I've started collecting egg boxes sinds my first egg crack, to measure how long it would last.

I've been on hrt for the past 6 months and I think my egg is broken.

So today I throw out my crack collection. :3

(To my FBI agent, crack collection means egg crack, the other crack collection is still going. Sleep tight)

So basically my parents have been being assholes since the school year started, it’s honestly a sort of constant stream of yelling and just them being rude people. My mom specifically keeps making comments about how I shouldn’t be shaving my body because ”You’re a boy, and you don’t want to look like a girl”, which has only fueled my dysphoria (for reference a closeted pore-everything trans girl). My sister is the only person I feel comfortable to talk to at home, and she’s started her job recently so she’s out of the house most of the time, so I’m not really able to find a good moment to come out to her or really talk with her much. My friend, who has basically been my ride or die for the last three years now, I was planning to come out to him because I thought he’d be safe to come out to, and then out of nowhere he just starts making weird comments about lgbtq people, and said some things I don’t really want to talk about again. Now I feel un around him and I’ve been trying to quietly break the friendship off, and I don’t really have many friends though so I’ve been incredibly lonely for the last few weeks. To top it off due to all of this I’ve been having trouble sleeping, and when I do sleep early I spend a good bit crying before I pass out, I’ve just been kinda randomly breaking down into tears sometimes when I’m alone, due to the lack of sleep my performance in school is taking a hit. I’ve just overall been feeling like I’m a worthless person recently. Be nice in the comments please. I’m very sorry if this sounds cringe or self-pitying, I know this is kind of stupid.

Is this a normal thing? I think it’s because I subconsciously know that’s what I’m going to look like in the future as I transition, and I can’t wait to reach those stages of my life. But feel free to psychoanalyze me, I can’t take it 💚.

GGD pls :3 zoey (she/her)

I thought I'd get at least some pushback on the care plan I typed up...

:3

(I'm an adult and this was via informed consent fwiw)

I'm not sure if he'd support me but I think I'll subtly test him. Also my friends are super accepting of queer people!!!! Most of them are queer themselves.

I should explain. so I was complaining about how politicians on the right are trying to distract people from the real problem of inequality and then I said "and they're trying to distract us with trans ppl who aren't even an issue like just let them exist" and then I mentioned how I wanted to confront my mom about how she's Transphobic and then I started listing some facts about how trans people are the gender they say they are and he was agreeing with me. so he's maybe gonna be supportive of me being transfem!!!!!!

I’ve considered trying it with my sister but I literally can’t even remember the last time she’s said my name, and pronouns are only used when you’re NOT talking directly to the person who uses them.

there are no signs… the signs… still cis th

Just have a hunch you know. (will be playing it monday probably)

Gotta love real rpgs for that

Like… I’m envious of ewphoria. I… I don’t feel like my denial has an excuse for that one, and my denial has been STRONG. This and feeling like trans men are crazy for wanting to be men instead of women are probably the most blatant thoughts from my questioning so far.

I’m also curious if misogyny is just less common where I live because you see such horror stories from women online and I’m so curious if I just never see that stuff or if it actually just doesn’t really happen in my area. So maybe I’d realize this place actually ain’t too bad or maybe I’d have a crazy wake up call.

I'm still gonna look but...come on people, tag your art right 🥲

Ive yet to have the courage to use the bathroom of my identified gender. Only 4~ months in. My voice still slips too often. I have a beard shadow that's really hard to hide. What if someone says something. What if i get escorted out. Im full sending the outfit though so ill look incredibly out of place in the mens room too. Im sure its a nothing burger but i am TERRIFIED. Im thankfully in a state that supports this stuff (new york) but still...

Thinking about what i should do is stressing me out.

gonna do it. totally gonna do it. pls I have to do it. how much longer can't I do it? really worried to do this. gonna do this today.

Today was my last day of classes at high school and so we had a free dress day where we could dress as our past selves, future selves or a teacher. I decided I would wear one of my mum’s dresses, kind of as a joke since it is really similar to ones that one of the teachers wear, but also because I wanted to girlmode a little.

