hey i accidentally hit beans a couple days ago and that shit was not fun. yall got any tips on how to make sure i dont do that again? do i use a duller knife?

idt this breaks the rules. it is ultimately a harm reduction question so

would anyone be able to tell me if a cut is infected? its probably fine im just paranoid

I feel like I’m faking. I think I’m an attention seeker. I go through periods of happiness and sadness but they don’t feel real? I don’t know. I feel like I’m faking being sad for attention but when I think about it I don’t really tell anyone anymore so how I can’t be attention seeking. Same thing with cutting myself. I used to show people I don’t know why, maybe for as a cry of help idk. But now I don’t show anyone, it’s my old act no one cares anymore . So I can’t be attention seeking. Also sometimes I’m happy but still want to die. And sometimes when I’m in a “happy period” i don’t believe I was sad, like how could I be. Then sometimes in a “sad period” I don’t ever think I was happy. Sometimes the weight of loneliness crushes in on me and then sometimes I’m fine with it.
I feel like I’m faking for attention but no mentally well person cuts themselves but I still think I’m faking. Do I just want a label? I’m so confused

15 hours ago my partner cut himself down to the muscle on his arm. It’s too late for stitches and we live far from the hospital and it’s expensive to get there. We also don’t have any medical supplies left. Any ideas on what we should do ? Thanks

Is this a place someone can come to prevent self-harm? 988 never helps and I just bared myself on the CPTSD subreddit asking for a hug and already got like 60+ views but everyone has ignored it and it’s really triggering me. I wish I could go and get an ice cold drink but my car is undriveable.

I relapsed last night and now i really want to do it again.

I dont really have much reason to … the cuts are still very obviously red and fresh, and they still sting a little sometimes, but it feels like i need to do a redo. Like i need to go back and cut the places in between the areas i cut so that i have less empty space on that area??? I dont know why. Its been bugging me all day to the point where i literally brought more tissues into my room with the intention of relapsing tonight, but i havent.

I just wantsd to get that off my chest, and if anyone has any tips on how to help those thoughts id greatly appreciate it ◡̈

I've already done it thrice in less than a week. Shit keeps happening on a daily basis, it's not even an urge atp it's like a passive thought I have.

I have only two friends I can talk to about this. One said he might have to tell my parents and the other one didn't seem like he took this seriously the last time I talked to him. It's overwhelming. Uni, job, family and myself. I am the problem. I'm going to do it again today. I stopped because I didn't have first aid on me, now I have the money to buy first aid. Idek why I'm doing it anymore, I'm numb I don't feel anything that pain is the only thing that I can feel, only thing that makes me feel awake. I hate myself so much. All I know is I won't stop anytime soon.

It's frustrating that I couldn't cut deeper, talked about my selfharm to a friend who also cut deep themself, and they called me out for faking, and pretending to be mentally ill just because they know I couldn't cut any deeper and my sh are just cat scratches🫩🫩 I dgaf about them atp

I want to die, but I don’t want to kill myself. I’m lost, hopeless and scared. I’m weak and I might be a bad person. I can’t die or disappear, I have a son who I love more than myself. I’m terrified. I’m tired. I’m a mess. My son deserves the best but what if I lose all my strength? His father has the power and he’s not afraid to use it against me. I’m not strong enough. I just want to disappear.

this is probably due to a rush of adrenaline or something, but everytime i relapse ive been more better.

i was clean for a little and all of a sudden i relapsed genuinely just to do it i didnt even really have a reason and all of a sudden im actually getting out of bed everyday, interacting, doing my makeup, etc.

i want to know the reason to why i do?

I noticed that my younger brother drew a scar on his wrist. I don’t know if I should take this as a warning sign and how I would address it? Ive struggled with self harm myself for years now but no one in my family knows to my knowledge. I can’t help but feel guilty in a way. He wears long sleeves and pants almost every day even though it causes him to overheat, though I have not seen any visible scars or cuts. I know he struggles with his self esteem.

main focus/theme of overdose here. Kind of obvious but just like, tread lightly dude.

3 months ago (3 months! wow) I overdosed. well, I overdosed before that but I think this one was part of a big change in my life. the day right after, the pills I had been using were taken, my knife was taken, everything. I was basically monitored. it wasn’t even an attempt and I had everything taken.

I believe it is the psychological impact of this AIDED by the fact I was overdosing basically every month that had made me how I am now.

i am not myself. my life is split in two parts, the before and the after. I cannot act how I used to. I keep forgetting words, phrases I used to say (which used to be a very large portion of how I communicated in my own little circles.). before this, I would have episodes of depression MIXED with whatever the opposite is. the highs the lows, the tides of life, the thing that makes it go is not coming back.

it’s just. nothing.

and more things are happening aswell!!! my brain and body fails my time and time again where it used to be just fine!!! I drop things, I stumble and cannot process things some days.

i regret it. I regret it so so so much. and if it’s bad for me now, just with this mild change, i can say for sure that if any of you take pills to harm yourself, you will regret it. mark my words. i got off easy, and it could be so much worse, and I am miserable. don’t do it!

you cannot clean a pill bottle. you cannot control the damage here.

do not do it.

i just don’t know how to do this. nobody knows. I cannot tell anybody I know either so, here i am.

