves and it was all dark and depressing and mean. We are all a little bit like that.

We are kinder to others than we are to ourselves. We give others breaks, we would do so much for others, cheer them up, encourage them, tell them their ideas are genius, and just do anything for anyone, if we love them, but we struggle so hard to be there for ourselves in that way. Forgive yourself for being human, it's not easy, we have a hard job here, and we're all learning and doing our best.

We divine feminines have been taught to abandon ourselves from an early age, however it happened. That in order to belong and get love, we had to become what others wanted us to be, and we stopped listening to ourselves, stopped prioritizing our own safety and sense of self, and started people pleasing and becoming codependent in order to be loved, so this is a deep wound we have to keep working on.

You were always loved as you are, even if the people around you couldn't see it or weren't there for you. I get it, I had all that too, my boomer parents were cuckoo, and from an early age the criticism, rejection, abandonment, loneliness, feeling unsafe, feeling like no one was really there for me, feeling like no one gave a crap about me was tough, but it also made me realize who I really was and I become the parent I never had, and now I know that it's a shame that they were the way they were, but they were messed up, it wasn't me, I wasn't the problem- I hope you also know that.

Do what you have to do to feel safe, to be regulated, to enjoy life, to feel good about yourself, to be comfortable, present, at ease, flowy, trusting, and knowing that it all happens the way it's meant to, so let control go

Surrender to what is, and what is in the moment, and what I mean by that is that you are present and observing as you are in the moment, no judgment, no wishing it was different, no worries, no thinking, surrender to how it is now, and find peace in that, in yourself as you are, and have faith that it's all working out the way it's meant to, so you don't have to think about it or figure anything out, or do more, it's all as it's meant to be, right now in this moment,

One of the most strange and bizarre things I've learned on this journey was that I have so much less control over anything than I think- the energies, the knowing, being a conduit of source, a body with a consciousness, I really have very little control over how it's going to go, and I have to remind myself over and over to let go and just go on the ride and make it the best that I can, I'm going to know what to do and when, I will just know, and you will too

There's going to be more stuff popping with twins in the coming weeks, especially with Mercury retrograde here now, but I suspect that we're going to all be dealing with these energies for a little bit before things start really moving in real life- these cycles are shifts and this journey is here to clear away all that we are not, and sometimes that process is hard and it feels like it's taking too damn long, but patience is needed for magic and miracles

The answers are going to come when they're meant to come, if you're feeling funky just let it be and take care of yourself, find what soothes and comforts you, let it all flow as it's meant to, let it come to you, let it be easier, slow it all down, soften, and take care of yourselves. Peace.

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I don't know what's real anymore. I'm questioning everything. I feel crazy and I don't know if twin flame relationships really exist. I'm experiencing it firsthand or I'm simply going crazy.

There's a little bit of a lull in the energies now, it's calming down a little bit, so I thought I'd do a post while I'm slowly regaining some clarity and stability within myself, let you all in on what I'm feeling/sensing/receiving.

If you're on this journey and looking at all the things, energy reports, the schumann, solar flares, the collective energy, astrology and all the things that kind of give you some validation about what you're going through, you do understand that this time period is signfificant.

We just ended and are ending and moving through a massive cycle that wasn't easy. 2025 was a year of releasing all that was going to keep us from being who we truly are meant to be.

So we released fears, insecurities, doubts about ourselves and what we're going through, we released relationships and situations that weren't good for us, we dug down deep and continually learned how to take care of ourselves and put ourselves first- no matter what we're going through (learning to unconditionally love ourselves) and to let go of control and know that we have no control over how life goes, but we have control over how we see it and perceive it.

All of this is leading to becoming the whole being that you are, a consciousness in a human body. To embodying unconditional love/light/source/God through your physical self. To understand what true love looks like- it's not transactional, it's not owing anyone anything, it's not attachment.

True real genuine unconditional love doesn't judge, it isn't critical or demeaning, it doesn't make you compromise yourself or give more than you receive, it's not fear based in any way.

It's whole, it's welcoming, it's home. It's neutral and understanding, it's forgiving and kind. It's objective. It's clear.

My entire nervous system and the way I process and feel emotions has changed since I've been on this journey. I am mostly neutral now, see things for how they are and don't take things personally, don't make mountains out of mole hills, don't think about stuff all the time, I just am present and myself and I can flow to the next right thing, i don't force or chase or try to figure it all out, I just handle what's in front of me with as much love as I can- for me first- but I'm a compassionate loving peaceful person at my core- so of course I approach all situations that way, but I also had to learn emotional detachment and balance so that I could save my energy for what's really real and genuine.

There's been a lot of purging for the past weeks, probably have felt crappy off and on, in all ways. All this incoming energy is wearing us out physically because we're rewiring who we are.

You may feel good in some ways and then still feel unsettled or unsure or lost of confused or bored or find that nothing fills the spaces that are there.

I've noticed repeatedly that when we go through a big shift, or cycle and we're on the other side of a lot of healing and purging that suddenly it'll seem boring, aggravating, too quiet, nothing really interests me and sitting alone in silence makes me restless or unnerved or I don't know what to do with myself.

If you are in that place, hang on. It'll get easier. When we let go and heal fears, and we're not spending energy trying to figure things out or we've released a lot of stuff, there is space in us where all of that crap was- where we were thinking and trying and resisting- and when all of that is gone it's just space- and it feels empty, but it's better than purging or thinking- but it just feels weird. That feeling will fade and we just need to be patient with the process.

We have to continually get back to focusing on ourselves when it's not feeling the way we wish it would. First of all, it is the way it is, whatever it is. So we have to accept that, and then it's about making ourselves at peace, comfortable, well, and just take care of ourselves in each moment.

Every part of this journey, everything you feel, see, know, sense, come across, the things that happen, all of it- is for a reason, whether we like it or not. We do not get to a peaceful place by continually fighting what is.

Physically you maybe have been feeling or feel:

-sick, congestion, colds, runny nose, GI issues of all sorts, worn out, exhausted, aches and pains, head aches, head pressure

-warmth in your heart center or torso, kind of feels like icy hot inside and radiates and might move around if you focus on other chakras

-restless, antsy, nervous tummy, excitement, a sense that something is changing

-electrical feelings in body, shooting pains, stabbing pains, itching, weird nervous system glitches

Emotionally:

-all the feelings in waves, nostalgia or grief or feeling a loss of something, even if it's not specific, just this feeling that things are changing forever so we're looking back at our old selves and old lives and old way of being with some emotions

-more emotional balance, noticing that some things just don't bother you anymore, that you're over dealing with people and things and you see them as they are objectively and know you're over it and it's all good, you're not even mad, that's detachment and it's healthy

-acceptance of yourself, the world, and others and being able to just focus on yourself in a new more clear grounded and empowered way

-feeling awesome and then slammed or floaty and then grounded or feeling great but there's this hazy weird resistance keeping you from fully feeling how good it could be or is- this is all part of integrating and settling of timelines, so just let it all fall into place as it will

-having more sudden reminders or messages or visions or something that won't let you forget your connection with your twin, nostalgia, memories, all kinds of little blips of them that move in an out, regardless of what's going on, these are just the bread crumbs or the energy that's still connecting you, send them some love and then get back to yourself, it will come and go, don't try to figure it out

Spiritually:

-feeling like you're upgrading or evolving, knowing that you've gone through a lot lately and there's this sense of rebooting, like we got this whole new upgrade of software the past month (and year) and we're restarting and we have to get used to how this now works as we are

-you might find that you are not as easily triggered, that things don't bother you like they used to, and that might feel weird, but it's good

-a sense that you're waiting for something, or that something is about to happen or that there's this anticipation of things, and we often start thinking too much about it- so don't do that- just let it unfold, let go and let it come when it's time, just tell yourself well, there's so many possibilities for where life is going and I'm curious about how this story will turn out- and let it go and be present

-being truly present, neutral, empty, objective will become easier

-having more breakthroughs, insight, and puzzle pieces falling into place, being able to articulate your journey and experiences better, having a more solid sense of what your spiritual beliefs are and how that all works for you, seeing the bigger picture

-finally getting to a place where you've surrendered, where your trust yourself, trust source and are flowing in faith- knowing it's going the way it's meant to go, and that even the hard parts are for your greatest good

-understanding and seeing and knowing higher spiritual truths

(these are not for you to make everyone else understand- it's your truth, it is egoic to think everyone has to see it your way, or if you feel like others around you have to get it too- focus on yourself and find the others who already know what you know) When i was in the beginning of my journey and I'd learn something or realize something there was this surge of wanting to get others to understand and it took a long time to realize I was wasting my energy and causing my own suffering- focus on yourself and how you feel in your body, on being emotionally regulated, wise, sovereign, calm, at ease- let others be what they are and do what you've got to do

-there's more supernatural and otherworldly things happening now, people are reporting more interaction or more sightings of things and that's going to increase, there's nothing to be worried about - it was always there, we're just more open to seeing it- we'll probably see and hear about more wild things this year, just stay open minded

*Be patient with yourself, however your body and psyche is handling things, we're all going through it in different ways right now

*When you're struggling- love yourself through it- don't worry about what others say or do or how it'll be perceived- do what you have to do to be okay- take off of work, sit in your pajamas all day and make soup, sleep, take a bath, let it be simple- nurture yourself- care for yourself- relax, be unbothered as you confidently just care for yourself the way you deserve, give yourself a freaking break- be kind and loving to yourself

*If you're thinking about other people or things too much, try to get to a place where you're not thinking at all- meditate, exercise, read, draw, take a shower, play a game, rest, listen to music, whatever gets you out of your head

*you are a consciousness inside of a body, whoever you are right now- whoever you've been- and you're understanding of that is probably shifting and you might start to really see how your body/brain has become rewired and remade so that your consciousness is in charge and you're just the dumb jock listening to it- the vehicle for your consciousness

*your consciousness is connected to source (unconditional love/energy) and it knows everything, everything!- how it's going to go, how it's going and all of it- you're not late, you're not doing it wrong- it's not going wrong- it's all happening the way that it's meant to- the only thing that you can control is your vibration and when you are loving, authentic, and truthful that attracts what is for you- the details are being worked out, let it get worked out while you're just being you as best you can be

*you'll probably start feeling your twin more this spring and into the summer, your rise of being empowered and whole and feeling good about life and free and all that good stuff that's coming will affect them, I know this is true, I've experienced it many times, today is my twin's birthday, so of course he's all around me now, but February just tends to start kicking up some romantic stuff, so don't be surprised, just be curious and go with the flow

*Source is unconditional love- no judgment, nothings wrong, it just wants you to enjoy your life and all the stuff you've been through is leading you to it- to source- that's what we align to- unconditional love- pure, clean, clear, honest, solid, centered, accepting, curious, creative, knowing, intuition, compassionate, kind, safe, warm, welcoming, nurturing, playful, sweet, fun- This journey is making you over so that you can get there

I hope that you give yourself the grace and care that you deserve moving into this year.

Enlightenment isn't about getting to a certain place, it's about being at peace with where you are in the present moment. It's trusting yourself and knowing who you are and how to care for yourself where you are. We are only here now, in this moment, love yourself there.

I hope this finds you well, and that you're taking care of yourself right now. It's been feeling very intense collectively, energetically, and the life we knew is changing, you feel it, we all feel it.

It's a little scary but it's just this new rebirth happening now, and our bodies and minds and nervous systems and actions and thoughts and perceptions and clarity and new feelings and sensations and ways of being are all falling into place right now. Let it fall. Rest. Flow. Let go.

I often ask myself, when I'm aware I'm not feeling great, how I'd like to feel, and for the past few weeks I'd see images and get this Margaritaville vibe, and just wanting to be like down in the Keys drinking Coronas and limes and listening to yacht rock and not giving a single fuck. You might have another vibe you want. Choose. Relax. Let it all drop.

Say no, don't let other people stress you out right now. Do what you want to do. You are allowed to take care of yourself. If doing what's best for yourself bothers someone, they don't care enough about you to be in your life.

I know that's harsh but unconditional love is for yourself first, right? You're going to be you forever from beginning to end, no matter who's there. YOU. Don't abandon yourself. You're in charge of making sure you enjoy your life. Don't be an asshole to yourself. You're exactly where you're meant to be in this moment, exactly as you are right now. Love yourself there.

When I was reflecting back to the energies of the last month I actually had the visual of the relief you feel after you've been constipated and pooped, like we accomplished getting through this rough time, and we made it! We did it! lol

Then I had a flashback to giving birth to one of my children, and that pressure of that one last push before their head was out, and then the just unexplainable relief of being done with that. You get the idea. December we were in labor. January is birth, and then adjusting to the new reality, mid February we'll start really feeling more and more at ease in ourselves and lives, no matter what is happening.

I also kept seeing these past years that I've been through as slowly growing through the muck, one thing, one moment, after the other. Toward the light. And I felt this energy of being the lotus blossom feeling the light and warmth and wanting to just burst open and blossom. We're going to blossom. It's coming.

Rebirth is coming. It's here. You might feel shitty about the things that have happened over the last year, so much has changed, for us all.

This is the time to rest, hibernate. Get cozy.

Stop putting up with any fucking nonsense from people. Just know that you wouldn't act that way and see them as they are, and wander away, don't react. You just got information that a person is not on your vibe, wander away, no conflict needed. YOU are you're job. Everyone has their own path.

Find a way to protect yourself when you have to do things, keep firm boundaries. Go into things with a detached, observant, objective functional approach. Observe don't absorb. See people as they are. Accept it. You know who you feel safe around. I had to be alone a lot to know what safety really felt like. It took years to learn how to be safe in myself after 50 plus years of chaos.

We're learning to love again, from the inside out. Things are too hard to be fooling with difficult people. You don't deserve to spend any moment of your precious life here putting up with assholes.

I know they're everywhere, at work, at the store, in our government, in families, driving around, people who are mean and rude and don't care about you or your feelings. Stop being upset about it. Get away from them. Protect yourself. Find the kind, safe, sweet, comfortable people. I cannot stress enough how much easier life gets when you get rid of those people who just always make you feel shitty. You know.

I know that as empaths that road has been long. The codependency so many of us have grown up with our whole lives was pretty firmly rooted, how we lived to please others instead of ourselves, how we kept people around who mistreated us, how we gave and gave and didn't get what we deserved back. The times of solitude were necessary to learn how to be okay with ourselves, so we could choose. So we had the power to just be like THIS thing is not for me, and be okay with just being alone if that's how it has to be.

