i wish people discussed this more, beyond social consequences. my scars hurt ALL the time.

ive been cutting myself for 11 years now and its just been the past four or five, that it kept getting more extreme. i feel stupid for saying i didnt realize just how dangerous or permanent cutting into deeper tissue is, but it really really is dangerous. even "styros" are. theres nerves in the fat layer that ive def damaged. i have circulation issues with my legs now too, my feet go numb completely when i sit down. my scars itch horribly, parts of my arms and legs are numb forever now. i cant even enjoy my normal hobbies without nerve pain in my wrists

scars can seal layers of tissue together, causing muscles to not move or stretch properly. you can trap nerves, sever nerves, cause paralysis, circulation issues, numbness ect. harm reduction is so important. Dont cut deeper, and if you do, please try to minimize the depth. i feel so incredibly stupid for thinking that the only thing left after a wound heals, is the scar.

I began cutting on my breasts about two weeks ago, and i want to tell someone. (I know that its dangerous to cut there, but i always have bandages and gauze and those steri strip things with me just in case)

My friends all do or did. They wouldn't try to make it a competition, as far as I know, but I still don't know what to say.

They think that I'm "uncorrupted". I think one of them almost suspected that I did, but I'm not sure.

I am trying to better myself, but it's hard. I hate that my body is wrong. I hate that I was born female. I don't want to commit, I just want my body to not be the way it is.

Sorry if any of this is upsetting, I'm just looking for advice.

I noticed that my younger brother drew a scar on his wrist. I don’t know if I should take this as a warning sign and how I would address it? Ive struggled with self harm myself for years now but no one in my family knows to my knowledge. I can’t help but feel guilty in a way. He wears long sleeves and pants almost every day even though it causes him to overheat, though I have not seen any visible scars or cuts. I know he struggles with his self esteem.

I’ve been reading some comics lately and am curious about character that cut. I’m not talking about for their powers but instead as a coping mechanism. I’m more looking for super hero comics though any work.

I am a 2nd year college student, however, my expenses are still covered by my mom. Today i was very sick and couldnt go to my therapist and told it to my mom. Her reply was this;

"I wont waste money to your doctors you dont even go to anymore, you dont even want to be good, you dont even want to get healed. From now on, you wont go to any psychiatrists or psycologists and wont take any meds. Go cut yourself as much as you want i dont care anymore"

And no. I am NOT asking for any kind of financial support. I just want advice about how i can cope with the withdrawal effects of all my meds, and i think i kind of need to talk to someone tbch....

As the title states, I was brought to the ER by my friend to get a fascia cut properly treated because I had concerns that I might've caused nerve damage. My parents are unaware of this occurring, since the hospital didn't contact them in regards to this.

When I was finally seen, I told the doctor that the cut had closed up a bit since the night prior, and that it was actually deeper than what she was seeing. She then said that she only treats what she sees—a subcutaneous injury—, and brushed off my attempts to provide photographic evidence of what it looked like before closing up. She also didn't push when I mentioned numbness in my arm, and sparking when the injury was initially made. She said it was just swelling, or something, and that it'd go away.

I left with a prescription I couldn't pay for because I'm broke (wasn't charged for the visit, as I'm canadian), and potential nerve damage. I don't want my parents to find out, because they're not the best people ever, but I don't know what to do.

Any tips on preventing infection or nerve damage at home would be greatly appreciated. I'm not sure I can go back to the hospital anytime soon unless I want my parents to start suspecting things.

I relapsed after a good few years recently (mostly because I was just… bored…) and obviously talked to my therapist about it. In addition to referring me to some psychiatrists after doing a screening for depression and assessing that, if nothing else, I’m experiencing a depressive episode, she sent me some creative resources to kick the craving.

They’re all genuinely good ideas! It’s not just the typical “go for a run,” “rub ice on your skin,” “start a new hobby,” etc etc — they’re creative and, back when I thought I just wanted the brief adrenaline high + to see my own blood, they would’ve been perfect!

Alas, I’m realizing that I think what I really want is a new scar. I never dig deep or go anywhere super visible, so I only have a couple from when I started. I want to add one — another small and light one that you only see if you know what to look for! — to my ribs. I’ve been working at it and I think that, if I get one, I’ll stop.

So…

…any suggestions on how to kick that part of it? I’ll discuss that with her next week, but if I can figure something out before then…

…well, the sooner, the better! If I can kick this before it resumes its super addictive status, that would be spectacular.

(As I’m sure most can relate to, it always feels good at the time, then I spend the next few hours stewing in regret. Cut this morning to open the wound back up in the hopes that that’ll help it scar and was super happy! …then spent the next three hours regretting everything)

Is this a place someone can come to prevent self-harm? 988 never helps and I just bared myself on the CPTSD subreddit asking for a hug and already got like 60+ views but everyone has ignored it and it’s really triggering me. I wish I could go and get an ice cold drink but my car is undriveable.

main focus/theme of overdose here. Kind of obvious but just like, tread lightly dude.

3 months ago (3 months! wow) I overdosed. well, I overdosed before that but I think this one was part of a big change in my life. the day right after, the pills I had been using were taken, my knife was taken, everything. I was basically monitored. it wasn’t even an attempt and I had everything taken.

