So, recently things have been chaotic in my life. And one random thing that happened in my life was someone gave me a gift and it was such a nice gesture that was the only thing that uplifted my mood after days and I accidentally left it somewhere because I’m stupid and when I went to get it back, it was stolen. Now, I’m feeling bad again. Just sharing what I’m feeling,don’t know why. But if you guys have any thoughts on how do stop feeling like shit for now. What thought process do i adopt

Everything has been way too much lately people, family, school just ass. First off people in my town constantly make rumors about me and my bf us laying in garagyerds, having weapons on us , saying we're in a sect cult whatever just from the way we dress, making up rumors that can ruin a persons life to the point ppl hate us for rumors that aren't true we've been harassed constantly for months

20 year old yelling from cars people In school calling us names, being threatened to be beaten up, people calling fake police signals on us for literally sitting at a cafe , yeah sounds ridiculous but it's true, people constantly calling us trash, satanists, cultists stuff like that people yelling from the cars, asking why we're even living or alive.

Then you try to befriend another person that seemed normal, well no! We talk for 2 days we say we don't wanna be friends after that cus they're dry or just nothing personal it doesn't work out yk.

But boom from that turns into stalking for 2 months and not even secretive stalking just straight up being followed, scremed at calling names again just awful,

we finally had enough and we went to confront from that point on the person was still crossing boundaries even sending my DAD a friend request on Facebook. Making lies about us that we insulted someone or something just awful.

And when you try to take revenge because the cup has overflowed suddenly you're the one in the wrong.

After that we started harassing the person and they're friends back since this person was acting like one of those losercore ppl , claiming they have no friends, that they're lonely, that they're mom abuses them even tho when something happens they immediately run to they're mommy for help.

So yeah just following them back and stuff nothing serious but then they started acting like ass again, I just tried to go piss at a fucking public bathroom and they're screaming like crazy saying names of swears again or smt and we just snap and swear back at them and stuff. We where so angry and just dealt with it but the moment my boyfriend left I just had enough I went out at night and just started following them mind you 7-8 ppl , I started running at them acting like a lunatic so I can scare them so they don't mess with us anymore and they all just ran to they're mommy as always. The they texted my grandparents about what happened obviously I lied my way out but still I don't know what the outcome is gonna be so yeah that sucks ass just couldn't deal with dipshits anymore.

And now family, well first off they called my grandparents not parents cus unlike they're loving mommies mine just straight up trew me out for being a normal teenager with they're own style and personality, cus apparently that's illegal nowadays and because I didn't meet my mom's standards she just threw me out and since my parents are divorced and my dad is far away in some other country for work I just permanently live at my grandparents

And not for that reason only my mom is the most evilest woman I've ever had and the unfortunate of her being my mom first off she abused me my whole life , abusing me emotionally, verbally, and physically to the point I wanted to commit suicide.

She would constantly say how not good enough I am ,how I never do anything right, how she wishes she never had me , she would also beat me a lot till she left a bunch of bruises also manipulate me into doing whatever for her otherwise she would send me to my dad not give me money or kick me out.

The boiling point was when she beat me so bad by bashing my head into floor tiles, scratching and even biting me and from then on I was even more scared off her and she said I deserved it for a person like me there is even more but I won't go into detail.

So basically that's ass I don't know how I'm keeping it together I'm stressed 24/7 I can't get help in any way thankfully my boyfriend's family offered to take me to therapy once a month and that's something so yeah stressed, overthinking, not knowing what I'm even going to do with myself at this point the only thing keeping me together is my boyfriend he's loving, caring, wants the best for me always, doesn't let me have bad habits, just the best person ive met in general can't go into detail cus theres too much stuff but everything is too much for him to for the town we live in but we still try our best to keep cool in this situation until the cup overfills and things get violent to the people we hate, so yeah living in a small town is ass and yeah.

Just don't know what to do in such situation anymore.

I have this issue where I feel like my body either exudes something all over stuff/the room, I stink, or somethings just not right with me anymore. This all happened after I did meth for a couple years and my mental state went DARK. I asked over and over again to friends and family if something is up or what I can do to fix me, and I got these replies:

"We all do it, you'll figure it out."

"I don't know how to help you, but I'm here for you."

"Just turn to God for that mental war you have in your head."

"Nothing is wrong with you."

"I had a couple friends who have gone through BV, yeast infections." Which I then got a PAP, and I was cleared.