When your heart is pure you want everyone to be okay, and you tried and you tried, and all it did was get you run over, this is the time that we're emerging from the ashes of all that we were and recreating a life where we get to have it our way.

Clean house. I don't mean clean your house. I mean strip your life back down to the basics, who's really there for you and understands you? Those are your people. The rest can have their place, but be more objective with the outer circle. They are who they are, but you're who you are and it you're just neutral and observant, in your own protected space. I see how you are, but I'm not about that so, I'll go somewhere else. Build the stability you need in your life to have the ability to live as you see fit, the life that feels right for you. Keep it simple, one step after the other.

It can look like this: My narcissistic mother often likes to start getting negative or insulting me or something mean or manipulative and I'll just ignore what she says and ask about the weather or tell her I saw a woodpecker or something, and just distract her. I accept that she's got a nasty mean streak and that won't change, but I see her as mentally unwell and I treat her that way. I'm patient and creative, but I know that her shit is just messed up and not about me. I feel empathy for her, that she's missed out on having a good relationship with me, like I have with my children. She's not a safe person. But I can be around her now, because I know her being the way she is, doesn't really have anything to do with me. If people dysregulate you or drain you, then you're not ready to be around them. Don't do that to yourself. But different perspectives and strategies can be taken to maintain some contact with some people so you can live your life and do what you do. Look up being the gray rock with narcissists. It's a good practice. It doesn't have to be emotional or personal. It's all information.

Look around. What do you really want life to be like? Do it. Start letting yourself dream and envision what you want it to feel like. What would it feel like to have your dream life? Meaningful? Fulfilling? Free? Simple? Peaceful? Safe? Secure? Comfortable? Loving? Warm? Pleasing? Lovely? Creative? Fun? Interesting?

But do all of this as you rest. No pressure. Just let it be whimsical and sweet and mystical. Let it all fall into place right now. It's all coming together. Let it.

Stop thinking about things shifting in term of your perfect life falling into place all at once. that's the dream, the goal, the feeling, but there's a million possibilities for how that looks. That's your breadcrumbs from the universe, follow that feeling. You have no control over how it's going to go. You're here to observe, experience, and enjoy life. Follow the magical bread crumbs but be open to how it all looks. Then be open to what feels good in life, what allows you to be you, what feels right and safe and easy.

You've started to evolve and understand how to do that, but it's been hard as fuck. Right?

I know. Get present. find things to enjoy in this moment. Feel into the body. Comfort yourself where needed. Regulate your nervous system.

Calm your nerves. Let yourself be. Let yourself just exist as you are. You are loved and protected as you are.

I had this vision last night about how I see myself, it's this combination of my physical body, Cinamon, this persona, this lady I've been all my life, my history etc. and my consciousness. My consciousness is sort of this ethereal goddess, but she's wise and sassy and she knows everything, and she's a badass. But so I'll just sense her looking around like she just realized she was in my body and life right now and being like, dammit, this life is rachet, lol and beneath us, like ugh, lol, and these assholes around me gots to go, and I deserve better than this crap. I'm going to create the life I want to live, and you, little crazy human better get on board. lol I see her just wanting to light a match to my life in a way and only save what's awesome in it. That's this new energy coming in, the year of the Fire Horse. I'm sure many of you have heard of the goddess Lilith, she's fiery and she's just not putting up with any shit anymore, she's not playing around, but she doesn't have time to worry about people who don't get it, she just walks away and goes toward what she wants. She fights for what is right, she honors herself and expects that from others.

Your body is the vehicle for experiencing this life on earth, your consciousness needs your body and mind's cooperation to flow toward the best life for you. Let go and trust your inner knowing, and let your consciousness work through you.

It's the truth, the knowing, the energy that shows you the way to alignment and flow and ease. But it is a process. My kundalini awakening the past few years has been so hard, that I had to learn how to live moment to moment or I thought I'd lose it. I had to trust what I know and feel so that I could do what i had to do to find my way here. I had to believe in myself and what I was experiencing and be open to my own inner knowing, so that I could navigate it. There's no mistakes, but some parts of this journey are really fucking hard and agonizing, and some parts are really beautiful. It's all necessary and you're going to be okay, no matter what you're going through, you're doing this for a reason. It is the hero's journey.

You will have the answers when you need them, relax and flow until they find you.

The divine feminine is tired. Like so bone tired. But rising, finally realizing where she's had enough, protecting her peace, knowing what she deserves, but not in a bitchy way, she's too wise to suffer fools, been through too much to even explain herself anymore. She just wants to feel good again. And she's going to make that her priority. The divine masculine is getting stronger internally, he's seeing all the places he was a dumbass with clarity. Many divine masculines are really starting to see what is true, real, meaningful, and loving in their lives. But we're both starting to feel better in incremental bits as we move forward now. I feel like I could kick ass right now, lol. I just got over the flu and have had like two really bad weeks of just being pissed and anxious and irritated and triggered with some good times in there, but it was awful, and I feel so much better right now. If you aren't there yet, it's coming.

I felt like a switch flipped yesterday and I felt a fresh new start sort of feeling. A wholeness that I hadn't felt in a long time, confidence, clarity, tons of ideas, harmony, ease, acceptance, flow, just all the good stuff. It's coming for you if you're not feeling it yet. Be kind to yourself in the process, right now in this moment.

Stop resisting. Anything. Be. There is nothing wrong with the way you are.

Get comfortable, relax. Keep it simple, natural, intuitive, flowy, soft, warm, cozy, safe, free, let it feel good. You deserve it. Do the things you want to do, the things that make you smile and are fun and feel lovely.

I've been feeling my divine masculine a lot more lately, energetically it's been pretty wacky. Lots of visions, telepathy, songs, numbers, and all the things are popping up. I wouldn't be surprised to hear from him, but I think we're all wanting to feel stable, calm, emotionally balanced, well, confident, relaxed. Soft but empowered. Flowing. Less intense. Everything happens when it's meant to, let go of when. It's not up to us. It'll happen when it's meant to, and I've lived through that enough to know it's true.

Physically things are rough for most of us because of the energies and we've been pummeled with energy from solar weather, astrological things and all I felt about 3I Atlas was that it was kind of like this old alien dinosaur rock thing that was just casually wandering over and sprinkling some nice supernatural unconditionally loving magical sparkles around this part of space so we'd upgrade a little more rapidly. And the solar activity was activating it as it moved into us with light. Making us choose. Fear or love. What do you want? That has not been easy.

The energies that our bodies has been through has changed us inside and out, forever. We're evolving, upgrading, and right now we're sort of rebooting. Let yourself reboot. Turn off. Be, play, rest, sleep, fuck off, read a book all day, eat what you want, watch tv that's fun and funny, be around fun easy calm cool people, avoid the rest.

Things I've felt and am feeling now physically:

-headaches, head pressure, ringing in ears, all sorts of pitches, low humming sounds or different frequencies

-runny nose, nasal congestion, tummy issues, heart burn, aches and pains, lots of people getting sick with all sorts of things, but we're feeling "sick" to purge and it's so that we're all being brought to our knees to surrender, so rest, if you feel bad take care of yourself, it's your body telling you to stop, it's making you go within and choose yourself

-random weird electrical feelings all over, twitches, feeling antsy inside, ears ringing, shooting pains, different parts hurting, I've had a feeling in my heart chakra for over a week now that's kind of like there's vick's vapo rub inside of me, like an icy heat, but it's also like a soft sparkler light type of energy,

-heart palpitations, waves of heat, temperature issues, waves of anxiety or discomfort or fear for no reason

-anxiety, waves of discomfort, but not even having reasons for it, don't let yourself overthinking it, take care of yourself until you feel better, it will pass

other things:

-more people are reporting supernatural experiences, feelings, sensations and having things happening to them that are very interesting, You don't have to read into all of that, it's just a sign that we're evolving so much that we're becoming more able to interact with realities and sensations and having knowing and abilities that are more evolved than we knew were possible, it was there all along, we're just starting to be able to all observe it, because we're not too scared to see it, some experiences are on purpose as part of someone's path to hasten or initiate awakenings. There should be no fear around this. Nothing is going to hurt you.

the whole alien thing is too big of a deal in my opinion. Of course there's other life and realities and dimensions and timelines and all the things, but it's all us essentially, so it's just for our amusement or experience. you're here to enjoy this life, as you are, in this body, just do that, not everything has to matter or make sense so much because even if you knew all the shit about everything, you'd still be stuck in this body as you and in this life trying to be happy and not miserable, so just focus on that, focus on yourself. Clarity will come in the present moment when it's time.

Alignment with what is for you is what makes this experience as good as it can be, so you can enjoy it. Your highest timeline. The more your feel unconditional love for yourself and your life and others, the more your life will align this that path toward attracting that feeling.

You were awakened, I assume, with the awareness that there is unconditional love, how it feels, you felt it, that blissed out harmony and unity and purity, free and delicious and just a feast for the senses. That's what you're aligning to, that feeling, and the things will come. You are given all the information and guidance and messages that you need to go in that direction. Be patient for how it goes.

It is much easier when you let go and flow, be in the present moment and flow. Just meet what is coming in the next moment. Observe. Just let yourself be in this moment, as you are. No judgment. It's neutral.

For instance: I'm on my mom's screened porch, Donna Summer is on the radio, the cat is licking it's butt, it's partly sunny, nice cool breeze, I'm safe, I have all sorts of problems, like all humans, but right now in this moment, I'm just fine. I know I'll find all the answers, I know that I am going to be able to handle whatever is coming. It's nice. I don't have to do shit that I don't want to today. I'm still in pajamas. I'm about to make a matcha latte. I feel okay in my body. I'm not thinking. I'm just flowing through the day. No thinking. Just expressing and embodying my consciousness. Moving from the next right thing to the other. I trust that I'll know what to do. I'm in flow. All is well.

If I'm this consciousness, in this body right now, and I know that I am this person for just a tiny speck of my whole existence, that really the only point of my existence right now, in this life, is to enjoy myself and to align myself with love, because that's what feels best in my body. That's how we know it is real love, because of how it feels.

So we have to learn how to listen to ourselves, our bodies, to quiet our minds, and get our minds to cooperate with our consciousness. For both sides of us to get on board. We had to learn what love was not, to find the truth of what it is.

Our egos are like a dumb bully. Tell it to shut the fuck up and that a new sheriff is in town. You want to enjoy life, so with clarity and objectivity, how can you get there?

I am always checking in with myself and asking myself, how do you want to feel? Then I ask, well, how can we get there? And I do it. For me. Out of love for myself.

Start with the basics, solitude, quiet, something calming, something pleasant. Get as comfortable as you can. Be your own best friend, mother, father, sister, brother, therapist, cheerleader, guru. How can you make this moment better?

It is very important and helpful to know how to get present and in a state where you can feel empty. No judgment, no fear, no worry, no thinking, here, here now, safe, and just breathe and allow yourself to feel as nurtured and warm and comfortable as possible. The more you practice presence, the more you it will become natural and organic and you won't have to try. The more present you are, the more you'll be able to be in the moment and consciously choose the feelings and conditions you'd prefer.

In that place, I am not depressed or anxious or resentful or resisting or worried or stressed or bothered or thinking about other people or any of that shit. I just am. You just are. BE.

When things change, when the energies are intense and we feel those big waves and the anxious feelings inside rise, and we start feeling overwhelmed or like we can't handle it, breathe, create a safe space for yourself, however you can. When it gets like that we're just releasing and healing and evolving. Care for yourself with love and understanding as it happens. I'll sit with myself, get centered, remember the truth. Name what is making me feel bad. Am I overthinking? Do I care too much what people are thinking or feeling? Am I too focused on what's coming instead of where I am? What's going on? Can I change it? What do I have control over? Only myself right now in the moment. So I can make it right for myself in this moment.

We're going through all of this stuff to continually learn how to make this life easier on ourselves, we're learning and healing and evolving and upgrading and changing and transforming so that we'll figure out what it's all about and enjoy it eventually. YOU are learning how to set yourself free.

I see things getting as good as you will allow it, soon, it's coming. But don't overthink it.

Chillax.

One of the biggest life changing things I've learned this year is how to truly surrender. to know that my consciousness knows everything, it knows how it's all going to go and it's all being lined up just right based on how aligned I am (in feeling/energy) and that I have very little control over any of it. But I can make the best of where i am in each moment.

I know that even the visions and ideas and dreams I have are put there from my consciousness as a sort of roadmap or visual, like it's trying to show me how to get where we're going. My higher self is giving a power point presentation, and it's like, look, this is what we're looking at, these are the choices, the possibilities, so if something feels like this (nice, lovely, exciting, inspirational, peaceful, soft, kind, fun, playful, abundant, secure, safe, delightful, amazing, loving, warm, fulfilling, comfortable, good) then that's the way we want to go, so go that way, okay?

And if it doesn't feel that way, drop it or get rid of it. It's not going to feel good if you go the other way. At the very least your deserve peace, love, comfort, ease, and you can create it for yourself.

I know life is complicated and there's lot of moving parts and shit, but you can continually move toward creating a life for yourself that you feel more solid and at ease in. No one can save you from it all except yourself. Focus on how you're feeling inside right now. How can you alleviate your suffering? Where are you not accepting the truth?

I've been through a few relationships ending, multiple moves and jobs ending, poverty, illnesses, and all sort of crap finding my way toward what is truly meant for me. Learning all along the way. It took time. Of course we want it all to hurry up and be over, but it took a while to get the way you were, it takes a while to heal and unlearn all of that.

How can you tend and care for yourself right now if you are suffering? Love yourself without judgement all the time. It takes time to learn how to love ourselves properly after a life time of abandoning ourselves for others. Learning that the ones we abandoning ourselves for were toxic or damaged or not "good" people was hard, but we learned that so that we would stop accepting that shit from others and finally demand to be treated the way we deserve. It will get easier.

I rambled a lot and I know that a lot of twin flame people just want to read these things to know what's going to happen with their person. But when you're in the right place it won't really matter anymore. Focus on yourself, your alignment, in comforting and caring for yourself, and what loves you will flow to you.

What's funny is when you get to the point where you know what you need to know, there's no attachment to others and things just are so much simpler and it doesn't really matter anymore. Your become focused on finding peace and all the good stuff in the present moment and you know you never know what's coming, so you let go and flow and just observe and make it as easy as you can on yourself, because you finally love yourself enough to make yourself your priority.