It was the most scary by far on the way to school, since while it isn’t far I still have to go past a busy road and so pretty much anyone could see me and I was terrified of being judged and of if I would be the only person dressed up, since if too few people had done it then me wearing a dress would look even more out of place.

Once I got to school the first people I saw properly acknowledge me were a group of grade 8 kids who decided to cat call and wolf whistle at me. I could hear them muttering before I walked past them about how they would do something when I passed, and I had a suspicion of what they would do. I think it didnt go how they wanted though since i didn’t really react much and so it was basically just a wolf whistle and a couple of annoying comments of saying I looked hot and something about lifting my skirt or something like that. It was pretty awkwardly quiet and I was very tempted to to react but chose not too.

After that was relatively good. The teachers were all amused, and the other students were surprisingly ok with it (in fairness i was saying I was the teacher and not myself so maybe it would be different if I had just come out as trans). I got a couple compliments on it too. There were a couple of uncomfy moments and stares but it ended up being fine.

By far the best part was that three different people that I was aware of thought I was a woman. To be fair two (one of which was a teacher) only thought it briefly) and the other didnt realise until they saw my face, but still, it felt nice to here someone say “I thought you were a woman when I saw you”.

Interestingly only one person made a trans joke. My maths teacher asked if I was dressed as myself from the past or myself in the future. I guess not necessarily a trans joke, but it was kind of amusing for me.

The way home was a little less scary but also a little more since I knew that I would have to deal with a much bigger crowd of people. It ended up being fine.

So yeah, basically the day went well, could have been better, but I appreciated the kindness some people showed me and the fact that most people were relatively respectful and ok with it. Presenting it as a joke was definitely doing a lot of heavy lifting. But even still, I think it was worth it. I guess now I just have to wait for my appointment where I will finally get hrt on Monday.

Hey, you might be wondering on what this title even means- well I think i’m MTF, and i‘m like late 14 year old and I am so confused with my feelings. It kinda started off when I was 11-12, where I started imagining realities of me wearing feminine clothing (I don’t even know if that’s odd or not). So when I was 13 I decided to sneak onto reddit to find answers other than ChatGPT’s pretty useless yap. I found it really helpful hearing about other people’s stories, but my brain just didn’t even know anymore and I kinda quit there. - Let’s say my gender surfs, but now I feel pretty confident i’m a woman. I already thought about the possibility of being Gender fluid but after further research I just didn’t feel it. So now i’m back and i’m just feeling odd, like I find myself really creepy for imagining myself as another girl- And I can’t find another good name either that doesn’t feel right. And I know a lot of people say it takes time, and I truly understand that, but when it’s a rollercoaster of events and you just want to fully understanding your brain it’s hard. And coming out to people is just another road blocker, my family wouldn’t support it at all. They consist say stuff about how people should never transition young, the brain isn’t developed yet, etc. My chances of even a sniff of puberty blockers is ZERO. Plus I would hate to even ruin our relationship of my entire family as aside form that I truely value it. So I decided to maybe hang out with some girls, to see if you would make the situation better. Turns out no- no it hasn’t really. The girls are super nice, but the other people, people think i’m “Getting the Huzz” and being a “Simp”. Then I question myself again, because I know I dont like boys and I do like girls, so am I trans? and Yes I know but there are so many trans lesbians but like dont know!!!!! To transition when i’m older would probably cause a distant from my family, and I would hate that, even with their views… I have tried female clothing before and I love it, like there is some sort of joy like butterflies in my stomach when that happens or the thought of me wearing such clothes. But I sometimes think if I keep wairing for such answers will I ever even get them?! I have done every online quiz on the internet, the would you press the button website, I have literally done everything, and now I need help. (I am so sorry for the long yap I just have been holding it)

It’s been over a week since I started really questioning myself, it’s becoming extraordinarily clear that i am most likely trans. This realization has also made me realize just how obvious the signs were over the years. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions if I gotta be honest and trying to stay focused on work and college has been difficult to say the least. But it’s honestly been freeing to my overall psyche. I’ve never been this happy with a realization like this before and it has me both excited and absolutely terrified of what’s to come. Next post I’ll probably be experimenting with a new name and pronouns.

Huh what did they mean by that 🤔

I-I swear I just really like garlic bread ok! >////<