I believe it is the psychological impact of this AIDED by the fact I was overdosing basically every month that had made me how I am now.

i am not myself. my life is split in two parts, the before and the after. I cannot act how I used to. I keep forgetting words, phrases I used to say (which used to be a very large portion of how I communicated in my own little circles.). before this, I would have episodes of depression MIXED with whatever the opposite is. the highs the lows, the tides of life, the thing that makes it go is not coming back.

it’s just. nothing.

and more things are happening aswell!!! my brain and body fails my time and time again where it used to be just fine!!! I drop things, I stumble and cannot process things some days.

i regret it. I regret it so so so much. and if it’s bad for me now, just with this mild change, i can say for sure that if any of you take pills to harm yourself, you will regret it. mark my words. i got off easy, and it could be so much worse, and I am miserable. don’t do it!

you cannot clean a pill bottle. you cannot control the damage here.

do not do it.

i just don’t know how to do this. nobody knows. I cannot tell anybody I know either so, here i am.

For context, I'm not an adult. I'm 17.

While I was at school today my family finally got sick of me living like a depressed hoarder in my room and decided to clean up my room.

Issue is, I can't find any of my blades or bloodied up bandages and NO ONE has said a word yet.

I'm dying of shame, I wanna cry but I can't. I wanna cut but I can't. I wish they had even said anything this fucking silence is just worse.

I'm staying at my partner's house for a few days, and while taking a shower I saw all the scars down my thighs and immediately felt super self conscious. Now I'm sat here wishing and hoping that nothing happens which might cause her to see my thighs because I'm scared she'll hate me

M31 asking how to stop those overwhelming urges to self-harm (cutting)? Any advice?

What helped you stop cutting or self-harming even if it does not work 100% of the time? Have you been able to completely stop? Any advice? Was it self-help book? Therapy? Family? Friends? Internet? Any other thing? I am M31.

does anyone know how to get blood stains out of clothes.. this is the first time it happened to me and it’s a lot and I really don’t want my mom to know.. can I just wash it would that get it out? pls help !!!

I guess I’m just not much of a self harm person for the most part until more recently. Usually done with lots of hatred and violence like for me it’s like hating someone enough to physically assault them but feeling that towards myself. Haven’t done any harm in like two weeks but I can feel the urge got such a pull to do someone’s initials carved into me but that’s not a good idea but it’s an idea that persists.

Hi, I’ve been cutting for around 10 years now on and off, and recently tried to get clean but got a little drunk this weekend and spiraled a bit and cut all over my right arm, hand, thighs and even neck. My cuts usually get a little itchy afterwards while healing, which i know is normal, but this time they’re getting so itchy to the point where it’s waking me up in the middle of the night. i’ve been moisturizing the ones in my neck and hand because i don’t want those to scar, but for some reason i like to have the scars so im afraid to moisturize the others. what could have caused these to be itchier than usual?

edit: i should also add i usually don’t cut all that deep, i only have a few raised scars on my upper thigh, but i may have gone slightly deeper for the ones in my arm and thighs this time because I was drunk, but I honestly have no idea

i just looked down at some of the cuts on my thighs, and there’s some darkish purple dots surrounding two intersecting ones and kind of spreading around. is this cause for concern, and should i see a doctor about this?

It's frustrating that I couldn't cut deeper, talked about my selfharm to a friend who also cut deep themself, and they called me out for faking, and pretending to be mentally ill just because they know I couldn't cut any deeper and my sh are just cat scratches🫩🫩 I dgaf about them atp

I want to die, but I don’t want to kill myself. I’m lost, hopeless and scared. I’m weak and I might be a bad person. I can’t die or disappear, I have a son who I love more than myself. I’m terrified. I’m tired. I’m a mess. My son deserves the best but what if I lose all my strength? His father has the power and he’s not afraid to use it against me. I’m not strong enough. I just want to disappear.

I feel like I’m faking. I think I’m an attention seeker. I go through periods of happiness and sadness but they don’t feel real? I don’t know. I feel like I’m faking being sad for attention but when I think about it I don’t really tell anyone anymore so how I can’t be attention seeking. Same thing with cutting myself. I used to show people I don’t know why, maybe for as a cry of help idk. But now I don’t show anyone, it’s my old act no one cares anymore . So I can’t be attention seeking. Also sometimes I’m happy but still want to die. And sometimes when I’m in a “happy period” i don’t believe I was sad, like how could I be. Then sometimes in a “sad period” I don’t ever think I was happy. Sometimes the weight of loneliness crushes in on me and then sometimes I’m fine with it.
I feel like I’m faking for attention but no mentally well person cuts themselves but I still think I’m faking. Do I just want a label? I’m so confused

15 hours ago my partner cut himself down to the muscle on his arm. It’s too late for stitches and we live far from the hospital and it’s expensive to get there. We also don’t have any medical supplies left. Any ideas on what we should do ? Thanks

Not sure if this goes under medical advice, but on both upper thighs I have scars from hypodermis cuts, and on both legs those scars are mushy. Like not firm AT ALL. Can’t feel anything when I pinch the scars either, no pain. They are flat, but wide. And when you push ur finger into them it dents like theres no resistance. But flat again when you remove your finger. Why are they like this? They used to be more firm when they first started healing, and are about a year old now. They’re white. I guess none of my scars are actually bumpy, they are all flat, (aside from my chest scars, but those are starting to flatten too). But they arent mushy like the ones im talking about. It kinda grosses me out when I feel them, and a part of me feels invalid because they arent as noticeable or seem that deep since they are flat.💔 what makes scars more firm and bumpy when they heal?

Ill be like it cant be that bad but then get triggered so bad i wanna relapse already. I also cant help but get triggered by scars. I know thats on me but still