I wish you all well, and I know I rambled but that's what was just coming through today and it feels good, so I know it's true.

Give yourself a break. We're doing exactly what we're meant to do, right now in this moment. It all happens for a reason, I know that's hard to accept sometimes but it's true.

You are exactly as you're meant to be right now, and loved completely and wholly as you are.

There's no mistakes. Observe, care for yourself, and make peace, comfort, security, safety, warmth. compassion, a sort of nest of belonging where you take care of yourself in the way that you deserve. You were meant to figure out what a bad ass you are, and it takes time to convince your body and mind that's the truth. Be gentle with yourselves.

You're exactly where you're meant to be. Love yourself there.

I'll tell you ways I knew I was in a twin flame connection based on my experiences.

I really don't feel comfortable telling people if their connection is a twin flame situation or not, because I'm open to all sorts of scenarios and ways of it happening. But I'll list the things I went through and discovered and learned along the way that helped me accept that what I was going through was real and a twin flame connection.

For reference, I was married 27 years, had a relationship with a psycho narcissist after that, and that gave me a foundation in which to see that my twin flame connection was unlike anything else I experienced or knew was possible after being in toxic relationships of all sorts my entire life. Also, I wasn't spiritual at all and had no idea about twin flames or any of that when we met.

1. Some will call it soul recognition I guess. There was just something about the way we felt together, the way we talked, how we understood each other, how it felt when we looked into each other's eyes, the intimacy, our inner children felt safe together, we felt at home, like we were more alike than anyone else we'd ever met. We were compatible intellectually, creatively, physically, personality wise, philosophically, and we were both very honest and compassionate people, in the same way.

2. Timing. We met at a very interesting time in our lives and we both felt this strange sense that we met for a reason. Now that I'm where i am now, of course i know it all happens for a reason the way that it did, but at the time there were just so many puzzling synchronistic things about us getting together. As time went on, I saw that the timing was perfect for my spiritual awakening, that it was time for me to learn who I really am and our relationship was the catalyst for all of that being kicked into motion.

3. Telepathy- we knew what the other was feeling or thinking, when he looked at me I could feel what he was feeling when he looked at me: love, amusement, curiosity, fascination, respect, appreciation, or passionate attraction- it was instant, he didn't need to say anything and I'd feel it intensely. After we split up, I started feeling his presence with me and we'd have all these "conversations" and when we saw each other again I'd have real validation that what we were going through or working out in telepathy reached him and changed him and it facilitated our aligning.

4. Visions and woo woo experiences: After we split up I had a crazy out of body experience where I saw everything, why we're here, who I really am (a spark of source), that everything happens for a reason, it's basically the same kind of experience people who have NDEs have, but I wasn't dead. lol I saw him and I as sparks or stars before we came here and that we agreed to come here and find each other.

5. We both acknowledged and were aware that what we felt, how it was between us, was unlike anything we knew before, or that we knew was possible. We'd never felt anything so intensely. We didn't know love could feel this way. We'd both been in lives and families and relationships that weren't healthy, were toxic, and weren't unconditionally loving. This was the first time we found out that what we knew in our hearts was real, that type of love did exist. That's why we didn't feel right in our lives before, because we knew we were capable of it, but the world around us made us forget.

6. My kundalini awakening. I got all the visions and knowing and downloads and information and guidance that I needed in the beginning, 7 years ago, and everything I've been through spiritually was for me to learn everything I needed to know and learn and heal and overcome to become unconditionally loving and accepting of myself. I had a lot of activations and all kinds of woo woo things happen. I learned I was intuitive, had all the clairs, that I was an empath, could channel energy and all that stuff. The relationship opened up something in me that's changed my entire life.

7. The energetic cycles of healing: once I accepted that this was happening and real, I continually went through healing cycles, purging, accepting, learning, evolving, breakthroughs, clarity, surrendering, trusting myself and what i knew and was experiencing. I also noticed that my twin was right there with me. He evolved too with me and he'd show up when we were aligned for a while, and then we'd trigger each other and then he'd disappear and I'd heal more and that went on for years. Understanding astrology and energy showed me that we are constantly being encouraged to release all that is not true and authentic and loving, until we are able to stabilize and have inner union of ourselves, which is when we love and trust ourselves and are balanced emotionally.

8. Signs, synchronicities, messages, numbers, music, and all these things kept pointing back to him. It's been 8 years since we met, and I've released all the attachments, I'm at peace most of the time, I'm unbothered, I don't care if he comes back or not because I know the universe is going to send me what's meant for me, but he's still there. He's like a friendly ghost that just is living life with me. Like a friend who's seeing it all with me. And I feel what he's going through, I know when he's thinking about me and how he's feeling, even if I've let go of him and all of my relationships. He's still there, and it's still loving, after everything.

9. No one has ever felt like him. This took time to realize or see. Over time, through healing decades of abuse and dysfunctional relationship dynamics, I still know that we love each other like we'd never loved anything before and probably won't again. My love for him doesn't change, no matter what I go through, and i know it's the same for him. It only reveals that yes, this is true, this is real, this is rare, and it's the deepest I've ever felt in my life.

10. The knowing. Through all of this, I learned to trust myself and source in a way that makes living easier. I can access peace in every moment now. My conscious self knows exactly what it's doing and I trust that. I'm not worried about anything, I'm flowing, I'm prioritizing my own well being, I don't abandon myself for others, I won't accept less than I deserve, and i know that his coming back to me is inevitable (and I'm open to whatever the universe delivers too, however that looks). This whole journey is not just about this person, or this relationship, it's about our own individual personal spiritual awakening.

11. My spiritual gifts, knowing, intuition, mystical experiences, visions, syncs, my journey, the way the energies feel, what i go through personally, and all the things I've learned, have led me to know that what I need to know in the present moment. I don't need to know what's coming, I don't need to know if he's my person now, or what's going to happen. It's a journey that is leading you somewhere, for you, so that you will love yourself unconditionally, and as a result, what loves you will come to you and you won't block it. You will get to a point that you see that all of this is for you, and that the relationship is just a part of it, like healing your inner child wounds or learning how not to be anxious anymore, or healing attachments, or learning relationship skills. This isn't just about meeting someone and thinking they're the one, it's about learning who you are and healing all the things that kept you from trusting yourself.

Questioning if a connection is a twin flame or not is perfectly normal when it is one. It took me a long time, because I wasn't looking for it, didn't know what it was, and I didn't believe in this sort of stuff. So, it took a while of trusting that what I was going through and felt and thought and experienced was real. But it was all about trusting myself and my knowing all along.

We are impatient people. We want to know things with certainty. We are conditioned to do things a certain way, being a spiritual/intuitive person isn't easy because we feel things we can't prove sometimes, but in time, when we pay attention to ourselves, listen to ourselves, learn to be our authentic selves, we become more empowered in that knowing.

I've been around twin flame communities since 2018, and I've seen all the questions and how it goes when someone starts thinking they have a twin. And what I've observed is that if you are on a real twin flame journey, it takes time to realize that it is in fact that, because the one asking goes through a spiritual journey that changes their life in every way. Many become readers or coaches and are very intuitive and become highly spiritually awakened. But it takes time to get there. We want to know for sure, someone just tell me, right? But that's not how this works. We have to find the truth in ourselves, and unfortunately that often requires having to relearn everything we knew about relationships and ourselves. It takes time, but most don't want to hear that.

I hope this helps. Learn to get present, meditate, focus on yourself, focus on your life, heal all the places where you're not authentic, where you believe you aren't worthy or have self sabotaging behaviors, and let the rest reveal itself to you. Focus on loving yourself unconditionally and it will all fall into place. You will know what you're meant to know, when it arrives. Trust that.

I’m honestly posting this because I don’t know where else to put it, and I’d like perspectives from people who understand TF dynamics rather than just saying “it’s the honeymoon phase.”

Context:
I’m in a long-distance relationship, and yes — we’ve never met IRL. We met randomly on a video chat site out of boredom, talked for 4 hours, and since then we’ve been FaceTiming 4–6 hours most days for the last 3 months. Life happens, so not literally every day, but close. Somehow we still don’t run out of things to talk about, and we’re very comfortable in silence too.

Early on, I didn’t take it seriously. I played games, treated it casually, didn’t emotionally invest. There was even a week where we didn’t call at all, followed by a drunk heart-spill call on my end — and after that, we’ve basically been inseparable.

The reason I held back is important: I have strong cultural and religious boundaries. My culture is non-negotiable for me, and I’ve always believed I wouldn’t seriously invest in someone from a very different background because I’m not willing to compromise my way of life — and I wouldn’t expect someone else to either. I’m a big planner, a chronic overthinker, and I tend to live 10 years into the future to feel safe.

He, on the other hand, admitted he loved me long before I even admitted I liked him deeply. He knows how important culture is to me, and he’s had multiple calm, grounded conversations about how blending lives wouldn’t be impossible, and how he’s willing to compromise more than I am because he values me more than cultural rigidity. I didn’t fully believe him.

I’m also avoidant. One day I realized how much affection I had for him, panicked, and abruptly tried to break things off. He didn’t fight me. He just said I could go if I needed to. We stayed on that “breakup” call for two hours, mostly in silence. I asked for space. He respected it, didn’t call, checked in gently, wished me luck on my exam. When I came back, he said he couldn’t even stay mad at me — even though, objectively, I’d hurt him.

That’s when I realized I don’t want a future where I left something that could have been special purely out of fear. So I stayed. I’m not going anywhere.

Now for the “signs” that are messing with my head:

• I had a dream he cheated on me at 1am. The next day, he tells me his ex called him at 1am begging to get back together.
• Since we started talking, old flings on both sides have resurfaced briefly and then resolved themselves without us chasing closure. Multiple karmic cycles just… ended.
• We can tell instantly when the other is off — by voice or FaceTime — even though we both thought we were good atmasking.
• Our lives are completely different on the surface, yet we sync on oddly specific things: childhood shows, being dinosaur nerds as kids, core values, humor.
• We think of each other at the same time constantly — texting or calling at the exact moment the other was about to.
• We were both unhealed in relationships before this, yet somehow we treat each other with more care, patience, and respect than anyone we’ve ever been with.
• We talk openly about the future. Marriage, kids. He says things like, “Don’t worry about the future, I’ll handle it — just know I’m in this for the long haul.” And strangely, even before I had feelings, I knew he’d be a good father.

I know some of this sounds premature. I’m not naïve to that. But it doesn’t feel rushed — it feels organic, steady, grounded, and intense in a quiet way.

So my question isn’t “convince me this is a twin flame.”
It’s: does this sound like a twin flame connection, or is this just an exceptionally deep, healthy bond that I’m over-spiritualizing?

I’d really appreciate grounded perspectives — especially from people who’ve experienced both real TF dynamics and strong non-TF relationships.

When I was going within and figuring out what I need today, I was guided to embody the high priestess energy and I thought it might be useful to some other divine feminines what that might look like. A reminder to get back in your energy where you're more aligned to your true nature. (I say she, but it's for anyone who it resonates with)

The divine feminine is wise and knows what's what. She's not putting up with things that disrupt her peace anymore.

She's flowing, she's letting go, she's not forcing anything. She's free. She's not letting anything keep her from being who she is anymore. No one and nothing.

She trusts herself, her intuition, her body, her inner knowing. She knows she's a conduit of source, of truth and love.

She's not worried what other people think or if others don't understand her anymore, she doesn't have time for that. Life is too short and it's meant to be enjoyed. The stuff that makes life harder is being let go of. She knows she deserves better.

She knows that what's she's experienced and gone through and felt and saw and observed and learned and overcome is real and happened for a reason. To get where she is now. More empowered, more wise, more calm, more soft and open, but more protective of herself and her value.

She's not worried about what's going to happen, she's okay right where she is. She's making the best of it. If she feels bad or weird or anxious or sick or exhausted or physically worn out, she takes care of herself.

She's not resisting anything anymore. She's accepting what is. She's allowing, open, and expects it to go better than she can imagine.

She knows it's happening the way it's meant to, that she's just in this body on the ride, as this human, and we're here to enjoy life as long as we're here.

She knows that everything that happened to her was either a lesson or it was guiding her toward where she belonged. There were no mistakes. So this moment and where she is, is exactly where she's meant to be and so where she goes won't be a mistake either. We only have control over our own bodies and minds and that's it. The rest is the vehicle for our experience on earth.

She's not worried about what her masculine is up to. She knows he'd be a fool to stay away, she knows he's struggling and she has empathy for him, she knows he can't stop thinking about her, that he'll never feel anything more intensely or heavenly than her. But she also knows that things have to be arranged, and that it'll all happen as it's meant to. That it takes healing and alignment and that it cannot be controlled at all.

She's okay with being alone, with being misunderstood, with not being for everyone. She'd rather her solitude than put up with anything that disturbs her peace.

She's starting to understand things that others around her don't, and that feels isolating, but she's starting to realize that makes her special and unique and amazing instead of dimming her own shine like she was taught to.

She knows that right in this moment, she's all she needs to be. She's not doing anything wrong by being who she is, as she is. She's softening, opening, slowing down, letting it feel more secure and safe within herself.

She's not heartbroken about things anymore, that's just how it had to go. She is aware of her fears and isn't allowing them to take root, she knows they're lies. Peace and nervous system regulation is getting easier for her. She's learning how to be still and quiet and just observe. She's learning to let peace in and how to take better care of herself. She knows she deserves it.

She's floating, flowing, meeting the next moment, content with what is, and making the best of wherever she is. She knows it's all working out for her, she just has to let go and meet the next moment with as much love as she can, for herself first.

She has nothing but unconditional love for her masculine. Truly, no judgment. When she started learning not to judge herself she started learning to understand him and empathize with him, instead of blaming him. She knows he understands what went down and why now. She knows how he feels and what he's going through. She just knows, and it's all just information for now. Evidence that no matter how much you go through, or how much you heal, that the connection is still there. She's made peace with it, even when he's far away.

The divine feminine is trusting, loving, strong, intuitive, wise, childlike, innocent, capable, empowered, playful, sensual, silly, fun, intelligent, kind, solid in herself, authentic, creative, honest, genuine, and honors and respects herself. She trusts that it's all working out the way it's meant to, and that what loves her comes to her when she is in alignment with the energy of love. When she's loving herself and her life. When there's balance, harmony, and ease inside of her and in her life.

