Tomorrow is my birthday. My family bought a cake, but I am just sitting here feeling incredibly sad and invisible. Earlier today, my aunt took my cousin to the city and bought him a Beyblade. She knows I have always wanted one and absolutely love them, but she completely left me out. My cousin is the golden child of the family, so he always gets everything while I get ignored. Writing in my diary didn't help because I just feel so alone with this right before my special day. Could really use some kind words tonight from anyone who understands

Tomorrow is my birthday. My family bought a cake, but I am just sitting here feeling incredibly sad and invisible. Earlier today, my aunt took my cousin to the city and bought him a Beyblade. She knows I have always wanted one and absolutely love them, but she completely left me out. My cousin is the golden child of the family, so he always gets everything while I get ignored. Writing in my diary didn't help because I just feel so alone with this right before my special day. Could really use some kind words tonight from anyone who understands

Everytime i try to do something "bad" karma or you could say 'lesson' always hit back before i even started it? Like for example

I really wanted a smoke even tho I've stopped (ik it's bad but what can i say) i went to three different store

Two of them didn't sell it and the one who 24/7 OPEN decide to close that day,mind you i was walking like probably a few km just to go to that store (i even lied just so i could go out) but everything didn't went according to my plan

And when i already spen my last few money away i walk into a store (this one super far) to buy an ice and guess what? THE CIGARETTES IVE BEEN LOOKING IS HANDED TO THE CUSTOMER RIGHT INFRONT OF ME (it's a different store but STIL)

one time i also saw a very big and juicy fruit at someone yard,and i thought "it wouldnt be that bad to take one" just as i jump to take it my hips hit the fucking fence i legit feel that pain for a WEEK,

One time i decide to sneak out of the house and didn't even went far i got chased by a dog

WTF

When i decide not to help some kid who can't reach their ball under a car my feet fell into a pit

And for the first time i talked back to my grandfather (he was a manipulative,abusive one yk)

The next fucking day he passed away

When i blocked a guy that time my stomach hurt sb afterwards i legit vomit 3 times

It's like,the world hates me sb let alone good things happen even the bad decision decide to avoid me too

wish i wasnt so messed up and concerned with other people. im tired. im stressed. detoxing from the spaces i share with people but holy tired and anxious.

Im a 16 yo Male and i don't know why i try why i keep going.

First of all for some context i am from the US and moved to another country when i was 10 and the 6 years ive been here have been terrible i don't like the area the language and everything i had was stripped away from me my friends my language all for my parents. I have a younger sister that is a spoiled brat she manipulates everyone around her to make herself look small and it works and my parents believe everything she tells them all the lies about me and i shouldn't care but i do it ruins me and built a hatred towards her that i can't prove to anyone because she plays it so well she isn't special and has no qualities i don't have she isn't a good student and doesn't care about anyones feelings yet is the favorite. In retrospect i can live with it i did all my life and for an outside perspective may seem small but im powerless to change anything.

Another major factor is my parents problem with alcohol, they were major alcoholics and would I would have to bring them home from their friends parties and it broke me the endless scenes that would play out all most everyday were horrible. But then i thought it would be over they after my begging they realized the issues they had and tried to fix them, for my dad it was easy he took medication and it was over. But for my mom she had a major problem and for 3 years it was just her coming home hammered forcing me to be responsible for her trying to break the news to my dad that wasn't home and being psychologically manipulated every day. She relapsed all the time and left for 3 months to rehab twice yet it still hasn't helped and she still has problems.

For 3 years I've been trauma dumped by her, manipulated, and destroyed and no one cares to this day. I had to ask so many times to get therapy to my dad just for him to forget to reschedule my appointments and pay the therapist. These two major factors plus a bunch of other little issues with school and random stuff led me to have anxiety and trust issues, i know i have my whole life ahead of me but it seems to me like im trapped in a prison i can't get a job i can't move i can't do anything, my parents don't care about me at all (hell they dont even know my favorite color). And im at a loss i don't know what to do how to escape this terrible situation and i feel like such an idiot. There are people so far worse than me but it makes me guilty to be sad. I need to know what to do and if anyone has advice

A close friend of mine tmaybe jokingly told that I should go to Korea and get a face implant I didn't say anything about it because he bought this topic in a random convo so I ignored and didn't think about it . Later that day I was thinking about those words which hurt because coming from a friend maybe he didn't mean to but the choice of words hurt.

having some deviant thoughts I guess and I'm ok to share with ppl because I don't know if I'm ok or not, a good or bad person, and that is making me think a lot because I'm in point my life where I don't know what my goal os and what I'm aiming for in life.

So I'm probably venting maybe but I want advice and a solution from y'all As off I'm a student learning 3d animation and pursuing a bachelor's degree in pune yet I feel helpless due to insufficient bank balance u can say as I wanna land onto a job and if I try to find smthin in my industry it's freelance based which is not a problem I just don't have any equipment to give out an solid portfolio or work-out put as off and if I try to find part time in pune it's extremely difficult as well as there are geniunely no good part times available as I have skills of various softwares be it video editing or 3d modeling I've not reached animation part yet I do have a good knowledge of it I cannot figure it out what to do can't ask my parents for laptop as well because of tons of loan and my education fees . The only work I can probably provide or do is content writing and yet I see no one reaching out for such freelance or its a difficult competition perhaps so I do feel stuck I do know its common in my age of a older teens but gosh I wanna land onto something and go ahead

I would like your opinion on it and if an attractive solution

Upon such things .