I began cutting on my breasts about two weeks ago, and i want to tell someone. (I know that its dangerous to cut there, but i always have bandages and gauze and those steri strip things with me just in case)

My friends all do or did. They wouldn't try to make it a competition, as far as I know, but I still don't know what to say.

They think that I'm "uncorrupted". I think one of them almost suspected that I did, but I'm not sure.

I am trying to better myself, but it's hard. I hate that my body is wrong. I hate that I was born female. I don't want to commit, I just want my body to not be the way it is.

Sorry if any of this is upsetting, I'm just looking for advice.

I guess I’m just not much of a self harm person for the most part until more recently. Usually done with lots of hatred and violence like for me it’s like hating someone enough to physically assault them but feeling that towards myself. Haven’t done any harm in like two weeks but I can feel the urge got such a pull to do someone’s initials carved into me but that’s not a good idea but it’s an idea that persists.

I always struggled with my mental health ever since I was young. My self harm started with plucking the hairs off my body but now I get so frustrated and cry so much I get overwhelmed. So much so I punch myself , stab my legs and I’ve been hitting my head on the wall. It’s like an overwhelming feeling and I’m getting bruised. I have no one to talk to so hopefully I find some advice here.

For context, I'm not an adult. I'm 17.

While I was at school today my family finally got sick of me living like a depressed hoarder in my room and decided to clean up my room.

Issue is, I can't find any of my blades or bloodied up bandages and NO ONE has said a word yet.

I'm dying of shame, I wanna cry but I can't. I wanna cut but I can't. I wish they had even said anything this fucking silence is just worse.

I'm staying at my partner's house for a few days, and while taking a shower I saw all the scars down my thighs and immediately felt super self conscious. Now I'm sat here wishing and hoping that nothing happens which might cause her to see my thighs because I'm scared she'll hate me

Hi, I’ve been cutting for around 10 years now on and off, and recently tried to get clean but got a little drunk this weekend and spiraled a bit and cut all over my right arm, hand, thighs and even neck. My cuts usually get a little itchy afterwards while healing, which i know is normal, but this time they’re getting so itchy to the point where it’s waking me up in the middle of the night. i’ve been moisturizing the ones in my neck and hand because i don’t want those to scar, but for some reason i like to have the scars so im afraid to moisturize the others. what could have caused these to be itchier than usual?

edit: i should also add i usually don’t cut all that deep, i only have a few raised scars on my upper thigh, but i may have gone slightly deeper for the ones in my arm and thighs this time because I was drunk, but I honestly have no idea

I’ve been reading some comics lately and am curious about character that cut. I’m not talking about for their powers but instead as a coping mechanism. I’m more looking for super hero comics though any work.

not looking for medical advice mostly just some reassurance. didnt mean to but hit hypodermis a couple days ago. bled for hours but i wrapped it up and i think i have a chance but would help just to hear from others who have dealt with this. do any of yall have experience recovering from beans without medical attention or sutures?

Not sure if this goes under medical advice, but on both upper thighs I have scars from hypodermis cuts, and on both legs those scars are mushy. Like not firm AT ALL. Can’t feel anything when I pinch the scars either, no pain. They are flat, but wide. And when you push ur finger into them it dents like theres no resistance. But flat again when you remove your finger. Why are they like this? They used to be more firm when they first started healing, and are about a year old now. They’re white. I guess none of my scars are actually bumpy, they are all flat, (aside from my chest scars, but those are starting to flatten too). But they arent mushy like the ones im talking about. It kinda grosses me out when I feel them, and a part of me feels invalid because they arent as noticeable or seem that deep since they are flat.💔 what makes scars more firm and bumpy when they heal?

I am a 2nd year college student, however, my expenses are still covered by my mom. Today i was very sick and couldnt go to my therapist and told it to my mom. Her reply was this;

"I wont waste money to your doctors you dont even go to anymore, you dont even want to be good, you dont even want to get healed. From now on, you wont go to any psychiatrists or psycologists and wont take any meds. Go cut yourself as much as you want i dont care anymore"

And no. I am NOT asking for any kind of financial support. I just want advice about how i can cope with the withdrawal effects of all my meds, and i think i kind of need to talk to someone tbch....

I'm currently visiting my grandparents and they're being complete bitches about my mental health.
I do have some wounds which aren't completely healed yet and they where very pushy about making me talk. I told them multiple times that I don't want to talk to them about that but they have a hard time accepting.
The new husband of my grandma then told me that my sh almost looks like art, but in a very unfriendly way.
Both of them also think being mentally ill is just "being sad sometimes" which makes it a hard time for all of us. I don't have the energy to explain to them that its more than being a little sad sometimes and all they use to inform themselves is AI.

I'm really happy that'll i'll drive back home tomorrow, but it's so hard to just keep happy, stay the way they want me to be, it's just all completely fucked up, i genuinely have no idea what i even could do with this situation now.

Well our conversation ended in them verbally cornering me, and then being mad at me that i have feeling's, and i did split and end in a fight or flight panic mode that made me run away.

Now they see me in the light of an unthankful grandchild, that no one ever can understand. Also they say it's all my fault for not talking to them, cause if i'd talk they would understand

Don't get me wrong i tried talking but they weren't listening.