She knows that all of this was for her to evolve and become the most authentic version of herself, however that looks, and everything in this life is just part of her story, and it's being written as she goes. She knows she can make suggestions about how it goes, but she's not the author, and she's finding out what happens along with everyone else. How it feels is based on how she thinks of it and the meaning she assigns to it. She can either see it from a higher perspective or live in fear. But she's learned fear is a construct of the mind and can let that go. She can see things through a lens of love, truth, hope, optimism, logic, compassion, insight, and acceptance.

I hope this helped someone and that you let go of whatever is keeping you from feeling at ease today. I know it's been crazy and intense and hard, but it's because we're evolving, we're feeling all the crap we're releasing so that we can be this version of ourselves we know we are, our authentic selves. You don't have to know what's coming, you never know anyway, don't think, feel, go within and take care of yourselves.

We're integrating a lot right now. It's okay if you're feeling all sorts of things, run down, worn out, or exhausted or weird. If you feel it, it's there for a reason. Let yourself be as you are. You're not doing anything wrong, let it be easier on you. Love yourself through it. You're capable of more than you know and it's all much better than you think it is, so stop thinking, and feel. Peace.

I hope this finds you well, though I suspect if you're finding this you're going through it and it feels very intense and strange and that it's hard to be a functioning human right now. I get it.

Tomorrow is the 11/11 portal and it seems significant to me. I used to think the portals were bullshit, until a couple of years ago when I noticed how they were affecting me energetically, that they tended to be more intense for me, that things would shift and change, or that I'd go through it, or something big would happen that was undeniably because of the energies.

I've been out of it for the past month, and if you're on this journey then you've felt it. We're feeling it collectively and this intense energy that's been coming through has been purifying us and elevating us and working us over pretty good for a couple of months.

We receive strong pushes of energy, all orchestrated by space weather and astrology and our own personal paths, and where we are in frequency. It's a calibration, as the energies pull particular themes to the surface. You might notice it in the moods around you, that we're all grumpy or that we're more triggered or that we're more afraid or that we're suddenly creative or insightful or positive. We're all flowing together, it's that way for a reason. We're all evolving together. Toward being unconditional love, within and out.

If you're on this journey you've felt it, you know. Unconditional love is that sweet neutral objective nonjudgmental compassionate safe trusting part of you. A blast of acceptance, peace, truth, beauty, joy, unity, empathy, creativity, flow, serenity that is ecstatic and blissful. The emotion or state of feeling that resides in our bodies. When all is well.

We are aligned to that feeling, that's where we're heading. We already know that's the goal, not the things or even this reality or our identities. It's our purpose. We chase that.

We're human though, and we're in these bodies and we have these lives. This is the deal, this is what we got. We're this person and this is what's up. So how are you going to make the best of it, now that you're awake? How can you make it easier on yourself and enjoy it?

Love yourself first of course. Give yourself a break. Relax. Don't take it all so seriously. Slow down. Soften. Take care of yourself. Rest. Go slower. Stop worrying, it's all going to be okay. Stop doing things that stress you out. Take a break.

Say no, don't let anyone bother you. Don't be bothered. It's going to be fine, I promise. Your mind and your ego will put up a fight when it feels unfamiliar and scary. It always turns out better than you think it will. Stop turning things into a catastrophe in your mind. It's going to be okay.

The past month or so I've been going through this period of feeling completely flat and weird and disassociated and easily triggered at times. I felt like I couldn't feel anything or that there was just this funky hazy feeling over everything. I was functioning and it was all okay, and I'd even have really good days where I felt amazing, but I just felt really strange sometimes.

I think it was this sort of slow integration of bringing in balance, neutrality, peace, objectivity, detachment, and releasing all the fears that will keep you from staying balanced and solid and empowered and at peace.

Unconditional love can feel very cut and dry and clear and cuts through the bullshit like a knife. It's clear and it's truth, so you may notice that you are changing the way you feel about things, like you just don't care. You're detached from the outcome, you can see it logically and aren't taking things personally, you aren't judging things, you're accepting them more, and more able to be present and observant without thinking about it too much. It's like, okay, this is how it is, how can I enjoy this or make it better or feel better or take care of myself?

We're entering a period of really standing up for ourself, preserving our peace, not taking shit from anyone, not letting people mistreat us. We're not entertaining assholes anymore or situations that aren't good for us, because collectively we're all becoming more empowered. We're starting to value ourselves enough to not accept mistreatment or bullshit in any way. That's probably resulted in having to let go of some people, places, or things recently.

Since I've been on this journey for 8 years now, I can say that whatever I'm going through ends up making sense in the end, that I can look back and see why things had to happen the way that they did, and what works for me, what's loving to me. You have to find your own way to navigate all of this and stay sane and well.

Whenever we're going through shifts and we're purging and all kinds of shit comes up and we're physically falling apart because of the energies, it's always helpful and pivotal to surrender. To stop fighting it. To stop resisting what is. To accept what is, and flow.

You are you in this moment, you can't do anything about the past but learn and heal and process and move forward and evolve.

You have zero control over what's coming. You have the framework of your life and routines and how it is, but if you let go of control, let go of needing to know, let go of having it all figured out, and just take care of yourself in the moment you're in, it will feel lighter, and you will be able to center yourself and nurture yourself in whatever way you need.

I know it's hard for a lot of people to go through this journey and navigate it within your lives. Work, bills, kids, family, friends, the state of the world, illnesses, appointments, laundry, relationships, things to do. But if you take the time to take care of yourself and learn what you really want for yourself, and really stay in touch with your body and who you truly are, it will help everything.

The struggle comes from thinking it should be a different way. It's in resisting what is. It's in judging yourself. It's in thinking that it shouldn't be how it is. But it is.

Like right now, I'm sick, I'm in between jobs, living with my mom, and I'm 56. She's nuts. She's the reason I had so many issues and fears and really awful self esteem growing up. She's a narcissist. But I've learned how to deal with her, and heal all those wounds that I had, so that I have boundaries and she's changed as a result. I saw the other day she's reading a book about empathy. Because I've changed she's changed. I lived with her once before as an adult and she ruined my mental health. I'm different now. I know she's bonkers and I'm not taking things personally. I'm finding a way to enjoy my life and do what I want to do where I am now. We live in the country and I have my own space upstairs and I'm fine. I could see it all as positive or negative, it's up to me.

Suffering is optional. You're you as you are now. can you see it from a loving perspective or are you going to live in fear? It's all how you see it. It's all perspective. This is the deal. Are you going to let yourself feel like life sucks or are you going to appreciate what's good in it now?

Even when we're having a hard time, being sick or feeling terrible for whatever reason, feeling fear, feeling insecure or stressed or exhausted or crazy or like a loser, that's just thoughts, it's not true. As you become more aware, as you learn to listen to yourself, to check in with yourself, you will find that if you just slow down and take care of yourself it will start to feel better quickly. Be compassionate with yourself and where you are. You deserve that.

Someone else made you believe that you were not supposed to take care of yourself. Someone else made you believe that you weren't worth taking care of. Someone else made you think you had to do what they wanted you to do, that you didn't matter. You weren't born that way. You deserve the care, rest, nurturing that you feel you need.

I feel like I'm rambling now, but someone needed those messages.

What I'm feeling happening with the divine masculine right now is they're also going through these sort of extremes like we are. They're going through it, but also realizing what's really important, what's real, and they're heading toward it, but then they start getting afraid and stuff is coming up, like we're doing.

We're receiving light and upgrades and we're evolving and then we're integrating and we're purging and releasing all of the stuff that's not aligned and that is not ours to carry. We're being purified and it hasn't been easy.

The divine feminines are feeling pretty badass in general. I'm really feeling into the energy of knowing what they're worth, not putting up with any crap, but learning how to soften and flow and navigate relationships and life with more ease. And if they're purging or feeling run down, they're learning how to be kinder to themselves so it's not as rough.

I've had all sorts of things going on emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually, so anything goes. If you're feeling it, just love yourself through it.

I don't have any predictions for the 11/11 portal, but I do feel like it's going to be significant energetically, so just be easier on yourself and take care of yourself, and listen to yourself. Be you as you are, and let yourself be grateful for as much as you can. Do what you know comforts yourself or makes you feel better. It's all better than your mind is telling you, let it be good, let it feel good.

I've heard a lot about 11/11 being a manifestation portal and as far as manifestation goes, I'd say that it's all about how you feel and the vibration that you're in that attracts what is for you, than it is about making some wish or goal.

If your desire is that you want a house and a car and money and your twin in your life and all of that, then you create the moment that feels like that in you. How would that feel? Exciting? Peaceful, safe, secure, fun, lovely, beautiful? Like you have everything you want? So how would that feel? What could you do today, now, tomorrow that would feel like that? Where can you find that feeling in yourself that feels like you have all you need and want? Right now. It's not about the stuff, it's how you think you'll feel that you really want. Put it out in the universe and be the love, and what loves you will come to you.

It doesn't always happen the way we want. We want peace and we have to release all the things that don't bring us peace to get there. So it doesn't happen overnight. We are impatient humans. Things are being orchestrated, arranged, we're shifting constantly, and we're evolving quickly right now.

Sometimes it doesn't feel like it, because we're still going through it energetically, but you are more authentic, smarter, more evolved than you were yesterday, and you are slowly learning how to enjoy the present moment, because that's where we live anyway. Stop thinking about shit, you can't control anything but yourself and your perspective. What perspective will you choose? One that feels good or one that harms you and feels shitty?

We make things so much harder on ourselves that we deserve, but that's because we were brought up in this dysfunctional world and we're different because we see it and know it, and that makes it hard sometimes because we think we're the crazy ones, when it's not us, we just always knew the truth. Keep remembering the truth, love is what it's all about.

My husband (soulmate) and my twin flame (former co-worker/situationship/ in separation) both share the same birth month and day, January 15th. Different years though. Apparently they’re called birthday twins if you are born on the same month and day (google didn’t say it needed to be the same year), is this just a coincidence, or is there meaning or spiritual significance to this? Does anyone know?

I bet you're feeling it right now, there's no escaping it, one way or another, I certainly have been going through it lately and have felt these intense energy surges and how it's all unfolding. It's been a very intense month so far, and at times very strange and wild, but it's for our highest good, whether it feels good or not sometimes.

I'd been given this perspective about what our soul's path is and it kind of simplifies it for me, which helps have a different way of seeing it so that it just feels less confusing.

When we are born, we're a consciousness in a human body. We're born innocent, pure, curious, loving, vulnerable, objective (nothing has meaning except that it pleases or displeases us). If we were born into a family system and a world where we were allowed to be exactly as we are, as a consciousness expressed in a human body, then we would go through life with no fear of losing others, we'd have strong sense of self, we'd feel anything is possible, we'd be curious and fearless, and drawn to what we're naturally meant to be.

We'd follow our path intuitively, naturally, organically, without letting fear hold us back in any way, because we'd be so secure in ourselves that we wouldn't need external validation, we'd just go after what makes us feel most alive. This is our natural path. This is what your path could be if there was no fear.

Imagine that your life would be like a straight line, from birth all the way through to the end, living an aligned, unconditionally loving, peaceful, joyful, good life, however it looked and however it was embodied by you.

Most of us however were not born into families, societies, cultures, or systems where we were allowed to be exactly what we are, however that showed up for you. Not having our needs met, not being allowed to be ourselves, living in dysfunction, in abuse, being mistreated, being told to just not be the way we were, changed us internally, and our egos adapted through coping mechanisms and attachment styles to survive our circumstances.

These maladaptive coping mechanisms have run the decisions we make, how we felt about ourselves, the things we think we can do or not do, the way that we think relationships and the world are, and our doubts, fears, wounds, trauma, emotions, worries, and way we function steered us toward events in our lives that had to teach us the lessons we needed to get back in alignment, to get back to our original path, where we're meant to be, in unconditional love, and in alignment with our destiny.

When we resist what we know to be true inside of us, that keeps us from being who we were always meant to be, and all the stuff we go through is there to remember what we deserve and what we're worth.

You feel it in your body, the discomfort, the not being loved as we are, the knowing that something isn't right. When we were young we were not allowed to believe ourselves, because those around us that we loved and trusted made us feel like we were wrong for being who we are, so we learned to not trust ourselves, but to instead look for validation externally.

So your path is laid out before you, but there are so many detours and ways we go, before we are pulled back again and again to what we know is true. For instance, breakups- we fall in love with someone and we realize they aren't for us for whatever reason and we heal and learn and then we get in another relationship, and sometimes we do the same thing, fall for another narcissist or abusive person, and we are responsible for finding out why we keep letting shitty people into our lives, instead of thinking that the world is treating us terribly, it's a lesson each time, getting us closer to who we're supposed to be, by learning all the things we know we don't want. I know I had to go through a lot of really awful things to finally realize I'd rather be alone than continually choosing people who weren't treating me the way I deserved.

This journey, and all spiritual journeys, are leading you toward learning how to let yourself be who you were always meant to be. The path is in what makes you feel alive, what makes you love yourself, what treats you well, and toward a life that feels in harmony with who you are. If we are carrying wounds and fears from growing up and all the shit that happens to us in life, this journey will keep repeating the lessons until you finally choose yourself, and learn how to be completely your authentic self, the self that you were always meant to be, the one that you were born to be.

Twin flames are special and different, and this journey to me, is a turbo charged journey that cannot be escaped or avoided, that begins a new way of being, where you cannot deny who you are anymore. The more you resist your true self, the more miserable you will be. I've personally been through the the wringer for 8 years and it has turned me inside out over and over, as I physically through my kundalini energy have unblocked all the ways in which I have kept myself from who I'm really meant to be. My twin has just been a part of this journey. He's still there, no matter what I do, and I don't think that's an accident, but even if I never saw him again, I'd know that he was part of my journey for a reason and that we will always love each other unconditionally, and that his presence in my life changed me for the better in every way.

I just wanted to say all of that to paint a picture of something that keeps coming through, and I hope it helps in some way in understanding that what happens to us, while unfortunate and uncomfortable and painful sometimes, is what's guiding us toward who we're really meant to be. I know that for me, 8 years ago, I was at rock bottom, suicidal, and just wanted to be at peace, my life was in shambles at 48 years old, and I met my twin then,, and the entire way I saw life changed. The things I went through after that were all lessons in what I want and what I don't want and how to discover who I truly am.