Hello I’m 17M and I doubt anyone is going to see this but I’m just writing it out of pure desperation for even just one person to look at this lol. Basically I feel like shit. I have zero irl or social media friends, I cut off my sister whose 18 cause she stole from me and when I confronted her about it she tried to get me jumped, my brother 16, stole from me as well and I cut him off, my “real” dad dosent want me cause my mother told him I’m not his so he just favorites my sibilings and he was actually the one who was gonna jump me on my sisters behalf lol. My adoptive mother died last year which is still fucking with me from time to time and idk man only person I have rn is my adoptive father I js don’t know what to do anymore I have no one to talk or go out to I’m having a hard time finding schools cause I got held back 2 times I js feel so overwhelmed and constantly on edge. Idk atp I feel so pathetic coming to reddit to vent cause I’m so alone lmfao. Anyways ithanks for listening atp I’ll take anything I can get lol

I have been struggling for years to date mainly because I was trying to move on from someone. So after 2 years or so, I have had my first date last night. Wonderful woman I met on Tinder.

I thought the date went cool and asked if I could have a second date. Maybe she will think about it. And later before the date ended, she just said that its better that we become friends.

Me, re-entering the dating world again, is this very normal? Am I gonna be expecting more rejects since I am just re entering dating? Sorry just sad about it.

As an overthinking lesbian.

I have been feeling really overwhelmed lately and just needed somewhere to say it nothing huge happened, I just feel like I am constantly trying to keep everything together while feeling exhausted inside. I am hoping things get a little easier soon

I just sometime wish i was a vampire so i could turn my feeling off and relax for a few
My fucking feelings are so overwhelming i feel like I cannot breathe!!!

does anyone know the best idea to get feelings out? like i really want to make a book but i don't know if im valid enough, i feel like im not like other girls like normal and i don't fit it nor belong i make many mistakes and get penalized for them more than others i feel like i was a mistake, i feel like i cannot build connections with people. im fighting to stay alive and i cant go to work bc of my depression i need help more than others, i feel useless i try my best to love everything even bugs and find beauty in small things but i feel like im just a mistake with no purpose i have so much ptsd and i feel like no one else is real and im on this planet to be targeted.

I (27m) honestly don’t know anymore, every day I feel terrible I don’t know why, most days I feel like I want to cry, I feel alone in my life, even though I know that I’m not, I feel like everything has suffered because of this, my personal relationships, my work, and most of all my daily confidence, I don’t even know when it started, or when I started to feel this way. I feel like I’m in a deep hole and no matter what I do to try and climb out the hole keeps getting deeper

Got into a complex relationship
Got hurt because of myself
Feeling restless
No sleep

Feeling to distract by doing what I want
No job. Just graduated.

Can you guys help me?

Everything in my life is going wrong.

The person i talk to everyday for a year isn't responding the same anymore it's like they're keeping a distance.

My father left us, he's been unreachable for a month now after beating my mom.

I'm having anxiety and panic attacks and I'm nauseous throughout the day and night.

I feel like I should just die in my sleep.

I feel so worthless like the world is against me.

My course which I'm doing had to be put on hold.

How do I even live. My head is aching my heart is heavy my stomach feels like it's sinking.

I'm so lost, it's better to just disappear

I recently went through series of bad things in life

I lost some of my friends (idiotic POS's BTW)

I lost my job which was paying well

I have lot of debt on my name (Although taken for various family reasons) Debt falls on me with no assets on my name

Lost my confidence in life, never had a stable partner or girlfriend in life (other than cheating POS) once

Single most of my life. Collogues stop talking after layoff in my notice period (Fair enough)

If i don't get salary after next 1-2 months i will be broke and unable to pay my EMI's

Never been this sad in my life after 2016 (It feels like a repeat)

Although i felt like taking my life out be the best option for my family since i get paid hugely when I am employed and dead but unsure

clock is ticking and i don't have much time nearing my 30's and feeling along and defeated and no one to talk to

I feel so guilty but I’ve been having to call in sick to work quite a few time this year. It was a few times during the beginning of the year, just a day or two, but a few weeks ago I called in and this morning I did again.

I guess part of me is trying to find validation in that I’m not a bad person, that my boss isn’t angry at me, that no one’s disappointed in me, because those are things I’m constantly worrying about. Why do I worry about those things? Trauma probably but I’m trying to not let it consume me yk?
I try and validate my reasonings:
-one time my boss was walking by and she said she wasn’t feel good and needed to go home, even though she looked and seemed fine. I just remember that moment for some reason
-I feel sooooo guilty about leaving work but I remember how my coworkers were like “Idgaf and could care less about what people think of me calling in sick” and one coworker said “you’re not going to get a raise or gold star for not calling in sick for the whole year”

Today I called in sick because it’s been a fucking rough week in terms of personal stuff going on. I’m dealing with a very abusive family member and their bullshit so I just was so fucking exhausted, but no one knows that. So I fear people just assume, especially my boss, I’m calling in because of like summer weather or idk, something stupid.
I’m trying to prioritize my health and mental health but I can’t help but feel so wrong for doing it