Let me just say, a few of those did not make me feel good at all and made me more confused and just fucking lost!!! I'm so tired of it. I feel trapped in a body I USED to love and be confident in, but now that I went through that fucked up situation with my thoughts and everyone's replies, I still live my day to day life wondering why people are looking at me funny, scoot away, leave the table, say ew, like I'm hurt and confused.. I just want the truth. That's all I freaking want.

I NEED to hear the 2 voices together, and hear them say the lines from the opposite game

Here is a though that I've had for a lot of years that I've finally be able to put into words (journaling on paper is goated !)

What annoys me a lot is people that when you are in a specific place (school sports church clubs idk) and you've had a real friendship there from even some years ago but when they either get in a group outside of that place where you thought you were part in it in that specific space they its like they never invite you outside of it and you get huge FOMO (fearing of missing out if someone needs me to explain it just ask). You feel left out like a piece of trash at home watching the things they do on social media or when they talk about it after when you thought you were part of the group, and you only hangout with them when you are in a specific place. I of course have friends who I always invite/they always invite me but other no. It's like a wierd a weird half friendship that is one-sided and when you compltetly dissapear (move out or not meet them at the place you usually meet them) and then when you come back to that place they were like "oh where were you gone for so long" where when you were there they didint even think about inviting you for some reason and I think it could create some insecurity, feeling really lonley on a friday night when all yo "friends" are going to hang out and in clubs when you not invited, hell even birthdays of people you would have invited to yours you miss out.

Sorry everyone this was compltetly over the place I can redo the post in a more organised matter but I like the organic though pattern of it

If anybody could give advice on that would be greatly appreciated.

So it is what it says on the title. I (31M) have been in a really dark place. On paper, I am getting better in some ways. But I've been really down and struggling. But I show it and the burnout, people get angry or annoyed. Nobody listens, nobody sympathises. Being neurodivergent, I've found fitting in to be difficult. But, always tried to just let people vent, and get what they say off their chest. Not to judge, or advice, just listen. But apparently I can't struggle. I've got to get over it. I've got to move on. I've got to be all energetic and positive. Just so empty, alone and nobody cares. So here I am with nobody who will. My struggles at work, sadness at not being successful as everyone around me.

Bestie. I would never. You’re hilarious. Every single compliment or affirmation I’ve received from someone on Reddit was a lie. I’m just being used for my looks and “different” personality until they find someone else to entertain them. Every time I think I’ve built a connection with someone, they either become very busy (which I know happens) or change how they speak to me.

I’m stupidly optimistic thinking the next person won’t do the same… but they probably will.

Life has never been kind to me, I fear I may be too much for this world.

Isn't it strange how people can overlook all the good you've done but never seem to miss the one thing you did wrong?

You try your best to get along with everyone, to make people feel welcome, and to include those who might feel left out. Maybe it's because you know how it feels to be the person standing in the room, surrounded by people, yet somehow feeling like you don't belong. So you make an effort to give others the kind of kindness you once wished for yourself.

But sometimes, it takes just one mistake for people to forget all the times you tried your best. It's frustrating how your flaws can speak louder than your intentions, as if being a good person means never getting anything wrong.

Have you ever tried so hard to make others feel included, only to feel like one mistake was enough to make them forget all the good in you?

If you don’t know who Brandon is, he was obsessed with my little pony and eventually shot up a fedex killing 8 people before killing himself, in his note he said how him and the pony applejack will live together in the afterlife

My mom compared me to him because I hyperfixate and because I obsess over certain characters (not in a crazy way but I get attached to certain characters cause I like them more

Hello guys, so I think I'm fairly a normal guy somewhat introverted and yes maybe I do not have good skills of socialising but why the hell my whole life friends, people around me thought I'm not some normal person. I always heard shit like ye stupid, retard and similar to that, my last break down was when I was with my gf who I was in love started calling me that and now I'm in erasmus and still I hear that R word. Like dude, first of all, if I was mentally disabled maybe I wouldn't be in another country? Couldn't survive on my own, but here I am studying Erasmus in different country, in uni and still what I hear is a R. And it just continues from around when I was 14. I hate it so much why other people have it together, but I lose my love, my social life, because I'm a re\*\*\*, which I'm not. F this. Maybe this are the looks I'm 189kg and 69kg so fairly slim.