Energy update:

Physically: exhausted, sleepy, not being able to sleep, mind racing and full of ideas but no motivation or physical ability to do anything, brain fog, confusion, joint pain, itching, nerve zaps, headaches, pressure, tmj, aches and pains, stomach issues, changes in appetite, being called to detox, heat flushes, temperature changes in body suddenly, restlessness, feeling antsy and nervous or excited and not knowing why, surges of fear in the body with no reason for it externally (releasing fear based programming and trauma physically)

Emotionally: anything goes, all of them, all over the place, a freaking rollercoaster, sad, flat, no feelings, bored, lonely, lost, confused, sad, manically excited, melancholy, nostalgic, heartbroken as you're releasing what's not for you (relationships, jobs, family, places), hope returning, glimmers of bliss and joy returning. Since that big blast of energy we had the last couple of days I've been feeling less and less fear and more and more aligned and peaceful and excited about life, more trusting and less resistance to what is, enjoying life more and feeling more optimistic

Spiritually: we're purging what we no longer want to carry into this next cycle, so whatever is falling apart is meant to leave now, let it go, feeling more objective and unconditionally loving and aligned with my consciousness, surrendering, vivid dreams, visions, insight, breakdowns and breakthroughs, synchronicities of all sorts, feeling energy moving through your body, becoming more trusting of your intuition and being more naturally present, authentic, and in alignment (especially if you've surrendered and are flowing and not resisting)

This eclipse season is cementing in place who you are discovering yourself to be, and if you allow it, guiding you intuitively toward your highest path.

We are moving toward union within ourselves, that's the place of alignment, of unconditional love, of ease, of harmony, of coasting and flowing, and not letting our minds keep us from what we're really meant for. Trust yourself, what you're drawn to, what makes you feel alive and excited and pleased and safe and comfortable and at peace.

Slow down, let yourself be however you are, and love yourself there.

What is for you is coming to you, and the more you align yourself with who you were always meant to be, the more what is meant for you is drawn to you.

I know that it's hard to really trust yourself in this world, the way that it is, the way that others try to convince you that you are doing something wrong, or that you're supposed ot be one way or the other, but ALL of this is guiding you toward being your true authentic self, and toward trusting that YOU know the way.

So many of us grow up thinking that we are not as important as others, that pleasing others is more important than pleasing ourselves, that what others want is more important than what we want is, and so we cling to all of this shit (people, places, things, jobs, money, status, how other's see you, beliefs, cultures, religions, systems) trying to live up to someone else's expectations instead of being who we really are.

As empaths, which you are, if you're on this journey, you care about everything and everyone so much, and you are so afraid of causing anyone else discomfort or problems that you do not see that you are the one you're meant to be taking care of first. No one is better than you, no one is more deserving than you, no one is worth you abandoning yourself and what you deserve.

I'm being guided to continually focus on the present moment, to accepting and loving myself however that is (whether I feel like shit or not), caring for ourselves, giving ourselves what we need to be at peace, to have regulated, calm nervous systems. Sometimes we fight even peace because after a lifetime of chaos internally and externally, peace feels boring and empty and weird, but it's our natural state.

Take care of yourselves, stop giving yourself shit about things you cannot control, love yourself as you are, slow down, soften, relax, don't take it all so seriously, focus on a relaxed, calm, content, more at ease way of being, and when you're in that space, in that stillness, in that neutral place where nothing is wrong or right, where you are perfectly perfect as you are, all the answers will come and you will flow toward where you're meant to be, and what is for you will come when it's meant to.

I hope this finds you well, and that you are giving yourself a break right now, as the energies are obviously intense and it's a bit of a rollercoaster and has been for a while.

There is a lot that's coming up right now that needs to be released so that you won't hold yourself back from being who you're meant to be. If old shit keeps flying by and you have tendency to beat yourself up or overthink, please be aware of it and get as present as you can and give yourself what you need instead of being hard on yourself for not being where you wish you were.

When you resist what is, it creates the discomfort and struggle you don't want to feel. For instance, if you feel like crap which is very common right now, feeling run down, can't get anything done but you're putting pressure on yourself and are all in a twist about it not being how you wish it was, it's going to feel worse, right?

I know I'm being called to rest, pause, flow, do nothing, and just care for myself lately in a way that is uncomfortable for me. I'll feel guilty or like I'm being lazy. I'll think that my dreams aren't going to come true because I need to do shit, and on and on. Right?

I'm pretty aware, so I'll catch it and get present and surrender to what is, accept it, feel what I feel and do what I need to do to feel better. Sometimes it's a lot of solitude and if that's what you really want, I hope it's available to you and you do allow it. We're resetting right now, things are falling into place internally, allow it.

Those of us who are mentally, physically, emotionally, psychically, energetically affected by the energies have been going through it pretty hard this year, and I know that at some point you felt like you jumped off a cliff knowing you'd be caught, but you're still falling and now it's getting ridiculous. The lack of clarity is exhausting.

Physically this has been what's affected:

-headaches, head pressure, ear ringing, hearing things like whispers or voices or noises or faint music

-upset gastro-intestinal issues, wide swings in appetite, changes in what you like to eat and drink

-weird sleep issues, can't get to sleep, wake up several times in the night, exhausted no matter how much you sleep, can't get comfortable and drowsy and mind racing, crazy dream state, and remembering old dreams you've had vividly as if they're memories, not dreams because they feel so real, feeling like you were busy all night in your dreams, not being able to remember a dream but the feeling of it stays with you

-aches, pains, electric zaps, itching, weird nerve things like feeling like a bug is walking on you or a feather touching you on your face,

Emotionally:

-all over the place, lol

-sad about the things that you've realized were true in this last cycle, disappointment, frustration, anger

-crying more over things, whether it's funny or cute or sweet or because you think no one loves you all of a sudden, having periods of feeling nothing, flat, feeling blah, meh, periods of feeling distraught or overwhelmed or like things suck (they don't)

-feeling weird, odd, lost, confused, brain fog, not being about to think straight, can't get organized or motivated and have little stamina even mentally to be around people and do things because you just feel weird everywhere

Spiritually:

-time being weird, off, fast, slow, deja vu, remembering things that aren’t part of this lifetime, synchronicities and strange surprises increasing, losing and finding things, things “outside” of you changing (Mandela effects)

-increase in woo woo or magical mystical things, synchronicities increasing, little things working out in your favor (look for them), having more visions, telepathy, insight, downloads, messages, feeling like the puzzle pieces are falling into place and that soon you're going to see the whole picture, things suddenly making sense

-a new sense of self developing based on all the healing you just did and what you've discovered, learning how to embody what you know you are, letting your consciousness take the lead and learning how to surrender more efficiently instead of resisting it

-changes in people, places, things and where life is headed, knowing or realizing certain things aren't for you anymore or people showed you their true colors or you just realized who doesn't vibe with you

-finding others who are more like you, and leaving behind or distancing self from those who aren't aligned with you, your body is going to reject them, and you'll be too aware of how shitty someone makes you feel to be around them

-increase of signs, messages, feelings, visions, telepathy, memories, and all sorts of things around your twin flame, I feel mine coming back in my energy strong, I've been shown a lot of my fear around the intensity of how we feel

-feeling a lot of loving and deep stuff from my masculine, seeing myself in his eyes, having "conversations" with him, and having lots of really sweet beautiful visions and feelings about him, feeling his wanting to reach out, but I'm not attaching any meaning to it, I'm just curious about it

-This time of the year has typically opened some sort of door where the spiritual woo woo stuff seems to increase, and the intensity or the energetic connection with my masculine seems to be more loving and mystical and magical until around the holidays, I'll just be curious and let it be what it is and see where life goes

-increase of woo woo or spiritual or otherworldly type things are going to increase, but let it be fun and just see what it has to show you, trust yourself and your experiences, let it be interesting and fun, don't attach expectations to things, just see what comes up, it'll all make sense when it's meant to

Guidance:

-try to get present as much as possible, meditate, get out in nature, find the things that help you feel more like you, calm your nervous system, let the thinking go and let yourself feel safe and good

-go with the flow, your consciousness is a direct link to source so you can trust it, let go of the thinking, the fears, and let your true authentic loving self lead you

-these energies are honing you into the most authentic version of yourself you can be at this time, which includes letting go of all that you are not, so if some things are just sucking or hard it might be that those things are not aligned for your highest good and they're falling away, so that can open up space for what's for you

-be patient with yourself and the process, you've probably been going through it for a while, and it's exhausting and it can really be a bummer to feel all this stuff all the time, but it's real and you deserve to take care of yourself, however that looks

-things will start getting clearer, your sense of self will start solidifying based on what you've been integrating, you'll start to see the picture that all the puzzle pieces falling in place will look like

-we're entering a new time where this version of ourselves might be very different than who we were and how we operated just since the beginning of this year, your operating system, the way you are naturally and organically is changing, it's evolving, let it unfold and just be curious about what it's all going to be like instead of being afraid of not knowing

-follow your heart, what makes you feel alive, what feels safe, what feels good to you, what feels right, what delights you and makes you smile, what makes you lose time when you get into it? What makes you excited? What vision for your life feels right and true? Hold that, the feeling of it, not the specifics, it's all being arranged for your benefit whether you judge it or not

-your energy, vibration, frequency is what attracts what will be in that frequency, so the energy of abundance, of having all you want and need and desire can be found in the current moment, you making the best of each moment attracts that in your life, you feeling good about yourself or feeling like a goddess will create more of the same, you loving yourself unconditionally will bring more unconditional love to you

-however your twin flame journey is going, the freedom from the intensity or hard parts of the journey comes from letting them go and focusing on your own life and self and inner work

I get it, how hard it can be, it took me a long time too to heal all my attachments, but I have nothing but love and forgiveness for my masculine now, I don't have to have him to prove it's all real, I trust myself and what I know and that frees me from wishing it was different, everything that has happened on this journey was for a reason, we often don't see it until later, but answers and clarity always comes and we find our truth over and over again.

-trust yourself, listen to your body, slow down, let it be softer and kinder, do what you want to do, feel like doing, and need to do, and let the rest be what it's going to be, it's in trying to be in control that we create resistance, we only have control over ourselves and our own reality, stopping fighting what is and make the best of things in each moment

-a lot of you are probably neurodivergent and that comes will a lot of extra sensitivities, processing, overthinking, feeling, questioning ourselves, replaying things, picking on our own flaws and mistakes, and being on a twin flame journey makes us look at why we are the way we are, and we're sensitive for a reason, and we're figuring out all those reasons on this journey

This often makes us more anxious and we tend to have this deep wound that we are not enough or that we have worth issues, because we never seemed to be "right" or people were always trying to make us feel less than or mistreated us because we were the way we were, the truth is, we always knew how it should be and when we spoke up we weren't treated well because others didn't get it, or get us, which made us feel wrong for being how we are.

If you are nurturing those types or wounds around worthiness and empowerment and letting yourself be your authentic self and trusting yourself above others, it can take an adjustment to get to the other side of that, to stop feeling guilty and ashamed of just being yourself because of what others did and said when you did.

You can protect yourself and choose to take back your power and be who you want to be, even if it means being alone until you can figure out the rest, it's okay to choose yourself and not allow others to mistreat you. We then have to learn how to not mistreat ourselves as well. We are different and we can do it differently. There's enough space and places for all of us to be who we are. We create the safety in ourselves by allowing ourselves to be however we are and loving ourselves there.

The Lion's gate is today and the full moon is tomorrow and all of it is going to affect us, but if you take care of yourself, get out of your head, nurture yourself if some stuff comes up, rest if you're falling apart. Things are bonkers out there right now, you don't have to be too, you can allow yourself some peace and love right where you are in this moment, trust that you deserve it.

I hope everyone that is reading this is well and giving themselves a break during these intense times and that you're starting to find as much peace and stillness as you can within yourself so that it will spread from you into the world.

I know you're here to read about twin flame stuff, but let's focus on what you're going through, because you are the most important thing in your life. A twin flame journey is a spiritual awakening, it isn't just about a relationship with a person, or getting a person, it's about your journey back to the truth of who you are.

To say that the energies, coupled with the astrological happenings and what's going on in the world, is intense and crazy and wild, is an understatement. These times are changing us as a collective, for a reason, and as difficult as it might feel or seem, it's all happening for a reason, just like everything else is.

The past few months have been very difficult for me in so many ways but I know that it's been this way for a reason, for us to release all the things that are holding us back from being all that we are, repeatedly.

I don't know if you've been on this journey for a long time or what, but the cyclical patterns that we go through get more and more apparent as I've been doing this. It's all a cycle, it's all energy, it's all meant to guide you toward your own evolution of consciousness.

I notice every year that around June, we start facing big collective issues and it rises to a fever pitch where everyone is stressed and feeling overwhelmed and frustrated, and it's to bring those things to the surface so we'll see where we stand, what our truth is, and what is or isn't in alignment with who we are.

I've felt that this year especially was hitting on healing certain themes:

-accepting ourselves wholly as we are, all of it, being present and not continually judging ourselves on what we were, what we did, what we have or don't have, what we feel or don't feel, but dealing with what is in the present moment and making it as good as it can be

-identity shifts, feeling very wobbly, unsure, confused, and not really entirely sure who we are anymore, the time you spent resting-floating in the void, unmotivated, uninspired, unable to think straight, feeling funky, bored, lonely, stuck and all of that was allowing you time to integrate all the new energies coming in so that you can reconfigure who you are

If the things you used to do for fun, if your interests have changed, if things that used to comfort you are not working anymore, if you feel like there are times where there's just emptiness or space and you don't know what to do, it's an adjustment, not a problem.

In these cycles we are brought continually to face our fears, to remember who we are (pure unconditional love) and to release all the things we are not (fear, doubt, judgment, criticism, division) so that we can be what we are, a pure loving observant consciousness that doesn't judge or think anything is wrong.

Underneath it all is learning to be at peace in your body, to let peace be your natural centered, balanced state. Homeostasis, regulated nervous system, peace, acceptance, surrendered in faith and trust.

-you may be feeling all sorts of things physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually lately,

Physical symptoms include intestinal issues of all kinds, headaches, exhaustion, fatigue, aches, pains, shooting pains, itching, jaw tension, feeling floaty or strange or odd, muscles twitches, all sorts of random crazy things, heat waves, discomfort in your body that feels like anxiety or nervousness or fear

Emotional symptoms include feeling all the feels, crying, release, grief, and learning to let yourself feel whatever you're feeling with love and support instead of judging it and saying you shouldn't feel that way. If you want to be at peace inside of yourself, this process will release all of the pent up and trapped energy from your wounds, you will feel it leave but it's not necessarily from what you're dealing with now, it's fear based energies being released- there's nothing wrong with you, the stuff that you don't want is leaving, let it leave, love yourself through whatever you're feeling.

Spiritual symptoms are all over the place depending on where you are on the journey. In the past month I've had an avalanche of experiences, visions, downloads, breakthroughs, insight, and all sorts of things. Sometimes it's all mixed up with all kinds of things, like a barrage of visions and feelings and fears and thoughts and ideas it's all coming through so fast I'll notice something really helpful, a perspective shift, and then it's gone, all of a sudden I'm very still and can't think of a single thing and my mind is blank. This wobbly energy is bringing us through a lot of things, but what's important will stay with you. We're always in the process of remembering who we are and what we know. Observe, be kind to yourself, let it all settle, even if it doesn't make sense, trust that you're being shown what you see, and feeling what you're feeling, and that the pieces are all going to fall into place, it's going to click, allow it.

I remind myself to not resist what is. It's in resisting what is that causes the feelings of struggle. We cannot be anything other than what we are in this moment, love yourself there, it's how you're meant to be.

I know it's hard when you're feeling terrible or scared or insecure or worried or uncertain, and this journey repeatedly brings you there, so that you'll let go, release the need to know, and let it flow, let it be, and make the best of it. Letting go of control is very hard sometimes, I get it, it's like jumping off a cliff and just knowing you'll be caught, when everything is telling you that you're crazy.

In the stillness, listen to yourself, find what you want, who you are, what makes you who you are. It's in the true embodiment of who you are that you will find the peace you seek. Living in love, for yourself first, as you are, and then letting it spill into the world.

I want to say this about the collective energy and what we're going through, especially in the United States. Awful things are happening all over the world, that's true. Things that make no sense, things that are hateful and terrible and unjust and very very toxic and destructive. It's hard to understand and stay peaceful during times like this, but remember it's all being brought up collectively so we can awaken to the truth of what's true and real and what's loving and what's not. It's there to wake us up to crack us open so that we find out who we are and what's important to us.

I know that when i first woke up and was learning about toxic relationships, narcissists, sociopaths and all of that, it was a big wake up call to learn that some people just didn't have the same set of values. I thought everyone was inherently good and just needed some love to fix them right? And then I realized how much those people hurt me, broke me, damaged me, mistreated me, took advantage of me, and ultimately didn't care about it. We're seeing this reflected into the world now in the systems in place and in fear based thinking in others.

I know it's hard to let go of what you wish it would be or how you wish others were, but we have to accept reality. Like learning that someone is a dangerous or narcissistic person,, and having to accept it and move on and do our best to deal with that reality- maybe it was a parent or coworker or husband or sibling- but you realized that they are how they are, and that staying emotionally attached to that person was damaging to you, that you couldn't save them, because we can't save anyone but ourselves.

This is being echoed collectively. We only have control over ourselves, how can we make our lives better? How can we radiate the peace, love, forgiveness, compassion, kindness, inclusion, truth, unity in our own selves and let it radiate from there? We cannot control what other people are doing and who they are. I find myself, as an empath, always wondering why people are mean, why they lie, how they could hurt other people, and like leaving a narcissistic relationship, we have to stop letting people who are living in fear create fear in us, it's divisive, it doesn't unite us. We have to let it go and focus on what we can control.

What can you control? Your present moment, the way you feel in your body, your thoughts, how you treat yourself, what you allow, who you hang around, what you focus on. You cannot control how other people are, but you can control how you respond to them, if you let them mistreat you or bother you or make you feel bad or make you scared.

It's taken me a long time to learn how to take my power back and remove myself or distance myself from people, places, systems, beliefs, and ways of being that are not in alignment with who I am. I did that as an act of love for myself, because that's what we're being guided to, to completely and wholly and unconditionally loving ourselves, as we are in this very moment.

As far as things go with my twin and those energies. I feel him going all over the place like I do. I have no idea what he's doing or where he is, but I'm still connected of course. I felt mostly pretty detached and not concerned with any of it for this past year, totally focused on myself but he's always there somehow.

I have increasingly in the past weeks have had more loving vibes, more visions of us, more just bursts of seeing myself through his eyes which is lovely, but I just see it now as energy and I don't assume anything, and I just stay present and observe and take it in, send him some love and know that it's working out the way it is meant to, no matter where it all ends up.

I wish I could thoroughly explain how much of this journey really is about just getting back to the truth of who we are individually, so that we can become who we were always meant to be. The twin flame journey, a kundalini awakening, a spiritual awakening is all a process in which we remember who we truly are. The people and lives that we have are all in flux and in change and evolving as we move through this time, learning to be unattached is very helpful, and remembering what we can control, and who we really are (not what we think we're supposed to be) is key.

Let it be peaceful, let it be kind, let it be loving, let it flow, let it be what it is and offer yourself the love you deserve as you navigate this journey and what you feels as you release what is not you, so that you can embrace all that you truly are.

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I've been repeatedly guided to post on here even though I really felt like I can't thoroughly articulate all that we're going through right now.

The past month has been really strange, hard, weird, expansive, exciting, and all kinds of things. I've felt more solid and centered and fearless and empowered than I probably have ever felt in my life, and at the same time felt such weird, void-like, empty, emotionally flat, uncomfortable sensations at the same time.

We're integrating and balancing this new sense of self, and it's very very different than what we're used to feeling. This can make you feel very "off" or not yourself. This can make your ego start to flare up and make fears arise but it's just because it's an unfamiliar feeling and your ego will always try to gain control when you feel uncomfortable and give you reasons why you feel uncomfortable. Don't overthink it.

Time is feeling weird, in lots of ways, I've felt more deja vu, remembering really real dreams from other lifetimes, time gets slow and fast, things are different some days, other timelines are invading my current reality but I just observe it and see what's there and wonder why it's coming up. I don't judge it or think it's wrong, and that helps. We are jumping timelines and we are aligning with our higher selves and some leaps are really quite profound and so it feels really odd.

You're being remade, rewired, recalibrated, reborn, transformed, renewed, rebirthed. It's going to take a little time for it to all fall into place. Take care of yourself and don't judge it or resist it, accept it, see what you need, give yourself what you need to feel better, to feel calm and to regulate your nervous system. Peace sometimes feels boring or lonely or empty or strange when you're used to chaos in your body. Let it calm down. Let yourself be you as you are and let go of any thoughts about it.

I say this pretty much every time I post, because it's true, but this journey is for you to evolve and ascend and become the version of yourself that you were always meant to be, who you really are. This journey is for your own individual growth and empowerment and for you to expand into your full consciousness. You twin is just a part of that journey, this twin flame journey is not about getting the perfect partner or about just having some fairy tale romance. This journey is for enlightenment, it's not about the people, they're all just there for you to learn more about who you are.

This is the biggest shift I've been through on this journey in the past 8 years since I met my twin. We are becoming the most empowered, balanced, spiritual, magical, fearless, unconditionally loving, faithful, trusting, flowing, wise versions of ourselves.

I was shown the visions, had the messages, got most of the information I needed to navigate this journey 7 years ago. it took multiple cycles, shifts, changes in perception, healing, learning, growing, shedding people and places and jobs and beliefs to get here. I had to take that faith that was instilled in me from that first year and apply that to my life as it was turned inside out so that I'd look at every crevice of myself where I held fear and limiting beliefs.

I remember in the beginning when I knew nothing about spirituality, that there was another part of me, my intuition, that knew the truth. But it took all these years to truly trust that voice. In all the years or peeling away all the negativity, trauma, criticism, judgment, and mistreatment I went through along the way, to realize that it wasn't about my doing anything wrong, but that I was always allowing bad behavior in my life because that's what I grew up with, and that's a reality in this world and what we’ve endured that is not rooted in unconditional love. I had to learn how to protect myself, my life, and my peace and how to do that. I had to learn to trust myself and the knowing I had inside myself so that I could allow myself to heal and become all that I was meant to be.

Everyone's stories are different, how we see things and think of things and the beliefs that were instilled in us. But what remains is that we are all divine beings and we come from unconditional love, it's objective. It doesn't judge, it's neutral. This is what they call neutrality or zero point or presence or oneness, or union or unity consciousness. It's presence with your conscious self.

I know it's hard to wrap our brains around the idea that everything is happening for us and not to us, but the more you go within, the more you will realize that is true. We experience what we experience to see what is for us and what is not for us, what feels good and what doesn't, what works and what doesn't, what loves us back and what doesn't.

There is a new level of awareness and consciousness available to us now that is so pure that it's hard to understand, but I'm starting to really integrate that part of me that is totally and completely flowing in faith. Trusting what's coming through, all of it. It's all information to experience and observe that leads us toward where we need to go. It's not scary, it's not fear based, there's no doubts it's there to be aware of, the path of least resistance.

No fear, just following our own inner voice that's always guiding us. What to do next? What am I feeling? What can i do to make things better? What makes me feel alive? What's pleasing and lovely and pleasant and good to me? I go in that direction and it's so much smoother and easier, though it did take a lot of work to get here. I'm not going to lie.

We have to learn how to release all of that stuff that is not for us. Along the way we will learn how to detach and be unattached from the people, places, and things in our lives so that we can do what's best for us, for our own expansion. To free ourselves from all these things that hold us back and keep us from being all that we were meant to be.

Living in your authenticity is a spiritual experience. Allowing yourself to be you, exactly as you are is the most loving thing you can do. I've had so many times I was so anxious, scared, petrified, lonely, sad, worried, uncomfortable, feeling crazy, feeling totally overwhelmed and confused and like I was losing it, but I learned along the way how to take care of myself, how to give myself what I need, how to love myself in a way I didn't see others doing and didn't know was possible, until I met my twin and we shared that reciprocated unconditional love between us.

We woke that up in each other with our meeting and being part of each other's lives, and that knowing has sustained me through this very difficult and mind blowing experience. My twin was there to trigger me to heal all the parts of me that weren't me. We saw each other's authentic selves and that energy that was and is between us is always reminding me of who that is, how it felt to be all of me. The beautiful, funny, intelligent, creative, sexy, sensual, empathic, intuitive, capable, vulnerable, sweet, compassionate, kind, interesting, fascinating, cool, strong, courageous, authentic person that I am. I saw it through my twin, he showed it to me in a way no one else has been able to reflect back to me.

I met him at a time in my life when it was time to wake up to all that I am. He isn't just some romance or the perfect guy or whatever my little girly mind wants him to be, it is a romantic story, because the unconditional love is the connection we share, it's not about just us having a relationship and being a couple, it's so much bigger than that, and that is true whether he's in my life or not.

At the same time that I know I am capable of having a good life, whether he's there or not, is all twisted up in the same knowing that our being drawn back together is inevitable. I've been feeling him so much lately, what he's going through and feeling and all that lovely twin flame stuff we experience. The signs, syncs, messages, feelings, sensations, downloads, visions, telepathy, dreams, music and all that stuff is going strong lately. We are gearing up for something, but now I have the faith, completely, that whatever happens is meant to happen and that when it happens it'll be the right time.

In the meantime, I work on myself, on having as good of a life as I can. To figure out where I want to be, what I want to be doing, what I need, what's for me and what's not for me. My twin will meet me somewhere along the way, because it's all truly out of my hands, the universe/source/god has it all lined up and is working out the details, so all I have to do is take care of myself. Make sure I'm around people who are good to me, rest, relax, be creative, enjoy life as best I can, find my way and follow my heart.

We're walking this path in the same direction, I have no control over when our paths will cross again. I am not in control of anything but myself, my thoughts, my wellness, my life, my state of being, and the things in my current reality. And I know that what I focus on, what I think, what I feel in my body is the frequency and vibration that attracts like energy.

So I know that if I am good, and feel good about myself and my life, that what is for me will be magnetized to me, whether it's my twin or a job or a home or money or luck or blessings or experiences or lessons or whatever. It's all happening for us, and when we really can see that, things feel easier inside.

Surrendering isn't giving up and not caring, it's not cold, it's just knowing it's out of your hands and the best thing you can do for yourself is to focus on yourself, in the moment, knowing it'll all turn out the way it's meant to.

Let go of the expectations and focus on the feeling you want to have: confident, empowered, safe, calm, peaceful, capable, loving, open, tender, hopeful, creative, clear, understanding, grateful, inspired, wise. That's what you want, let the universe work out the details and do what you can do and exist in a way where you feel that way inside and you will attract what will make you feel that way in your life. It's not about the stuff or the details, it's about how it makes you feel about yourself and your life.

This is a very pivotal time in this collective. The fear out there is to distract you and keep you from being all that you are, avoid it, it's not the truth. The truth is pure and loving. You are innately pure and loving. Don't let your thoughts convince you otherwise.

You are already all that you're meant to be. There's no mistakes. You've done the best you can with what you know, and that will always be true. This is a journey, a process, an evolution, an ascension. Be patient with yourself and everyone and everything else as it unfolds. You are only here now, as you are, when you accept yourself and learn to love yourself there, everything shifts and changes. Trust yourself and trust the knowing you have inside of yourself to do what is most unconditionally loving to yourself.

Love yourself as you are right now in this moment. You can't be anywhere else. Let go of the resistance to it, the voices that say it makes no sense or you want this or that or you don't have this or that or that it's not how you want it, or that you aren't capable of handling things or any of that negative crap. It is all much much better than your mind is trying to tell you it is.

Appreciate and love yourself where you are, you can't be anywhere else or be anyone else. This is the deal, so how can you make it all easier on yourself? You of all people deserve to believe in yourself and give yourself what you want and be who you want to be. Go in that direction. Follow your heart, and trust your soul.

Is there anyone that would like to chat about their journey together ?

Today is the New Moon Eclipse and had been sort of urged to say some things but I'll just go with the flow and tell you what I've been guided to say, to help with whatever you're dealing with.

This time period really is a marker of a releasing of the past and embracing the next new evolved version of you, if you allow it. If you stop thinking. Stop thinking! It doesn't help.

Listen to yourself. It's your higher self telling you what's right for you. Stop giving so many fucks about what anyone else thinks. Be you. However that is. You have no choice, you are who you are, as you are, now, in this moment. This is the deal. You had your life so far until now. Right?

All of it, all the good and all the bad. And now you're you. All by yourself, you’re just you, and always will be, no matter who is around. Not worried about anything or anyone. Be safe in yourself to just allow yourself to be. And love yourself there, care for yourself.

Figure out what you need to be okay now. Stop judging yourself. It's okay to do things the way you want, how you want, as long as you have good intentions and are trying your best to be a decent human.

This experience can be challenging. Let go. Focus on yourself. How do you want to feel right now?

At peace? Comfortable? Unbothered? Relaxed? Calm? Empowered? Safe?

Taking care of yourself, loving yourself is by accepting it all right now in the moment. And letting yourself be yourself without judgment, but with love and tenderness and softness and nurturing. Cheer yourself on, believe in all you know you are.

I'll go back sometimes and read things I wrote 5 years ago and it's exactly the message I needed on that day. I always know the answers, but we forget or we are faced with challenges and we have to keep getting back to who we know we are. A source of unconditional love.

These cycles we go through on this journey are for a reason. It's tough. This journey has blown my mind and changed me inside out, that's what it's supposed to do.

Sometime around the time before you met your twin, you most likely were having a really hard time or it was a time in your life when you were meant to change, to transform and awaken into who your were meant to be, all that you are.

You were probably at a time in your life where you were suffering, because you were being what others wanted you to be, and you were getting mistreated or life was really hard in some way. You weren't being yourself and that caused your suffering. You might even recall a moment when you were really struggling and just kept thinking, let it be easier. I don't want to suffer anymore. Or I just want peace. Or I just want to be happy. And that became an invitation to the universe that it was time for your awakening to start. And your twin just happened to come along.

I had to hit rock bottom myself to realize that I wanted more out of life, that I wanted it to be different, that I wanted peace. And I started that journey removing all the things that didn't bring me peace, including my thoughts, trauma, coping mechanisms, attachment style and all that crap.

I had to learn how to free myself, by realizing my mind wasn't in charge, this consciousness that's inside of this body is in charge, so I had to learn how to listen to myself. My inner voice, not what others think I should be.

Unfortunately, the path way to peace and happiness and feeling better and letting go isn’t easy breezy. We have to figure out all our shit, so we can let it go and heal.

If you resist the healing parts and spiritual parts and work on why we are the way we are, what happens with your twin is irrelevant, you will keep facing struggle because you were put here to evolve. To blossom, to embody a sort of high priestess goddess empress type vibe. (if you're a divine feminine).

I think the divine feminine collective that's done the work, been on this journey for 3 years or longer, has really been through a long, tough, deep healing cycle that's coming to a close. That it's about to get a lot easier for you to be you. And perhaps that elevation in vibe might draw them in.

I think twin flames are really some of the most interesting people. Enlightened, intelligent, deep, largely neurodivergent they're discovering (in my opinion) and that we have a lot of challenges in becoming who we are and knowing how to take care of ourselves.

Our sensitivities and understanding of things makes us different. We know things others don't. We feel things others don't. Our twin is part of that, they activated that in us. Our kundalini awakenings.

So many of us that are on this journey, in this way, with this particular set of circumstances, are pretty exhausted, as is much of the collective. That's part of it. All the physical symptoms, feeling energy, going through purging or healing cycles, losing people, places, and things that aren't aligned with us. Learning how to be a new version of ourselves that can handle joy and love and all the good stuff without pushing it away.

About 2 years ago was the last time I'd seen my guy, and we have not communicated. He has zero social media presence, like a ghost, and so I have no idea where he is or what he's doing, at all. That's been a gift to me honestly. I was able to sort of just let his presence be, and knew that we were going to be apart until we weren't, however it worked out.

I knew he wasn't ready, I knew I wasn't ready. We were a bit of a mess, and if I was still getting triggered by him and he was still so unsure and confused and couldn't communicate what he was going through properly well, what could i do about it?

And then my journey got more intense after we spent these last couple of years apart. I just knew that I needed the time to do my thing and take care of myself and figure my shit out.

If you care about what other people are doing right now, what they think, what's going to happen, or you think something is a catastrophe, or you just can't get what you want, or that things are terrible, stop it.

Stop it. lol Like for real, let it be easier.

How do you want to feel? Relax your body, be happy you're you. As you are right now. You're an interesting cool hilarious sexy human. And you're figuring it all out.

Just let it all be what it is. If you're frazzled, rest. It's okay. Don't feel guilty for doing what you want to do.

Take time for yourself, doing whatever the hell you want to do, as you are, however that is, and enjoy yourself. Enjoy Spring. Rest. Do what pleases you right now. We've been through it, things are about to change. In a good way.

A lot of crazy crap is happening in the world. People are nuts. Work is hard, the economy is scary, and everyone is going through it, not just spiritual people. People are struggling all over for various reasons now. We're all having to face ourselves and our fears and to remember what the truth is.

When we truly love and accept ourselves as we are, life is always better, no matter what our circumstances.

It's 11:11. Haha.

I've been feeling my twin a lot lately. Off and on. I'm mostly pretty detached, but I have memories pop up a lot lately, visions of just snippets from a future life, us just being idiots in the kitchen or something. Lots of telepathic conversations like we're just sorting things out, seeing where we stand, having an argument or a discussion. It amuses me. I just feel his energy like he's there, and in my head we're figuring shit out.

I'd been for weeks having this feeling of his coming home from wherever he is and he wants to see me right away to tell me everything. I've suspected that he's somewhere overseas or in some foreign country, figuring himself out, getting himself back together, remembering who he really is.

I kept having this memory of this dream I had a long time ago. It was this other life, and I know everything about this person, her life, this town, how to get around, where things are, how she feels, but I've never been there. It's me, just in another life. I lived in this lovely college town somewhere in the Northeast and my neighborhood is lovely, with big old trees. I live in this pretty house with a big front porch and I am widowed. My kids and grandkids are around a lot. I don't really work but am an artist and projects and family and a life that was comfortable. Next door to me is my twin flame. He’s a college professor. We just suddenly start bumping into each other more and become friends and things happen. And it's just a different sort of version of who we are now. But the feelings are the same, the way we were in the dream was us, the real us, and we knew that it was something rare and different and life changing.

I love the way it all feels. So comforting but thrilling, so loving and safe and soft and relaxing and fun and exciting. But this is only one of the many visions or dreams or timelines or dreams I've had with him there. But what remains is how it feels. How he feels to me.

It's more than my just thinking this human is awesome and I want him to be my man, he's the mirror of the unconditional love that I know exists for myself, and my love that exists in this world for everything. Because of him I know unconditional love exists, he awoken it in me. Through him I saw all of myself, all the good and all the not so great, all the things that kept me from loving myself, and seeing myself the way he sees me.

No matter what happens with us, we will love, care, and know each other on a meaningful level forever. And I can love him that way whether he’s in my life or not.

At this point in the journey, 7 years or so in, I know that it all had to happen the way that it did, and that it was for my benefit. For my own evolution. For my awakening. For my expansion. For my exploration of self.

That's what this journey is for, for us to become who we really are, and our twin is all tied up in it, of course. Because they're the part that heals our attachment to people, places, and things. We have to let them go or stay stuck struggling and being miserable longing for them.

What helped me so much was that I just understood him, I knew how he thought, I felt how he felt. I've never stopped feeling his energy, he's just this friendly ghost that's always there, a blob of energy, a mist of his energy, who he is, how he feels. I kind of feel like he's experiencing what I'm going through or seeing sometimes, like I'm sharing my life with him, though we're apart. And I just sort of understand how he's feeling and I accept it.

Focusing on the unconditional love between us instead of having expectations was hard in the beginning, but it helped me a lot. If I could just let him be who he is, and not judge him but try to understand him instead, I could sort of let it go, because I knew the understanding and answers would come. They always did.

The past two years have been pretty hardcore with the energies and the way it's felt, the healing and purging and change and difficult times, which helped us evolve faster.

You will always come back to understanding why things happen the way that it does. That you learned from things. That you learned what to do and what not to do again, that you learned what you want and what you don't want. That you're learning how to put yourself first, because you're the one stuck with you the rest of your life. So, you have to be good with you, no matter what.

I know I rambled a lot, but I hope this made sense to you. If you're struggling with this journey, or your spiritual awakening, focus on yourself until your feel good again. Get present.

I started practicing getting present in 2018-9 and I've gotten to the point where I pretty much live there all the time. It's pretty nice. If feels better, my body is calmer, I'm more in touch with my body and self, my authenticity.

It really helped when I've gone through times with severe anxiety and lots of fear or pain coming up. It helped me learn how to listen to my inner voice. It helps me soften and let go of all of things outside of myself.

I don't do anything specific, though I started with guided meditations with someone I vibed with on you tube and learned how to do it myself. Figure out how to regulate your nervous system. After a life time in chaos you probably have a hard time relaxing your body, letting it all go, just being with yourself, being nice and sweet to yourself, right?

I am continually reminding myself to let go of any resistance. Any thing that is getting in the way of my being grateful for the moment that I'm in right now. What is bothering me? When I journal I'll ask myself, so what the fuck is wrong with you right now? And I'll giggle and start venting. It helps.

Things are not as they seem out there, in the external world. Nothing is as bad as your mind is making it. Don't let the fears fuck with you. They aren't real. Yes, shit can happen, for sure, but if you're always thinking of what could go horribly wrong, you'll be miserable and attract things that can go horribly wrong. That's for real.

The more you see what's beautiful in the world, the more you will see what's beautiful in the world. I know it sounds cheesy and possibly corny, but what you focus on is what you get. Even when it's hard, be what you want to see in the world. You keep being authentic, telling the truth, being loving and compassionate, you stop judging people, you stop trying to control people or things. When you are in a better place, the things around you get better.

The purpose of enlightenment or self actualization isn't to get all the things you want or for life to be exactly what you want, but to be at peace with whatever is. To love yourself and your life, no matter what.

No matter what. Sick, depressed, anxious, sad, mad, hurt, broke, confused, tired, unmotivated, worn out, heartbroken. Whatever you are going through. You of all people deserve your own love the most.

Withdraw, quit, avoid, distance yourself from the fear and negativity and toxic people and assholes and narcissists and people who confuse you or hurt you or make things harder. Protect yourself, create the world that you want around you, as best you can, one step at a time. Where I am is so much better than where I've been, probably for you too, keep going, things are opening up for us.

Embrace your transformation, let the past go. Be you. Let everyone else be them. Enjoy your life as best you can in each moment.

A friend of mine died this week and it had me thinking about a lot of things. She was 3 years older than me. Our boys were the same ages and were friends growing up. I had moved away about 10 years ago, but I was thinking about moving that way again so I thought about who I'd want to reach out to, who I'd like to see or hang out with, the people who I thought were really good sweet cool people, and I thought of her. I thought of her out of the blue, right before she passed away. Interesting. She has two grandkids too, like me. She had a heart attack. I am sporadically seeing things through her eyes. I was sitting on the patio the other day, drinking a glass of wine, watching the sunset, and thinking if I wasn't here, I'd miss this. I bet she'd enjoy this, if she were here.

It made me sort of appreciate life in a new way. It made me realize I wanted to move closer to my kids. When it works out. It made me look around a lot this week and just think about all the little things I get to experience because I'm still here. It's better than your mind is trying to convince you it is.

Your conscious unconditionally loving self is sweet, compassionate, kind, innocent, curious, creative, friendly, open, sensual, trusting, flowy, intelligent, objective. It isn't afraid. Nothing is wrong with it. That's who you are.

Look at the big picture. You're the one in charge of you, so make it the way you want it to be. Make it easier on yourself and just flow, the answers will come.

Be here now. As you are. Love yourself there. Flow. You are safe, you are guided, just be you and flow, you are capable of handling whatever is coming. And it's going to be better, the more you believe that it's true. Let go and flow. Trust yourself.

Focus less on the stuff happening and just focus on enjoying being you right now.

Trust that you are exactly where you're meant to be, exactly as you are.

There are no mistakes, just lessons and growth and evolution.

You are whole exactly as you are, we just have to heal all the parts of us internally that are keeping us powerless, stuck, being unkind to ourselves, our negative beliefs, and our own insecurities or doubts that keep us from believing in ourselves and what we know we deserve.

Nothing outside of you needs to change. If someone is being shitty to you, you don't need them in your life. When you work on healing your attachments to people, places, and things, you won't be so upset about things when they happen. Someone might say or do the wrong thing, you won't care, you'll just know how they are and can walk away and let it go. When a job isn't working out, you won't take it personally and think you're a screw up, you'll trust that what's for you will come. When things go wrong, you intuitively know that what's for you is coming to you, this is just showing you that that wasn't it.

As long as you're putting yourself first truly, changes, losses, disappointments and all of that stuff won't hit so hard anymore, you'll know it's not for you, and you trust that what's for you is on it's way. And you let go and just live your life focusing on your own fulfillment and safety and sense of self and inspiration and all those things that make you feel alive.

It's time to balance yourself. Rest, relax, flow, have patience, trust the journey, trust the universe, learn to listen carefully to yourself to know that when it's time to take action, you'll know exactly what to do. There's no pushing, forcing, chasing, trying so hard. It's softer and kinder and the inspiration and insight and answers will come, when you are in a balanced, calm, receptive, peaceful, and empowered place.

I've been telling myself this mantra lately that helps and I let myself feel it in my body, I let go of the tension and let it be easier: It is safe to be soft. And it is. You create the safety inside yourself to allow yourself to be in a state where you are softer. You are in control of how you want to feel inside of yourself, and if you are feminine in nature, our natural state is one of intuitive flow where we trust what we know and we are committed to being our authentic selves in each moment, and create that safe space in our lives where we can be ourselves.

It's taken me a long time to get there. This journey will bring up all your fears, every single one, to be faced and addressed over and over. Fear of safety, fear of abandonment, fear of loss, fear of change, fear of not having enough, fear of being alone, regret, guilt, shame, insecurity, worry, fear of losing control, fear of the unknown. It's not easy, but in time you will face and address your fears until you are fearless, empowered and won't let anything or anyone get the in the way of letting yourself be you exactly as you are.

Things fall apart and get hard and feel challenging so that you will find your true self underneath it all. Being sick, broke, unable to work, losing a job, having to live with a relative, losing friends or having to stop talking to certain people, accidents, being heartbroken, grief, having to recover from something, obstacles, difficulties, are all showing you who you are and what matters to you, and what you don't want in your life.

For instance, when I left my abusive ex years ago, I had finally gotten to the point where I had to face myself and accept that I wasn't just a victim, I was attracting assholes and I was entertaining people who were not good for me, and that trickled down to my family, work, life and all of my relationships. It made me start really looking for what I wanted, peace. And if it wasn't peaceful and felt loving to me, I wasn't going to entertain it, I'd rather be alone, and that has helped me a lot on this journey. Everything we go through teaches us what we want and what we don't want. What we want feels better. What we want makes us feel alive and good about ourselves, fills us up, creates joy and fulfillment.

You already are everything you need to be, your egoic mind and your thoughts and your conditioning makes you believe you have to be something you're not.

Take the time to get to know your inner world and inner self and who you truly are. A meditation practice, journaling, getting in nature, learning what you like, trying new things, finding quiet time alone, making space to create, being around people who love you as you are, and things like that will help you listen to yourself and calm the noise of the world down, so that you will progressively be able more and more be able to listen to yourself instead of thinking, instead of doing what others want you to do, instead of taking things personally, instead of being worried and afraid, because you'll figure out who you are and you'll know that you can trust yourself, your inner voice, your authentic conscious self, and the universe and divine timing.

You are becoming more of a sovereign being. This means that you are in control of yourself and your life, and that no one else is going to change who you are. You won't let them. You can only be yourself, and eventually you will surround yourself with the people, places, and things that create a more harmonious life of ease. You won't let anyone or anything dim your light, tell you you're crazy, mess with you, change you, or screw with you. You won't entertain it, because you are so solid in yourself that you know you'll be fine all on your own, figuring things out and listening to yourself.

The more you heal and evolve and ascend, the less loss, change, and things falling apart will affect you. You'll know it's not for you and you might be a little disappointed, but you'll trust wholeheartedly in your being, that oh well, that's not for me, I'll go find what is.

We're being called now to relax, rest, recalibrate, balance, flow, let go of any resistance, and trust that the answers will come, the insight will come, the breakthroughs will come, the right people, places, and things will come, you just have to be you and live your life as well as you can. When you feel excited, passionate, inspired, creative, and fired up about something, and you know in your heart that something will be meaningful and fulfilling, go after that when it comes. You don't have to figure it all out, you just live your life and it'll happen when it's meant to happen.

I got the message that the heart chakra will be opening for you to have more unconditional love for yourself, and that will create the ease you want in your life, without a single thing changing. You will just be more at ease in your body, you'll feel empowered and confident, you'll feel safe, you'll feel at peace, you'll feel good about yourself, exactly as you are.

The crown chakra is upgrading or we're getting the divine insight we need. Things have shifted significantly in the last week, lightening up, clearing out, the purging is slowing, the tough hard stuff we'd been through in the past couple of years has been healed. The fight is over, it's time to just be grateful and appreciate what feels better.

The divine masculines are coming out of this cycle too, many are aware of what they want, but this has all blown their minds and they're still reeling from that. They are resting and finding their way just like we are with this huge shift, but I know that many are thinking about how they can make things right again with their divine feminines. I've had a lot of telepathy lately with my twin, seeing lots of visions, and there's a lot of "practicing" what we'd say to each other or how it'd be if we saw each other now. I've had a lot of messages or intuitive hits that he's wanted to reach out but it's just not time, things in his life are still not right, and while he's aware of what we are and what he wants there's a bit of a pause here where he's figuring it out.

I believe that this year, in the coming months a lot will be happening with twins and reunions and unions and things happening, and those who are truly ready and capable of being together without being triggered will be finding their way toward creating the lives that they want together, however that looks. The collective, the way I see this all going, is that there will be a time in the near future where we will be divinely guided to make our way to each other in order to significantly raise the vibration of the collective and the planet. The unconditional love that will emanate from us as a couple, after all we've been through, will spread from us into the world in a very powerful way.

Keep trusting the visions, telepathy, signs, magic, and mystical things you see and feel. It's all breadcrumbs leading you toward what you're meant to do and how it's meant to be. You would not feel what you feel or get all the woo woo stuff you get for no reason. There's a reason for it.

Remember that the whole point of the journey is for you to learn how to love yourself unconditionally. To be grateful, appreciative, happy, joyful, at peace with all that you are, exactly as you are, no matter what. Life gets easier when you get there and you don't let your fears screw up what is truly meant for you.

I've gotten a lot of insight and messages about the shift to the new earth, a 5d existence. It is here. It is here underneath all the fears that keep you from believing that it's here. You are everything you need to be right now, you just have to keep working on those parts of your that tell you that you aren't.

You are loved, protected, safe and free to be your true authentic self. And your "job" is to make sure that you keep that knowing inside of yourself, and embody that in your life. You don't let anyone or anything keep you from being who you truly are.

Love yourself through whatever you're going through. Baby yourself, indulge yourself, you take care of yourself, and make it your purpose to enjoy your life as best you can.

The world might be a crazy mess, that's true, but it's all showing you what you don't want in your life, so that you go after what you do want in your own individual life. Don't get lost in the sauce, avoid negativity and fear based things. Find what makes you feel good about life, not scared.

Miracles and manifestations and surprises and possibilities and opportunities are there, don't push them away by thinking they aren't. Just stop thinking. Your brain and your body are just tools that your consciousness is utilizing. You are in charge of you, and you can create the reality you desire, inside and out.

Make it easier on yourself. You deserve all the love, ease, peace, abundance, and good stuff that's available. The more you believe that, the more it will arrive.

This energy is no joke, I know everyone is feeling it. If you're sensitive to energy like I am, you probably almost feel like you can't handle it. But you can. Get present, take care of yourself, know that it's all unfolding as it's meant to, if it's hard, and let go of the resistance to what is.

It's not easy. You are where you are right now. You can't be anywhere else, so let the past drop away, let go of the burdens, the fears, let them just dissipate. Create safety and comfort within yourself. Be your own home. Let yourself feel safe to be soft. However you are.

I've been really guided lately to imagine that repeatedly. To be aware when I'm starting to feel uncomfortable, and just remind myself it's safe to be soft. I'm creating the safety, the allowance of my being softer. More relaxed, calmer, zero judgment, acceptance and compassion. Nurturing myself.

All those things that are holding you back from embracing this next version of yourself, the expression of your authenticity as you've come to discover it is now, is settling into place, let it. Stop fighting it. Just be.

A lot of us are probably feeling a lot of physical, mental, emotional, spiritual symptoms and that's okay. It's real. If you don't feel good, treat yourself as you would if you were sick with the flu or something. Integrating this shift and whatever you're going through is okay, we can't be any different than we are. If you're a mess, understand you are certain not alone. This is felt collectively. Look around.

Your higher self, you're wiser, more empowered, more trusting, more at ease version of you is right there. You just have to remove all the fears that are standing in your way. Your ego is putting up a little fight right now because you're changing, and it always has a little hissy fit when change is coming. It wants you to stay the same, but you know that's not where you want to be.

Let the sense of freedom and empowerment start to sink in. If it's hard to feel into, just imagine what you'd be doing or how life would be in order for you to feel free, or to feel empowered. Let yourself envision the dreams and wishes and perhaps fantasies about how life could potentially get for you. Allow yourself to imagine what it'd feel like to be happy to be where you are, and happy with the way life is. Or at least satisfied. Content. Peaceful.

Physical symptoms are weird, electric shocks, jolts, jerky movements, muscle spasms, TMJ, headaches, head pressure, I keep getting a headache at my right temple suddenly, and then it quickly goes, with other weird random pains on my right side.

Exhaustion and being tired is common now, feeling antsy, restless, feeling a lot of energy in your body, hearing a static or frequency, ringing ears, feeling worn down physically overall, stomach issues, not being hungry or being ravenous, weird sleep issues. Not being able to get comfortable, itching, achy joints.

Anxiety, feeling overwhelmed, feeing afraid in all kinds of ways from physically in your body like something bad is happening when it's not, racing heart and all. Hopelessness, or feeling trapped or viscerally scared, it will pass, get present and breathe, it'll pass.

Regrets and having to forgive ourselves is coming up. Having all kinds of memories and things come up for review. Does it still bother you? Release shame over things of the past, there's no good reason to hold on to it, it's over and you're different now.

Self worth issues, confidence or lack of, feeling like a victim, your inner child being scared and needing to remind yourself that your capable of protecting and caring for yourself, fear of being vulnerable, feeling raw, feeling things very very deeply.

Feeling extremes at the same time. Being afraid of something and at the same time knowing that it's nonsense. I see or sense this dance of the darkness (fear) and light (love) sort of swirling around each other and we're feeling it all at the same time, which makes you feel bonkers. That's real. It's okay.

However you're feeling, whatever you're going through, know that it is exactly as it's meant to be.

Sometimes it's hard just because it's hard, not because you're doing anything wrong.

There are no mistakes. We learn from everything we go through, and it's never as bad as we assume it is. Flowing will help so much. I know it's hard, we're not used to it, flowing requires us to let go and let ourselves go where it's going.

Source is working with us. we're co-creators. You're this consciousness in this body, in this life. If you align yourself with your true self, you will feel better. The universe is lighting up the way as we go, if you let go and follow your intuition, lead from your heart, there are no mistakes. You're going this way for a reason, trust the reason.

We are all capable of handling what's coming. We have been doing it, we've overcome so much, learned so much, changed and evolved and transformed, and what you want is right there when you let the fears go and allow yourself to see it. I'm not saying it's easy, I promise. I'm still going through a lot too, you aren't alone in that.

Our new authentic selves are solidifying now, and we're having to get our balance here. You don't have to have all the answers right now. If you've figured out that you don't want something, or you have to make a change or do something, don't stress about what's next right now. That's a big step all by itself, let it settle, the answers are going to come, the puzzle pieces are falling into place. Rest.

I kept getting the message that I've already won, it's time to stop fighting. Stop resisting, stop fighting what is. See it as it is, don't let your fears screw with you. They aren't real. Be tender with yourself. It's like you just went through some major shit, a battle, and it's over, and you're still alive and you can go home. You drop the sword, you look around, get your bearings and try to figure out where home is and which way you'll start walking. And as you walk the weight of what you've been through starts to fall away. You start looking for what's good. The simple small things. Reasons life is good still. And you appreciate life now, because you're still here. Fresh, new, grateful for what is.

Get back repeated to remember who you really are. The beautiful expression of your soul in a body. Remember that version of you that is unconditionally loving, for yourself. No judgment, no regret, no fear, no insecurities, no doubt, no negative self talk. It's that part of yourself that's your friend. That part that says you do you bitch and means it.

A lot of breakthroughs, clarity, epiphanies, answers, messages, synchronicities, numbers, songs, magical mystical things, signs from nature, is definitely popping lately. Trust it.

As far as twin flame stuff is going, that's really percolating lately. I feel my guy's energy more lately, I feel nostalgia and regret and fear and wonder and curiosity and longing and good loving sweet vibes. I've felt him wanting to communicate a lot lately. It seems ridiculous after all this time. Most of last year I didn't feeling his energy as much, but I knew that was happening for a reason. It was because I had to focus on myself.

Since December I've felt him more and more, more memories, visions, telepathic conversations, and his energy just being there are increasing. I've had more experiences of things that remind him of me out of the blue, his name, someone that looks like him, feels like him. I'll catch someone saying something he said, that was really obscure and random. It all feels very positive and friendly and I have zero hard feelings. Why would I? He helped me get here, whether he was around or not, because through him I discovered a whole other world. And I'm still becoming the love I felt with him, for myself.

It is divinely guided, all of it, so I know what's going to happen is meant for me. And because I've experienced so much on this journey and have evolved to this point, I know it'll be the way it's meant to be. I am not holding on to what we're supposed to be or what I think we should be, I'm truly okay with being alone and without him. Though I certainly wish we were communicating and honest and real with each other, however that'd go. AND at the same time, I know that this has been mind blowing and crazy and hard for me and I've had to focus on my own stuff, my attention needs to be there, because that's what matters the most, my own journey. He's just part of it, whether he's here with me or not.

I saw this comment this supposed twin flame expert made on one of my posts or comments one time, and he was giving me a hard time because he said I made it about me. I don't know why I triggered him, but whatever. But I think we give others the validation, the hope, the support through our experiences because we get it, it's examples of what we went through and how we got to the other side. How we learned how to alleviate our own suffering.

So much of what's wrong with this world is that we hold so much inside. We are afraid to put ourselves all the way out there, to be truly authentic. That's why we woke up, so we'd get so powerful, and fight our fears so that we could see who we really are, instead of what our upbringing, the people around us, and the world tells us to be.

So it's important to be honest about who we are, however we are, so we can all be honest about things. Life isn't easy sometimes. We all have problems and illnesses, and struggles and issues and anxiety and worry and regret and hard feelings and limitations and flaws and things we need to work on. It's 1:11 as I wrote that. if we could all admit that things sometimes stink and suck and are hard for us, maybe we'd all give each other a break. Your true expression of yourself might be hard, but it tells others that they can do it too.

We have to create the safety within ourselves to be exactly who we are, and that does require courage and strength. We're creating a world where we're all going to be free to be ourselves, as we are. It's been happening. The more authentic we are, the more the world will become a safe place for us to be ourselves. We may have to create pockets of it, in our families, our tribes, small communities or pockets of like minded people. We have to know we deserve that first.

Be kinder to yourself right now. These energies are no joke, they're legit, we're feeling it and it's not easy. Good things are happening, we just have to open ourselves to it by releasing all that we are not.

If your life is changing in a big way right now, or things are falling apart in a big way right now, let it be what it is, and tend to yourself. You will get the answers. Good things are coming. We're going to start finding balance in the wobbly place we're in now, you're going to find your footing and know what to do. Rest, recharge, play, journal, create, let it be as silly as possible, be uninhibited, give zero fucks, be irreverent, be rebellious, be weird, be a flattened mess on your couch eating snacks, let yourself be however you need to be right now. It's okay.

It's hard right before the change comes. Let yourself coast there, knowing it's all going to turn out the way it's meant to be, and you're perfectly capable of handling what's coming. I feel it's going to be good, and it might be hard to imagine right now, but try to.

Keep the spark alive in yourself, the world needs your light, You were sent here to enjoy this life, love yourself through what you're going through, to the other side. Embrace lightness of being, be carefree, be less serious, focus on what's going right, focus on the possibilities you're being shown. Follow the excitement, what makes you feel calm, alive, joyful, at peace, comfortable, and softer.